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Who was your favorite childhood superhero, and why?

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spiderman.

he was a conflicted, sexy, nerdy underdog.
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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2008|04:57 pm]
after the library tues i just got a milkshake and went home. i thought of going out but i had my purse with me which i hate taking in bars and i had sex all afternoon so i just went thuis and stayed in.

wed rene and did the library together to check out the new method of actually checking dvds/cds out. ( best done with a 'real' person around just to deal with the clerks and my lack of patence with both tech and the dutch.)

we were amused that the new eq does not really work any better than the old. SOOOOOOOOOO nl.

the new setup is needlessly complicated in true dutch fashion. they are trying to do more and more things completely automated. amusing enough in a country with no work ethic in the 1st place but downright tedious given that the tech here does not work much of the time. (in fairness MOST tech does not work right MOST of the time no matter where it is but in many places people at least ACT like it should.)

i was also amused, tho the clerk was not, when a sexy, tho with his gf, non white english speaker asked the clerk if she knew if they had a certain dvd title. she had no idea of course. then he also pointed out things were not exactly shall we say alpabetized.
again VERY nl.

i got the science of sleep. since it was THE arthouse film of last year i feel i SHOULD see it. i also got the jill scott collaborations cd.
rene got brick. an arthouse mystery flick he's wanted to see for awhile. he's already seen ....sleep.

( ....sleep is cool and WAY arty. some really nice bits tho i did want to SHAKE our 2 lovebirds from time to time.
hello ! stop being hetro twits !
it was FINALLY a happy ending tho.

i did not really watch brick but caught that the guys are sexy if TOO young
( it´s set in a high school), the story is grim and cynical and it has an interesting quiet deadpan style.)

he went to get bier at ah and then home to cook dinner. i did cnest since it was on the way home.

i hooked up with an old trick. a truely beautiful asian guy. chinese or taiwanese. speaks dutch but clearly his eerste taal niet.
nice, he came over my chest.

after that it got DULL. i decided to go home and do my hair but when i went upstairs bas and sander were there so we hungout rather awhile. alastair came in too.
most folks will be in berlin this weekend so it might be slow out and about.
frank and guido came in also.
frank and i made out rather heavyly.

then i decided to do a stroll once more and ran into hans. another hot trick from awhile back. the kind of guy who would never notice me in usa. a tad young and hot for me but nice and into my look.
kissing, titplay, fisting etc etc and even a bit of etc.
we may hookup again later.

i was tired and covered in cum so i went home and had dinner with rene.
we watched the gorgon a 1960´s uk horror flick with cushing and lee.
a tad too bad to be true fun camp.

thurs was overcast so i just stayed in then met simon at 6pm at vonmar.
we did music, some lite youtube and dinner. no sex.


fri i saw the artshow harald has work in. it's all gaymale artists. some cool stuff. tho harald's was about the coolist to be honest. sander was there too. i like some of his work tho not all. he's actually the son of a famous nl cartoonist. not my friend sander but a guy i do know from the scene tho not well. his hubby dropped by too. i forget his name.
they were part of the qh days but not closely of my clique.
they're nice tho.

fri nite i did cnest. boppy given many folks were in berlin. not as many faces i knew.
artist sander & hubby were there so i said hi.

i played with a pale latin of some type.
dark hair, smooth, nice body, glasses. only spoke spanish but being gay we worked with it.
we had fun. he came all over me with my hand up his ass.

after awhile i met marc. from utrecht, stocky, hairy, rather overdressed for cnest.
an officeworker.
VERY SEXY, VERY FUN. fun to talk with too. we really clicked well together.
of course he's married and does not do fb.
he only goes out to be a slut once a month.
as he say's, he has something to lose.
wise man since he'd make a FAB fling and i can see alot of guys wanting to see him more. i certainly would.

afterwards i just went home.

i read dzur. it was ok. like a slow episode of a tv show you used to really like but no longer really care about but have fond memories of and there's no pressing reason to change channels.
i think i only read these now because i started them at ou.

sat i just stayed in the whole day. between things being limited in nl, rene being rene etc i'm getting into that frame of mind where i have no motivation to get out of bed.

they had the xxx party at exit this time. my 1st thought was it's too small for the event. also an odd time given the parties in berlijn.
( everyone i've talked to who went has agreed. too small and too warm. tho some if not all did have fun.)

claudio called. he's back in nyc briefly. his travels make me look like a couch potato.
he'll be in sf this week for work ironicly.
he may try to stop in nl this fall if i'm here.
his fall timetable is a patchwork quilt of countries.
he did la for work recently and was shocked to find he really likes it.
work is going REALLY well.
he wants me and rene to use the nyc apt sometime. MAYBE for my b-day depending on everyone's life at the time.

i was thinking of doing either philly or london instead of the same old sf or a'dam but of course i know rene/lynn/eric would want me to be around depending on what city i'm in at the time.

( tho 40-44 were in a´dam. 39 was in london. it HAS been awhile since i did a b-day in sf. i think 38 was the last one. oddly it does not seem that long ago.)

(simon was sweet. he mentioned he thought doing the theater would be a good b-day gift for me and since i'm unsure of where i'll be it would not HAVE to be on my b-day.
amusedly he's gotton better at the gift thing as an ex than he was as a bf and as an ex he does not truely HAVE to get me anything.)


eric called JUST afterwards in an amusing bit of timing.
he's ok.
sfha inspected the apt and it seems to have went well.
of course it being eric i did note his story sounded alot like when the building owners inspected it too. they both came JUST as he was leaving. huuuummm whatever. as long as it went ok.
he's having most of his teeth pulled out at the end of the month.
he forgot about folsum when he planned it but is ok with it since it needs to be done.
he had his cell with him during some xrays so it was fucked up and had to be replaced.
he saw hairspray and LOVED it. he was GUSHING !

sun i skipped cr but dragged my ass out to the web later. i'm glad i did. it was exactly the kind of evening i moved to europe for.
VERY social.
chatted with the web girls, ton&michael, hans, sander, rene vz, loek, hiv-v peter, etc.
it was all very fun and gay and much sexual harrasment was commited.

i was not really expecting to have sex but i hooked up with arsey ( i'm sure that's NOWHERE close to it's spelling but it's how it sounds.)
from barcelonia. 40+ i'm sure.
short, petiet, slim but strong, smooth, a classic nose created to be made love to, fey but NOT passive.
the kind of guy that brings out the top in me.
he only speaks spanish and dutch. i'm seen him around some but thought he'd not be interested in me.
i think he MAY have moved here while i was in sf last year.
we exchanged a look last week and this week the vibe was there so.....

HOT & INTENSE. the way sex is in fiction.
he's small enough that he can wrap his legs around me while i'm standing and holding him.
kissing, biting, scratching, titplay, sucking, slamming against the wall.
making love to that hot nose while he moans and i spread his ass open while he's wrapped around me with his nails raking my back......
my back looked like i'd either been attacked by cats or had fucked a real girl.
 (much to the amusement of the guys in the bar later.)
we played a long time. he's latin so he had a posse of gf waiting for him. they were amused if annoyed mildly with having to wait for him.

i hope we do it again but doubt we will and it's the kind of thing you can ONLY do once or twice at most and it be THAT hot. (sadly it's simply a fact of life like death and straights.)

after he left i hungout with sander awhile.
we MAY end up in bed together someday. (tho truely i doubt it as we really are friends.)
a fair amount of men wish he was not such a dedicated bottom. he easily passes for top to look at.
he's a good kisser.
it was one of those nights when we both remembered we're not always JUST gf together. ( i think me being with arsey turned him on a bit.)
he's restarting hiv meds this week. he was off for a few years. he'll be taking just 2 meds. both of which i take so we talked side effects etc.
shitting is the main fact of my life now.
he was feeling fine but starting to get tired so did bloodtests and his vload was about a million and tcells below 100.

later i met gianfranco.
53, lived here 10 months, works for the italian ministry of culture.
ok looking tho looks his age and is a tad generic looking. (nice but would be lost in a crowd.)
he was into me but was surprised i was into him.
too well dressed for web but not SO overly so as marc had been for cnest fri.
very clean smooth body, skilled tho not truely great.
we had a fun time and did info. (his email address is the patron saint of his home village. HOT !)
( he wrote, we have a sexdate sun. i have sos that afternoon so HOPEFULLY i won´t be TOO tired.)

afterwards a bunch of us watched a hot scene that was going on in the main bar.
one of those things only gays can do.

then i went home after giving kemal another break at cc.

i stopped in hl to say hi to esther. she's cut and coloured her hair. it looks nice. we chatted awhile and ray was there then i went thuis to have dinner with rene.

the computers at the library today were SO messed up they were almost physicly painfull to use.

after the library i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy.
 leendert was there too.
he looks a tad run down. he's finding working at qh more tiring than he expected.
i mostly just chatted with jeld. he had fun and was fucked alot at xxx but found it too warm and small as has everyone else i've talked to about it.
 he'll skip going to nyc in nov. it's too $/hard to find a room.
his sexdate last fri was FAB. 3 hot black guys at his place. hello !

i talked with lynn. him and dalton had fun in sacromento. they did the cool train musuem there philly always liked too. they think the gay area is cute if small but the guys there are TOOOOOO young.

speaking of connie francis, they got an unopened lp of her hits and are going to have her sign it for a charity action at the eagle.
lynn was put in charge of it. cool huh ? eric use to do that too when he worked at both the sf and dc eagles.

he did harrison st fair with some friends. it was a warm day and fun.
that weekend he also did a bbq with friends.
the chorus comes back from summer break this week.
he's been skipping the cove recently since the food is not all that pressing.

today i visted stefan and he gave me a fab long massage with oil.
i ended up spending the whole afternoon there. tonight rene was thinking about seeing hairspray but we have 4 dvds due back wed so...


afterwards i just dropped by the little market where i get red potatos. NOWHERE near as easy and common to get here as in usa. a shame as they are by far my favs.
the arab who runs it is nice and acts like he's in usa. he's friendly, he remembered me after i'd been gone ages, i was 10c short once and he was cool with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO undutch.
this is why they´re hated here of course.
( just for amusement he also speaks english too.)

rene and i are meeting our lawyer monday.

we watched the fountain.
i´ve read it´s a film one either loves or hates. i can see that.

eric left before the end he said because he found it dull. he had thought it more action/scifi.
rene thought it had too much symbolism for him.

i can see both thier points.

beautifly shot. it has style to spare.
it would be easy to be snarky about parts of it.
i could see snl wanting to do a parody but a real parody would have to be over much of the crowd´s head.

life, death, time, reincarnation, paradoxes.

it has some REALLY interesting ideas even if you feel it was DESIGNED to be layered and make you think about what this or that part REALLY meant.
it has moments of being as art/theater school as a sarah brightman concert.

it clearly has flaws.
( even if we ignore queen isobela´s cut glass british accent and in fact a noted lack of actual latins in 15/16th c. spain.)( the same british actress also does an american accent later in time which sounds like she´s trying NOT to have a british accent. hell, i´ve DONE that accent.)

the bit where the explorer drinks of the tree of immortality and turns into a plant is WAY cool but for a DIFFERENT movie.
it would be a fab twist ending for a outer limits type tv show.
the tree of immortality is immortal UNTO ITSELF.
however it fits akwardly into the rest of the story.

i can deal better with the scene where we have seen an event happen at the same moment in time in which the guy always makes the same choice but then events in the future cause him to finally make the OTHER chioce he could have made. which of course would alter the future the change came from.
it´s kind of star trek. capt janeway always said time paradoxes gave her a headache.

the floating man in lotus postion was TOO much.

note: even immortals die in the exploding heart of a star.

today rene and i bopped around taking back dvds. he got 2 more he wanted to see but i´ll skipp. london to brighton and infamous. both of which are suppose to be good but not my thing really.

he got me a new black hoodie at h&m since the one i´ve been wearing the last 5yrs or so is starting to look it.

we did concerto but they had NOTHING interesting.

after updating the blog as i was leaving going down the stairs simon was coming up them so i hungout here till late. we had fun sex, rested then had ijs.
afterwards i went home to have dinner with rene, watch some tv then he watched a dvd while i showered.

thurs i just rested while rene watched his dvds.
i met simon at 6pm at vonmar then we came home. his new couch came. he was able to put the frame together himself with no cussing.
i helped him move out the old couch (well, i AM an ex so that´s what we´re for.), gather the packing trash up and put the new couch in it´s place.
it looks really nice i have to admit and he´s VERY happy with it. it does not fit as far back in the window nook as the old one so there´s more space for the lamps and he´s going to buy a tall angular plant to put behind it.
it has that cool new leather smell.

we curled up on it rather awhile after we got it fixed up.
chatting, listening to music etc.

it´s taking time for the new school year to settle in. folks changing thier times, new kids etc.

we checked out connie francis cds online.
should i be worried or scared that lynn/eric/rene and simon are all connie fans to one degree or the other ?  (most to a high degree. simon just likes her.)
i´m finding i rather like some of her stuff myself. (getting old fast ?)
i was surprised how much i liked parts of her hits cd i burned for everyone. if you get away from her cheesy, more famous things she actually had her moments. not as many as she could have had but there are a few interesting bits in her career.

rene ordered a ton of dvds for himself so i had him get me 2 connie cds. i´m trying to decide what dvds i want. i´m torn between things i´d like to have to keep but my life is too unsettled to collect dvd series or just get things i want to watch but won´t keep.

simon is having one of those crises neg men have from time to time.
even being dutch he´s smart enough to know that if he keeps having sex odds are it´s not a question if he´ll get hiv but when. he´s having one of those periods were it stresses him. he´s 51 but healthy and being both male and gay is still sexual.
he had moments when we were together that he was more aware of my being poz but it only affected us from time to time and rarely greatly.

also ironicly for a man afraid of both commitment and responsibilty he´s in a phase of finding anomous sex tedious.
( i did point out he can ask thier names. he say´s he does not have the ´knack´ i do for getting to know people.)

amusedly what he thinks he wants now is what we had.
he likes the idea of not living with a bf but having him be closeby.
safe, stable, predictable bf sex has it´s points.
there´s no surprises. i know how he likes to be sucked, he knows how i like my tits worked.( which truth be told he´s better at most of the time than lynn or david. not downing either of them at all mind you.)
i´m poz but i´m not going to cum in his mouth. we stopped rimming years ago due to hiv fears so that´s not an issue.

i do not think we´ll be bf again but it is interesting where he´s at now mentaly.
of course he knows he´ll do sm and cnest again. he is gay and it is a´dam.
he´s afraid of stds too. he´s been VERY VERY lucky ESPLY being in a´dam.
(which of course could come up with me since i´m a slut.)

i always wish i could get a nice new bf for my ex bf.

he´s also started colouring his hair. he asked if i´d noticed. i said no.
ok, i lied but truth is it is fairly well done.
also he tends to like mood lighting at home so it´s not really noticeable here. more a sense it´s slightly darker than i recall than glareingly dyed.
( lynn does it a tad too but since he´s got alot of dark bodyhair it´s almost  impossable to notice unless one REALLY knows his body.
well, i DO like older guys...)

i woke up early despite taking a sleeping pill so i read book 1 of the nightside. i´ve meant to check them out for ages.
some interesting cool ideas and mottifs but so fast paced it´s a tad too surface and shallow. each chapter is like a much too compressed tv episode.
i´ve noted that with some of his other work too. one can not say it´s bad so much as say it could be better.
they´re very fast reads and ok for when i can not sleep.

today i just rested at simon´s even tho they are doing work on the building. it was not too bad actually.
i have no plans for the weekend except for an orgy sun afternoon then a sexdate that night.
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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2008|04:40 pm]
after the library tues i just got a milkshake and went home. i thought of going out but i had my purse with me which i hate taking in bars and i had sex all afternoon so i just went thuis and stayed in.

wed rene and did the library together to check out the new method of actually checking dvds/cds out. ( best done with a 'real' person around just to deal with the clerks and my lack of patence with both tech and the dutch.)

we were amused that the new eq does not really work any better than the old. SOOOOOOOOOO nl.

the new setup is needlessly complicated in true dutch fashion. they are trying to do more and more things completely automated. amusing enough in a country with no work ethic in the 1st place but downright tedious given that the tech here does not work much of the time. (in fairness MOST tech does not work right MOST of the time no matter where it is but in many places people at least ACT like it should.)

i was also amused, tho the clerk was not, when a sexy, tho with his gf, non white english speaker asked the clerk if she knew if they had a certain dvd title. she had no idea of course. then he also pointed out things were not exactly shall we say alpabetized.
again VERY nl.

i got the science of sleep. since it was THE arthouse film of last year i feel i SHOULD see it. i also got the jill scott collaborations cd.
rene got brick. an arthouse mystery flick he's wanted to see for awhile. he's already seen ....sleep.

( ....sleep is cool and WAY arty. some really nice bits tho i did want to SHAKE our 2 lovebirds from time to time.
hello ! stop being hetro twits !
it was FINALLY a happy ending tho.

i did not really watch brick but caught that the guys are sexy if TOO young
( it´s set in a high school), the story is grim and cynical and it has an interesting quiet deadpan style.)

he went to get bier at ah and then home to cook dinner. i did cnest since it was on the way home.

i hooked up with an old trick. a truely beautiful asian guy. chinese or taiwanese. speaks dutch but clearly his eerste taal niet.
nice, he came over my chest.

after that it got DULL. i decided to go home and do my hair but when i went upstairs bas and sander were there so we hungout rather awhile. alastair came in too.
most folks will be in berlin this weekend so it might be slow out and about.
frank and guido came in also.
frank and i made out rather heavyly.

then i decided to do a stroll once more and ran into hans. another hot trick from awhile back. the kind of guy who would never notice me in usa. a tad young and hot for me but nice and into my look.
kissing, titplay, fisting etc etc and even a bit of etc.
we may hookup again later.

i was tired and covered in cum so i went home and had dinner with rene.
we watched the gorgon a 1960´s uk horror flick with cushing and lee.
a tad too bad to be true fun camp.

thurs was overcast so i just stayed in then met simon at 6pm at vonmar.
we did music, some lite youtube and dinner. no sex.


fri i saw the artshow harald has work in. it's all gaymale artists. some cool stuff. tho harald's was about the coolist to be honest. sander was there too. i like some of his work tho not all. he's actually the son of a famous nl cartoonist. not my friend sander but a guy i do know from the scene tho not well. his hubby dropped by too. i forget his name.
they were part of the qh days but not closely of my clique.
they're nice tho.

fri nite i did cnest. boppy given many folks were in berlin. not as many faces i knew.
artist sander & hubby were there so i said hi.

i played with a pale latin of some type.
dark hair, smooth, nice body, glasses. only spoke spanish but being gay we worked with it.
we had fun. he came all over me with my hand up his ass.

after awhile i met marc. from utrecht, stocky, hairy, rather overdressed for cnest.
an officeworker.
VERY SEXY, VERY FUN. fun to talk with too. we really clicked well together.
of course he's married and does not do fb.
he only goes out to be a slut once a month.
as he say's, he has something to lose.
wise man since he'd make a FAB fling and i can see alot of guys wanting to see him more. i certainly would.

afterwards i just went home.

i read dzur. it was ok. like a slow episode of a tv show you used to really like but no longer really care about but have fond memories of and there's no pressing reason to change channels.
i think i only read these now because i started them at ou.

sat i just stayed in the whole day. between things being limited in nl, rene being rene etc i'm getting into that frame of mind where i have no motivation to get out of bed.

they had the xxx party at exit this time. my 1st thought was it's too small for the event. also an odd time given the parties in berlijn.
( everyone i've talked to who went has agreed. too small and too warm. tho some if not all did have fun.)

claudio called. he's back in nyc briefly. his travels make me look like a couch potato.
he'll be in sf this week for work ironicly.
he may try to stop in nl this fall if i'm here.
his fall timetable is a patchwork quilt of countries.
he did la for work recently and was shocked to find he really likes it.
work is going REALLY well.
he wants me and rene to use the nyc apt sometime. MAYBE for my b-day depending on everyone's life at the time.

i was thinking of doing either philly or london instead of the same old sf or a'dam but of course i know rene/lynn/eric would want me to be around depending on what city i'm in at the time.

( tho 40-44 were in a´dam. 39 was in london. it HAS been awhile since i did a b-day in sf. i think 38 was the last one. oddly it does not seem that long ago.)

(simon was sweet. he mentioned he thought doing the theater would be a good b-day gift for me and since i'm unsure of where i'll be it would not HAVE to be on my b-day.
amusedly he's gotton better at the gift thing as an ex than he was as a bf and as an ex he does not truely HAVE to get me anything.)


eric called JUST afterwards in an amusing bit of timing.
he's ok.
sfha inspected the apt and it seems to have went well.
of course it being eric i did note his story sounded alot like when the building owners inspected it too. they both came JUST as he was leaving. huuuummm whatever. as long as it went ok.
he's having most of his teeth pulled out at the end of the month.
he forgot about folsum when he planned it but is ok with it since it needs to be done.
he had his cell with him during some xrays so it was fucked up and had to be replaced.
he saw hairspray and LOVED it. he was GUSHING !

sun i skipped cr but dragged my ass out to the web later. i'm glad i did. it was exactly the kind of evening i moved to europe for.
VERY social.
chatted with the web girls, ton&michael, hans, sander, rene vz, loek, hiv-v peter, etc.
it was all very fun and gay and much sexual harrasment was commited.

i was not really expecting to have sex but i hooked up with arsey ( i'm sure that's NOWHERE close to it's spelling but it's how it sounds.)
from barcelonia. 40+ i'm sure.
short, petiet, slim but strong, smooth, a classic nose created to be made love to, fey but NOT passive.
the kind of guy that brings out the top in me.
he only speaks spanish and dutch. i'm seen him around some but thought he'd not be interested in me.
i think he MAY have moved here while i was in sf last year.
we exchanged a look last week and this week the vibe was there so.....

HOT & INTENSE. the way sex is in fiction.
he's small enough that he can wrap his legs around me while i'm standing and holding him.
kissing, biting, scratching, titplay, sucking, slamming against the wall.
making love to that hot nose while he moans and i spread his ass open while he's wrapped around me with his nails raking my back......
my back looked like i'd either been attacked by cats or had fucked a real girl.
 (much to the amusement of the guys in the bar later.)
we played a long time. he's latin so he had a posse of gf waiting for him. they were amused if annoyed mildly with having to wait for him.

i hope we do it again but doubt we will and it's the kind of thing you can ONLY do once or twice at most and it be THAT hot. (sadly it's simply a fact of life like death and straights.)

after he left i hungout with sander awhile.
we MAY end up in bed together someday. (tho truely i doubt it as we really are friends.)
a fair amount of men wish he was not such a dedicated bottom. he easily passes for top to look at.
he's a good kisser.
it was one of those nights when we both remembered we're not always JUST gf together. ( i think me being with arsey turned him on a bit.)
he's restarting hiv meds this week. he was off for a few years. he'll be taking just 2 meds. both of which i take so we talked side effects etc.
shitting is the main fact of my life now.
he was feeling fine but starting to get tired so did bloodtests and his vload was about a million and tcells below 100.

later i met gianfranco.
53, lived here 10 months, works for the italian ministry of culture.
ok looking tho looks his age and is a tad generic looking. (nice but would be lost in a crowd.)
he was into me but was surprised i was into him.
too well dressed for web but not SO overly so as marc had been for cnest fri.
very clean smooth body, skilled tho not truely great.
we had a fun time and did info. (his email address is the patron saint of his home village. HOT !)
( he wrote, we have a sexdate sun. i have sos that afternoon so HOPEFULLY i won´t be TOO tired.)

afterwards a bunch of us watched a hot scene that was going on in the main bar.
one of those things only gays can do.

then i went home after giving kemal another break at cc.

i stopped in hl to say hi to esther. she's cut and coloured her hair. it looks nice. we chatted awhile and ray was there then i went thuis to have dinner with rene.

the computers at the library today were SO messed up they were almost physicly painfull to use.

after the library i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy.
 leendert was there too.
he looks a tad run down. he's finding working at qh more tiring than he expected.
i mostly just chatted with jeld. he had fun and was fucked alot at xxx but found it too warm and small as has everyone else i've talked to about it.
 he'll skip going to nyc in nov. it's too $/hard to find a room.
his sexdate last fri was FAB. 3 hot black guys at his place. hello !

i talked with lynn. him and dalton had fun in sacromento. they did the cool train musuem there philly always liked too. they think the gay area is cute if small but the guys there are TOOOOOO young.

speaking of connie francis, they got an unopened lp of her hits and are going to have her sign it for a charity action at the eagle.
lynn was put in charge of it. cool huh ? eric use to do that too when he worked at both the sf and dc eagles.

he did harrison st fair with some friends. it was a warm day and fun.
that weekend he also did a bbq with friends.
the chorus comes back from summer break this week.
he's been skipping the cove recently since the food is not all that pressing.

today i visted stefan and he gave me a fab long massage with oil.
i ended up spending the whole afternoon there. tonight rene was thinking about seeing hairspray but we have 4 dvds due back wed so...


afterwards i just dropped by the little market where i get red potatos. NOWHERE near as easy and common to get here as in usa. a shame as they are by far my favs.
the arab who runs it is nice and acts like he's in usa. he's friendly, he remembered me after i'd been gone ages, i was 10c short once and he was cool with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO undutch.
this is why they´re hated here of course.
( just for amusement he also speaks english too.)

rene and i are meeting our lawyer monday.

we watched the fountain.
i´ve read it´s a film one either loves or hates. i can see that.

eric left before the end he said because he found it dull. he had thought it more action/scifi.
rene thought it had too much symbolism for him.

i can see both thier points.

beautifly shot. it has style to spare.
it would be easy to be snarky about parts of it.
i could see snl wanting to do a parody but a real parody would have to be over much of the crowd´s head.

life, death, time, reincarnation, paradoxes.

it has some REALLY interesting ideas even if you feel it was DESIGNED to be layered and make you think about what this or that part REALLY meant.
it has moments of being as art/theater school as a sarah brightman concert.

it clearly has flaws.
( even if we ignore queen isobela´s cut glass british accent and in fact a noted lack of actual latins in 15/16th c. spain.)( the same british actress also does an american accent later in time which sounds like she´s trying NOT to have a british accent. hell, i´ve DONE that accent.)

the bit where the explorer drinks of the tree of immortality and turns into a plant is WAY cool but for a DIFFERENT movie.
it would be a fab twist ending for a outer limits type tv show.
the tree of immortality is immortal UNTO ITSELF.
however it fits akwardly into the rest of the story.

i can deal better with the scene where we have seen an event happen at the same moment in time in which the guy always makes the same choice but then events in the future cause him to finally make the OTHER chioce he could have made. which of course would alter the future the change came from.
it´s kind of star trek. capt janeway always said time paradoxes gave her a headache.

the floating man in lotus postion was TOO much.

note: even immortals die in the exploding heart of a star.

today rene and i bopped around taking back dvds. he got 2 more he wanted to see but i´ll skipp. london to brighton and infamous. both of which are suppose to be good but not my thing really.

he got me a new black hoodie at h&m since the one i´ve been wearing the last 5yrs or so is starting to look it.

we did concerto but they had NOTHING interesting.

after updating the blog as i was leaving going down the stairs simon was coming up them so i hungout here till late. we had fun sex, rested then had ijs.
afterwards i went home to have dinner with rene, watch some tv then he watched a dvd while i showered.

thurs i just rested while rene watched his dvds.
i met simon at 6pm at vonmar then we came home. his new couch came. he was able to put the frame together himself with no cussing.
i helped him move out the old couch (well, i AM an ex so that´s what we´re for.), gather the packing trash up and put the new couch in it´s place.
it looks really nice i have to admit and he´s VERY happy with it. it does not fit as far back in the window nook as the old one so there´s more space for the lamps and he´s going to buy a tall angular plant to put behind it.
it has that cool new leather smell.

we curled up on it rather awhile after we got it fixed up.
chatting, listening to music etc.

it´s taking time for the new school year to settle in. folks changing thier times, new kids etc.

we checked out connie francis cds online.
should i be worried or scared that lynn/eric/rene and simon are all connie fans to one degree or the other ?  (most to a high degree. simon just likes her.)
i´m finding i rather like some of her stuff myself. (getting old fast ?)
i was surprised how much i liked parts of her hits cd i burned for everyone. if you get away from her cheesy, more famous things she actually had her moments. not as many as she could have had but there are a few interesting bits in her career.

rene ordered a ton of dvds for himself so i had him get me 2 connie cds. i´m trying to decide what dvds i want. i´m torn between things i´d like to have to keep but my life is too unsettled to collect dvd series or just get things i want to watch but won´t keep.

simon is having one of those crises neg men have from time to time.
even being dutch he´s smart enough to know that if he keeps having sex odds are it´s not a question if he´ll get hiv but when. he´s having one of those periods were it stresses him. he´s 51 but healthy and being both male and gay is still sexual.
he had moments when we were together that he was more aware of my being poz but it only affected us from time to time and rarely greatly.

also ironicly for a man afraid of both commitment and responsibilty he´s in a phase of finding anomous sex tedious.
( i did point out he can ask thier names. he say´s he does not have the ´knack´ i do for getting to know people.)

amusedly what he thinks he wants now is what we had.
he likes the idea of not living with a bf but having him be closeby.
safe, stable, predictable bf sex has it´s points.
there´s no surprises. i know how he likes to be sucked, he knows how i like my tits worked.( which truth be told he´s better at most of the time than lynn or david. not downing either of them at all mind you.)
i´m poz but i´m not going to cum in his mouth. we stopped rimming years ago due to hiv fears so that´s not an issue.

i do not think we´ll be bf again but it is interesting where he´s at now mentaly.
of course he knows he´ll do sm and cnest again. he is gay and it is a´dam.
he´s afraid of stds too. he´s been VERY VERY lucky ESPLY being in a´dam.
(which of course could come up with me since i´m a slut.)

i always wish i could get a nice new bf for my ex bf.

he´s also started colouring his hair. he asked if i´d noticed. i said no.
ok, i lied but truth is it is fairly well done.
also he tends to like mood lighting at home so it´s not really noticeable here. more a sense it´s slightly darker than i recall than glareingly dyed.
( lynn does it a tad too but since he´s got alot of dark bodyhair it´s almost  impossable to notice unless one REALLY knows his body.
well, i DO like older guys...)

i woke up early despite taking a sleeping pill so i read book 1 of the nightside. i´ve meant to check them out for ages.
some interesting cool ideas and mottifs but so fast paced it´s a tad too surface and shallow. each chapter is like a much too compressed tv episode.
i´ve noted that with some of his other work too. one can not say it´s bad so much as say it could be better.
they´re very fast reads and ok for when i can not sleep.

today i just rested at simon´s even tho they are doing work on the building. it was not too bad actually.
i have no plans for the weekend except for an orgy sun afternoon then a sexdate that night.

 
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while i was doing email sun both paul in nl and david in uk were online so we chatted.
 david was going to spend a long weekend in paris.

after i went offline i went home and called paul.
while i was in sf he met a fb named cees. he was hoping to date him but cees declined.

then i did errands and checked out ws and abc. i was amused that abc had american titles that had not been out yet in sf. a shame as i'd have gotton one for myself and i might have gotton another for eric.

i bopped by the apt then did the zeedijk party. it was an INSANE zoo. dangerously crowded. i ran into bas and sander and we chatted but it was so insane that they soon left as did i not long afterwards.

i got a milkshake and boywatched then did the web. bas and sander were there along with jan the cute guy sander has started dating. (tho jan already has a bf)
bas has started seeing a guy named erik. he was not there but he's very tall it seems. they met awhile ago and played around and have remet and are giving things a go. they are taking it slow. bas say's he tends to self sabotage things so is trying not to this time. ( there´s an essay there somewhere but...)
uk peter came in with paul the guy he's started dating. paul just moved here from the uk. very goodlooking and seems nice.

i chatted with the web girls, bert etc.
various folks were in.
joost was there wearing not very much. he looked good. he was having a fun fisting weekend with a friend named michael. michael seemed very nice. well spoken tho i suspect a workingclass background, very tall, thin and clearly poz.

i briefly played with joel a nice, sexy, semi reg sexbar trick of mine.

sander and bas got drunk. i love watching them like that because they really should be a couple. they were fb yrs ago. they would be bf i suspect except they are both afraid to say i love you and i think, while fun, the sex leaned toward the lesbian in the end between them.

we all left around 10pm.
the smoke was bothering my eyes and sinuses.
i went home for a shower and late dinner with rene.

mon i picked up the new neal asher ( $! it would have really been better to use trade in sf and carry it on the plane.)and cj ryan. rene is getting the new peter f hamilton for me. then i got some stuff at the uk food store.
( claud, let me know if you want to read the neal or peter.)

i started the ryan. basicly gloria does irak in space. no pretense at all that it´s not an anti irak invasion theme but it seems to work ok in terms of the series. tho it´s a rather more serious tone than the 1st 3 books in the series.
not great lit. just one of those genre series i like for some reason.

if the author is smart they'll have the next book return more to it's original tone and maybe keep it set on earth or at least sol system.
 ( mind you these are books where the writer either has or at least uses to sell the books a wish fifillment fantasy that women REALLY DO want fucked raw. OFTEN.
our heroine uses her AMAZING t&a to bring peace and justice to the galaxy.
on a good note while there's no gays, it being mostly about pussy, it does not seem actually anti gay.
of course chick on chick is hinted at and thought hot.)

a'dam is a heaving SEA of tourists. it was as record year for americans here. also i'm noting a LARGE amount of italians and spanish. a noteable amount of russian speakers too. tho of course many/most are not russe but from eastern europe.

i visted jeld at qh and took him a cd i got him. it was BUSY for a mon. besides the regs and tourists andre had closed angel and brought everyone over.

rene vz was there trying to pick up an american.
patick from minn. 36, his 1st time in europe. he's still in training as a stew for nw. VERY goodlooking but a tad neurotic.
poz and still has weirdnesses about it.

we also met david. 41, poz, doing that very workingclass skin look but actualy smart. from glasgow but lives in london. he's the manager of the liverpool st trainstation.
 yes, he's a reg at chariots.
him and steve his partner of 12yrs just got married. due to work issues they are doing seperate vacations. david is doing a'dam then steve will do berlin.
we all hungout most of the night. rene of course got drunk and a bit much for the american and brit to deal with but he got the vibe, jeld made a comment, and went home to sleep.

over all rene is doing well. he LOVES his new apt and come sept it seems he'll be debt free. he say's he's thinking about stopping housecleaning and getting a real job but even for a culture with no responsiblity or need to deal with reality rene pushes the envolope. i hope he does not fuck his life up again.

after he left i hungout with david and patrick. david and i talked alot and got on very well but there was no real sexual spark. patrick wanted me but is clearly high strung and while i found him sexy and nice i suspect my patence would wane quickly. tho we did makeout a bit.

we all left about 11pm. they both flew out tues morning and i was tired so i just went home and took a shower and had dinner with rene.

i'm seeing jeld fri. loek is soon having surgery on his knee but is spending this weekend in antwerpen anyway.

 i went over to vist paul. we just hungout at his place chatting etc. he´s doing well all in all. tho was a bit bummed about things not working out with cees. he showed me a pic. cute in a shaved headed, square faced, built, outdoorsy way.

paul´s going to barcelonia for vakantie. he was going to go to nyc but hotels were too $.

later we went for a walk. i showed him where the uk food store is. he´s one of those rare dutch guys who likes to cook.
 of course he´s mixed.:)
there´s a type of sugar he´s looking for they do not have in nl. (it´s the kind of thing eric would know about. eric would be SHOCKED and go insane with the lack of things in nl.)
then we hungout by a canal for awhile chatting and boywatching then he walked me thuis.

rene and i saw rat.............( a french rat wants to be a great cook.) we both loved it. rene found it both funny and moving.

i thought about going out wed night but ended up just staying in. there were old repeats of ncsi and cm i had not seen and then rene fixed dinner.

 maurice was working at the lampstore so we chatted. he´s started dating ron seriously. a guy from the local scene. they had started seeing each other not long before i left.
it was a suprise thing. maurice was still depressed about his spanish ex and as i said ron is local, he´s a good friend of egbert etc, so they already were aware of each other at the very least. they look good together. ron seems nice enough. he´s polite but we´ve never clicked closely socialy. more of a one clique removed/friend of friends kind of thing.

rene and i did acmarkt, ah and dirk in de pijp.
always fun for guy and kid watching.

we sat outside awhile and had some really wonderful italian ijs. some ADORABLE children were there too.

needless to say walking in a city where every surface is brick or cobblestone with my damaged foot is interesting.
 tho oddly simon's wooden floors can get tedious faster.

thurs was the 1st day in AGES i did nothing.
 mike woke us up in the morning calling from london. work had gotton VERY tedious. it´s the nl summer thing of the dutch all leave for vacation and the expats/immigrants left behind have to do all the work.
he was doing american standard hours of 60hrs a week so he decided to just fuck it and take time off.

of course the night before he got back to london the waterpipes upstairs of the uk apt burst so he walks in to find his godson trying to deal with a flooded apt. the godson is only 21 or 22. he´s staying at the apt awhile. he had been out and came home to find the place trashed. it seems as he opened the door the curtains fell. you get the idea.
(mike thinks he MIGHT be gay but has not asked yet. they´re british remember.)
mike is having to replace rather alot but actually is still likeing the time off and i´m under the impression he´s dealing well with it over all. i think the apt could have used a redo anyway. (i know his brother rob, who´s gay too, thought so.)
he won´t be back in nl till early sept.

otherwise i just did laundry and we stayed in bed listening to opera all day. is that eurotrash gay or what ?

we watched a bit of jos brink´s funeral service. he´s a nl stage and tv legend who just died of cancer.

him and his hubby sander were out before it was hip. they´ve been together since the 1970´s.
they were both in showbiz. they were one of those theater couples. i have the vibe jos was the wife but i suspect that would be hairsplitting to a degree.
( like me and eric.)

a decade ago sander got cancer and was not expected to make it but is still alive. jos was dionosed and lasted a month and a 1/2.
life is like that.

of course there is no such thing as early detection here so they did not find it till it had spread from his colon to much of his lower body.
he was 65. he was really rather cute and kept his looks up till almost the end. (like most gays it was illness not age that took his looks.)

sander is completly wrecked it seems.

i´m starting to worry more and more about rene. he´s 52 and even getting him to understand the reason for something like a prostate exam would take effort and that´s not getting into the effort of finding a dr who would/could do it.
he also needs a blood test. both for hiv and just normal stuff. i suspect iron poor blood or somesuch.

at 6pm i met simon at vomar. he had bought a new pair of black pants and a black shirt. he looked good in them.
we got food, checked out a dvd store but got nothing and came home.

he´s redone his balcony. it´s very asian looking now. it´s nice. he´s ordered a new couch from ikea which will come in sept. it´s white leather. nice tho a bit generic modern for my taste.
he got a cute mood lighting lamp which he´s getting a kick out of. you can make it change colours.
he loved the cds i brought.

since i´m just back and we´re having lovely zomer weather we had fun sex.

afterwards i showed him my online photos then he cooked dinner. after dinner i cleaned up then we watched a tribute to jos brink online.
it really is a big news thing here. it was a good show. i love gay people.

i talked to lynn. amusedly him and dalton were at the cove having lunch when i called. they were going on a daytrip to oakland. we had a nice chat. later he wrote me, they had a nice time, and he sent pics from our trip to the de young. they may go up to sacromento for dalton´s b-day.

peter is VERY busy now with work but hopes to see me when he´s free. i have a sexdate next tues with harald.

today i´m resting at simon´s. he gave me the keys again. then i´m visting jeld later in the afternoon.

of course i get back to nl and our lawyer is on vakantie. he should be back next week.

it´s VERY annoying. the insert addresses feature on yahoo just does not work in nl for some reason. tho i noticed it´s getting wonkier and wonkier in usa too.
i can write a new note and use the address book ok but to forward something is next to impossable.

even on the rare computers i can get it to work it tends to be a page by page thing. it was not all THAT long ago yahoo worked as it should but in the last 1-2yrs it´s having more and more issues.
( johnny explained it IS a bug in yahoo´s system which came after they did an úpdate´about 2 years ago.)


i had a very fun vist with jeld. we hungout on the roof terrace most of the time which was nice. they are having it redone sometime but even for dutch people things are slow to have done here.
not too much news.
don now has the apt above qh so that is handy for him on several levels.
loek and eric are speaking tho let´s say not really being gf ex´s.
eric has started seeing a shrink.
j/l bought a new art piece. a photo loek really liked. it´s still at the gallery.
jeld was going to have 2 guys over for sexdate that night. i´ve not heard how it was yet. he was working extra this weekend also which was a sudden change.
he´s going to nyc in nov for a short trip by himself.
they won´t do a b-day trip this year due to loek´s knee surgery.
amusedly jeld had sex with harald last week. the same harald i´m seeing tues.

afterwards i got a tram and rested a bit at home then did cnest.

h/w were there. it was han´s 1st time out in ages. the chemo is going as well as such things can. he looked good if pale. ( of course he IS dutch so pale is normal really.)
no hair lose.
he finishes the treatment 21nov.
rene vz was there. also hasu, ton and various guy´s i´ve played with.

it was boppy but VERY humid. the humidity is tedious to get use to after being in sf. tho it is somewhat less than it was before i left. slightly less insects too thank goddess.

1st joel and i had a fab time playing. it was a public show of course, being joel, which the guys loved.
joel´s sexy and fun. he has a thing for belly buttons which is cute.
after a long time a stocky guy joined us so i drifted off.

then i did a tall guy in leather pants. slightly older than i and not happy about it i suspect. i want to talk with him about his hair really.
his face was only ok at best to be honest but his body was FAB.
tall, lean but built, hairy. has a very tight foreskin. he came in my hand which was kind of hot.

then i played with a sexy indo who had been eyeing me for awhile. nice and fun.
smooth body and hot cock and ass.

peter was in. we had a FAB time. it was really nice seeing him. he´s still very fun tho i suspect i MAY be starting to grow bored of the sex slightly as males tend to with long term sexpartners. i KNOW what he likes, he KNOWS what i like etc.
it's that time where bf get married and fb become friends or drift apart.

he´s busy through next week but hopes to be free more after that. one show he was working on opens mon and he has to finish his next book soon.

then i met a TALL shaved headed with a thick goatee guy who was into serious spanking. very skilled. he bent me over and went to town.
afterwards the 1st words out of my mouth were...you must be british.
 which he was.

then i hooked up with john again. we'd played before i left for sf. i´d bet my last tcell that´s his trick name. at best johan is his name or part of it and i´d not bet ALOT of $ on that.
not that i really care as he is a porn fantasy cum to life. TALL, mildly hairy, big balls, a 3rd leg for a cock, an ass he LOVES eaten and VERY into titplay.
 HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can not overstate how sexy this guy is.

after him i vaugly thought of leaving but i met david. ( lets just assume almost EVERY uk poof is named david shall we ? it´s even one of mike´s middle names.)
i thought we might have played before. we had. he was sweet and remembered when and where.
59, brit but has lived here 30yrs. does IT for a law firm. married to rob, a dutch indo top of all things. they have been together 17yrs and married as soon as it was legal. the classic story of.... they met, tried it out but could not stand each other, stopped talking but could not forget each other, reconnected and the rest is history.
david is poz, slightly stocky in the upper body and one of the hairest men i´ve ever played with. rimming him is like burying your face in a pelt.
he´s no great beauty but is sexy in that uk poz bear kind of way. he´d be a hit in sf.
 a bottom who´s into servicing, being hurt a bit and fucked/fisted alot.
ok, that can work for me.
he gives great rim jobs himself.
he reminds me a bit of david in sf except not as vanilla.

fun to talk with too. we played a long time. the sweat was POURING off us like showerwater.
we did info then we walked to l-plein together as he lives somewhat near me down by black body.

i just came home, had dinner while rene and i watched a dvd of 2 judy garland shows. as usueal the musical numbers were cool or at least interesting and the comedy was.....dated.
mel torme, lena horne were the big guests.
lots of gay dancers running around.

sat was a stunningly lovely summer day.
 which of course we blew off.
rene watched tv and i did email and lunch at simon´s.
later rene and i had ijs at home.

the herons were out by the canal which is always nice.

the number of INSANELY, STUNNINGLY, HOT, SEXY guys in a´dam is almost OVERWHELMING.
 it's like being torn apart in a probability vortex.  

simon has a big family party tonight. it´s the 25th wedding anv of one of his sisters. so i´m back online then i expect to go out.
rene did ah and dirk in the pijp. we´ll do a late dinner.

claudio wrote !
 i had not not heard from him in AGES. he´s been in mexico city all summer with ramon but will be back in nyc soon for awhile.
ramon got a cool job with the australian embassy but it means he can not travel as much.

sat cnest was busy but no real vibe going on.
i only played with one guy. sexy in a generic gay way. dutch, white, mildly hairy and stocky, goatee etc. loved his ass eaten.
actually fun but it´d be hard to pick him out of a lineup a year from now. tho if you gave me a few minutes.....

i asked peter from hiv-v advice about where to try to get rene to go for a checkup. he basicly concured with my thoughts.

guus was out this weekend and we said hi.

i met frank an american visting from ky. just social chitchat. he´s a stoner and here for the hash.

sun sos was the least fun i´ve had there in AGES.
derk jan was there so we chatted.
i only played with a sexy, hairy, stocky indian in cool glasses and geoffrey a tall mildly stocky, slightly geeky guy with glasses and a goatte visting from melbourne.

web was also VERY low key for a sun. just chatted with jaq, bram, joop and the other web girls.
jaq and egge just found out about frits being dead. they were on vakantie when word came and no one thought to mention it it seems till just a couple of days ago.

ton&michael were there so we chatted.
rene vz was bopping around.

i ran into a SEXY old trick named michael. from suraname. could pass for either latin or arab. short, smooth, VERY hot looking. no great skill but fun. a good kisser.
it´s mostly me worshiping his body which i´m ok with. HOT cock and ass which he loves to have sucked and eaten.
nice enough guy but we´d have nothing in common outside sex.
he´d be very weho or south beach in usa.

afterwards i covered for jaq brifly at cc then went home because i was tired.
sad really as it was only 9pm.

i had a nice dinner with rene which promply came back up. no pain, fever etc. my tummy just rejected what was put in and then was ok.
not sure if it was the marrowfat peas, fish, heat of the apt, hiv/meds or some combo. it happens sometimes like that.

mon was just a lazy day.
 tho a somewhat big news day here. there were major robberies at both the library and artis.
of course being nl no one was hurt.

i just stayed in mon night. we watched one of my fav old uk scifi films on tv.
the damed, 1964 i think. from a book call the children of the light. rene was impressed i knew what film it was from the 1st opening shot tho i've not seen it  in over 30yrs.
it really made an impression on me as a child and i've never forgotton it.

well childcare and straights are an uneasy combo at the best of times but throw in secret gov experiments in underground bunkers, a better race of mutant humans to inherit the earth, the fear of nuclear war, art vs science/humanist vs rationalist debates, a wise worldweary sculptress, a may-december love, incest, a proto clockwork orange bike gang and the good guys lose in the end. how can you go wrong ?

tues i met harald in front of cnest. he decided to take me to a sauna instead. it turned out boomarang is closed due to a redo so we did the damrack sauna which niether of us had ever been to. it's the oldest gay sauna in a'dam. 40yrs old. it's very nice tho not set up in a way i like for sex. it was built in the days when the actual sex took place IN either the dry or wet saunas so no rooms.

we worked with it.
we had fun in the steamroom. tho wet and 105f are not my FAV conditions.
 i also had a fun time with a young, SEXY, slim, smooth indian guy. normaly too young and pretty for me but when in amsterdam.....
nice and fun. he liked his balls done. seemed to be impressed by and to enjoy my skills.
he came hard enough to shoot into his own face and he was sitting down.
 ah, the young. so easy to impress.

then we rested and harald took a nap so i went wondering and met ben on the roof terrace. my age or older, dutch tho ben is not a common name here.
( ik ben ben sounds funny in dutch too.)
VERY hairy, goodlooking tho in a classic clone way.
VERY fun and nice. SKILLED with tits and had the patence to do it right.
i came all over the place.
he had an intense orgasim too.

while i was giving ben a bj harald stopped by to say goodby. he had to go home as gerban would be home from work soon and they would do dinner.
i love gays.
if only straights had evolved along closer lines. of course i suppose it's inherent otherwise they'd BE us or vise versa.

i'll see harald fri at the gallery where he has some work up. it was fab seeing him and catching up. both him and gerban are doing well healthwise at the moment. they've had some MAJOR issues over the years.

i'm at the library now to do email and check if there's any fun new cds. they are having notable issues with the alarm systems. clearly trying to redo/upgrade them. closing the coop door after the fox drops by for lunch is very dutch.

dr dolbec wrote me.
 my tcells are over 200. (tho he did not give an exact #)
my vload is 216.
my liver is fine but the whites of my eyes ARE a tad yellowish. it's a side effect of the rayataz. not a real problem tho it seems.
( both jeld and paul had commented on it so i was wondering if i should worry. it seems not.)

i think i'll just stay in tonight.
once i actually get back home of course. :)
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(no subject) [Jan. 31st, 2008|04:29 pm]
after sending out my blog from the store i played phone tag with lynn. he called JUST as a customer came in and asked me something. lynn left a message but then i could not get ahold of him again. after some bopping around and redialing we FINALLY hooked up at po+ on castro. he was chatting with friends. then we did his pharm and he took me to dinner at the cove. james and dan were working. afterwards we just came home. we had sex then i burned cds.

after i went home eric and i watched another miss marple. this time 1 of the victums was a gay man who killed himself over fear of being outed.
ah, straights.
otherwise rather an interesting show.

fri eric and i got some sleep. tho he did go to the dentist early in the morning. we got up and did our apt building's food bank then i met claud in the mission and we bopped around doing cafes, the bookstore and the castro.

carey gave me 3 boxes of candy so i gave 1 to lynn, 1 to eric and kept 1.

later i met lynn. we napped then went to his barber. afterwards we did dinner at bagdad. we had thought to go to blue but it was crowded. i was rather surprised by the prices at bagdad now. of course i've not eaten there in YEARS. it was ok but still just diner food.

we walked back home in the brisk august wind and had sex then he fell asleep and i played with the computer. everything burned fine except 1 of the japp cds is acting very funky. it plays as 1 cd but reads on the computer as another.

i'm tired. since i've been back all i've done is run around. tho i have been productive.

i've,
renewed my apt.
renewed my project open hand card.
had my teeth checked and cleaned.
had my sinuses and eardrums checked and my ears cleaned.
had blood and std tests.
caught up a bit with my shrink.
saw a foot dr who figured out what's wrong with my left foot and had a new insert for my shoe molded.
saw my derm.
had my eyeglasses checked.

sadly my tattoo artist was booked till oct and i did not have time to find another one i liked.

i also saw friends, spent time with both lynn and david, got a few new books and saw a few dvds and a couple of films. tho not as much of any of these last few things as i would have liked. i'm REALLY bummed i missed hairspray and stardust.
( actually, i'm scared because that means i've been too busy every single day for a MONTH.)

michael wrote me. he's well now and would like to hookup but i fly out in a week and am RATHER booked but we will see. he's a nice guy with a sexy body and a hot ass but talks too much during sex.
 bites tits too as i recall.

lynn has not been to the new de young yet and wants to see it so we're going sat. afterwards eric's fixing us all pork roast.
sun lynn is taking me to brunch and a drag show.

fri nite eric and i watched the last of the miss marple dvds the store has. it was a fast paced interesting redo of one we just saw with another actress. some fun guest stars. dawn french among them. i'm under the impression that it's a popular show for folks to show up on.

i was up late reading then got up early to meet lynn. i sorted out the japp cd issue then we got a tram out to the park. on the way we stopped at le vidio. it IS rather impressive. tho they do not have some things i was looking for. rene would CUM. lynn was impressed.

then we did the de young. lynn liked it except he thinks the tower has a big design flaw. i noticed it myself when i 1st was up there. the outer metal grill design obscures part of the view.
we had a nice time. he does not linger in museums. the big show was american chic. clothes from the nan kempner collection. some FAB outfits. 60's-80's.
afterwards we walked through the park to haught st and had lunch at squat&gobble then got a bus home to nap before dinner. we picked up some stuff at safeway on the way.

a day out to the musuem and the haught is very tiring for 2 middle aged poz guys.
 i AM old. a hot YOUNG thing called me sir. (of course he WAS with his gf)

dinner with lynn and eric was very good. the food was fab and they watched tv.
the downside was it was too noisy with the music from downstairs for lynn to stay overnight. he laid down and tried but he goes to bed somewhat early for an adult and is a lite-ish sleeper. so i walked him to muni. it was the 2nd time we've been together and not had sex. even without the noise we would have skipped it. he had already laid down when it came on. we were both too tired and full of food.

if i were staying in sf i'd be VERY upset that i live in too much of a slum even for my bf to stay over. of course if i stayed here and we ended up fulltime together i'd HAVE to move.

sun i got up and went over to meet lynn then we went to the sir frances drake hotel to see sunday's a drag in the starlight room.
it was FAB. fun clothes and music. a very professional dragshow. mostly old school playback. tho the hostess donna sachet does her own singing.
( of course at LEAST 1 of the girls is in fact a tranny which i suspect blurs the DRAG concept a tad.)
the food was not bad if not impressive. i was amused that overall the starlight room is rather tawdry. the carpet needs cleaning badly and the seating needs reuphostered. tho it has a wonderfull view.
i liked the servers's dresses and 2 of the busser were hot. i liked watching the way the staff worked together. it's the same way i tend to watch theater with an eye to actually doing it not just watching it.

nice crowd. mostly gays and women of a certain age with a few curious hetro tourists thrown in. ( the gf dragged thier bf to see the show.)
a sexy quartet of gay men sat next to us. armando from mexico could be a model or a porn star and his bf and friends were all very doable too.

at another table grandmother judyjo from ok was fun too.

it was both thier b-days. it was also the b-day of a lesbian mom there. it was amusing and VERY sf. she was there with her daughters and was FAR butcher than just about anyone born with a penis in the room.
( except MAYBE 1 of the hot bussers.)

afterwards we walked around union sq and did macy's, old navy and westfield mall.
lots of hot guys and cute kids.

then we went home and stopped at walgreen's and the dvd store on the way. once home we had fun sex.

later we watched the pirate.
1948, cole porter, gene kelly, judy garland.
it had everything going for it but tanked big at the time. it was not porter's best but it's fun. tho lite and implasuable even for a musical. judy was having a breakdown during the filming too.
it is noted for having 'be a clown' in it.

( tho 1 of the other songs has a FAB line in it that ONLY a gay man could write.
' .....he left a flaming trail of masculinity.)

before he fell asleep and i left we watched a bit of brothers&sisters which we both really like even tho hetros are stupid and i want to slap everyone. the actors are good and it REALLY works on a soap opera level. it should be on in the afternoons not during prime time.

mon i rested some with eric, who's in one of his sleep phases, then i went to my clinic. i was suppose to find out my #'s but my dr was out ill. i'll either do a walkin thurs or have him email them to me in nl.

both bob in philly and john here in sf called.

bob is doing well. he's working on his place still and he was going to spend tues in nyc visting friends and seeing what coney island looks like now that they've torn alot of it down.

i talked with rene too. he's doing well.

i met john at a mission cafe. we had a fun time chatting. he was always fab to talk with. having an actual relationship with him was the hard part.

i was running late for dinner with paul.

i stopped by the store fast to say hi, use the wc and check for mail.
( it seems my last 2 cds have JUST been mailed so i'll probaly miss them.)

i met paul and we ate at firewood.

afterwards i called lynn to say hi but he was asleep. i got dvds and did safeway then i ran into bill and walked him home. i'm glad i got to see him before i left.
amusedly while chatting with him i remembered i had a sexparty to go to that night i had forgotton about.

after i left his place i just went home to drop things off and brush my teeth then i did the party.

at 1st i thought it was going to be ok but lame.
i worked a handsome shaved headed daddy's tits while a guy sucked him then i sucked a well built chinese guy's cock myself.

THEN i met matt. built like a brick shithouse as my granny would say. VERY tall, VERY built, VERY hairy, shaved head, beard and a nice guy.
loves to have his cock bit.
yes, girls. bit.
who am i to say no ?
he was a VERY fun time.
( a small voice in my head say's we MAY have played before back just after the earth cooled. tho i'm not %100 sure.)

afterwards i met jeff. short and petiet but HOT with it. hairy, shaved head, VERY goodlooking and sexy. slightly older than he looks tho i suspect still in his 30's. lives in the castro and drives.
we had a fun time and in fact closed the place out. he MAY write/call me but i warned him i leave fri which seemed to bum him out some.

after i went home i watched some dr who shows. the woman in the fire episode was FAB!
maybe my fav of the season.

tues i saw my derm, did errands getting ready to fly out and then met lynn at his pharm after work. we had dinner at the thai place on castro/19th. on the way home we watched the big fire tonight on noe in the castro.

once home we napped and he really did fall asleep so no sex tonight. 3rd time without sex so i guess we really ARE dating.

( gee, i wonder if it's too late to call micheal...............?)

( i emailed him but he did not get it till the next day. he was bummed as he had been free.)

wed i spent $60 to mail a 11 pound box of books to nl. the new postage rates are INSANE.

david got back from texas and called me as soon as he walked in the apt, he had stopped at the lab 1st, so i went over and we had HOT afternoon sex. the kind where he's rockhard and i'm making him wimper as soon as i walk in.

afterwards he gave me a ride to my eyeglass place and i had them oiled and screwed tight too. :)
while out there we did green apple. he got a used boxed dvd set of firefly which i'll borrow next time i'm in sf. he offered to get me something but there was nothing i was pressed about having.
we also stopped at bevmo which was cute. he got alot of french wijn and some german liqour he likes. i had him get me a swiss candy bar.

he dropped me off by safeway and i called lynn for a spur of the moment dinner. eric fixed the letover pork roast.

lynn gave me some very lovely flowers.

lynn had never seen dreamgirls and wanted to. so we watched it. he loved it.

michael called me and wanted to hookup.

timing, timing, timing!
i had a orgy to go to, a fb wanting to hookup and i'm having dinner with my sf bf and my ex.
 hello !
for better or worse i ended up having sex with lynn. it was fun mind you but how sad and middle aged is that ?
i skip both a fb AND an orgy to have sex with my bf ?

thurs i bopped around with claud while i was doing errands. we did the store, the castro and my pharm among other things. then i went home to wait for lynn. he came over and eric fixed catfish. then we watched chicago which we've all seen but love.

ronald got back in sf today and gave me a call which was nice.

eric went over to george's. he's in a non sleep phase at the moment.

i came over to lynn's for goodbysex . he surprised me with some fancy candy.

i'm VERY tempted to stay and see how it would go with him but there's so many issues.
he lives in a too small cramped studio and i live in a noisy section 8 apt on 6th st.
i'm hyper and he's not.
he mostly sleeps and i know i would grow bored with that fulltime.

i only have 2 shows of dr who left to see. the 2 parter where we lose rose. yes, i know what happens but i want to see it.
i have to do laundry, pack, shower&shave and watch dr who tonight.

i liked the dr who meets satan 2 parter tho it has it's flaws. my fav was the scene where rose decides to die rather than let evil free. cool but if you break the scene down it's completely unrealistic just on a physical level.

the lost alien child/london olympics ad show was good.
( i noted at least 2 of the shows had VERY straight dads. i like that the writers are not downplaying thier views.)
except for the BADLY added on forshadowing ending.
even david looked like he was reading a telepromter and wondering if it was the wrong script.

eric spent the night at george's. i was up all night packing etc anyway.  
he came home at 9:20am and repacked my bags better.

david called to wish me bon voyage which was sweet. it still surprises me how much he's into having me as a mistress.

eric came to sfo with me which was a great help with the bags.

it was busy but not a zoo. a few hotties and some adorable kids. i love people watching at sfo. a LONG line at klm. i was amused i was in sf for a nl flt and mostly hearing german, french and british. i was also amused i could understand the german with less effort than the brits.
the 1st dutch i heard spoken was from a child. tho the steward on the phone spoke it to me too.

the flt was FULL but somehow lacked the stuffed to the rafters feel of the flt to sf.
across the asle from me were a sexy gay couple that SCREAMED italian. there were alot of gays aboard actually.

flt was uneventfull except for some bouncyness at one point which is always amusing midair.
i watched shrek3 and an episode of ncis. otherwise i read e. bear's undertow which is good. it reminded me slightly of mainline.

they paid slightly more attention to my passport than they sometimes do but i got back in nl ok. no issues with the TON of dvds/cds i was bringing.
rene was waiting for me. he looks SOOOOO adorable.
we just got a trein then a tram home. i dusted, vacumed, changed the bed, did laundry and showered then nap. i skipped merrick's b-day party. i'll drop by later in the week.

we went out for dinner. it's hartsjedagen so zeedijk is a zoo but fun.
we ran into rene vz, sander and alex. also johan who's still an ass. he almost put me in a bad mood but he's dutch so i got over it.
jeld and leendert were working at qh but it was too busy to say hi. we were going to eat at eat mode but it was full along with most places. we did a relativily new place rene has been curious about. a.fusi.n ( yes, the . are part of the logo/name.)
same food theme as eat mode but done somewhat differently. good food. rene thinks he likes it better than eat mode. i think i prefer the food at eat mode still overall tho the decor is nicer at a.fusi.n

( as an aside note. i forgot to mention lynn and i checked out the new ben sherman store in sf. i suspect it means something when you go to a clothing store and really only like the furniture.)

after dinner we hungout on the bridge a bit people watching till we got bored and tired.

at home we opened some of the candy lynn gave me and had cookies.
i called eric. he had managed to do both foodbanks.
i went to bed and rene came to bed at 4:35am.

i got some sleep but have been awake for hours. rene is suppose to go to an art show. i'm skipping cr and just bopping around. i'll do zeedijk later and the web. rene may try to meet me at zeedijk.

i'm REALLY bummed. stardust is not opening in nl till OCT !
hairspray opens the end of aug.
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sf2 sfha [Aug. 9th, 2007|05:15 pm]
sun lynn did some errands then came over to my place. eric and i were just getting up.
actually we'd have still been in bed if he were not coming over. :)
we got ready and out the earliest we've ever done a fair i think.
we all 3 skipped doing leather. tho eric had his utilikilt on.
lynn had a web tank on i gave him.

you girls know how the fair thing is.
LOTS of HOT guys. some VERY lovely tatts, a fair number of trolls tho mostly just middle aged gay men ageing but better than straights.
a few dykes.
i do love sf for the amount of tits with beards around town.
you have to appreciate a woman who's beard is longer than your own.

i called rene to say hi from the fair.
i ran into ernie who is still looking AMAZING.
also ran into miss matthew&hubby, sister mary ralph, scott&wes, derrick from the old cove, dj james, and a guy i met in a'dam who's name i do not quite recall.
i met a guy named chase from mercer county wv.
eric ran into his friend william and his bf.

oddly i saw FAR fewer faces i knew than one would think given the event and amount of men. tho that's common in sf these days for me really.

lynn being a lite drinker got tipsy on 2 beers.
we left about 4pm. we did out of the closet, i got a cute tee, then we said hi to george at the hole.

afterwards we came home and eric made a nice dinner out of leftovers. lynn had brought over 1/2 a whole chicken since he'll be out of town and it would go bad. so we did that among other things.
afterwards i cleaned up and then we napped while eric watched tv. lynn and eric get on very well which i thought they would. they have things in common besides me.

after a nap lynn and i came to his apt so he could pack. he leaves EARLY mon.

( i forgot to mention last note that david use to take some of the meds i'm on now so he gave me his old ones he had left which i thought was sweet.)

mon i ran around all day doing errands. i stopped by the store to chat etc. while i was there john happened to drop by so we did muddy waters and caught up. it was good seeing him. afterwards i did the castro, safeway and my pharm among other things. i ran into mark and a friend of his twice. a hot friend but he has the same taste in men as bas so i'm close but not quite it.

ms tom&eric drove up and we said hi while they were waiting for the light and i the tram.

i did the dinner with the bookstore girls at the crepe place on 16th which was VERY fun. good food tho my insides later reconsidered the sauce but that's normal for me.

at home we watched road to singapore. 1940. bing, bob and dorthey's 1st trip. bing and bob ad libbed much of it and it shows but it has it's charms.
an interesting number of white folk in pancake makeup, tho with some actual asians thrown in to add spice, and one amusing scene where dorthey sings a romantic ballad against a backdrop of a willow tree and tall pines. impressive in the SOUTH SEAS. even ERIC did commentary.

tues i also just ran around doing stuff. it's amazing that i have been here almost 2 weeks and have had NO time to see a movie. i'm just running around all day.

fri i have an app at GH for them to try to deal with my foot.

basicly just did the castro and pharm again today. my tummy was having an off day with the meds which was tedious and of course one of my least fav things about sf is the almost complete and utter lack of a working mass trans system.

i ran into steven on the bus. he looks good which i'm glad of. ( at times he's nuerotic to a point that makes rene look normal.)
he works at a bookstore in noe valley now that cody's in sf tanked.

i stopped by the store and then met mark at dolores park cafe. we hungout and caught up then i did email afterwards.

it's doing that sf dusk temp change thing so it'll be brisk getting home.

david called from his convention in colorado which was sweet. he's having a good time and it's going well.

rudi wrote. he had a good time in a'dam.

i have a ton of dvds to watch tonight.

they are putting in new carpeting on our hallway floor and the floor below this week so lots of pounding.
the workmen are sexy in that short, latin workman way i like. it's a shame life is not more like a pornfilm.

turns out thier putting down lenolium not new carpet. not as classy but easier to clean. it's butterscotch yellow.

wed i saw my main dr and took a ton of blood tests. there was a fuckup and i had to wait an hour and a half.
as i suspected, i was the last person in before the office closed for lunch and they just left my paperwork there instead of giving it to the lab.

otherwise eric and i just bopped around doing errands. i called rene. he's doing well.

my letter from sfha finally came. 2 in fact. 1st they gave me an app. aug 13th then changed it to aug 8th. it should be a joy.
i have to have a meeting with people who run my building too. (it was fast and casuel actually.)

i saw f4.2.
jessica alba's makeup still sucks, ioan is still too young to be reed.
cheesy hollywood trash and perfect for an afternoon matinee. yes, one could pick it apart with no effort whatsoever but why bother ?
one knew what it was going in.

watching it were a couple of cute little children and some latin girls in back were really getting into it. except for the 2 kids useing it as an excuse to makeout.

i did the sex party wed nite. it was busy. very gay.
black, white, asian, latin, mixed all togother. LOTS of group action. i did a bunch of social play.
the highlights included me sucking the cock of a hot white guy with balding pattern and glasses while a really cute asian guy litely rimmed me then fucked me. i love running into asian tops. ken from taiwan. english is clearly his 2nd tongue. we went off and played by ourselves after the 3way.

i played with an older very hairy daddy with beard named bob i've played with before. he's always found me hot. i declined him a few times early on because i know he loves to suck cock which is mostly not my thing but it turned out he can do other things as well. VERY skilled at tits. also i DO seem to be in a slightly dom 'suck me' phase so it worked out well.
that became a major group thing. i also played with a SEXY guy from argentina i think i've done before.
i also met a handsome asian guy with glasses from dc named mike. he said it was his 1st time there but i later noted he knew enough to bring his own lock for the lockers.
he was nice enough tho no skill (NO kissing and he pinches) and was VERY upfront about liking white boys. if either ken or mike's mothers call them ken or mike i'll eat pussy. it was weird as both guys were nice enough but working some major cliches.
mike was INTO the white guy thing and i suspect ken was too. he kept saying i love you in a very husband hunting manner except for being clearly a top in sex. VERY obcessed on ass even by my standards.

they were a few others in passing as it were but those were the main highlights.

when i got home eric was in mild tweek mode which i found mildly annoying but not as badly as i can be about it. i'm unsure if it was drugs or just one of his natural modes.

he did not sleep and i did not get to watch some dvds i had. tho he is taping them for me today so i can take them back and not pay extra fees.

the other night we watched blood and chocolate. it's why god made dvd. it's not truely bad but it's not pressing either. it's pretty, the guys are pretty. hell, even the girl is pretty.
as werewolve movies go it can not touch gingersnaps but i suspect there are worse ones out there.

thurs i bopped by the store to pickup cds that had come in the mail and to meet claud. we walked around the castro and did flore where we ran into scotty.
it was fun hangingout with them both. later i met uk david at the pilsner. scotty joined us. him and david got on well. they chatted about london among other things.
after drinks david and i did firewood for dinner then checked out the edge. it reminded me of why i moved to europe. we discussed the demise of gay american social life.

i saw the foot dr at GH. the bad news is that one can not change my insert as is. a new one has to be made. also medical no longer pays for it but it's only $100 a foot and only 1 is needed so that's dealable. the catch is the new one MAY not be ready by the time i leave so will have to be sent to me.

fri i had dinner with claud. he saw my apt for the 1st time. we did shalamar which i had heard of and wanted to checkout. limited menu but good food. tho the spicest tandori i've ever had. cute staff. some HOTTIES were in eating too.
we had a drink afterwards at aunt charlies. we watched law&order on tv which gives you and idea of the crowd. then we WAITED for a bus and checked out truck which i have been curious about also. it took a bit to find. i finally called 411 and got a gay operator.
it's a nice space. a tad too new, clean and young like most of sf these days. tho there were adults there which were a nice touch.
after claud went home i did eagle. very uncrowded for a fri. steve was there so we caught up. timothy was also there. he's thinking of moving to sao paulo. eric was out&about and came in also. i got bored after awhile and left. i stuck my head in both lonestar and hole on the way home but niether was pressing. i called rene but he was out. i forgot it was gaypride in nl so he was out watching it.

eric had fun. he had sex with a guy who was interested in him EONS ago but was shy about it named donny. he got home at 11:34am.

sat i think i just stayed most of the day. tho i think i talked on the phone with some folks.
ironicly here at .com ground zero i only have limited and brief internet access so have trouble remembering all i do over several days.

sat nite i met uk david at pilsner and took him to the 14th st sex party. he's never gone tho he has been in sf several times before.

it was very boppy. david was amused brian let me in for free and alot of guys seemed to know me.

a nice crowd. a very gay mix of mostly 40+.

i met a HOT guy named anthony and had a FAB time. shaved head, about my age, soul patch, nerd glasses, really sexy body and dick. a nice guy and skilled. i even swallowed which i rarely do and mostly only with lynn these days.

sid was there and we played briefly but were mostly social.

i watched marty mildly torture a guy. i'm still amused by the concept of one of the city's major bondage bottoms turning top. tho i noted it awhile ago.

i played awhile with a VERY SHORT small tho mildly stocky asian guy.
he was nice.

as useual the food was good tho leaned too far toward the healthy for my tastes and the music was good also.
on the downside tom's not dead yet.

of course i was social/playfull with several guys throughout the night but the highlight was brian. tall, mid 40's-mid 50's, glasses, very short sliver/white hair with goatee, his partner passed away last year. he works for bart and divides his time between sf and chicago. has apts both places. takes sidetrips to pac. n. w.
a titdaddy top. VERY strong and skilled hands. has some interesting fantasy ideas too.
a HOOOOOOOT time !

i noted david had gone at some point. ( he called sun morning. he had a very fun time. he met 2 guys. one black, one white and both fun it seems.)

i chatted with robbie. he looks fab and is doing well. he's started dating someone which is odd for him. the guy, who's name i forget, moved up from la and they lived together for awhile before he found an apt. which is NOT robbie's style at all. i was resting and thinking of leaving when i ran into jonathan a very fun old trick. he's the phoneline dir. for project open hand. we had a fun time playing and then he gave me a ride home.

sun i rested.

lynn called me when he got back to sf from his plane seat after they landed. he's SO sweet. they were an hour late. he had a good trip except for 2 days of food posioning.

rene had sex at gaypride ! he went out that night. argoes was too warm and a bore but at the eagle in the sling over the pooltable he met james from belfast. 39 but turns 40 in oct. rene thinks he's some type of cival servant. his 1st a'dam pride tho he's been in town before. after they played there james invited rene back to his b&b in oost near artis. rene left 2pm sun.
rene was the top !

i met david at catch at 7pm. i had never been and was curious so he took me out.
it's a nice space. doing low key upmarket gay. a HOT staff.
good food.
we had a shared starter of mussels.
i had fish&chips and he a seafood stew as entrees and a 'shared' dessert.
( i'm a sugar addict and he's pre diabetic so he has 1-2 bites of anything then i get the rest.)

it came to just under $87 so with tip $100 for 2 people.

afterwards he got a dvd and we went home. he watched the dvd while i used his laptop. no sex. he's visting mom and his sister in texas the next week or so and prefers to be chaste beforehand.
we're suppose to have afternoon sex the day he flies back in to sf. (wed 15th)he gave me a ride home.

eric and i watched dvds then he had a somewhat worrying reaction to his meds. he was normal up to the time he took them then started having trouble with his balance and hallucenations. he was rather unconnected with reality even by eric's standards. he turned the water on then did not turn it off. he thought someone had come up behind him and turned it on. he was asking about people who were not there and almost triggered the firealarm twice by fucking up the toaster. when i FINALLY got him to lay down he fell to sleep quickly but was moving and making noises all night. it ran the range from good noises to bad. once he was laughing, once i thought he was going to wake from a nightmare, some talking to himself and much mumbleing and twitching. he was back to normal when he awoke the next morning and remember some tho not all of the night before. he'll have to talk to his dr about this since he'll be at the apt alone much of the time. it's hard enough for him to function normaly without aded issues.

mon i went to berkeley and had lunch with david. he took me on a tour of his office and labs. i met his lab partner claudia. she's from scandanavia tho i forget which country.
i've not been up in the berkeley hills and to the berkeley labs in YEARS. the view is FAB from up there. it reminded me that they do not do vistas in nl. LOTS of hot guys. i saw tho did not meet a noble winner. i fetishize intellectualism. it reminded me of m.i.t.
the food is actually not bad at the lab cafe. it leans toward healthy being berkeley but i worked with it.
afterwards he dropped me off at och and i visted dave. i got the new nicola griffth mystery.

then i came home. i met the new building manager and one of the office staff people. nice girls. tho i sense not as aware of the detailed ins&outs of the system nor as invested in trying to be as dave. not in a bad way just in a nice but not as usefull way. i REALLY miss dave because he actually CARED. he'd been on the fringes himself.

it was a tad late to catch a movie since i was meeting lynn at 6pm so eric and i did walgreen's and safeway. he took stuff home and i met scott at flore to hangout till i met lynn.

lynn and did a walk in the mission and had dinner at yum yum. i would have liked to go to the kushner/sherman reading at the store but lynn had been gone for a week and this was our 1st time together.
besides none of the guys i sleep with actually do anything. after dinner we walked home and had intense sex. he was dom this time. no sm just intense and sweaty.

while i was at lynn's eric called to ask if he could have donny over. so i stayed at lynn's mon nite. luckly i had meds on me. it seems donny thinks he was a fool for not making a play for eric YEARS ago so is making up for lost time. i'm glad. i hope they become fb or even bf.
( tho of course i actually want to meet him at some point to check him out.)

amusedly eric actually called while i was sucking lynn's cock. this is why god made voicemail. :)

i've been watching several dvds.
another fun miss marple with jane hickson. i guessed who did it and why. a good tho sad story.
i caught another of the new miss marple on pbs. a redone version of the berthram's hotel mystery. interesting revamp. i was amused to note that once again the killer had lesbian overtones. in that english school crush way instead of the brass band killer nun tones of the other one i saw before.

i saw garuda. it's suppose to be the most $ thai film done. basicly the lovechild of godzilla and mothra does bangcock. not great but interesting. it has some very interesting political and cultural subtones in it.
tho one of the cute guys dies in it.

i've started watching dr who season 2. i've seen chris's take on it in season 1 and david all settled into the role in season 3 so it's interesting to see the transition phase. david trying to do some of chris's harsher butcher tones while bringing his own thing to it. it tends to come across as more of a homage than real when he does it.

the xmas show was cool. tho it's a shame pm jones turned to the gray side. i do like how they have become very self ref like star trek and stargate. the shameless bit with his hand getting cut off was cute.
yes, i LOVED the alien werewolf goes after queen victoria show. how could one not ? hell, ninja monks in 1879 scotland ?
i was amused by the origins of torchwood thing too and the fact that the royal family are werewolves. ( one can tell queens write this shit. the comment about princesss ann was bitchy.)

i stayed at lynn's mon nite and went downtown with him the next morning. donny had already left. eric and him had a fun time it seems. they fucked in the shower.
since i was up anyway i dusted, changed the bed linens, did laundry, showered and shaved my head then got paperwork from my bank for sfha and a sf map. after i went back home eric and i did the foodbank. i went because i needed to sign a new card. in a cool bit of timing we ran into dave the old apt manager. we got the info on why he left etc. he's manager at the lyric now. (despite the name it's a apt building not a porn theater.)
once at the food bank i ran into miles an old roommmate from EONS ago. he looks good all in all and was asking about barry and dan.

after we got back home eric cleaned out the fridge and i rested then bopped by the bookstore to say hi and pickup cds. i met lynn afterwards. we just did safeway and ate in. i burned a ton of cds then went to meet uk david at pilsner. lynn taped drew carey's new game show which he was really looking forward to.
( i had dealt with judge judy earlier.
hey, he's good in bed.)
lynn joined david and i. they got on well since they have music in common. i thought they would.
david's had a good if tireing trip. he's doing a show in reno then off to nyc for a hot sexthing and back to uk. he'll go to paris the day i leave for nl.

in another cool bit of timing we happened to be at the bar, which had 2 big screen tvs of it on, when barry bonds hit his record breaking home run.

after david went off to soma we came home and had surprisingly intense sex. i had been expecting low key drowsey sex. it was way fun.

i got up early wed since everyone with a car was busy i did muni to go to sfha. lynn and i had checked the muni map out. i was thinking of trying the new T-line but we figured out i'n not only have to walk across to my meeting it'd be up a steep hill. also lynn was not sure if the white, shaved head gay with a map walking alone in bay view was a good idea. i thought it'd be ok but i'm not really a morning person.
i decided to do the #9 bus. i was unsure of how long it would take so i left a few hours early. i got there an hour and a 1/2 early. i had a book but actually got in early since i was there. it went well. i just signed some papers. she did not ask about eric and i did not mentioned him. very don't ask, don't tell which straights love so much.
i know his paperwork is in the twlight zone. if i was staying in sf i'd try to deal with it but since i'll be in nl awhile i won't. i expect it to bite me in the ass some day but such is life.
they'll do an inspection of the apt again but god knows when. they send warning and unless things have changed i do not need to be there or sign anything. so once we have a date/time eric can just go out for the day. i'll most likely be back in nl by then.

after the meeting i took dvds back then eric and i saw sunshine. claud gave us some free tickets which was cool.

an angst riddled doomed space flt. i was amused by the casting of the guy who plays the human torch in a movie about reigniting the sun. michelle yeoh was in it too as a woman obcessed on plants. the main guy was the lead from 28 days later. i'd have loved to have done the asian capt or the indian shrink. both were HOT. ( no pun intended.)
a interesting if predictable ride. tho the monster was a tad unbelieveable. (the insane capt of an earlier ship who was VERY hard to kill.)
needless to say everyone dies but they save the earth. i liked the shot of the kids building a snowman by the sydney opera house.

later i had a lovely dinner with ray and scott at chow. afterwards we did drinks at pilsner.
it was good hangingout with them like old times.

afterwards i watched another of the new miss marple dvds with eric. they seem to have gotton the tone better by the 2nd season. it walks the thin line between mystery and camp with SHAMELESS plot devices.
i like them overall except ironicly for miss marple herself. i hate her voice. i just pretend she's not suppose to be miss marple and go with it.
i'm amused that 3 out of the 4 shows i've seen so far have a lesbian subtext.
( and not that sub really.) tho only 1 in which the lesbian is NOT the killer.

i saw my ent dr and had my sinuses checked and ears cleaned. things are as ok as the can be given chronic conditions.

david called to say goodby before he left for texas.
i talked to rene. he's tired but fine.

otherwise just hungout at the store doing email. i have to return dvds later and figure out if i'm seeing lynn tonight. i do miss having dinner with eric more often. his cooking is FAB.
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my left foot [Jul. 31st, 2007|04:23 pm]
thurs i made several dr apps then eric and i visted the bookstore. i just caught up on news and picked up all the things rene ordered. of course he has more coming in. when i go back to nl they'll be 1 bag just of his stuff.

later i went over to lynn's and we met christopher&billy with various of thier friends for thier goodby dinner at le med. c/b both look great. i love christopher's new back piece.

it was a good size group. VERY fun tho i only knew a couple of faces from the old stud. they knew my face too. lynn had a nice time also. it was a very eurotrash evening in that dinner took hours. there were even 2 french women.

afterwards lynn and i went home, had sex then he fell asleep. it was my 1st night to stay over all night. of course i did not sleep any. it went ok tho. lynn is by far the litest and most sensitive sleeper of my bf.

fri morning we got a tram downtown together. he went to work and i went home and took a nap then got TONS of meds at my pharm, talked with the nurse at my derm., made a dentiest app and did safeway.

i checked out old navy since i needed underwear. they are having some good sales so i got some nice tees. i got lynn a nice red one. i also gave him a purple tee i had. purple and red are his fav colours.

eric baked an orange sponge cake with melted orange sugar glaze for the harry potter party at the bookstore. ( later he baked one for me too.)
we ate catfish for dinner then i went over to pick lynn up. eric and george went to the store together. lynn's legs are very frail so even going to 20Th&valencia from church&market is tireing for him and we took the 22 bus part way at that.
it was a busy event. it even had a few adorable kids. some dressed as harry etc.
LOTS of cookies.
it was fun. tho tireing for lynn so he left early. eric and i helped clean up and stayed late. jude gave us a ride home.

sat lynn had a work related seminar again then i met him about 3pm.
we checked and yes, the fancy candy store on 16th is still open. we had been wondering since the company was sold. then we did a stroll in the castro. i was noting the stores that have come or gone while i've been gone. it was ONLY 5 monthes !
the stores were having street sales. i almost bought a fun tee at injeanous but they only had 1 left which fit perfectly but since it would shrink in the wash i actually needed a larger size.
we bopped in&out of various stores.
i said hi to marcus at superstar. they have dr who season 2 !
i'll HAVE to see those while here.
i confirmed my fav french porn dvd is a BITCH to get in usa.

lynn finally got to take me to the new fancy candy store on castro he's been telling me about. it's nice tho $. he got us some candy. it was good. we did a walk in the nursery garden afterwards and ran into paul&brian which was very nice. they both look good.
we all did worn out west but found nothing.

lynn and i stuck our heads in the edge to see if some friends of his were there but they were not. most likely up at the river. he took me out for an early dinner at firewood.

welcome to hiv and middle age. i'm use to him running down easily and early but I got SOOOO tired at dinner too.
the sun, warmth, food and walking....
afterwards we just window shopped our way back home, tho we stopped at walgreen's and all american boy on the way, and took a nap.

after a nap and sex i just went home.

sun i went over at noon. we figured out more OR less how to burn cds on his laptop. he's not sorted out the nero issue yet but there's another program on it. i'm not use to it and niether is he but with some fiddling it seems to work ok.

we met his friends mike and mark for brunch at octavia lounge. a VERY gay/trendy lib hetro eatery. it has a grand piano for god's sake. nice if upmarket place. cute waiters. the food is ok tho the service was almost DUTCH in slowness. tho much friendlier. it took over an hour for our food to come. tho i was getting bored, lynn and i were basicly like 'whatever' and unstressed. mike and esply mark are not the kind of fags to put up with it. so we got a BIG discount on our bill which was nice to be honest. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not a dutch thing.
it was actually a nice time and mike and mark seem nice enough, not a couple just friends, and it seems they like me. of course they were checking out the new guy lynn's dating.
mike use to live in nl back in julianna's riegn. i suspect i really have nothing in common with them. i suspect mark would wear on my nerves in long term exposure. mike is from ohio and i suspect would wear somewhat better.

afterwards we did a walk to the castro. we ran into scott. he looked good if tired just after geting off work.

i stopped in the cove to catch up on gossip with solange while lynn, mike and mark had dessert somewhere and then a drink at the edge.
later lynn rejoined me with solange at the cove. we had cake there too.

afterwards we just went home and had sex then a nap.

it was a VERY eurotrash day. basicly just sitting eating, drinking and chatting at cafes all day and sex. it feels like all i've been doing since i've got back is eating and having sex.

tho i feel oddly hyper. i have so much to do and while i have managed to do a fair amount i feel pressed for time. i can't quite settle down. i've not been able to focus on tv at all, really read or listen to my new cds much. ( tho the new macy gray is FAB. only 1 bad song.)

mon i'm seeing my shrink, going to och and david comes by after work at 7pm to take me to dinner at chow or somesuch then sex. tho i feel too drained of semen to cum really.

after i did email at the library mon i visted gail at my clinic. she'll be in nl in aug visting her neice so we may do a cafe or somesuch. the neice lives in a small town outside den haag.

then i got bart and visted och in berkeley and caught up on all the news. i got the new scott lynch book.

afterwards i came back home and david picked me up for dinner. he took me to chow. despite being uber trendy and an in place i've always liked the food there even tho i feel i should disaprove.

afterwards we went to his place and had hard, hot sex. it seems causing someone pain can give me a hard on even if i'm tired. :)

cum all over the sheets.

he's going to a convention this weekend so will miss dore ally. tho i should hookup with him fri afternoon.

it's funny how i come to sf and everyone leaves.

david will be gone much of next week, will be back a week then leaves for 2 weeks. ( he wants to take me to catch for dinner while he's back. i've always been curious about the food there. he say's it's good.)

lynn is leaving mon for a week to a family wedding in salt lake.

dan is going to berlin and stockholm for 2 weeks for his b-day and to see his swedish bf.

david drove me home and i watched a dvd with eric.
dubarry was a lady. cole porter, 1943. gene kelly, red skelton and lucielle ball with tommy dorsey and various noted side actors.

somewhat dated in that many of the pieces are too slapstick and/or of the moment to age well but it was 2 classic songs and various fun ones. FAB wardrobe!
it does also has some really nice bits.
VERY fun if not a 'great' musical. it was thought of as fun lite froth even in it's day. i suspect somewhat rewritten from the b-way play. ( i can hear cole in the background saying...SOMEWHAT !?)

as a side note 1 thing i did watch on tv was the new version of miss marple bbc is doing. while it has top notch production values i must say i'm not overly impressed by it.
the actress playing jane while certainly not really YOUNG is really too young and spry for the role. she wears makeup and hair tint for god's sake. she's PLAYING older not BEING older. when she does knitting it comes across as something the script say's to do not a natural act.
( jane knits all the time while figureing out who the killer is.)
she also talks too much and the overall pace and tone verges on the camp at moments. old school british mysteries need timing and pace to work well.
the sense of time&place feels fake. (uk 1951-1953)

i figured out who the killer was and how she would kill herself, that the wrong body was in the grave and who the war scared veteran really was.

i will admit no one really does killer lesbian nuns anymore. tho her eyebrows were a tad too well plucked for either a nun or a lesbian.
her motive threw me at first but of course, she's a TV lesbian nun so is both too well made up and a yet a killer in a habit. ( the 1st dead girl was in love with a boy not her and the other 2 victums were by products as it were.)

tues i just did errands then met lynn after work. we napped, had sex then just got stuff from safeway to throw in the microwave. i burned some cds after dinner then went home.

i rewatched can-can. 1960, cole porter. frank, shirley, louis, maurice, juliet.
RATHER rewritten from the org b-way play.
FAB classic songs.
i always wanted to like this better than i do overall.
it's REALLY about censorship with a slight side dish of class issues.
basicly it just reminds one that straights are stupid but gay's can write great songs and set up good dance numbers.

wed eric is seeing his eye dr. he's started taking his meds and better care of his health. i'm just running around. i MAY see a movie by myself just do to timing. movies in nl vs sf, if eric's seen it or if i can drag rene to it.

i have 2 bf, 2 ex's and 2 fb but i still might see a movie alone ?
HELLO !

wed night lynn and i MAY go to a leather sex party if he's up to it. he's lending me some leather to wear. if he's not up to it i may skip it as i'm not TRUELY pressed about it. a sex party were one HAS to wear clothes seems rather stupid to me.

wed i just did errands and did not have time to catch a movie. lynn cancelled on going to the party which i somewhat expected. he rarely goes out because he's so tired after work. he just rested.
since i had a costume i went anyway. it was more crowded than i expected. tho i suspected dore ally week would be a good time to go.
i carried off the boots, black jockstrap, leather vest with tatts and bodyfur look rather well if i do say so myself. the guys seemed to like it. it was all adults so the tummy was not an issue.

lots of clones.
a few hotties. i did not notice any true trolls but they may have been in the dark.

david was there and we had a HOT, INTENSE time. after he left i briefly played with 2 guys in a social passing way as it were. 1 wanted me to be sub but i was not in the mood and i suspect the other had a few drinks beforehand. very nice and sweet but if I can smell the oder with MY nose................

michael was there and we said hello.

then i met chip. TALL and built with it. old school clone mustash but sexy anyway. from sacromento but lives here. it was his 44th b-day.
LOVES kissing and very good at it. fav things are kissing, having his cock stroke by a hand wearing a leather glove and titplay. very gentel, sweet and twisted.
had a whole kidnapp fantasy etc going.
he had leathergloves with him for me/whoever to wear.
it's always the quiet ones.
a nice, fun time. he shot all over my fur.

it ended not too late as these are mostly 9-5 working girls i suspect.

at home eric had taped a csi ny i had not seen and i also watched road to utopia. bing, bob and dorthey do the alaskan gold rush. not the best of the road films but it has surprisingly good music.

thurs i had a 9am dentest app. i was SO tired.
my dr was a cute, nice, chinese CHILD. he looked 14 !
he did a good job tho clearly new at it. basicly my teeth are ok. the 2 baby teeth are shockingly firm still given NO roots. i have a slightly deformed jaw hing but not shockingly so. i already knew.
it's why i can only open my mouth so wide and not more. i've learn to compensate very well thank you.

afterwards i took some dvds back and ran into tim, an old social friend. we caught up and had lunch on church st. then scott called and we hungout at flore much of the afternoon then did crossroads and walgreen's. afterwards i went home to take meds and pick up lynn's leathers.

i took them over. while there paul called to cancel dinner because brian was ill so lynn and i had sex, lynn's penis was in my hand when paul called anyway so....
then we got stuff from safeway for another microwave at home dinner. it was nice. we had dinner while watching bette midler in divine madness which i 1st saw as a young whore in the hollywood hills at a porn producer's house while him and my fb snorted coke and i had strawberry candy.

later i burned cds while we watched george michael vidios.

fri i was going to do email at the library but it was booked the whole day so i said hi to the girls at the bookstore instead. then i went over to david's for some surprisingly intense sexs. i thought i might not have much energy but.........it seems i'm in a phase where i like guys to go down on me. ( i've been having that with lynn too.)

afterwards he took me to dinner at yum yum. we thought about a dvd but he had to pack for his trip and i wanted to use the computer so we skipped it. scifi has dr who on so he saw it for the 1st time. it's season 3 repeats now here that i've seen already.

since david's offered to pay for 1/2 my next tatt i tried to book my old tattoo artist but he's booked till oct. oh well.

david is trying to get them to give him the facial filler stuff like mike is getting so has shaved his mustash off briefly, he looks very different. i can not honestly say he looks bad but i MUCH prefer him with it.

he drove me home and i sorted through my books and clothes some then watched part of the tony awards eric taped.
gay ?
i did love the number of partners sitting together and kissing when one won.
gays do broadway and straights kill. evolution in action.

sat morning i had an EARLY app with a foot dr. well, the bad news is i'm losing fat tissue in my foot due to prolonged hiv nerve damage and one of the ligaments in the bottom of my foot is strung FAR too tight even for a ocd queen like myself. it's causing pain and damage.( i'm short forming this from alot of latin i can not say much less spell.)
walking is becoming an issue as is the pain.
the maybe good news is he THINKS we can make an adjustment to my inserts to deal with it. i'm suppose to call GH mon. timing is going to become an issue since i leave the 17th and GH is not known for timeliness.

i'm losing my big toenail due to a fungus so i'll get meds for that mon at the pharm. when/if i kill the fungus it will fall off and a new one SHOULD grow back.
( i suspect i may have picked it up at the sauna tho it's only affecting 1 toe so who knows.)

afterwards i came over to lynn's. we watched some rocky&bulwinkel dvds, i burned some cds then i blindfolded, tied and handcuffed him to his 4 poster bed and worked him off.

after we rested we had a walk in the castro to do errands etc. we hit all the useual places.
we had an early dinner at the thai place on 19th/castro. we ran into a bunch of his old friends including a hot guy he briefly dated YEARS ago.
we had ijs afterwards and walked home in the BRISK wind. a VERY sf evening.
once home we had more sex and cd burning.

sun morning he's doing errands then coming to my place to go to dore ally together. eric may join us.

i'll send this off now and start the next one with dore ally.
with lynn gone all next week i'll have even more limited web access since the library seems booked alot but i SHOULD have some here and there.
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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2007|04:21 pm]
sat i got a tram from simon's to cnest. at 1st i expected it to not be much fun given i was tired, my foot hurt, high humidity and it was later than i normaly go but then i met a cute sexy japanese guy who loved to be rimmed.
he came with my tongue up him which is always nice.

then i met marcel. around my age, shaved head, goatee, glasses, hairy. we were really into each others bodies.
he was a HOT fun time. we were both soaking wet with sweat afterwards.

after him i hooked up with a tall dutch sexgod. an example of when the dutch cliche body type works out perfectly. TALL, lean, cock like a third leg, big balls, lean but nice ass, some slight body hair, nice face. he was VERY fun. LOVED having his cock sucked and his ass eaten.

lastly i met a stocky middle aged arab, i believe, of some type.
nice guy and nice cock. tho it basicly just ended up a lite fisting scene.

marc was also there so i said hi and i met david, 33, a chinese american stew out of dc.
no sex just gf chitchat.

sun i skipped cr and just rested.
later i was going to the web but the girls were out at cafe cnest so i hungout there rather awhile. it was a fun social time. then simon showed up. he had had a nice time at sm fri and with his family sat.
so we all hungout for a bit longer then the girls scattered and simon and i did cnest.

still not at it's best between the humidity and the construction.
i bopped around a bit but the vibe was not happening so i did web. i chatted with milton, ray, bram, joop and kemal among others.
joop is going to portugal for vaction this week. david and the dogs are already there.
egge is on vacation now.
ray is not doing a web boat in the parade this year. he did not do last year either.

this year there is a soccor game the same day as the parade so the city in it�s wisdom has cut back on alot of the things gays can do for fear of violence from the straights.

note that they are not afraid several hundred thousand homos will be violent but that several hundred straights will be. so they cut back on the gay stuff but not the straight.
thus the basic difference between our peoples.
ah, biology and evolution in action.

sun was one of the few times i actually liked the web�s airco given the humidity.

i found out fritz just died of a heartattack. he was the ex handyman at web.

i met david, 50+ at a guess, VERY hairy, into tit torture among other things. he has a very skilled mouth. gave both a great bj and rimming.
english but has lived here 30yrs. has a hubby of 17yrs named rob. latin or somesuch background.
david and i had a hot fun time playing and had a fun 3way with another brit.

afterwards we were hanging out and elliot came in. we chatted a bit since i've not seen her in ages. she's doing well.

sun during the day rene went to the gay bookstore. a. maupin was there with his hubby reading from his new book. rene got to shake his hand and bought the book and had him sign it to both of us.
it was sweet. rene thought it was cool to meet him. i was amused since he NEVER reads books. not once in the 4yrs we've been together. he only does photo/design books and mags. he likes books for thier covers mostly.
tho he read tales of the city when he was young and was impressed.

mon i just did errands. i got lynn and eric fancy candy, rene got me the new j. carey to read on the plane. i also got a new blue hoodie at h&m and a cool new duckie keyring. when you squeeze it�s wing it qaukes and it�s mouth is a surprisingly bright flashlight. i�m amused that i finally got around to regetting keyrings for both sets of apt keys a day or so before i leave again. i just put a ah ring i had around on simon�s.

i met bas at qh for dinner. i got there a few mns early to say hi to jeld. jeld is doing well. he had a fun family reunion.

bas and i had a drink and chatted with jeld. it started to POUR the rain so we had another. the last few days has been on/off brief periods of HEAVY rain.
bas is doing well all in all.
working alot for a white dutch guy. (45 hrs a week)
he�s single. he�s a tad over his job but he does not know what he wants to do with his life.
has dutch ennui.

we ate at eat mode which was good. we got lots of food. all veggie for him and mostly meat for me. he had saki too.
then we did coffie and ijs on n-markt.
there was the classic old school amsterdam moment when the hippie junkie came and nodded off at one of the tables over his guiter.
afterwards i walked met hem ga narr thuis.
we may do the purse musuem together when i get back.

i briefly chatted with lynn. his aunt died so he�s in id with family.

i chatted with eric. he liked the new harry potter movie.

tues i met peter at cnest at 1pm. it was the first time in 5yrs i had been basicly the 1st person in the bar. ( + peter and staff of course.)
tho i�ve almost been the last person out a time or two over the years. it was also the cleanest and freshest smelling i�ve ever seen it. tho the web is better.

peter�s doing ok.
he�s writing alot.
today he was meeting the photographer he�s working with on his new book.

of course back to the timing concept. him and hubby are redoing thier apt so will be staying in a�dam for 4weeks while i�m away.


we got the best room in the huis and left the door open.
1st a hot guy of some type of medd background watched us while stroking himself then a handsome guy joined him.
after they played awhile then drifted off the handsome guy who turned out to be an aussie joined us. he was nice tho mostly about sucking cock which was fine.
then a HOT SEXY dutch guy joined in. short, lean, huge cock and lean taunt hairy ass. another perfect if shorter example of when the dutch body type works well.
then a HOT SEXY american joined us. shaved head, funky goatee/beard, hairy, lean, LOVED hard titplay, good kisser, VERY fun.
there were also a ok looking middle aged guy and an ok-ish tho older guy with BIG balls in the background off&on. no one was pressed about them but they were nice enough and not annoying and actually the aussie was ok with the big balls thing.

after a couple of hours of that peter and i played by ourselves and came. he worked my tits well.
overall 3hrs or so of sex.
THIS i why i like living in europe and LOVE being gay.
a FAB why to spend an afternoon as only we can.

after peter went to get his trein i got a milkshake and hopped a tram to simon�s to do email and leave the keys. he's helping with his sister's garden today.
it had been spotty rain earlier but the afternoon was lovely.
i was thinking of any last mn items to get but could think of nothing. i�m mildly worried that only 1 and a 1/2 books for the plane is not enough.

i started packing last night. amusedly even tho i�m taking almost NO clothes or toiletries back i�m worried about the weight limit. i�m bringing gifts back for various folks.

tonight i think rene and i will go out for dinner.
i have to get rene up EARLY wed and pack last mn stuff. i also have to make note that the ticket machine�s at cs often have issues with bankcards in typical dutch uselessness, i mean usefullness. i�ll have to make sure rene has cash on him which will be added time.
given how little i sleep i�m going to be trashed on the flt.
wed night after i get in i have to do walgreen�s. then hopefully rest then go to a sexparty. i hope to see either friends from the uk or lynn thurs then the harry potter book party fri. there�s also my dr and other things in there.
readjusting to the downstairs guy�s rap music vibrating the walls will be interesting.

tues rene and i had dinner at eat mode then ijs on n-markt. it was all lovely.

of course i fell asleep just before the alarm went off wed morning.
we actually made good time tho between getting up, out, tram, trein, check-in.
we hungout at a cafe till i had to go through security.

it was a FULL flt and nl has finally started dealing with security. the crowd to board the plane was SOOOOOOO long we left 1/2hr late. ( tho still got in sf more or less on time oddly.)
they were actually doing much of the security checking there at boarding instead of beforehand.

there was a uk couple with 2 cute little girls i hungout with while waiting. hazel and brianna. lots of kids in general.
there were several cute gay couples. 1 HOT pair.

i lucked out. i was in a center seat which i HATE but it was in the very back tail section so there were in fact only 2 seats side by side back there so i had more room than a normal 3 seater and on the window side too.

i had one of those comparing usa vs nl moments. the guy sitting next to me was there with his 3 kids, wife, brother and cute twin nephews. the family was speard out all over the place due to crowded flt.
from the ukraine but they live in sacramento and have been here 3yrs.
he spoke english ok enough but can not read it.
on no level would he much less the family be allowed in nl.

the flt went surprisingly ok and seemed fairly quick all in all.
it was odd but nice that it was fulltime daylight the entire time.

sfo was the busyest i've seen it in ages and there was a mt of bags but i got out in good time and got bart right away.

i just went home. eric was there as he had overslept his dr app.

i did a walgreen's run, safeway, vacumed, dusted and showered then rested.

i had been going to go to a sexparty but lynn was at work late and called and came over. we had thought about going together but ended up just having sex ourselves and skipping the party.
it was really good to see him.

ok girls, i'm sending this out now unfinished. i'm useing lynn's hp laptop and it has now TWICE eaten what i wrote but in a completely new way i've never had a computer do. it did not eat ALL of the letter just the latest section. maybe it has a word limit ?
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(no subject) [Jul. 31st, 2007|04:19 pm]
so, my reading glasses came apart which makes writing this a bitch. reading is also now out. it will make the flt a BITCH. it SHOULD be simple to fix them. it�s only a missing screw i THINK but this IS nl so i�m not holding my breath.
eyeglass places are closed on mon anyway.

bad timing, i could just have simon take them to where he got his glasses but this week he�s busy thurs and the other days the place will be closed by the time he�s off work.

fri i just stayed in with rene. the weather was iffy and i was tired anyway. i just rested till he came to bed.

sat the weather was very sf like. dry, sunny but with a wind. sweatshirt&sunglasses weather.

the day started out tediously. i was going to meet mike but i waited an hr and no show. he tends to be late anyway, however i was over it. so i did the best thing to get him to show up. i went home. he got to the cafe about the time i got back to the apt.

it had been the classic he got to dhcs only to find he left his wallet at home so had to go get it and missed the trein. of course this was after i talked with him and we changed the time from 2:30pm to 3:30pm in the 1st place.
so basicly we hooked up at 5pm-5:10pm.

i gave him farthing as a late b-day gift. ( which i had actually forgotton at my place so ironicly it worked out that i went back.)

we did bijenkorp then walked up warmoe-st. we checked out a gay art show at mr B then chatted with maurice awhile at ROB. after that we hungout outside at the angel awhile having drinks and people watching. i saw a few guys i knew.

mike is ok but is working alot. it�s zomer so the dutch all go on vacation and leave the expats and immigrants to work.

he�s started having treatments to fill in some face sinking he�s gotton from the hiv/meds. he does not have it badly but he has a triangled fox shaped face. which is still better than the dutch have to deal with. MANY MANY hiv+ dutch gays have it badly due to the lack of any body fat in the 1st place.
amusedly with my round fat body it only shows up on me when i�m trying to die.

there�s no effect noticable with mike�s treatments yet but it�s a slow thing and should be somewhat subtle anyway when it takes effect.

it is interesting, i have noticed the slight changes hiv/meds have done to his body since we 1st met.
he�s still hot mind you.

after the angel we ate at eat mode. it was good. then we had ijs and coffie on the n-markt.

after that we did cnest.

we hungout a bit then mike went downstairs. i never saw him again.
i know he had to have gotton the trein back to den haag at some point. he had bike riding sun so i�ve not caught up on who he did yet.

after he went down i did too and i had a FAB time with a short, stocky, dark skinned, VERY, VERY hairy indian. a tad young for me. still in his 20�s i suspect but he knew what he wanted and looking like that he got it.

he loved having his meaty, HAIRY ass eaten out and shortish but hard cock sucked. he was very nice too.

VERY VERY HOT & SEXY !

did i mention he was indian and VERY, VERY hairy ?

after that i waited around for mike awhile then basicly wrote him off and met mario.
we had noticed each other earlier. VERY VERY HANDSOME. the kind of guy who would never notice me in sf because i�m not hot enough or not butch enough. THIS is why i like gay europe.
he was wearing rather more leather than i tend to go for. full harness even.
however he was actually very fun, nice, amusing and skilled.

i�ve not done s/m in awhile. it was fun.

he�s swiss, from zurich so speaks german in that cute swiss manner and english. tho his folks are from italy. they moved to ch in the 50�s. he�s now teaching himself italian. 43, works in a bank, shaved head, dark goatee, tho hairless body which is a shame. he wishes he were hairy too.

he say�s geneva is just as boring as i recall but that lausanne is more interesting now. tho we both agree zurich is the most fun.
sadly he tells me the only bar i clearly recall in zurich is no longer there. he loved it too. it�s now a susi bar with orange decor, bright lights and hetro girls.

it clamed to be the oldest gay bar in europe. i won�t try to spell it�s name.
hetros trash everything.

we played at cnest a long time then he asked me back to his hotel. he was staying at the anco.
i love gays. when we came to his room his neighbors across the way were having sex. one with his ass spread open with his friend�s face buried up it.

we had a fab time ourselves. chair, floor, bed. you know the score.
spanking, tit torture, he even had a few fingers up me. i was used and abused.

he was cool with my rule of lite on the balls. also that i prefer being spanked by hand not with a strap.

i left covered in cum.

sun i did sos. it was boppier than i expected given that weather was actually rather nice.
LOTS of hot guys.
derk jan, paul, mario, don, hans (h/r) were there.

i chatted with them awhile.

don and i had a FAB time playing. he�s always SOOOOOO good.
nice, skilled, ok sense of humor for a dutchman and as emotionaly distant as a vulcan.
uuummm smell the compartmentalisation.
which of course is an added turn on for me.

i hooked up a bit with john ( or maybe jeff ?). very stocky, hairy, goatee with lower face stubble, almost shaved head, ginger hair. has a pa.
i could tell he was either british or american from across the room. both from his looks and the fact that while he was naked he still came across as hesitent.
i was right on both counts. he�s scottish but has lived the last 10yrs in.........sf.
i think i�ve seen him around before.
nice guy tho the pa was not working for me and the sexual heat never really ignited with us overall so we just chatted a bit in the end. he�s in nl for a seminar.

then i met tadhg. amusedly him and mario had played earlier.
i�ve seen tadhg around for ages and was always interested but he never seemed to notice. well, he finally did.
SO cute and sexy. 45, a math teacher in den haag, irish, he also use to live outside dc. almost shaved head with balding pattern, goatee with lower face stubble (it's the new trend), red hair, pale skin and freckles, really nice, fun to talk with and play with. loves titplay and rimming.
is rather insecure about his body for some reason. he�s cute and hot but does not have a perfect glossy magazine look. this bothers him. a�dam paul has the same issue.
has a tad bit of guilt since he�s irish.
maybe a slight touch of add.

we hungout till close then had a drink at cnest before he had to catch his trein.

rene vz was there so we hungout a bit. rene vz has moved from oost to near the maritime museum. he seems really happy about it. of course he still has the cats. they were less than amused by the move it seems.

after tadhg left i did the web.
derk jan, ton&michael and leo were there among others. i made out with ton some. bas was there so we sat down and talked and spent time together. it was nice.
after bas left i bopped around a bit but my tits were sore to touch and my cock&balls were as downy soft as a labia and just as unlikely to get a hard on, tho i love that sinfully sticky feeling, so i left and got a milkshake.

i could have played with ton some but he had had enough drinks to get to that stage were i find him mildly annoying. he can get into dom/sub games but he thinks HE�S the dom. he�s dutch so he�d not really understand if i simply snapped his wrist. ( i have pointed out that while we have the same name i�m NOT his husband.)

i went thuis and had dinner with rene while watching a tony bennett concert on bbc.
it was good. yes, he�s 80 and his voice is not what it was in say 1964 but he mostly does VERY good and still has moments of pure artistry.
some long or high notes showed age.
jamie cullum was in the audence.
it was in a very lovely setting at a old remodeled church.

sat the new library opened. since mike was in town i did not go. i may do so today. it�s in the center but tedious to get too. so far the general feeling seems to be that the building�s cool but yes, it�s a mildly tedious location.
of course it�s off&on rain today. (it later turned sunny)

2 best tee shirts i saw over the weekend were......fuck the pain away & i am an analoge.

of course while i�m in sf rudi will be in nl.
i ran into milton. he looks very good i have to admit. he�s changed his face/head hair and was not dressed butch. he�s planning on moving to berlin.

some friends from the uk are in sf and leave JUST after i get there so hopefully we can hookup thier last night in town.

steve from nyc with be in nl briefly while i�m gone too.

claud will be in seattle when i get to sf.

timing, timing, timing.

so, this is my 1st section from the new library.

the walkway over from cs gives you that feeling of approching a monument. most of the island is still dirt and constrution.

the oba is on ode. :)

( in dutch oba are the letters for public library amsterdam and ode stands for eastern dock island.)

it's actually rather nice for a public space. it's very big by nl standards. the largest in nl.
UBER modern. white, light, airy. much better seating than the old one all also in various uber modern styles. you know how all those 70's scifi films thought the future would look ? well it does.

tho it shows dirt easily. in fact i'd bet my last tcell they just did not bother mopping after the floor was put down.

there's a nice cafe and viewing deck on top.
it's working healthy natural foods tho the view is lovely.

lots more public computers which is nice, you can spend longer time on them and the keyboards are new so i can read them without glasses. yes, being in the library with no glasses is tedious on my eyes.

it�s open much longer hours and you need no longer check your purse in. there�s a few bits of modern art thrown about the place as is common here.

tho they do not actually have anything new in yet. it's all the same stuff from the old library. the new set up to find things is mildly tedious but one will adapt in time. there's no longer a new arrivels section so it's harder to keep track of new stuff they'll get in. one section of the cds is in a RATHER dark area which will make reading the titles even WITH glasses amusing.

of course the dutch relationship with alphabetizing has always been casual at best anyway.

lableing too. the very 1st thing i noticed here was a june christy cd labled as johnny lee hooker.
( hell, for YEARS they've had a cj cherryh book with rimrunner labled as the writer. tho rimrunner WOULD be a fab last name.)

7 floors tall. top one is service stuff, then cafe, the rest library. it's bigger than sf's library. in general about the size as i recall vancouver's.

it's not THAT bad to get to tho it does take more effort. you can't just bop over. ESPLY when it's cold or raining heavyly.
tho it could be FAR worse.

there's the saying all roads lead to rome. in the dutch mind set it's all roads lead around rome. getting TO rome is the hard part.

i'll hang out here FAR FAR less than i did but overall i do like it.
i suspect i�ll be here more if i end up back in school here and/or finally comes the day i no longer have keys to simon�s apt to use the computer.

afterwards since it�s so close i bopped by qh and said hi to jeld.

i was going to get a milkshake but the line was absurd so i just got a dvd, did ah and went thuis.

rene saw a film then came thuis and did dinner.
we watched a korean movie called the host.

seems it�s one of the big asian films at the moment.

dead children is never EVER one of my favs things but stepping back from that it�s actually a very interesting movie.
tho i HATED parts of it.

VERY good if not truely great cgi. grim yet has moments of humor. does a riff or two on other asian films and has a bit of a polictical slap too.

of the things one notes most is that while the monster is bad and dangerous the straights are mostly worse. in the end big bad was just hungry.
the gov/military/drs etc PLANNED thier actions against people.

also one should note having an archer in the family can be usefull.

today i did errands. mostly on the overtoom.
among other things i got cookies and candy at a uk food store and got my glasses fixed. the lady at the store recommanded a place. it was free even. the guy was nice enough in a dutch manner. i was working tourist. ( i�m not expected to have paperwork that way. sugar, you should hear my accent.)
they are still looser on one side so i expect it�ll just be a temp job but hopefully it�ll work till i�m in sf.

i�ll be at simon�s tonight since he�s busy thurs. he�s got a big out of town work related meeting thurs after work.

i talked to eric. he may be getting a cold.

i was going to try to see shrek3 but i just lost the energy to be pressed about it.

at simon�s we just rested, listened to music and did dinner.

we watched madonna at live earth on youtube. she was good. more real energy actually than on her tour. of course the concert was a one off instead of being the 16th or whatever city on a tour.

later we had good sex. i had a feeling we would.

his last day of work is fri then he has vacation.
it�s a shame i�ll be gone for it or we could have done field trips to other nl cities.
he�s just going to stay home and do nothing except catch up on his new age stuff etc. he�ll be with his mom and some of his siblings this weekend.
wed night after i fly out him, hans & his bf and kaj are all going to see m. peyroux in concert.

i got several insect bites last night. simon likes to leave the balcony door open.

wed it was gray all day with on/off rain. i just rested and got some sleep.

thurs i just bopped around a bit doing errands then stayed in at night. we watched ghost rider.
it�s a comic book and the reason god made dvds.
cage is too old for the role and veres between trying to make it serious and imitating elvis.
peter fonda as the devil is a nice touch.
not pressing in any way, shape or form but a fun ride if your willing to just let go.

rene�s abcess seems to be healing well. we caught it just as it hit full blown abcess.
it�s lucky i had meds from sf with me.

when i get back i�m making him take an hiv test. if we get married he�d have to anyway.

speaking of which, i�m out of meds again. i�ll be in sf in a week so it�s not THAT bad. tho i worry more about the off/on short breaks than the long ones actually.
long ones can clean out your system but short ones can just throw things off.

last night i had trouble sleeping even by my standards.
lately it�s doing that gray, overcast with lite misting rain but RATHER humid thing. any kind of covering is too much inside or out. sweatshirt, blankie or robe.

fri i did cnest. it was so nice out that bas, uk peter, sander and maurice among others were outside at the cafe tables. we all hungout awhile. bas and i are meeting for dinner mon at 7:15 at qh. it�s near his place and also both eat mode and new king and will also give me a chance to say hi to jeld too.

after they bopped to the web i went downstairs.
part of it is now closed off for a redo so the flow of traffic is off.
it was not that boppy due to fab weather but i hooked up with an old trick who really wanted to play with me again which was sweet. tall, stocky, hairy, boyish face tho in his 30�s. we hooked up after my �show� recently.
his cock and balls remind me of a really cute teapot and spout. a fun nice shape to suck.
seems a sweet guy and fun to play with. he shot on my chest without touching himself.

after him it was rather lame so i did web.
also not too boppy but ok. i chatted with bert and kemal. upstairs there was nothing pressing so i went home to have dinner.

i started water and whiskey by bear. i like it.

as useual rene did not come to bed to 5am or so.
thus sat i was 1/2 blind from tiredness. i�m hoping in sf i can get some sleep but there i have the hetro rap boy downstairs.

we finally did the purse musuem which we�ve talked about doing for AGES.

it�s SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

some truely amazing works of art. hell, even the building is a work of art. it�s in a redone old canal mansion. we were both VERY impressed.

some really BEAUTIFUL, FAB things.
eric would have LOVED it and barry would have ejaculated all over the glass cases.

one of those things that show the difference between gay and herto men on a dva level. the only other males in the place were a very handsome gay uk couple who were both in my fav age range.
the ONLY hetro men who will ever grace it�s door are the husbands and sons draged into it by thier wives and mothers.

then we did concerto but there was nothing pressing.

some SEXY, HOT, HOT, HOT guys out and about in the nice weather.
some FINE pieces of morrocian & turkish ass on the streets. hell, some FINE if lean pieces of white dutch ass out too.

we did hema and ws then he got a dvd at fame and we went home.

i�m VERY tired and my foot is hurting but i�ll try to go out tonight. simon is at mom�s so i�m doing email here. i�m tempted to stay here tonight so i can get some sleep since rene will be up with the tv till sunrise.

i�m THINKING of doing cr sun since i�ll be in sf a month but we�ll see....
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WOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a HOT, SEXY pole !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [Jul. 31st, 2007|04:16 pm]
wed i watched ncsi. they�re now doing the old ones with kate before she was killed off. she was actually really good but i have to admit zeva does add more zing to the show.

afterwards i faxed some papers to our lawyer, he wants to see us mon, and then did cnest.
it was boppy tho not overly so as it was later than my normal arrival time. i did a turn about the place and thought i might be bored then i saw this HOT guy.
i looked at him, he looked at me........

i knew he was not dutch within seconds of first contact. he was TOO hot, sexy and sensual yet really friendly. his dutch sounded accented too. my 1st thought was french or maybe italian. maar nee, he�s polish.

marc, 40, from krakow but has lived in nl for YEARS. has worked in an italian eatery in limberg as a cook for 14yrs. tho over the years he has done other jobs there too. i told him about the cove. he lives with his bf of 14yrs out in the country 15klm from the provencial capital. they�re not married.

shaved head, goatee with a trendy cut, VERY hairy tho he trims it which i hate but it seems the bf likes.
not so much stocky as just taunt, firm and rounded. a god�s ass which he LOVES to have eaten out. he likes titplay too as well as kissing. my tits were the 1st thing he went for which tends to be a good sign.
we played rather awhile there.

we also had a 3way with a tall, hot, sexy guy too. VERY hot&fun. after tall&sexy left marc invited me back to his hotel.
you know the man is hot if i�m walking in the rain from cnest to the corner of u-st and p-gracht.
YES, he was worth it.
we walked arm in arm even.

in his room we had sex on the toilet, in the closet, on the floor and in bed. we took a break in there somewhere and had a shower. ( between floor and bed as i recall.)
i had my tongue up his ass in every position you can think of. he came with me spreading his legs like a turkey at xmas and my face rammed up his ass.
then he worked my tits like a champion.

he had a nice little room tho he did not like it really. not big or fancy but cozy and workable.

of course when i walked thuis it was not just raining it was POURING. it was like i was in the shower. once thuis i just peeled off my clothes and dropped them on the kitchen floor and took a hot shower while rene fixed dinner.

we watched a recent adaption of macbeth.
set in sydney�s mafia world of today.
high concept ?

on some levels it works better than one might expect. actually, listening to it with aussie accents makes for snarkier comments than the setting in general. i kept wanting someone to say......day mate.

(i got the idea for a canadain production of shakesphere where 1/2 the lines end in............eh.)

also as murders go i suspect i could do better. i was pictureing the csi miami or vegas crews turned loose with this crowd. ( CLEARLY pre dna testing )
one could do an essay comparing H and gil�s styles of dealing with a shakespherein murder. ( mac in csi ny is nice but lacks the dash for it i suspect. ironic since he�s the only one who�s actually done shakesphere except in school.)

the 3 witches being tattooed goth-chick schoolgirl sluts was a nice touch and
it has several hot guys in it.

it had alot of long non dialoge parts too which actually worked REALLY well if in a non shakesphere kind of way. there�s a good idea for another art film there in itself.

i can not really recommand it overall but i can not say it was truely awful either.
it helps if you have a taste for shakesphere adaptations which i do.

thurs i just slept then met simon at vonmar. he used his kado bons and got a 4 dvd box set of willeke.
willeke voor altijd.
50yrs in showbiz.
VERY fun. lots of cool old stuff.

we watched some of that but otherwise we just rested, listened to music and had dinner.
there�s at least 12hrs of willeke so even he got burned out on it after awhile.

when we went to bed we had nice, low key, before you go to sleep bf sex even tho we�re no longer bf.

afterwards since i don�t actually sleep i read the lies of locke lamora. it�s REALLY very good in it�s way tho a tad grim and clearly a straights only in charge world. ( rather like ours really.)

i forgot to mention mon was the 20th anv of me moving to sf.
scary huh ?

lynn wrote me. he had a nice tho i suspect from what he say�s not a truely GREAT time at pride. he wore his leather and marched with the 15. it tired him out of course and he only stayed briefly at the festival. he actually is not fond of crowds.

hans wrote too. he is doing very well with the hodgekins treatments. tho they make him tired. he stays home watching soap operas.

fri i just rested at simon�s.
fri night i just stayed in with the baby.

the top of my razor popped off while i was shaving and i cut my neck. not deeply and there was very little blood. i don�t think it�ll scar.

sat the season end of dr who was FAB.
i�d guessed 2 shows ago that they�d manage to undo all that the master did to earth with the paradox machine.
capt janeway erased a VERY BAD year on voyager that way too.

so, the master chose a true death .....or DID he ?
i loved the classic red nailed lady�s hand reaching into the ashes of his body and taking his signet ring. soul supository anyone ? and who�s the lady ? lucy shot him but maybe he planned it ? one could tell lucy was coming undone but it could be a deeper play. she�s one of those minor people i can see showing up again.

so, martha will be gone awhile. i must say i was somewhat surprised they are thinking of dumping her. she�s WONDERFULL.
i wonder if her and the HOT MD will get together in this timeline ?

somewhat unbelievable ending tho even given the show we�re talking about. as far as the world knows the uk pm has gone insane, just killed the usa prez then was killed himself and his body disappears.
hello !
cnn anyone ?

it IS a shame harriet jones is still dead tho. i wish they could have undone that.

i�m amused that jack may become the face of bo.

afterwards i did cnest. it was too warm and very boppy. various guys i know were there.

i met ed, a stew from charlotte nc. turns 40 on boxing day in dec. stocky, likes titplay, kissing etc. actually very fun. a very good cocksucker and you know that rarely works for me.

then i hooked up with a sexy old dutch trick and we did a show. he�s hot and skilled and i was feeling �n� myself. the guys loved it. we had rather an audence but no one tried to grab in which was nice. when we ended it we got a nice round of applasue. it was the talk of the club the rest of the night.
( it�s good for a girl�s reputation.)

after that i hooked up with a tall, stocky, hairy, sexy guy who was watching us. fun to play with and nice too.

then i played with a stocky guy who looked very bluecollar workingclass. not bad looking tho not great either. he looked the part and i have a taste for that at times. he shaves what VERY little body hair he had and it was stubbly which i dislike and he had an outy bellybutton which i find somewhat icky but actually in honesty he was nice and much more fun than i expected.

then i met denis from belgium. a hairy, sexy, leather clone. sweet and fun. he was leaving the next day.

i had a fun playtime with a sexy indian guy. rather pretty and built.

i briefly played with a cute short indo guy with a sexy body. she really wanted poppers so i let her drift off.

then ed and i hooked up again for yet more fun sex.
i was covered in cum.

after that i went thuis and had dinner.

i talked to eric. he was going to say hi to don at the eagle.

sun i skipped cr and just did cnest. they were still talking about our show sat night.

i hooked up with a tall, hairy, very sexy leather guy who is the essence of folsum/berlin style sexy.
despite his rough hairy leather look he was actually VERY nice, sensual and HOT at sex. he came all over me.

then i hooked up with an insanely HOT, SEXY dutch guy named darren. white, fab cheekbones, mid-late 30�s at a guess, amazingly sexy body, not that much hair except his pubes, nice size rock hard cock, birthmark at left corner of groin. FAB at everything. i�m not a good enough writer to really describe his face and form but you know when the human body really gels together very well.....
he�s it.
INSANELY HOT AT SEX ! we both really clicked well together. VERY fun to chat with too, he has a fun sense of humor.

after him i figured why go on so i just did web. it was very busy. among those there was bas. i wished him a belated b-day and we chatted a bit before he left.

david from london was town. he�d written me last week. we hooked up and hung out chatting and catching up. he�s doing well. he�ll be in sf in aug and i�m going to intro him to lynn.
david�s a well known organist and into leather s/m too of course.

there was a sexy american couple in. i ended up playing with the �wife�a bit in a group scene. of course the wife�s cock was bigger than hubby�s. tho hubby was hot in his own right too mind you. i wanted the wife when i 1st saw her downstairs.

jaq is getting over his 2nd cat�s death. he say�s no more children for at least awhile. he�s given away all thier toys.

otherwise it was just a gf chitchat night.

afterwards i did something i�ve not done in ages and went to argos. i was RATHER surprised how unbusy it was. i checked out the redo downstairs more than i have before. it�s not bad actually.

i played awhile with a sexy BIG dicked guy that had also been in the groupscene at the web but it became a feeding frenzy so i dropped out. later i played with another guy and that started yet another frenzy so i left that one too.
i was tired anyway so after chatting with jas some i just went thuis.

mon i got rene out of the apt and we met our lawyer in r�plein. all our paperwork is together, in order and up to date so i could hand it in to IND this week but i MAY hold off a few weeks and try to vist sf. i SHOULD be getting a letter from sfha in july and if i hand our papers into IND now i�ll be stuck in nl and then if i get a letter from sfha i�d be fucked for sure.

of course it�s the high season so tickets are insanely $.

after we saw the lawyer we went to a show about sarah bernhardt at the jewish museum. it had some FAB things. LOVELY graphics, things from her stage shows, old films she was in and a recording of her voice edison made. she was actually very shrill tho in fairness she was RATHER old by the time both film and sound recording came along so rather past her prime. she was also a very talented sculpter too. it was a cool show.

then we bopped through a bookstore and did a travel place but it was near close so they were not very together. SO nl.
we�ll deal with it later.

i was suppose to have dinner with david but he had to cancel so rene and i FINALLY did the asian fusion place we like on zeedijk. it was ACTUALLY open. it was good then we had ijs on the n-markt and hungout there awhile.

he went thuis to watch a dvd and i dropped by qh to say hi to jeld and give him some cds i burned for him. it was busy for late mon night. alex, ton, fabresio and ritchie were there among others. fabresio was VERY drunk.
jeld did cr sun and had a fun time.
i hungout there a bit then went thuis.

rene had a 4hr doco from martin scorsase(sp?)on what influenced him as a film maker. it was actually interesting and i watched part tho not all of it.

i watched the court jester. 1955 with sammy cahn songs.
danny kay, angela lansbury and glynis johns sing, dance and joke thier way through the middle ages.
VERY technicolor.
shamelessly hollywood and gleefully cribbing from everyone.
referencing among other things robin hood, king arthur, the scarlet pimpernel, the bible, the wizard of oz, snow white and tyrone powers.

not one of the great musicals but fun, lite and nothing more than it pretends to be.
there�s an adorable baby in it too.

some cool outside sets. tho cornwall looks alot like malibu it seems.

you have to like a woman who can be hiding from the bad guys in a barn, on a rainy night in about the 12c and still look FAB.
that barn had good accustics too.

tues stefan gave me a nice full body massage. a family member is ill so he�s trying to find a cheap flt to toronto but otherwise he�s ok.

afterwards i just did email at simon�s.

i talked with lynn. he�s doing well. he has a concert to sing in sun. dalton is visting his folks so lynn is apt sitting some. he may go out with friends on the 4th.

i just stayed in tues night. simon and i chatted on the phone.

i�m somewhat mildly worried about rene. he has 2 BADLY infected places on his neck. swollen, JUST short of being abcesses. they�ve not burst open.

i called my pharm in sf and he�s now taking my pills for abcesses. ( i wanted to make sure it would work for non hiv+ guys too.)
they seem to have caught it in time to stop it bursting open. i only have a 10 day supply which ironicly is the normal dose in nl. in usa it�s a 2 week dose normaly.
given how bad it is i�m worried 10 days will not be enough to kill it completely.

he did not balk a bit about taking them which was good. normaly getting him to even take an advil is like pilling a cat and unlike a cat with him i can�t even just smack his head on the floor a couple of times to loosen him up. ( i usually just hold his nose.)

he�s not had a hiv test since 1994. he was very active that summer and a guy came in his mouth. he was neg then but he does go out from time to time. tho not much in the last year or so.

as a couple we are as sexless as a pair of middle aged lesbians who have accepted the fact that a strap on is not REALLY a dick and of course there�s no drug use and he�s had no blood transfusions but as we all know shit happens. i want him to take a test again. he does not seem unwilling. tho with rene it�s often more a matter of actually getting him to get up, out of the apt and DOING something.

the weather has been an insane cycle of short periods of HEAVY rainfall then short periods of summer then.........

peter and i chatted. we half assed thought about hooking up today but he was in town for various meetings and we�d only have had an hour. i HATE rushed sex and besides i was really tired and it was during a pouring rain phase.
we�ll meet next week hopefully.

i thought about going out wed night but i was tired and it was expected to rain. it did in fact rain VERY HEAVLY most of the night but did not start till just after bar close so i could have gone out but it was ok. i napped till rene came to bed.

david in sf sent me a nice note with a nice pic. he was unsure if i still had an apt in sf so offered me his spare bedroom while i�m in sf. sweet huh ?

thurs i replanned my meeting time with simon.
rene and i bopped around. i sold some books and used the $ to get stamps and a tramkart. then we got me a planeticket to sf. this time we got a gay clerk which was nice. ( quinten jiskoot (yes, really). he was kind of cute tho a tad too gf/r-st for my tastes really. around 30yrs old at a guess. give or take 2yrs either way.)
he was much more helpfull.
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