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[Jan. 31st, 2008|04:57 pm] |
after the library tues i just got a milkshake and went home. i thought of going out but i had my purse with me which i hate taking in bars and i had sex all afternoon so i just went thuis and stayed in.
wed rene and did the library together to check out the new method of actually checking dvds/cds out. ( best done with a 'real' person around just to deal with the clerks and my lack of patence with both tech and the dutch.)
we were amused that the new eq does not really work any better than the old. SOOOOOOOOOO nl.
the new setup is needlessly complicated in true dutch fashion. they are trying to do more and more things completely automated. amusing enough in a country with no work ethic in the 1st place but downright tedious given that the tech here does not work much of the time. (in fairness MOST tech does not work right MOST of the time no matter where it is but in many places people at least ACT like it should.)
i was also amused, tho the clerk was not, when a sexy, tho with his gf, non white english speaker asked the clerk if she knew if they had a certain dvd title. she had no idea of course. then he also pointed out things were not exactly shall we say alpabetized.
again VERY nl.
i got the science of sleep. since it was THE arthouse film of last year i feel i SHOULD see it. i also got the jill scott collaborations cd.
rene got brick. an arthouse mystery flick he's wanted to see for awhile. he's already seen ....sleep.
( ....sleep is cool and WAY arty. some really nice bits tho i did want to SHAKE our 2 lovebirds from time to time.
hello ! stop being hetro twits !
it was FINALLY a happy ending tho.
i did not really watch brick but caught that the guys are sexy if TOO young
( it´s set in a high school), the story is grim and cynical and it has an interesting quiet deadpan style.)
he went to get bier at ah and then home to cook dinner. i did cnest since it was on the way home.
i hooked up with an old trick. a truely beautiful asian guy. chinese or taiwanese. speaks dutch but clearly his eerste taal niet.
nice, he came over my chest.
after that it got DULL. i decided to go home and do my hair but when i went upstairs bas and sander were there so we hungout rather awhile. alastair came in too.
most folks will be in berlin this weekend so it might be slow out and about.
frank and guido came in also.
frank and i made out rather heavyly.
then i decided to do a stroll once more and ran into hans. another hot trick from awhile back. the kind of guy who would never notice me in usa. a tad young and hot for me but nice and into my look.
kissing, titplay, fisting etc etc and even a bit of etc.
we may hookup again later.
i was tired and covered in cum so i went home and had dinner with rene.
we watched the gorgon a 1960´s uk horror flick with cushing and lee.
a tad too bad to be true fun camp.
thurs was overcast so i just stayed in then met simon at 6pm at vonmar.
we did music, some lite youtube and dinner. no sex.
fri i saw the artshow harald has work in. it's all gaymale artists. some cool stuff. tho harald's was about the coolist to be honest. sander was there too. i like some of his work tho not all. he's actually the son of a famous nl cartoonist. not my friend sander but a guy i do know from the scene tho not well. his hubby dropped by too. i forget his name.
they were part of the qh days but not closely of my clique.
they're nice tho.
fri nite i did cnest. boppy given many folks were in berlin. not as many faces i knew.
artist sander & hubby were there so i said hi.
i played with a pale latin of some type.
dark hair, smooth, nice body, glasses. only spoke spanish but being gay we worked with it.
we had fun. he came all over me with my hand up his ass.
after awhile i met marc. from utrecht, stocky, hairy, rather overdressed for cnest.
an officeworker.
VERY SEXY, VERY FUN. fun to talk with too. we really clicked well together.
of course he's married and does not do fb.
he only goes out to be a slut once a month.
as he say's, he has something to lose.
wise man since he'd make a FAB fling and i can see alot of guys wanting to see him more. i certainly would.
afterwards i just went home.
i read dzur. it was ok. like a slow episode of a tv show you used to really like but no longer really care about but have fond memories of and there's no pressing reason to change channels.
i think i only read these now because i started them at ou.
sat i just stayed in the whole day. between things being limited in nl, rene being rene etc i'm getting into that frame of mind where i have no motivation to get out of bed.
they had the xxx party at exit this time. my 1st thought was it's too small for the event. also an odd time given the parties in berlijn.
( everyone i've talked to who went has agreed. too small and too warm. tho some if not all did have fun.)
claudio called. he's back in nyc briefly. his travels make me look like a couch potato.
he'll be in sf this week for work ironicly.
he may try to stop in nl this fall if i'm here.
his fall timetable is a patchwork quilt of countries.
he did la for work recently and was shocked to find he really likes it.
work is going REALLY well.
he wants me and rene to use the nyc apt sometime. MAYBE for my b-day depending on everyone's life at the time.
i was thinking of doing either philly or london instead of the same old sf or a'dam but of course i know rene/lynn/eric would want me to be around depending on what city i'm in at the time.
( tho 40-44 were in a´dam. 39 was in london. it HAS been awhile since i did a b-day in sf. i think 38 was the last one. oddly it does not seem that long ago.)
(simon was sweet. he mentioned he thought doing the theater would be a good b-day gift for me and since i'm unsure of where i'll be it would not HAVE to be on my b-day.
amusedly he's gotton better at the gift thing as an ex than he was as a bf and as an ex he does not truely HAVE to get me anything.)
eric called JUST afterwards in an amusing bit of timing.
he's ok.
sfha inspected the apt and it seems to have went well.
of course it being eric i did note his story sounded alot like when the building owners inspected it too. they both came JUST as he was leaving. huuuummm whatever. as long as it went ok.
he's having most of his teeth pulled out at the end of the month.
he forgot about folsum when he planned it but is ok with it since it needs to be done.
he had his cell with him during some xrays so it was fucked up and had to be replaced.
he saw hairspray and LOVED it. he was GUSHING !
sun i skipped cr but dragged my ass out to the web later. i'm glad i did. it was exactly the kind of evening i moved to europe for.
VERY social.
chatted with the web girls, ton&michael, hans, sander, rene vz, loek, hiv-v peter, etc.
it was all very fun and gay and much sexual harrasment was commited.
i was not really expecting to have sex but i hooked up with arsey ( i'm sure that's NOWHERE close to it's spelling but it's how it sounds.)
from barcelonia. 40+ i'm sure.
short, petiet, slim but strong, smooth, a classic nose created to be made love to, fey but NOT passive.
the kind of guy that brings out the top in me.
he only speaks spanish and dutch. i'm seen him around some but thought he'd not be interested in me.
i think he MAY have moved here while i was in sf last year.
we exchanged a look last week and this week the vibe was there so.....
HOT & INTENSE. the way sex is in fiction.
he's small enough that he can wrap his legs around me while i'm standing and holding him.
kissing, biting, scratching, titplay, sucking, slamming against the wall.
making love to that hot nose while he moans and i spread his ass open while he's wrapped around me with his nails raking my back......
my back looked like i'd either been attacked by cats or had fucked a real girl.
(much to the amusement of the guys in the bar later.)
we played a long time. he's latin so he had a posse of gf waiting for him. they were amused if annoyed mildly with having to wait for him.
i hope we do it again but doubt we will and it's the kind of thing you can ONLY do once or twice at most and it be THAT hot. (sadly it's simply a fact of life like death and straights.)
after he left i hungout with sander awhile.
we MAY end up in bed together someday. (tho truely i doubt it as we really are friends.)
a fair amount of men wish he was not such a dedicated bottom. he easily passes for top to look at.
he's a good kisser.
it was one of those nights when we both remembered we're not always JUST gf together. ( i think me being with arsey turned him on a bit.)
he's restarting hiv meds this week. he was off for a few years. he'll be taking just 2 meds. both of which i take so we talked side effects etc.
shitting is the main fact of my life now.
he was feeling fine but starting to get tired so did bloodtests and his vload was about a million and tcells below 100.
later i met gianfranco.
53, lived here 10 months, works for the italian ministry of culture.
ok looking tho looks his age and is a tad generic looking. (nice but would be lost in a crowd.)
he was into me but was surprised i was into him.
too well dressed for web but not SO overly so as marc had been for cnest fri.
very clean smooth body, skilled tho not truely great.
we had a fun time and did info. (his email address is the patron saint of his home village. HOT !)
( he wrote, we have a sexdate sun. i have sos that afternoon so HOPEFULLY i won´t be TOO tired.)
afterwards a bunch of us watched a hot scene that was going on in the main bar.
one of those things only gays can do.
then i went home after giving kemal another break at cc.
i stopped in hl to say hi to esther. she's cut and coloured her hair. it looks nice. we chatted awhile and ray was there then i went thuis to have dinner with rene.
the computers at the library today were SO messed up they were almost physicly painfull to use.
after the library i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy.
leendert was there too.
he looks a tad run down. he's finding working at qh more tiring than he expected.
i mostly just chatted with jeld. he had fun and was fucked alot at xxx but found it too warm and small as has everyone else i've talked to about it.
he'll skip going to nyc in nov. it's too $/hard to find a room.
his sexdate last fri was FAB. 3 hot black guys at his place. hello !
i talked with lynn. him and dalton had fun in sacromento. they did the cool train musuem there philly always liked too. they think the gay area is cute if small but the guys there are TOOOOOO young.
speaking of connie francis, they got an unopened lp of her hits and are going to have her sign it for a charity action at the eagle.
lynn was put in charge of it. cool huh ? eric use to do that too when he worked at both the sf and dc eagles.
he did harrison st fair with some friends. it was a warm day and fun.
that weekend he also did a bbq with friends.
the chorus comes back from summer break this week.
he's been skipping the cove recently since the food is not all that pressing.
today i visted stefan and he gave me a fab long massage with oil.
i ended up spending the whole afternoon there. tonight rene was thinking about seeing hairspray but we have 4 dvds due back wed so...
afterwards i just dropped by the little market where i get red potatos. NOWHERE near as easy and common to get here as in usa. a shame as they are by far my favs.
the arab who runs it is nice and acts like he's in usa. he's friendly, he remembered me after i'd been gone ages, i was 10c short once and he was cool with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO undutch.
this is why they´re hated here of course.
( just for amusement he also speaks english too.)
rene and i are meeting our lawyer monday.
we watched the fountain.
i´ve read it´s a film one either loves or hates. i can see that.
eric left before the end he said because he found it dull. he had thought it more action/scifi.
rene thought it had too much symbolism for him.
i can see both thier points.
beautifly shot. it has style to spare.
it would be easy to be snarky about parts of it.
i could see snl wanting to do a parody but a real parody would have to be over much of the crowd´s head.
life, death, time, reincarnation, paradoxes.
it has some REALLY interesting ideas even if you feel it was DESIGNED to be layered and make you think about what this or that part REALLY meant.
it has moments of being as art/theater school as a sarah brightman concert.
it clearly has flaws.
( even if we ignore queen isobela´s cut glass british accent and in fact a noted lack of actual latins in 15/16th c. spain.)( the same british actress also does an american accent later in time which sounds like she´s trying NOT to have a british accent. hell, i´ve DONE that accent.)
the bit where the explorer drinks of the tree of immortality and turns into a plant is WAY cool but for a DIFFERENT movie.
it would be a fab twist ending for a outer limits type tv show.
the tree of immortality is immortal UNTO ITSELF.
however it fits akwardly into the rest of the story.
i can deal better with the scene where we have seen an event happen at the same moment in time in which the guy always makes the same choice but then events in the future cause him to finally make the OTHER chioce he could have made. which of course would alter the future the change came from.
it´s kind of star trek. capt janeway always said time paradoxes gave her a headache.
the floating man in lotus postion was TOO much.
note: even immortals die in the exploding heart of a star.
today rene and i bopped around taking back dvds. he got 2 more he wanted to see but i´ll skipp. london to brighton and infamous. both of which are suppose to be good but not my thing really.
he got me a new black hoodie at h&m since the one i´ve been wearing the last 5yrs or so is starting to look it.
we did concerto but they had NOTHING interesting.
after updating the blog as i was leaving going down the stairs simon was coming up them so i hungout here till late. we had fun sex, rested then had ijs.
afterwards i went home to have dinner with rene, watch some tv then he watched a dvd while i showered.
thurs i just rested while rene watched his dvds.
i met simon at 6pm at vonmar then we came home. his new couch came. he was able to put the frame together himself with no cussing.
i helped him move out the old couch (well, i AM an ex so that´s what we´re for.), gather the packing trash up and put the new couch in it´s place.
it looks really nice i have to admit and he´s VERY happy with it. it does not fit as far back in the window nook as the old one so there´s more space for the lamps and he´s going to buy a tall angular plant to put behind it.
it has that cool new leather smell.
we curled up on it rather awhile after we got it fixed up.
chatting, listening to music etc.
it´s taking time for the new school year to settle in. folks changing thier times, new kids etc.
we checked out connie francis cds online.
should i be worried or scared that lynn/eric/rene and simon are all connie fans to one degree or the other ? (most to a high degree. simon just likes her.)
i´m finding i rather like some of her stuff myself. (getting old fast ?)
i was surprised how much i liked parts of her hits cd i burned for everyone. if you get away from her cheesy, more famous things she actually had her moments. not as many as she could have had but there are a few interesting bits in her career.
rene ordered a ton of dvds for himself so i had him get me 2 connie cds. i´m trying to decide what dvds i want. i´m torn between things i´d like to have to keep but my life is too unsettled to collect dvd series or just get things i want to watch but won´t keep.
simon is having one of those crises neg men have from time to time.
even being dutch he´s smart enough to know that if he keeps having sex odds are it´s not a question if he´ll get hiv but when. he´s having one of those periods were it stresses him. he´s 51 but healthy and being both male and gay is still sexual.
he had moments when we were together that he was more aware of my being poz but it only affected us from time to time and rarely greatly.
also ironicly for a man afraid of both commitment and responsibilty he´s in a phase of finding anomous sex tedious.
( i did point out he can ask thier names. he say´s he does not have the ´knack´ i do for getting to know people.)
amusedly what he thinks he wants now is what we had.
he likes the idea of not living with a bf but having him be closeby.
safe, stable, predictable bf sex has it´s points.
there´s no surprises. i know how he likes to be sucked, he knows how i like my tits worked.( which truth be told he´s better at most of the time than lynn or david. not downing either of them at all mind you.)
i´m poz but i´m not going to cum in his mouth. we stopped rimming years ago due to hiv fears so that´s not an issue.
i do not think we´ll be bf again but it is interesting where he´s at now mentaly.
of course he knows he´ll do sm and cnest again. he is gay and it is a´dam.
he´s afraid of stds too. he´s been VERY VERY lucky ESPLY being in a´dam.
(which of course could come up with me since i´m a slut.)
i always wish i could get a nice new bf for my ex bf.
he´s also started colouring his hair. he asked if i´d noticed. i said no.
ok, i lied but truth is it is fairly well done.
also he tends to like mood lighting at home so it´s not really noticeable here. more a sense it´s slightly darker than i recall than glareingly dyed.
( lynn does it a tad too but since he´s got alot of dark bodyhair it´s almost impossable to notice unless one REALLY knows his body.
well, i DO like older guys...)
i woke up early despite taking a sleeping pill so i read book 1 of the nightside. i´ve meant to check them out for ages.
some interesting cool ideas and mottifs but so fast paced it´s a tad too surface and shallow. each chapter is like a much too compressed tv episode.
i´ve noted that with some of his other work too. one can not say it´s bad so much as say it could be better.
they´re very fast reads and ok for when i can not sleep.
today i just rested at simon´s even tho they are doing work on the building. it was not too bad actually.
i have no plans for the weekend except for an orgy sun afternoon then a sexdate that night. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2008|04:40 pm] |
after the library tues i just got a milkshake and went home. i thought of going out but i had my purse with me which i hate taking in bars and i had sex all afternoon so i just went thuis and stayed in.
wed rene and did the library together to check out the new method of actually checking dvds/cds out. ( best done with a 'real' person around just to deal with the clerks and my lack of patence with both tech and the dutch.)
we were amused that the new eq does not really work any better than the old. SOOOOOOOOOO nl.
the new setup is needlessly complicated in true dutch fashion. they are trying to do more and more things completely automated. amusing enough in a country with no work ethic in the 1st place but downright tedious given that the tech here does not work much of the time. (in fairness MOST tech does not work right MOST of the time no matter where it is but in many places people at least ACT like it should.)
i was also amused, tho the clerk was not, when a sexy, tho with his gf, non white english speaker asked the clerk if she knew if they had a certain dvd title. she had no idea of course. then he also pointed out things were not exactly shall we say alpabetized.
again VERY nl.
i got the science of sleep. since it was THE arthouse film of last year i feel i SHOULD see it. i also got the jill scott collaborations cd.
rene got brick. an arthouse mystery flick he's wanted to see for awhile. he's already seen ....sleep.
( ....sleep is cool and WAY arty. some really nice bits tho i did want to SHAKE our 2 lovebirds from time to time.
hello ! stop being hetro twits !
it was FINALLY a happy ending tho.
i did not really watch brick but caught that the guys are sexy if TOO young
( it´s set in a high school), the story is grim and cynical and it has an interesting quiet deadpan style.)
he went to get bier at ah and then home to cook dinner. i did cnest since it was on the way home.
i hooked up with an old trick. a truely beautiful asian guy. chinese or taiwanese. speaks dutch but clearly his eerste taal niet.
nice, he came over my chest.
after that it got DULL. i decided to go home and do my hair but when i went upstairs bas and sander were there so we hungout rather awhile. alastair came in too.
most folks will be in berlin this weekend so it might be slow out and about.
frank and guido came in also.
frank and i made out rather heavyly.
then i decided to do a stroll once more and ran into hans. another hot trick from awhile back. the kind of guy who would never notice me in usa. a tad young and hot for me but nice and into my look.
kissing, titplay, fisting etc etc and even a bit of etc.
we may hookup again later.
i was tired and covered in cum so i went home and had dinner with rene.
we watched the gorgon a 1960´s uk horror flick with cushing and lee.
a tad too bad to be true fun camp.
thurs was overcast so i just stayed in then met simon at 6pm at vonmar.
we did music, some lite youtube and dinner. no sex.
fri i saw the artshow harald has work in. it's all gaymale artists. some cool stuff. tho harald's was about the coolist to be honest. sander was there too. i like some of his work tho not all. he's actually the son of a famous nl cartoonist. not my friend sander but a guy i do know from the scene tho not well. his hubby dropped by too. i forget his name.
they were part of the qh days but not closely of my clique.
they're nice tho.
fri nite i did cnest. boppy given many folks were in berlin. not as many faces i knew.
artist sander & hubby were there so i said hi.
i played with a pale latin of some type.
dark hair, smooth, nice body, glasses. only spoke spanish but being gay we worked with it.
we had fun. he came all over me with my hand up his ass.
after awhile i met marc. from utrecht, stocky, hairy, rather overdressed for cnest.
an officeworker.
VERY SEXY, VERY FUN. fun to talk with too. we really clicked well together.
of course he's married and does not do fb.
he only goes out to be a slut once a month.
as he say's, he has something to lose.
wise man since he'd make a FAB fling and i can see alot of guys wanting to see him more. i certainly would.
afterwards i just went home.
i read dzur. it was ok. like a slow episode of a tv show you used to really like but no longer really care about but have fond memories of and there's no pressing reason to change channels.
i think i only read these now because i started them at ou.
sat i just stayed in the whole day. between things being limited in nl, rene being rene etc i'm getting into that frame of mind where i have no motivation to get out of bed.
they had the xxx party at exit this time. my 1st thought was it's too small for the event. also an odd time given the parties in berlijn.
( everyone i've talked to who went has agreed. too small and too warm. tho some if not all did have fun.)
claudio called. he's back in nyc briefly. his travels make me look like a couch potato.
he'll be in sf this week for work ironicly.
he may try to stop in nl this fall if i'm here.
his fall timetable is a patchwork quilt of countries.
he did la for work recently and was shocked to find he really likes it.
work is going REALLY well.
he wants me and rene to use the nyc apt sometime. MAYBE for my b-day depending on everyone's life at the time.
i was thinking of doing either philly or london instead of the same old sf or a'dam but of course i know rene/lynn/eric would want me to be around depending on what city i'm in at the time.
( tho 40-44 were in a´dam. 39 was in london. it HAS been awhile since i did a b-day in sf. i think 38 was the last one. oddly it does not seem that long ago.)
(simon was sweet. he mentioned he thought doing the theater would be a good b-day gift for me and since i'm unsure of where i'll be it would not HAVE to be on my b-day.
amusedly he's gotton better at the gift thing as an ex than he was as a bf and as an ex he does not truely HAVE to get me anything.)
eric called JUST afterwards in an amusing bit of timing.
he's ok.
sfha inspected the apt and it seems to have went well.
of course it being eric i did note his story sounded alot like when the building owners inspected it too. they both came JUST as he was leaving. huuuummm whatever. as long as it went ok.
he's having most of his teeth pulled out at the end of the month.
he forgot about folsum when he planned it but is ok with it since it needs to be done.
he had his cell with him during some xrays so it was fucked up and had to be replaced.
he saw hairspray and LOVED it. he was GUSHING !
sun i skipped cr but dragged my ass out to the web later. i'm glad i did. it was exactly the kind of evening i moved to europe for.
VERY social.
chatted with the web girls, ton&michael, hans, sander, rene vz, loek, hiv-v peter, etc.
it was all very fun and gay and much sexual harrasment was commited.
i was not really expecting to have sex but i hooked up with arsey ( i'm sure that's NOWHERE close to it's spelling but it's how it sounds.)
from barcelonia. 40+ i'm sure.
short, petiet, slim but strong, smooth, a classic nose created to be made love to, fey but NOT passive.
the kind of guy that brings out the top in me.
he only speaks spanish and dutch. i'm seen him around some but thought he'd not be interested in me.
i think he MAY have moved here while i was in sf last year.
we exchanged a look last week and this week the vibe was there so.....
HOT & INTENSE. the way sex is in fiction.
he's small enough that he can wrap his legs around me while i'm standing and holding him.
kissing, biting, scratching, titplay, sucking, slamming against the wall.
making love to that hot nose while he moans and i spread his ass open while he's wrapped around me with his nails raking my back......
my back looked like i'd either been attacked by cats or had fucked a real girl.
(much to the amusement of the guys in the bar later.)
we played a long time. he's latin so he had a posse of gf waiting for him. they were amused if annoyed mildly with having to wait for him.
i hope we do it again but doubt we will and it's the kind of thing you can ONLY do once or twice at most and it be THAT hot. (sadly it's simply a fact of life like death and straights.)
after he left i hungout with sander awhile.
we MAY end up in bed together someday. (tho truely i doubt it as we really are friends.)
a fair amount of men wish he was not such a dedicated bottom. he easily passes for top to look at.
he's a good kisser.
it was one of those nights when we both remembered we're not always JUST gf together. ( i think me being with arsey turned him on a bit.)
he's restarting hiv meds this week. he was off for a few years. he'll be taking just 2 meds. both of which i take so we talked side effects etc.
shitting is the main fact of my life now.
he was feeling fine but starting to get tired so did bloodtests and his vload was about a million and tcells below 100.
later i met gianfranco.
53, lived here 10 months, works for the italian ministry of culture.
ok looking tho looks his age and is a tad generic looking. (nice but would be lost in a crowd.)
he was into me but was surprised i was into him.
too well dressed for web but not SO overly so as marc had been for cnest fri.
very clean smooth body, skilled tho not truely great.
we had a fun time and did info. (his email address is the patron saint of his home village. HOT !)
( he wrote, we have a sexdate sun. i have sos that afternoon so HOPEFULLY i won´t be TOO tired.)
afterwards a bunch of us watched a hot scene that was going on in the main bar.
one of those things only gays can do.
then i went home after giving kemal another break at cc.
i stopped in hl to say hi to esther. she's cut and coloured her hair. it looks nice. we chatted awhile and ray was there then i went thuis to have dinner with rene.
the computers at the library today were SO messed up they were almost physicly painfull to use.
after the library i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy.
leendert was there too.
he looks a tad run down. he's finding working at qh more tiring than he expected.
i mostly just chatted with jeld. he had fun and was fucked alot at xxx but found it too warm and small as has everyone else i've talked to about it.
he'll skip going to nyc in nov. it's too $/hard to find a room.
his sexdate last fri was FAB. 3 hot black guys at his place. hello !
i talked with lynn. him and dalton had fun in sacromento. they did the cool train musuem there philly always liked too. they think the gay area is cute if small but the guys there are TOOOOOO young.
speaking of connie francis, they got an unopened lp of her hits and are going to have her sign it for a charity action at the eagle.
lynn was put in charge of it. cool huh ? eric use to do that too when he worked at both the sf and dc eagles.
he did harrison st fair with some friends. it was a warm day and fun.
that weekend he also did a bbq with friends.
the chorus comes back from summer break this week.
he's been skipping the cove recently since the food is not all that pressing.
today i visted stefan and he gave me a fab long massage with oil.
i ended up spending the whole afternoon there. tonight rene was thinking about seeing hairspray but we have 4 dvds due back wed so...
afterwards i just dropped by the little market where i get red potatos. NOWHERE near as easy and common to get here as in usa. a shame as they are by far my favs.
the arab who runs it is nice and acts like he's in usa. he's friendly, he remembered me after i'd been gone ages, i was 10c short once and he was cool with it. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO undutch.
this is why they´re hated here of course.
( just for amusement he also speaks english too.)
rene and i are meeting our lawyer monday.
we watched the fountain.
i´ve read it´s a film one either loves or hates. i can see that.
eric left before the end he said because he found it dull. he had thought it more action/scifi.
rene thought it had too much symbolism for him.
i can see both thier points.
beautifly shot. it has style to spare.
it would be easy to be snarky about parts of it.
i could see snl wanting to do a parody but a real parody would have to be over much of the crowd´s head.
life, death, time, reincarnation, paradoxes.
it has some REALLY interesting ideas even if you feel it was DESIGNED to be layered and make you think about what this or that part REALLY meant.
it has moments of being as art/theater school as a sarah brightman concert.
it clearly has flaws.
( even if we ignore queen isobela´s cut glass british accent and in fact a noted lack of actual latins in 15/16th c. spain.)( the same british actress also does an american accent later in time which sounds like she´s trying NOT to have a british accent. hell, i´ve DONE that accent.)
the bit where the explorer drinks of the tree of immortality and turns into a plant is WAY cool but for a DIFFERENT movie.
it would be a fab twist ending for a outer limits type tv show.
the tree of immortality is immortal UNTO ITSELF.
however it fits akwardly into the rest of the story.
i can deal better with the scene where we have seen an event happen at the same moment in time in which the guy always makes the same choice but then events in the future cause him to finally make the OTHER chioce he could have made. which of course would alter the future the change came from.
it´s kind of star trek. capt janeway always said time paradoxes gave her a headache.
the floating man in lotus postion was TOO much.
note: even immortals die in the exploding heart of a star.
today rene and i bopped around taking back dvds. he got 2 more he wanted to see but i´ll skipp. london to brighton and infamous. both of which are suppose to be good but not my thing really.
he got me a new black hoodie at h&m since the one i´ve been wearing the last 5yrs or so is starting to look it.
we did concerto but they had NOTHING interesting.
after updating the blog as i was leaving going down the stairs simon was coming up them so i hungout here till late. we had fun sex, rested then had ijs.
afterwards i went home to have dinner with rene, watch some tv then he watched a dvd while i showered.
thurs i just rested while rene watched his dvds.
i met simon at 6pm at vonmar then we came home. his new couch came. he was able to put the frame together himself with no cussing.
i helped him move out the old couch (well, i AM an ex so that´s what we´re for.), gather the packing trash up and put the new couch in it´s place.
it looks really nice i have to admit and he´s VERY happy with it. it does not fit as far back in the window nook as the old one so there´s more space for the lamps and he´s going to buy a tall angular plant to put behind it.
it has that cool new leather smell.
we curled up on it rather awhile after we got it fixed up.
chatting, listening to music etc.
it´s taking time for the new school year to settle in. folks changing thier times, new kids etc.
we checked out connie francis cds online.
should i be worried or scared that lynn/eric/rene and simon are all connie fans to one degree or the other ? (most to a high degree. simon just likes her.)
i´m finding i rather like some of her stuff myself. (getting old fast ?)
i was surprised how much i liked parts of her hits cd i burned for everyone. if you get away from her cheesy, more famous things she actually had her moments. not as many as she could have had but there are a few interesting bits in her career.
rene ordered a ton of dvds for himself so i had him get me 2 connie cds. i´m trying to decide what dvds i want. i´m torn between things i´d like to have to keep but my life is too unsettled to collect dvd series or just get things i want to watch but won´t keep.
simon is having one of those crises neg men have from time to time.
even being dutch he´s smart enough to know that if he keeps having sex odds are it´s not a question if he´ll get hiv but when. he´s having one of those periods were it stresses him. he´s 51 but healthy and being both male and gay is still sexual.
he had moments when we were together that he was more aware of my being poz but it only affected us from time to time and rarely greatly.
also ironicly for a man afraid of both commitment and responsibilty he´s in a phase of finding anomous sex tedious.
( i did point out he can ask thier names. he say´s he does not have the ´knack´ i do for getting to know people.)
amusedly what he thinks he wants now is what we had.
he likes the idea of not living with a bf but having him be closeby.
safe, stable, predictable bf sex has it´s points.
there´s no surprises. i know how he likes to be sucked, he knows how i like my tits worked.( which truth be told he´s better at most of the time than lynn or david. not downing either of them at all mind you.)
i´m poz but i´m not going to cum in his mouth. we stopped rimming years ago due to hiv fears so that´s not an issue.
i do not think we´ll be bf again but it is interesting where he´s at now mentaly.
of course he knows he´ll do sm and cnest again. he is gay and it is a´dam.
he´s afraid of stds too. he´s been VERY VERY lucky ESPLY being in a´dam.
(which of course could come up with me since i´m a slut.)
i always wish i could get a nice new bf for my ex bf.
he´s also started colouring his hair. he asked if i´d noticed. i said no.
ok, i lied but truth is it is fairly well done.
also he tends to like mood lighting at home so it´s not really noticeable here. more a sense it´s slightly darker than i recall than glareingly dyed.
( lynn does it a tad too but since he´s got alot of dark bodyhair it´s almost impossable to notice unless one REALLY knows his body.
well, i DO like older guys...)
i woke up early despite taking a sleeping pill so i read book 1 of the nightside. i´ve meant to check them out for ages.
some interesting cool ideas and mottifs but so fast paced it´s a tad too surface and shallow. each chapter is like a much too compressed tv episode.
i´ve noted that with some of his other work too. one can not say it´s bad so much as say it could be better.
they´re very fast reads and ok for when i can not sleep.
today i just rested at simon´s even tho they are doing work on the building. it was not too bad actually.
i have no plans for the weekend except for an orgy sun afternoon then a sexdate that night.
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while i was doing email sun both paul in nl and david in uk were online so we chatted.
david was going to spend a long weekend in paris.
after i went offline i went home and called paul.
while i was in sf he met a fb named cees. he was hoping to date him but cees declined.
then i did errands and checked out ws and abc. i was amused that abc had american titles that had not been out yet in sf. a shame as i'd have gotton one for myself and i might have gotton another for eric.
i bopped by the apt then did the zeedijk party. it was an INSANE zoo. dangerously crowded. i ran into bas and sander and we chatted but it was so insane that they soon left as did i not long afterwards.
i got a milkshake and boywatched then did the web. bas and sander were there along with jan the cute guy sander has started dating. (tho jan already has a bf)
bas has started seeing a guy named erik. he was not there but he's very tall it seems. they met awhile ago and played around and have remet and are giving things a go. they are taking it slow. bas say's he tends to self sabotage things so is trying not to this time. ( there´s an essay there somewhere but...)
uk peter came in with paul the guy he's started dating. paul just moved here from the uk. very goodlooking and seems nice.
i chatted with the web girls, bert etc.
various folks were in.
joost was there wearing not very much. he looked good. he was having a fun fisting weekend with a friend named michael. michael seemed very nice. well spoken tho i suspect a workingclass background, very tall, thin and clearly poz.
i briefly played with joel a nice, sexy, semi reg sexbar trick of mine.
sander and bas got drunk. i love watching them like that because they really should be a couple. they were fb yrs ago. they would be bf i suspect except they are both afraid to say i love you and i think, while fun, the sex leaned toward the lesbian in the end between them.
we all left around 10pm.
the smoke was bothering my eyes and sinuses.
i went home for a shower and late dinner with rene.
mon i picked up the new neal asher ( $! it would have really been better to use trade in sf and carry it on the plane.)and cj ryan. rene is getting the new peter f hamilton for me. then i got some stuff at the uk food store.
( claud, let me know if you want to read the neal or peter.)
i started the ryan. basicly gloria does irak in space. no pretense at all that it´s not an anti irak invasion theme but it seems to work ok in terms of the series. tho it´s a rather more serious tone than the 1st 3 books in the series.
not great lit. just one of those genre series i like for some reason.
if the author is smart they'll have the next book return more to it's original tone and maybe keep it set on earth or at least sol system.
( mind you these are books where the writer either has or at least uses to sell the books a wish fifillment fantasy that women REALLY DO want fucked raw. OFTEN.
our heroine uses her AMAZING t&a to bring peace and justice to the galaxy.
on a good note while there's no gays, it being mostly about pussy, it does not seem actually anti gay.
of course chick on chick is hinted at and thought hot.)
a'dam is a heaving SEA of tourists. it was as record year for americans here. also i'm noting a LARGE amount of italians and spanish. a noteable amount of russian speakers too. tho of course many/most are not russe but from eastern europe.
i visted jeld at qh and took him a cd i got him. it was BUSY for a mon. besides the regs and tourists andre had closed angel and brought everyone over.
rene vz was there trying to pick up an american.
patick from minn. 36, his 1st time in europe. he's still in training as a stew for nw. VERY goodlooking but a tad neurotic.
poz and still has weirdnesses about it.
we also met david. 41, poz, doing that very workingclass skin look but actualy smart. from glasgow but lives in london. he's the manager of the liverpool st trainstation.
yes, he's a reg at chariots.
him and steve his partner of 12yrs just got married. due to work issues they are doing seperate vacations. david is doing a'dam then steve will do berlin.
we all hungout most of the night. rene of course got drunk and a bit much for the american and brit to deal with but he got the vibe, jeld made a comment, and went home to sleep.
over all rene is doing well. he LOVES his new apt and come sept it seems he'll be debt free. he say's he's thinking about stopping housecleaning and getting a real job but even for a culture with no responsiblity or need to deal with reality rene pushes the envolope. i hope he does not fuck his life up again.
after he left i hungout with david and patrick. david and i talked alot and got on very well but there was no real sexual spark. patrick wanted me but is clearly high strung and while i found him sexy and nice i suspect my patence would wane quickly. tho we did makeout a bit.
we all left about 11pm. they both flew out tues morning and i was tired so i just went home and took a shower and had dinner with rene.
i'm seeing jeld fri. loek is soon having surgery on his knee but is spending this weekend in antwerpen anyway.
i went over to vist paul. we just hungout at his place chatting etc. he´s doing well all in all. tho was a bit bummed about things not working out with cees. he showed me a pic. cute in a shaved headed, square faced, built, outdoorsy way.
paul´s going to barcelonia for vakantie. he was going to go to nyc but hotels were too $.
later we went for a walk. i showed him where the uk food store is. he´s one of those rare dutch guys who likes to cook.
of course he´s mixed.:)
there´s a type of sugar he´s looking for they do not have in nl. (it´s the kind of thing eric would know about. eric would be SHOCKED and go insane with the lack of things in nl.)
then we hungout by a canal for awhile chatting and boywatching then he walked me thuis.
rene and i saw rat.............( a french rat wants to be a great cook.) we both loved it. rene found it both funny and moving.
i thought about going out wed night but ended up just staying in. there were old repeats of ncsi and cm i had not seen and then rene fixed dinner.
maurice was working at the lampstore so we chatted. he´s started dating ron seriously. a guy from the local scene. they had started seeing each other not long before i left.
it was a suprise thing. maurice was still depressed about his spanish ex and as i said ron is local, he´s a good friend of egbert etc, so they already were aware of each other at the very least. they look good together. ron seems nice enough. he´s polite but we´ve never clicked closely socialy. more of a one clique removed/friend of friends kind of thing.
rene and i did acmarkt, ah and dirk in de pijp.
always fun for guy and kid watching.
we sat outside awhile and had some really wonderful italian ijs. some ADORABLE children were there too.
needless to say walking in a city where every surface is brick or cobblestone with my damaged foot is interesting.
tho oddly simon's wooden floors can get tedious faster.
thurs was the 1st day in AGES i did nothing.
mike woke us up in the morning calling from london. work had gotton VERY tedious. it´s the nl summer thing of the dutch all leave for vacation and the expats/immigrants left behind have to do all the work.
he was doing american standard hours of 60hrs a week so he decided to just fuck it and take time off.
of course the night before he got back to london the waterpipes upstairs of the uk apt burst so he walks in to find his godson trying to deal with a flooded apt. the godson is only 21 or 22. he´s staying at the apt awhile. he had been out and came home to find the place trashed. it seems as he opened the door the curtains fell. you get the idea.
(mike thinks he MIGHT be gay but has not asked yet. they´re british remember.)
mike is having to replace rather alot but actually is still likeing the time off and i´m under the impression he´s dealing well with it over all. i think the apt could have used a redo anyway. (i know his brother rob, who´s gay too, thought so.)
he won´t be back in nl till early sept.
otherwise i just did laundry and we stayed in bed listening to opera all day. is that eurotrash gay or what ?
we watched a bit of jos brink´s funeral service. he´s a nl stage and tv legend who just died of cancer.
him and his hubby sander were out before it was hip. they´ve been together since the 1970´s.
they were both in showbiz. they were one of those theater couples. i have the vibe jos was the wife but i suspect that would be hairsplitting to a degree.
( like me and eric.)
a decade ago sander got cancer and was not expected to make it but is still alive. jos was dionosed and lasted a month and a 1/2.
life is like that.
of course there is no such thing as early detection here so they did not find it till it had spread from his colon to much of his lower body.
he was 65. he was really rather cute and kept his looks up till almost the end. (like most gays it was illness not age that took his looks.)
sander is completly wrecked it seems.
i´m starting to worry more and more about rene. he´s 52 and even getting him to understand the reason for something like a prostate exam would take effort and that´s not getting into the effort of finding a dr who would/could do it.
he also needs a blood test. both for hiv and just normal stuff. i suspect iron poor blood or somesuch.
at 6pm i met simon at vomar. he had bought a new pair of black pants and a black shirt. he looked good in them.
we got food, checked out a dvd store but got nothing and came home.
he´s redone his balcony. it´s very asian looking now. it´s nice. he´s ordered a new couch from ikea which will come in sept. it´s white leather. nice tho a bit generic modern for my taste.
he got a cute mood lighting lamp which he´s getting a kick out of. you can make it change colours.
he loved the cds i brought.
since i´m just back and we´re having lovely zomer weather we had fun sex.
afterwards i showed him my online photos then he cooked dinner. after dinner i cleaned up then we watched a tribute to jos brink online.
it really is a big news thing here. it was a good show. i love gay people.
i talked to lynn. amusedly him and dalton were at the cove having lunch when i called. they were going on a daytrip to oakland. we had a nice chat. later he wrote me, they had a nice time, and he sent pics from our trip to the de young. they may go up to sacromento for dalton´s b-day.
peter is VERY busy now with work but hopes to see me when he´s free. i have a sexdate next tues with harald.
today i´m resting at simon´s. he gave me the keys again. then i´m visting jeld later in the afternoon.
of course i get back to nl and our lawyer is on vakantie. he should be back next week.
it´s VERY annoying. the insert addresses feature on yahoo just does not work in nl for some reason. tho i noticed it´s getting wonkier and wonkier in usa too.
i can write a new note and use the address book ok but to forward something is next to impossable.
even on the rare computers i can get it to work it tends to be a page by page thing. it was not all THAT long ago yahoo worked as it should but in the last 1-2yrs it´s having more and more issues.
( johnny explained it IS a bug in yahoo´s system which came after they did an úpdate´about 2 years ago.)
i had a very fun vist with jeld. we hungout on the roof terrace most of the time which was nice. they are having it redone sometime but even for dutch people things are slow to have done here.
not too much news.
don now has the apt above qh so that is handy for him on several levels.
loek and eric are speaking tho let´s say not really being gf ex´s.
eric has started seeing a shrink.
j/l bought a new art piece. a photo loek really liked. it´s still at the gallery.
jeld was going to have 2 guys over for sexdate that night. i´ve not heard how it was yet. he was working extra this weekend also which was a sudden change.
he´s going to nyc in nov for a short trip by himself.
they won´t do a b-day trip this year due to loek´s knee surgery.
amusedly jeld had sex with harald last week. the same harald i´m seeing tues.
afterwards i got a tram and rested a bit at home then did cnest.
h/w were there. it was han´s 1st time out in ages. the chemo is going as well as such things can. he looked good if pale. ( of course he IS dutch so pale is normal really.)
no hair lose.
he finishes the treatment 21nov.
rene vz was there. also hasu, ton and various guy´s i´ve played with.
it was boppy but VERY humid. the humidity is tedious to get use to after being in sf. tho it is somewhat less than it was before i left. slightly less insects too thank goddess.
1st joel and i had a fab time playing. it was a public show of course, being joel, which the guys loved.
joel´s sexy and fun. he has a thing for belly buttons which is cute.
after a long time a stocky guy joined us so i drifted off.
then i did a tall guy in leather pants. slightly older than i and not happy about it i suspect. i want to talk with him about his hair really.
his face was only ok at best to be honest but his body was FAB.
tall, lean but built, hairy. has a very tight foreskin. he came in my hand which was kind of hot.
then i played with a sexy indo who had been eyeing me for awhile. nice and fun.
smooth body and hot cock and ass.
peter was in. we had a FAB time. it was really nice seeing him. he´s still very fun tho i suspect i MAY be starting to grow bored of the sex slightly as males tend to with long term sexpartners. i KNOW what he likes, he KNOWS what i like etc.
it's that time where bf get married and fb become friends or drift apart.
he´s busy through next week but hopes to be free more after that. one show he was working on opens mon and he has to finish his next book soon.
then i met a TALL shaved headed with a thick goatee guy who was into serious spanking. very skilled. he bent me over and went to town.
afterwards the 1st words out of my mouth were...you must be british.
which he was.
then i hooked up with john again. we'd played before i left for sf. i´d bet my last tcell that´s his trick name. at best johan is his name or part of it and i´d not bet ALOT of $ on that.
not that i really care as he is a porn fantasy cum to life. TALL, mildly hairy, big balls, a 3rd leg for a cock, an ass he LOVES eaten and VERY into titplay.
HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can not overstate how sexy this guy is.
after him i vaugly thought of leaving but i met david. ( lets just assume almost EVERY uk poof is named david shall we ? it´s even one of mike´s middle names.)
i thought we might have played before. we had. he was sweet and remembered when and where.
59, brit but has lived here 30yrs. does IT for a law firm. married to rob, a dutch indo top of all things. they have been together 17yrs and married as soon as it was legal. the classic story of.... they met, tried it out but could not stand each other, stopped talking but could not forget each other, reconnected and the rest is history.
david is poz, slightly stocky in the upper body and one of the hairest men i´ve ever played with. rimming him is like burying your face in a pelt.
he´s no great beauty but is sexy in that uk poz bear kind of way. he´d be a hit in sf.
a bottom who´s into servicing, being hurt a bit and fucked/fisted alot.
ok, that can work for me.
he gives great rim jobs himself.
he reminds me a bit of david in sf except not as vanilla.
fun to talk with too. we played a long time. the sweat was POURING off us like showerwater.
we did info then we walked to l-plein together as he lives somewhat near me down by black body.
i just came home, had dinner while rene and i watched a dvd of 2 judy garland shows. as usueal the musical numbers were cool or at least interesting and the comedy was.....dated.
mel torme, lena horne were the big guests.
lots of gay dancers running around.
sat was a stunningly lovely summer day.
which of course we blew off.
rene watched tv and i did email and lunch at simon´s.
later rene and i had ijs at home.
the herons were out by the canal which is always nice.
the number of INSANELY, STUNNINGLY, HOT, SEXY guys in a´dam is almost OVERWHELMING.
it's like being torn apart in a probability vortex.
simon has a big family party tonight. it´s the 25th wedding anv of one of his sisters. so i´m back online then i expect to go out.
rene did ah and dirk in the pijp. we´ll do a late dinner.
claudio wrote !
i had not not heard from him in AGES. he´s been in mexico city all summer with ramon but will be back in nyc soon for awhile.
ramon got a cool job with the australian embassy but it means he can not travel as much.
sat cnest was busy but no real vibe going on.
i only played with one guy. sexy in a generic gay way. dutch, white, mildly hairy and stocky, goatee etc. loved his ass eaten.
actually fun but it´d be hard to pick him out of a lineup a year from now. tho if you gave me a few minutes.....
i asked peter from hiv-v advice about where to try to get rene to go for a checkup. he basicly concured with my thoughts.
guus was out this weekend and we said hi.
i met frank an american visting from ky. just social chitchat. he´s a stoner and here for the hash.
sun sos was the least fun i´ve had there in AGES.
derk jan was there so we chatted.
i only played with a sexy, hairy, stocky indian in cool glasses and geoffrey a tall mildly stocky, slightly geeky guy with glasses and a goatte visting from melbourne.
web was also VERY low key for a sun. just chatted with jaq, bram, joop and the other web girls.
jaq and egge just found out about frits being dead. they were on vakantie when word came and no one thought to mention it it seems till just a couple of days ago.
ton&michael were there so we chatted.
rene vz was bopping around.
i ran into a SEXY old trick named michael. from suraname. could pass for either latin or arab. short, smooth, VERY hot looking. no great skill but fun. a good kisser.
it´s mostly me worshiping his body which i´m ok with. HOT cock and ass which he loves to have sucked and eaten.
nice enough guy but we´d have nothing in common outside sex.
he´d be very weho or south beach in usa.
afterwards i covered for jaq brifly at cc then went home because i was tired.
sad really as it was only 9pm.
i had a nice dinner with rene which promply came back up. no pain, fever etc. my tummy just rejected what was put in and then was ok.
not sure if it was the marrowfat peas, fish, heat of the apt, hiv/meds or some combo. it happens sometimes like that.
mon was just a lazy day.
tho a somewhat big news day here. there were major robberies at both the library and artis.
of course being nl no one was hurt.
i just stayed in mon night. we watched one of my fav old uk scifi films on tv.
the damed, 1964 i think. from a book call the children of the light. rene was impressed i knew what film it was from the 1st opening shot tho i've not seen it in over 30yrs.
it really made an impression on me as a child and i've never forgotton it.
well childcare and straights are an uneasy combo at the best of times but throw in secret gov experiments in underground bunkers, a better race of mutant humans to inherit the earth, the fear of nuclear war, art vs science/humanist vs rationalist debates, a wise worldweary sculptress, a may-december love, incest, a proto clockwork orange bike gang and the good guys lose in the end. how can you go wrong ?
tues i met harald in front of cnest. he decided to take me to a sauna instead. it turned out boomarang is closed due to a redo so we did the damrack sauna which niether of us had ever been to. it's the oldest gay sauna in a'dam. 40yrs old. it's very nice tho not set up in a way i like for sex. it was built in the days when the actual sex took place IN either the dry or wet saunas so no rooms.
we worked with it.
we had fun in the steamroom. tho wet and 105f are not my FAV conditions.
i also had a fun time with a young, SEXY, slim, smooth indian guy. normaly too young and pretty for me but when in amsterdam.....
nice and fun. he liked his balls done. seemed to be impressed by and to enjoy my skills.
he came hard enough to shoot into his own face and he was sitting down.
ah, the young. so easy to impress.
then we rested and harald took a nap so i went wondering and met ben on the roof terrace. my age or older, dutch tho ben is not a common name here.
( ik ben ben sounds funny in dutch too.)
VERY hairy, goodlooking tho in a classic clone way.
VERY fun and nice. SKILLED with tits and had the patence to do it right.
i came all over the place.
he had an intense orgasim too.
while i was giving ben a bj harald stopped by to say goodby. he had to go home as gerban would be home from work soon and they would do dinner.
i love gays.
if only straights had evolved along closer lines. of course i suppose it's inherent otherwise they'd BE us or vise versa.
i'll see harald fri at the gallery where he has some work up. it was fab seeing him and catching up. both him and gerban are doing well healthwise at the moment. they've had some MAJOR issues over the years.
i'm at the library now to do email and check if there's any fun new cds. they are having notable issues with the alarm systems. clearly trying to redo/upgrade them. closing the coop door after the fox drops by for lunch is very dutch.
dr dolbec wrote me.
my tcells are over 200. (tho he did not give an exact #)
my vload is 216.
my liver is fine but the whites of my eyes ARE a tad yellowish. it's a side effect of the rayataz. not a real problem tho it seems.
( both jeld and paul had commented on it so i was wondering if i should worry. it seems not.)
i think i'll just stay in tonight.
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after sending out my blog from the store i played phone tag with lynn. he called JUST as a customer came in and asked me something. lynn left a message but then i could not get ahold of him again. after some bopping around and redialing we FINALLY hooked up at po+ on castro. he was chatting with friends. then we did his pharm and he took me to dinner at the cove. james and dan were working. afterwards we just came home. we had sex then i burned cds.
after i went home eric and i watched another miss marple. this time 1 of the victums was a gay man who killed himself over fear of being outed.
ah, straights.
otherwise rather an interesting show.
fri eric and i got some sleep. tho he did go to the dentist early in the morning. we got up and did our apt building's food bank then i met claud in the mission and we bopped around doing cafes, the bookstore and the castro.
carey gave me 3 boxes of candy so i gave 1 to lynn, 1 to eric and kept 1.
later i met lynn. we napped then went to his barber. afterwards we did dinner at bagdad. we had thought to go to blue but it was crowded. i was rather surprised by the prices at bagdad now. of course i've not eaten there in YEARS. it was ok but still just diner food.
we walked back home in the brisk august wind and had sex then he fell asleep and i played with the computer. everything burned fine except 1 of the japp cds is acting very funky. it plays as 1 cd but reads on the computer as another.
i'm tired. since i've been back all i've done is run around. tho i have been productive.
i've,
renewed my apt.
renewed my project open hand card.
had my teeth checked and cleaned.
had my sinuses and eardrums checked and my ears cleaned.
had blood and std tests.
caught up a bit with my shrink.
saw a foot dr who figured out what's wrong with my left foot and had a new insert for my shoe molded.
saw my derm.
had my eyeglasses checked.
sadly my tattoo artist was booked till oct and i did not have time to find another one i liked.
i also saw friends, spent time with both lynn and david, got a few new books and saw a few dvds and a couple of films. tho not as much of any of these last few things as i would have liked. i'm REALLY bummed i missed hairspray and stardust.
( actually, i'm scared because that means i've been too busy every single day for a MONTH.)
michael wrote me. he's well now and would like to hookup but i fly out in a week and am RATHER booked but we will see. he's a nice guy with a sexy body and a hot ass but talks too much during sex.
bites tits too as i recall.
lynn has not been to the new de young yet and wants to see it so we're going sat. afterwards eric's fixing us all pork roast.
sun lynn is taking me to brunch and a drag show.
fri nite eric and i watched the last of the miss marple dvds the store has. it was a fast paced interesting redo of one we just saw with another actress. some fun guest stars. dawn french among them. i'm under the impression that it's a popular show for folks to show up on.
i was up late reading then got up early to meet lynn. i sorted out the japp cd issue then we got a tram out to the park. on the way we stopped at le vidio. it IS rather impressive. tho they do not have some things i was looking for. rene would CUM. lynn was impressed.
then we did the de young. lynn liked it except he thinks the tower has a big design flaw. i noticed it myself when i 1st was up there. the outer metal grill design obscures part of the view.
we had a nice time. he does not linger in museums. the big show was american chic. clothes from the nan kempner collection. some FAB outfits. 60's-80's.
afterwards we walked through the park to haught st and had lunch at squat&gobble then got a bus home to nap before dinner. we picked up some stuff at safeway on the way.
a day out to the musuem and the haught is very tiring for 2 middle aged poz guys.
i AM old. a hot YOUNG thing called me sir. (of course he WAS with his gf)
dinner with lynn and eric was very good. the food was fab and they watched tv.
the downside was it was too noisy with the music from downstairs for lynn to stay overnight. he laid down and tried but he goes to bed somewhat early for an adult and is a lite-ish sleeper. so i walked him to muni. it was the 2nd time we've been together and not had sex. even without the noise we would have skipped it. he had already laid down when it came on. we were both too tired and full of food.
if i were staying in sf i'd be VERY upset that i live in too much of a slum even for my bf to stay over. of course if i stayed here and we ended up fulltime together i'd HAVE to move.
sun i got up and went over to meet lynn then we went to the sir frances drake hotel to see sunday's a drag in the starlight room.
it was FAB. fun clothes and music. a very professional dragshow. mostly old school playback. tho the hostess donna sachet does her own singing.
( of course at LEAST 1 of the girls is in fact a tranny which i suspect blurs the DRAG concept a tad.)
the food was not bad if not impressive. i was amused that overall the starlight room is rather tawdry. the carpet needs cleaning badly and the seating needs reuphostered. tho it has a wonderfull view.
i liked the servers's dresses and 2 of the busser were hot. i liked watching the way the staff worked together. it's the same way i tend to watch theater with an eye to actually doing it not just watching it.
nice crowd. mostly gays and women of a certain age with a few curious hetro tourists thrown in. ( the gf dragged thier bf to see the show.)
a sexy quartet of gay men sat next to us. armando from mexico could be a model or a porn star and his bf and friends were all very doable too.
at another table grandmother judyjo from ok was fun too.
it was both thier b-days. it was also the b-day of a lesbian mom there. it was amusing and VERY sf. she was there with her daughters and was FAR butcher than just about anyone born with a penis in the room.
( except MAYBE 1 of the hot bussers.)
afterwards we walked around union sq and did macy's, old navy and westfield mall.
lots of hot guys and cute kids.
then we went home and stopped at walgreen's and the dvd store on the way. once home we had fun sex.
later we watched the pirate.
1948, cole porter, gene kelly, judy garland.
it had everything going for it but tanked big at the time. it was not porter's best but it's fun. tho lite and implasuable even for a musical. judy was having a breakdown during the filming too.
it is noted for having 'be a clown' in it.
( tho 1 of the other songs has a FAB line in it that ONLY a gay man could write.
' .....he left a flaming trail of masculinity.)
before he fell asleep and i left we watched a bit of brothers&sisters which we both really like even tho hetros are stupid and i want to slap everyone. the actors are good and it REALLY works on a soap opera level. it should be on in the afternoons not during prime time.
mon i rested some with eric, who's in one of his sleep phases, then i went to my clinic. i was suppose to find out my #'s but my dr was out ill. i'll either do a walkin thurs or have him email them to me in nl.
both bob in philly and john here in sf called.
bob is doing well. he's working on his place still and he was going to spend tues in nyc visting friends and seeing what coney island looks like now that they've torn alot of it down.
i talked with rene too. he's doing well.
i met john at a mission cafe. we had a fun time chatting. he was always fab to talk with. having an actual relationship with him was the hard part.
i was running late for dinner with paul.
i stopped by the store fast to say hi, use the wc and check for mail.
( it seems my last 2 cds have JUST been mailed so i'll probaly miss them.)
i met paul and we ate at firewood.
afterwards i called lynn to say hi but he was asleep. i got dvds and did safeway then i ran into bill and walked him home. i'm glad i got to see him before i left.
amusedly while chatting with him i remembered i had a sexparty to go to that night i had forgotton about.
after i left his place i just went home to drop things off and brush my teeth then i did the party.
at 1st i thought it was going to be ok but lame.
i worked a handsome shaved headed daddy's tits while a guy sucked him then i sucked a well built chinese guy's cock myself.
THEN i met matt. built like a brick shithouse as my granny would say. VERY tall, VERY built, VERY hairy, shaved head, beard and a nice guy.
loves to have his cock bit.
yes, girls. bit.
who am i to say no ?
he was a VERY fun time.
( a small voice in my head say's we MAY have played before back just after the earth cooled. tho i'm not %100 sure.)
afterwards i met jeff. short and petiet but HOT with it. hairy, shaved head, VERY goodlooking and sexy. slightly older than he looks tho i suspect still in his 30's. lives in the castro and drives.
we had a fun time and in fact closed the place out. he MAY write/call me but i warned him i leave fri which seemed to bum him out some.
after i went home i watched some dr who shows. the woman in the fire episode was FAB!
maybe my fav of the season.
tues i saw my derm, did errands getting ready to fly out and then met lynn at his pharm after work. we had dinner at the thai place on castro/19th. on the way home we watched the big fire tonight on noe in the castro.
once home we napped and he really did fall asleep so no sex tonight. 3rd time without sex so i guess we really ARE dating.
( gee, i wonder if it's too late to call micheal...............?)
( i emailed him but he did not get it till the next day. he was bummed as he had been free.)
wed i spent $60 to mail a 11 pound box of books to nl. the new postage rates are INSANE.
david got back from texas and called me as soon as he walked in the apt, he had stopped at the lab 1st, so i went over and we had HOT afternoon sex. the kind where he's rockhard and i'm making him wimper as soon as i walk in.
afterwards he gave me a ride to my eyeglass place and i had them oiled and screwed tight too. :)
while out there we did green apple. he got a used boxed dvd set of firefly which i'll borrow next time i'm in sf. he offered to get me something but there was nothing i was pressed about having.
we also stopped at bevmo which was cute. he got alot of french wijn and some german liqour he likes. i had him get me a swiss candy bar.
he dropped me off by safeway and i called lynn for a spur of the moment dinner. eric fixed the letover pork roast.
lynn gave me some very lovely flowers.
lynn had never seen dreamgirls and wanted to. so we watched it. he loved it.
michael called me and wanted to hookup.
timing, timing, timing!
i had a orgy to go to, a fb wanting to hookup and i'm having dinner with my sf bf and my ex.
hello !
for better or worse i ended up having sex with lynn. it was fun mind you but how sad and middle aged is that ?
i skip both a fb AND an orgy to have sex with my bf ?
thurs i bopped around with claud while i was doing errands. we did the store, the castro and my pharm among other things. then i went home to wait for lynn. he came over and eric fixed catfish. then we watched chicago which we've all seen but love.
ronald got back in sf today and gave me a call which was nice.
eric went over to george's. he's in a non sleep phase at the moment.
i came over to lynn's for goodbysex . he surprised me with some fancy candy.
i'm VERY tempted to stay and see how it would go with him but there's so many issues.
he lives in a too small cramped studio and i live in a noisy section 8 apt on 6th st.
i'm hyper and he's not.
he mostly sleeps and i know i would grow bored with that fulltime.
i only have 2 shows of dr who left to see. the 2 parter where we lose rose. yes, i know what happens but i want to see it.
i have to do laundry, pack, shower&shave and watch dr who tonight.
i liked the dr who meets satan 2 parter tho it has it's flaws. my fav was the scene where rose decides to die rather than let evil free. cool but if you break the scene down it's completely unrealistic just on a physical level.
the lost alien child/london olympics ad show was good.
( i noted at least 2 of the shows had VERY straight dads. i like that the writers are not downplaying thier views.)
except for the BADLY added on forshadowing ending.
even david looked like he was reading a telepromter and wondering if it was the wrong script.
eric spent the night at george's. i was up all night packing etc anyway.
he came home at 9:20am and repacked my bags better.
david called to wish me bon voyage which was sweet. it still surprises me how much he's into having me as a mistress.
eric came to sfo with me which was a great help with the bags.
it was busy but not a zoo. a few hotties and some adorable kids. i love people watching at sfo. a LONG line at klm. i was amused i was in sf for a nl flt and mostly hearing german, french and british. i was also amused i could understand the german with less effort than the brits.
the 1st dutch i heard spoken was from a child. tho the steward on the phone spoke it to me too.
the flt was FULL but somehow lacked the stuffed to the rafters feel of the flt to sf.
across the asle from me were a sexy gay couple that SCREAMED italian. there were alot of gays aboard actually.
flt was uneventfull except for some bouncyness at one point which is always amusing midair.
i watched shrek3 and an episode of ncis. otherwise i read e. bear's undertow which is good. it reminded me slightly of mainline.
they paid slightly more attention to my passport than they sometimes do but i got back in nl ok. no issues with the TON of dvds/cds i was bringing.
rene was waiting for me. he looks SOOOOO adorable.
we just got a trein then a tram home. i dusted, vacumed, changed the bed, did laundry and showered then nap. i skipped merrick's b-day party. i'll drop by later in the week.
we went out for dinner. it's hartsjedagen so zeedijk is a zoo but fun.
we ran into rene vz, sander and alex. also johan who's still an ass. he almost put me in a bad mood but he's dutch so i got over it.
jeld and leendert were working at qh but it was too busy to say hi. we were going to eat at eat mode but it was full along with most places. we did a relativily new place rene has been curious about. a.fusi.n ( yes, the . are part of the logo/name.)
same food theme as eat mode but done somewhat differently. good food. rene thinks he likes it better than eat mode. i think i prefer the food at eat mode still overall tho the decor is nicer at a.fusi.n
( as an aside note. i forgot to mention lynn and i checked out the new ben sherman store in sf. i suspect it means something when you go to a clothing store and really only like the furniture.)
after dinner we hungout on the bridge a bit people watching till we got bored and tired.
at home we opened some of the candy lynn gave me and had cookies.
i called eric. he had managed to do both foodbanks.
i went to bed and rene came to bed at 4:35am.
i got some sleep but have been awake for hours. rene is suppose to go to an art show. i'm skipping cr and just bopping around. i'll do zeedijk later and the web. rene may try to meet me at zeedijk.
i'm REALLY bummed. stardust is not opening in nl till OCT !
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sun lynn did some errands then came over to my place. eric and i were just getting up.
actually we'd have still been in bed if he were not coming over. :)
we got ready and out the earliest we've ever done a fair i think.
we all 3 skipped doing leather. tho eric had his utilikilt on.
lynn had a web tank on i gave him.
you girls know how the fair thing is.
LOTS of HOT guys. some VERY lovely tatts, a fair number of trolls tho mostly just middle aged gay men ageing but better than straights.
a few dykes.
i do love sf for the amount of tits with beards around town.
you have to appreciate a woman who's beard is longer than your own.
i called rene to say hi from the fair.
i ran into ernie who is still looking AMAZING.
also ran into miss matthew&hubby, sister mary ralph, scott&wes, derrick from the old cove, dj james, and a guy i met in a'dam who's name i do not quite recall.
i met a guy named chase from mercer county wv.
eric ran into his friend william and his bf.
oddly i saw FAR fewer faces i knew than one would think given the event and amount of men. tho that's common in sf these days for me really.
lynn being a lite drinker got tipsy on 2 beers.
we left about 4pm. we did out of the closet, i got a cute tee, then we said hi to george at the hole.
afterwards we came home and eric made a nice dinner out of leftovers. lynn had brought over 1/2 a whole chicken since he'll be out of town and it would go bad. so we did that among other things.
afterwards i cleaned up and then we napped while eric watched tv. lynn and eric get on very well which i thought they would. they have things in common besides me.
after a nap lynn and i came to his apt so he could pack. he leaves EARLY mon.
( i forgot to mention last note that david use to take some of the meds i'm on now so he gave me his old ones he had left which i thought was sweet.)
mon i ran around all day doing errands. i stopped by the store to chat etc. while i was there john happened to drop by so we did muddy waters and caught up. it was good seeing him. afterwards i did the castro, safeway and my pharm among other things. i ran into mark and a friend of his twice. a hot friend but he has the same taste in men as bas so i'm close but not quite it.
ms tom&eric drove up and we said hi while they were waiting for the light and i the tram.
i did the dinner with the bookstore girls at the crepe place on 16th which was VERY fun. good food tho my insides later reconsidered the sauce but that's normal for me.
at home we watched road to singapore. 1940. bing, bob and dorthey's 1st trip. bing and bob ad libbed much of it and it shows but it has it's charms.
an interesting number of white folk in pancake makeup, tho with some actual asians thrown in to add spice, and one amusing scene where dorthey sings a romantic ballad against a backdrop of a willow tree and tall pines. impressive in the SOUTH SEAS. even ERIC did commentary.
tues i also just ran around doing stuff. it's amazing that i have been here almost 2 weeks and have had NO time to see a movie. i'm just running around all day.
fri i have an app at GH for them to try to deal with my foot.
basicly just did the castro and pharm again today. my tummy was having an off day with the meds which was tedious and of course one of my least fav things about sf is the almost complete and utter lack of a working mass trans system.
i ran into steven on the bus. he looks good which i'm glad of. ( at times he's nuerotic to a point that makes rene look normal.)
he works at a bookstore in noe valley now that cody's in sf tanked.
i stopped by the store and then met mark at dolores park cafe. we hungout and caught up then i did email afterwards.
it's doing that sf dusk temp change thing so it'll be brisk getting home.
david called from his convention in colorado which was sweet. he's having a good time and it's going well.
rudi wrote. he had a good time in a'dam.
i have a ton of dvds to watch tonight.
they are putting in new carpeting on our hallway floor and the floor below this week so lots of pounding.
the workmen are sexy in that short, latin workman way i like. it's a shame life is not more like a pornfilm.
turns out thier putting down lenolium not new carpet. not as classy but easier to clean. it's butterscotch yellow.
wed i saw my main dr and took a ton of blood tests. there was a fuckup and i had to wait an hour and a half.
as i suspected, i was the last person in before the office closed for lunch and they just left my paperwork there instead of giving it to the lab.
otherwise eric and i just bopped around doing errands. i called rene. he's doing well.
my letter from sfha finally came. 2 in fact. 1st they gave me an app. aug 13th then changed it to aug 8th. it should be a joy.
i have to have a meeting with people who run my building too. (it was fast and casuel actually.)
i saw f4.2.
jessica alba's makeup still sucks, ioan is still too young to be reed.
cheesy hollywood trash and perfect for an afternoon matinee. yes, one could pick it apart with no effort whatsoever but why bother ?
one knew what it was going in.
watching it were a couple of cute little children and some latin girls in back were really getting into it. except for the 2 kids useing it as an excuse to makeout.
i did the sex party wed nite. it was busy. very gay.
black, white, asian, latin, mixed all togother. LOTS of group action. i did a bunch of social play.
the highlights included me sucking the cock of a hot white guy with balding pattern and glasses while a really cute asian guy litely rimmed me then fucked me. i love running into asian tops. ken from taiwan. english is clearly his 2nd tongue. we went off and played by ourselves after the 3way.
i played with an older very hairy daddy with beard named bob i've played with before. he's always found me hot. i declined him a few times early on because i know he loves to suck cock which is mostly not my thing but it turned out he can do other things as well. VERY skilled at tits. also i DO seem to be in a slightly dom 'suck me' phase so it worked out well.
that became a major group thing. i also played with a SEXY guy from argentina i think i've done before.
i also met a handsome asian guy with glasses from dc named mike. he said it was his 1st time there but i later noted he knew enough to bring his own lock for the lockers.
he was nice enough tho no skill (NO kissing and he pinches) and was VERY upfront about liking white boys. if either ken or mike's mothers call them ken or mike i'll eat pussy. it was weird as both guys were nice enough but working some major cliches.
mike was INTO the white guy thing and i suspect ken was too. he kept saying i love you in a very husband hunting manner except for being clearly a top in sex. VERY obcessed on ass even by my standards.
they were a few others in passing as it were but those were the main highlights.
when i got home eric was in mild tweek mode which i found mildly annoying but not as badly as i can be about it. i'm unsure if it was drugs or just one of his natural modes.
he did not sleep and i did not get to watch some dvds i had. tho he is taping them for me today so i can take them back and not pay extra fees.
the other night we watched blood and chocolate. it's why god made dvd. it's not truely bad but it's not pressing either. it's pretty, the guys are pretty. hell, even the girl is pretty.
as werewolve movies go it can not touch gingersnaps but i suspect there are worse ones out there.
thurs i bopped by the store to pickup cds that had come in the mail and to meet claud. we walked around the castro and did flore where we ran into scotty.
it was fun hangingout with them both. later i met uk david at the pilsner. scotty joined us. him and david got on well. they chatted about london among other things.
after drinks david and i did firewood for dinner then checked out the edge. it reminded me of why i moved to europe. we discussed the demise of gay american social life.
i saw the foot dr at GH. the bad news is that one can not change my insert as is. a new one has to be made. also medical no longer pays for it but it's only $100 a foot and only 1 is needed so that's dealable. the catch is the new one MAY not be ready by the time i leave so will have to be sent to me.
fri i had dinner with claud. he saw my apt for the 1st time. we did shalamar which i had heard of and wanted to checkout. limited menu but good food. tho the spicest tandori i've ever had. cute staff. some HOTTIES were in eating too.
we had a drink afterwards at aunt charlies. we watched law&order on tv which gives you and idea of the crowd. then we WAITED for a bus and checked out truck which i have been curious about also. it took a bit to find. i finally called 411 and got a gay operator.
it's a nice space. a tad too new, clean and young like most of sf these days. tho there were adults there which were a nice touch.
after claud went home i did eagle. very uncrowded for a fri. steve was there so we caught up. timothy was also there. he's thinking of moving to sao paulo. eric was out&about and came in also. i got bored after awhile and left. i stuck my head in both lonestar and hole on the way home but niether was pressing. i called rene but he was out. i forgot it was gaypride in nl so he was out watching it.
eric had fun. he had sex with a guy who was interested in him EONS ago but was shy about it named donny. he got home at 11:34am.
sat i think i just stayed most of the day. tho i think i talked on the phone with some folks.
ironicly here at .com ground zero i only have limited and brief internet access so have trouble remembering all i do over several days.
sat nite i met uk david at pilsner and took him to the 14th st sex party. he's never gone tho he has been in sf several times before.
it was very boppy. david was amused brian let me in for free and alot of guys seemed to know me.
a nice crowd. a very gay mix of mostly 40+.
i met a HOT guy named anthony and had a FAB time. shaved head, about my age, soul patch, nerd glasses, really sexy body and dick. a nice guy and skilled. i even swallowed which i rarely do and mostly only with lynn these days.
sid was there and we played briefly but were mostly social.
i watched marty mildly torture a guy. i'm still amused by the concept of one of the city's major bondage bottoms turning top. tho i noted it awhile ago.
i played awhile with a VERY SHORT small tho mildly stocky asian guy.
he was nice.
as useual the food was good tho leaned too far toward the healthy for my tastes and the music was good also.
on the downside tom's not dead yet.
of course i was social/playfull with several guys throughout the night but the highlight was brian. tall, mid 40's-mid 50's, glasses, very short sliver/white hair with goatee, his partner passed away last year. he works for bart and divides his time between sf and chicago. has apts both places. takes sidetrips to pac. n. w.
a titdaddy top. VERY strong and skilled hands. has some interesting fantasy ideas too.
a HOOOOOOOT time !
i noted david had gone at some point. ( he called sun morning. he had a very fun time. he met 2 guys. one black, one white and both fun it seems.)
i chatted with robbie. he looks fab and is doing well. he's started dating someone which is odd for him. the guy, who's name i forget, moved up from la and they lived together for awhile before he found an apt. which is NOT robbie's style at all. i was resting and thinking of leaving when i ran into jonathan a very fun old trick. he's the phoneline dir. for project open hand. we had a fun time playing and then he gave me a ride home.
sun i rested.
lynn called me when he got back to sf from his plane seat after they landed. he's SO sweet. they were an hour late. he had a good trip except for 2 days of food posioning.
rene had sex at gaypride ! he went out that night. argoes was too warm and a bore but at the eagle in the sling over the pooltable he met james from belfast. 39 but turns 40 in oct. rene thinks he's some type of cival servant. his 1st a'dam pride tho he's been in town before. after they played there james invited rene back to his b&b in oost near artis. rene left 2pm sun.
rene was the top !
i met david at catch at 7pm. i had never been and was curious so he took me out.
it's a nice space. doing low key upmarket gay. a HOT staff.
good food.
we had a shared starter of mussels.
i had fish&chips and he a seafood stew as entrees and a 'shared' dessert.
( i'm a sugar addict and he's pre diabetic so he has 1-2 bites of anything then i get the rest.)
it came to just under $87 so with tip $100 for 2 people.
afterwards he got a dvd and we went home. he watched the dvd while i used his laptop. no sex. he's visting mom and his sister in texas the next week or so and prefers to be chaste beforehand.
we're suppose to have afternoon sex the day he flies back in to sf. (wed 15th)he gave me a ride home.
eric and i watched dvds then he had a somewhat worrying reaction to his meds. he was normal up to the time he took them then started having trouble with his balance and hallucenations. he was rather unconnected with reality even by eric's standards. he turned the water on then did not turn it off. he thought someone had come up behind him and turned it on. he was asking about people who were not there and almost triggered the firealarm twice by fucking up the toaster. when i FINALLY got him to lay down he fell to sleep quickly but was moving and making noises all night. it ran the range from good noises to bad. once he was laughing, once i thought he was going to wake from a nightmare, some talking to himself and much mumbleing and twitching. he was back to normal when he awoke the next morning and remember some tho not all of the night before. he'll have to talk to his dr about this since he'll be at the apt alone much of the time. it's hard enough for him to function normaly without aded issues.
mon i went to berkeley and had lunch with david. he took me on a tour of his office and labs. i met his lab partner claudia. she's from scandanavia tho i forget which country.
i've not been up in the berkeley hills and to the berkeley labs in YEARS. the view is FAB from up there. it reminded me that they do not do vistas in nl. LOTS of hot guys. i saw tho did not meet a noble winner. i fetishize intellectualism. it reminded me of m.i.t.
the food is actually not bad at the lab cafe. it leans toward healthy being berkeley but i worked with it.
afterwards he dropped me off at och and i visted dave. i got the new nicola griffth mystery.
then i came home. i met the new building manager and one of the office staff people. nice girls. tho i sense not as aware of the detailed ins&outs of the system nor as invested in trying to be as dave. not in a bad way just in a nice but not as usefull way. i REALLY miss dave because he actually CARED. he'd been on the fringes himself.
it was a tad late to catch a movie since i was meeting lynn at 6pm so eric and i did walgreen's and safeway. he took stuff home and i met scott at flore to hangout till i met lynn.
lynn and did a walk in the mission and had dinner at yum yum. i would have liked to go to the kushner/sherman reading at the store but lynn had been gone for a week and this was our 1st time together.
besides none of the guys i sleep with actually do anything. after dinner we walked home and had intense sex. he was dom this time. no sm just intense and sweaty.
while i was at lynn's eric called to ask if he could have donny over. so i stayed at lynn's mon nite. luckly i had meds on me. it seems donny thinks he was a fool for not making a play for eric YEARS ago so is making up for lost time. i'm glad. i hope they become fb or even bf.
( tho of course i actually want to meet him at some point to check him out.)
amusedly eric actually called while i was sucking lynn's cock. this is why god made voicemail. :)
i've been watching several dvds.
another fun miss marple with jane hickson. i guessed who did it and why. a good tho sad story.
i caught another of the new miss marple on pbs. a redone version of the berthram's hotel mystery. interesting revamp. i was amused to note that once again the killer had lesbian overtones. in that english school crush way instead of the brass band killer nun tones of the other one i saw before.
i saw garuda. it's suppose to be the most $ thai film done. basicly the lovechild of godzilla and mothra does bangcock. not great but interesting. it has some very interesting political and cultural subtones in it.
tho one of the cute guys dies in it.
i've started watching dr who season 2. i've seen chris's take on it in season 1 and david all settled into the role in season 3 so it's interesting to see the transition phase. david trying to do some of chris's harsher butcher tones while bringing his own thing to it. it tends to come across as more of a homage than real when he does it.
the xmas show was cool. tho it's a shame pm jones turned to the gray side. i do like how they have become very self ref like star trek and stargate. the shameless bit with his hand getting cut off was cute.
yes, i LOVED the alien werewolf goes after queen victoria show. how could one not ? hell, ninja monks in 1879 scotland ?
i was amused by the origins of torchwood thing too and the fact that the royal family are werewolves. ( one can tell queens write this shit. the comment about princesss ann was bitchy.)
i stayed at lynn's mon nite and went downtown with him the next morning. donny had already left. eric and him had a fun time it seems. they fucked in the shower.
since i was up anyway i dusted, changed the bed linens, did laundry, showered and shaved my head then got paperwork from my bank for sfha and a sf map. after i went back home eric and i did the foodbank. i went because i needed to sign a new card. in a cool bit of timing we ran into dave the old apt manager. we got the info on why he left etc. he's manager at the lyric now. (despite the name it's a apt building not a porn theater.)
once at the food bank i ran into miles an old roommmate from EONS ago. he looks good all in all and was asking about barry and dan.
after we got back home eric cleaned out the fridge and i rested then bopped by the bookstore to say hi and pickup cds. i met lynn afterwards. we just did safeway and ate in. i burned a ton of cds then went to meet uk david at pilsner. lynn taped drew carey's new game show which he was really looking forward to.
( i had dealt with judge judy earlier.
hey, he's good in bed.)
lynn joined david and i. they got on well since they have music in common. i thought they would.
david's had a good if tireing trip. he's doing a show in reno then off to nyc for a hot sexthing and back to uk. he'll go to paris the day i leave for nl.
in another cool bit of timing we happened to be at the bar, which had 2 big screen tvs of it on, when barry bonds hit his record breaking home run.
after david went off to soma we came home and had surprisingly intense sex. i had been expecting low key drowsey sex. it was way fun.
i got up early wed since everyone with a car was busy i did muni to go to sfha. lynn and i had checked the muni map out. i was thinking of trying the new T-line but we figured out i'n not only have to walk across to my meeting it'd be up a steep hill. also lynn was not sure if the white, shaved head gay with a map walking alone in bay view was a good idea. i thought it'd be ok but i'm not really a morning person.
i decided to do the #9 bus. i was unsure of how long it would take so i left a few hours early. i got there an hour and a 1/2 early. i had a book but actually got in early since i was there. it went well. i just signed some papers. she did not ask about eric and i did not mentioned him. very don't ask, don't tell which straights love so much.
i know his paperwork is in the twlight zone. if i was staying in sf i'd try to deal with it but since i'll be in nl awhile i won't. i expect it to bite me in the ass some day but such is life.
they'll do an inspection of the apt again but god knows when. they send warning and unless things have changed i do not need to be there or sign anything. so once we have a date/time eric can just go out for the day. i'll most likely be back in nl by then.
after the meeting i took dvds back then eric and i saw sunshine. claud gave us some free tickets which was cool.
an angst riddled doomed space flt. i was amused by the casting of the guy who plays the human torch in a movie about reigniting the sun. michelle yeoh was in it too as a woman obcessed on plants. the main guy was the lead from 28 days later. i'd have loved to have done the asian capt or the indian shrink. both were HOT. ( no pun intended.)
a interesting if predictable ride. tho the monster was a tad unbelieveable. (the insane capt of an earlier ship who was VERY hard to kill.)
needless to say everyone dies but they save the earth. i liked the shot of the kids building a snowman by the sydney opera house.
later i had a lovely dinner with ray and scott at chow. afterwards we did drinks at pilsner.
it was good hangingout with them like old times.
afterwards i watched another of the new miss marple dvds with eric. they seem to have gotton the tone better by the 2nd season. it walks the thin line between mystery and camp with SHAMELESS plot devices.
i like them overall except ironicly for miss marple herself. i hate her voice. i just pretend she's not suppose to be miss marple and go with it.
i'm amused that 3 out of the 4 shows i've seen so far have a lesbian subtext.
( and not that sub really.) tho only 1 in which the lesbian is NOT the killer.
i saw my ent dr and had my sinuses checked and ears cleaned. things are as ok as the can be given chronic conditions.
david called to say goodby before he left for texas.
i talked to rene. he's tired but fine.
otherwise just hungout at the store doing email. i have to return dvds later and figure out if i'm seeing lynn tonight. i do miss having dinner with eric more often. his cooking is FAB. |
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thurs i made several dr apps then eric and i visted the bookstore. i just caught up on news and picked up all the things rene ordered. of course he has more coming in. when i go back to nl they'll be 1 bag just of his stuff.
later i went over to lynn's and we met christopher&billy with various of thier friends for thier goodby dinner at le med. c/b both look great. i love christopher's new back piece.
it was a good size group. VERY fun tho i only knew a couple of faces from the old stud. they knew my face too. lynn had a nice time also. it was a very eurotrash evening in that dinner took hours. there were even 2 french women.
afterwards lynn and i went home, had sex then he fell asleep. it was my 1st night to stay over all night. of course i did not sleep any. it went ok tho. lynn is by far the litest and most sensitive sleeper of my bf.
fri morning we got a tram downtown together. he went to work and i went home and took a nap then got TONS of meds at my pharm, talked with the nurse at my derm., made a dentiest app and did safeway.
i checked out old navy since i needed underwear. they are having some good sales so i got some nice tees. i got lynn a nice red one. i also gave him a purple tee i had. purple and red are his fav colours.
eric baked an orange sponge cake with melted orange sugar glaze for the harry potter party at the bookstore. ( later he baked one for me too.)
we ate catfish for dinner then i went over to pick lynn up. eric and george went to the store together. lynn's legs are very frail so even going to 20Th&valencia from church&market is tireing for him and we took the 22 bus part way at that.
it was a busy event. it even had a few adorable kids. some dressed as harry etc.
LOTS of cookies.
it was fun. tho tireing for lynn so he left early. eric and i helped clean up and stayed late. jude gave us a ride home.
sat lynn had a work related seminar again then i met him about 3pm.
we checked and yes, the fancy candy store on 16th is still open. we had been wondering since the company was sold. then we did a stroll in the castro. i was noting the stores that have come or gone while i've been gone. it was ONLY 5 monthes !
the stores were having street sales. i almost bought a fun tee at injeanous but they only had 1 left which fit perfectly but since it would shrink in the wash i actually needed a larger size.
we bopped in&out of various stores.
i said hi to marcus at superstar. they have dr who season 2 !
i'll HAVE to see those while here.
i confirmed my fav french porn dvd is a BITCH to get in usa.
lynn finally got to take me to the new fancy candy store on castro he's been telling me about. it's nice tho $. he got us some candy. it was good. we did a walk in the nursery garden afterwards and ran into paul&brian which was very nice. they both look good.
we all did worn out west but found nothing.
lynn and i stuck our heads in the edge to see if some friends of his were there but they were not. most likely up at the river. he took me out for an early dinner at firewood.
welcome to hiv and middle age. i'm use to him running down easily and early but I got SOOOO tired at dinner too.
the sun, warmth, food and walking....
afterwards we just window shopped our way back home, tho we stopped at walgreen's and all american boy on the way, and took a nap.
after a nap and sex i just went home.
sun i went over at noon. we figured out more OR less how to burn cds on his laptop. he's not sorted out the nero issue yet but there's another program on it. i'm not use to it and niether is he but with some fiddling it seems to work ok.
we met his friends mike and mark for brunch at octavia lounge. a VERY gay/trendy lib hetro eatery. it has a grand piano for god's sake. nice if upmarket place. cute waiters. the food is ok tho the service was almost DUTCH in slowness. tho much friendlier. it took over an hour for our food to come. tho i was getting bored, lynn and i were basicly like 'whatever' and unstressed. mike and esply mark are not the kind of fags to put up with it. so we got a BIG discount on our bill which was nice to be honest. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not a dutch thing.
it was actually a nice time and mike and mark seem nice enough, not a couple just friends, and it seems they like me. of course they were checking out the new guy lynn's dating.
mike use to live in nl back in julianna's riegn. i suspect i really have nothing in common with them. i suspect mark would wear on my nerves in long term exposure. mike is from ohio and i suspect would wear somewhat better.
afterwards we did a walk to the castro. we ran into scott. he looked good if tired just after geting off work.
i stopped in the cove to catch up on gossip with solange while lynn, mike and mark had dessert somewhere and then a drink at the edge.
later lynn rejoined me with solange at the cove. we had cake there too.
afterwards we just went home and had sex then a nap.
it was a VERY eurotrash day. basicly just sitting eating, drinking and chatting at cafes all day and sex. it feels like all i've been doing since i've got back is eating and having sex.
tho i feel oddly hyper. i have so much to do and while i have managed to do a fair amount i feel pressed for time. i can't quite settle down. i've not been able to focus on tv at all, really read or listen to my new cds much. ( tho the new macy gray is FAB. only 1 bad song.)
mon i'm seeing my shrink, going to och and david comes by after work at 7pm to take me to dinner at chow or somesuch then sex. tho i feel too drained of semen to cum really.
after i did email at the library mon i visted gail at my clinic. she'll be in nl in aug visting her neice so we may do a cafe or somesuch. the neice lives in a small town outside den haag.
then i got bart and visted och in berkeley and caught up on all the news. i got the new scott lynch book.
afterwards i came back home and david picked me up for dinner. he took me to chow. despite being uber trendy and an in place i've always liked the food there even tho i feel i should disaprove.
afterwards we went to his place and had hard, hot sex. it seems causing someone pain can give me a hard on even if i'm tired. :)
cum all over the sheets.
he's going to a convention this weekend so will miss dore ally. tho i should hookup with him fri afternoon.
it's funny how i come to sf and everyone leaves.
david will be gone much of next week, will be back a week then leaves for 2 weeks. ( he wants to take me to catch for dinner while he's back. i've always been curious about the food there. he say's it's good.)
lynn is leaving mon for a week to a family wedding in salt lake.
dan is going to berlin and stockholm for 2 weeks for his b-day and to see his swedish bf.
david drove me home and i watched a dvd with eric.
dubarry was a lady. cole porter, 1943. gene kelly, red skelton and lucielle ball with tommy dorsey and various noted side actors.
somewhat dated in that many of the pieces are too slapstick and/or of the moment to age well but it was 2 classic songs and various fun ones. FAB wardrobe!
it does also has some really nice bits.
VERY fun if not a 'great' musical. it was thought of as fun lite froth even in it's day. i suspect somewhat rewritten from the b-way play. ( i can hear cole in the background saying...SOMEWHAT !?)
as a side note 1 thing i did watch on tv was the new version of miss marple bbc is doing. while it has top notch production values i must say i'm not overly impressed by it.
the actress playing jane while certainly not really YOUNG is really too young and spry for the role. she wears makeup and hair tint for god's sake. she's PLAYING older not BEING older. when she does knitting it comes across as something the script say's to do not a natural act.
( jane knits all the time while figureing out who the killer is.)
she also talks too much and the overall pace and tone verges on the camp at moments. old school british mysteries need timing and pace to work well.
the sense of time&place feels fake. (uk 1951-1953)
i figured out who the killer was and how she would kill herself, that the wrong body was in the grave and who the war scared veteran really was.
i will admit no one really does killer lesbian nuns anymore. tho her eyebrows were a tad too well plucked for either a nun or a lesbian.
her motive threw me at first but of course, she's a TV lesbian nun so is both too well made up and a yet a killer in a habit. ( the 1st dead girl was in love with a boy not her and the other 2 victums were by products as it were.)
tues i just did errands then met lynn after work. we napped, had sex then just got stuff from safeway to throw in the microwave. i burned some cds after dinner then went home.
i rewatched can-can. 1960, cole porter. frank, shirley, louis, maurice, juliet.
RATHER rewritten from the org b-way play.
FAB classic songs.
i always wanted to like this better than i do overall.
it's REALLY about censorship with a slight side dish of class issues.
basicly it just reminds one that straights are stupid but gay's can write great songs and set up good dance numbers.
wed eric is seeing his eye dr. he's started taking his meds and better care of his health. i'm just running around. i MAY see a movie by myself just do to timing. movies in nl vs sf, if eric's seen it or if i can drag rene to it.
i have 2 bf, 2 ex's and 2 fb but i still might see a movie alone ?
HELLO !
wed night lynn and i MAY go to a leather sex party if he's up to it. he's lending me some leather to wear. if he's not up to it i may skip it as i'm not TRUELY pressed about it. a sex party were one HAS to wear clothes seems rather stupid to me.
wed i just did errands and did not have time to catch a movie. lynn cancelled on going to the party which i somewhat expected. he rarely goes out because he's so tired after work. he just rested.
since i had a costume i went anyway. it was more crowded than i expected. tho i suspected dore ally week would be a good time to go.
i carried off the boots, black jockstrap, leather vest with tatts and bodyfur look rather well if i do say so myself. the guys seemed to like it. it was all adults so the tummy was not an issue.
lots of clones.
a few hotties. i did not notice any true trolls but they may have been in the dark.
david was there and we had a HOT, INTENSE time. after he left i briefly played with 2 guys in a social passing way as it were. 1 wanted me to be sub but i was not in the mood and i suspect the other had a few drinks beforehand. very nice and sweet but if I can smell the oder with MY nose................
michael was there and we said hello.
then i met chip. TALL and built with it. old school clone mustash but sexy anyway. from sacromento but lives here. it was his 44th b-day.
LOVES kissing and very good at it. fav things are kissing, having his cock stroke by a hand wearing a leather glove and titplay. very gentel, sweet and twisted.
had a whole kidnapp fantasy etc going.
he had leathergloves with him for me/whoever to wear.
it's always the quiet ones.
a nice, fun time. he shot all over my fur.
it ended not too late as these are mostly 9-5 working girls i suspect.
at home eric had taped a csi ny i had not seen and i also watched road to utopia. bing, bob and dorthey do the alaskan gold rush. not the best of the road films but it has surprisingly good music.
thurs i had a 9am dentest app. i was SO tired.
my dr was a cute, nice, chinese CHILD. he looked 14 !
he did a good job tho clearly new at it. basicly my teeth are ok. the 2 baby teeth are shockingly firm still given NO roots. i have a slightly deformed jaw hing but not shockingly so. i already knew.
it's why i can only open my mouth so wide and not more. i've learn to compensate very well thank you.
afterwards i took some dvds back and ran into tim, an old social friend. we caught up and had lunch on church st. then scott called and we hungout at flore much of the afternoon then did crossroads and walgreen's. afterwards i went home to take meds and pick up lynn's leathers.
i took them over. while there paul called to cancel dinner because brian was ill so lynn and i had sex, lynn's penis was in my hand when paul called anyway so....
then we got stuff from safeway for another microwave at home dinner. it was nice. we had dinner while watching bette midler in divine madness which i 1st saw as a young whore in the hollywood hills at a porn producer's house while him and my fb snorted coke and i had strawberry candy.
later i burned cds while we watched george michael vidios.
fri i was going to do email at the library but it was booked the whole day so i said hi to the girls at the bookstore instead. then i went over to david's for some surprisingly intense sexs. i thought i might not have much energy but.........it seems i'm in a phase where i like guys to go down on me. ( i've been having that with lynn too.)
afterwards he took me to dinner at yum yum. we thought about a dvd but he had to pack for his trip and i wanted to use the computer so we skipped it. scifi has dr who on so he saw it for the 1st time. it's season 3 repeats now here that i've seen already.
since david's offered to pay for 1/2 my next tatt i tried to book my old tattoo artist but he's booked till oct. oh well.
david is trying to get them to give him the facial filler stuff like mike is getting so has shaved his mustash off briefly, he looks very different. i can not honestly say he looks bad but i MUCH prefer him with it.
he drove me home and i sorted through my books and clothes some then watched part of the tony awards eric taped.
gay ?
i did love the number of partners sitting together and kissing when one won.
gays do broadway and straights kill. evolution in action.
sat morning i had an EARLY app with a foot dr. well, the bad news is i'm losing fat tissue in my foot due to prolonged hiv nerve damage and one of the ligaments in the bottom of my foot is strung FAR too tight even for a ocd queen like myself. it's causing pain and damage.( i'm short forming this from alot of latin i can not say much less spell.)
walking is becoming an issue as is the pain.
the maybe good news is he THINKS we can make an adjustment to my inserts to deal with it. i'm suppose to call GH mon. timing is going to become an issue since i leave the 17th and GH is not known for timeliness.
i'm losing my big toenail due to a fungus so i'll get meds for that mon at the pharm. when/if i kill the fungus it will fall off and a new one SHOULD grow back.
( i suspect i may have picked it up at the sauna tho it's only affecting 1 toe so who knows.)
afterwards i came over to lynn's. we watched some rocky&bulwinkel dvds, i burned some cds then i blindfolded, tied and handcuffed him to his 4 poster bed and worked him off.
after we rested we had a walk in the castro to do errands etc. we hit all the useual places.
we had an early dinner at the thai place on 19th/castro. we ran into a bunch of his old friends including a hot guy he briefly dated YEARS ago.
we had ijs afterwards and walked home in the BRISK wind. a VERY sf evening.
once home we had more sex and cd burning.
sun morning he's doing errands then coming to my place to go to dore ally together. eric may join us.
i'll send this off now and start the next one with dore ally.
with lynn gone all next week i'll have even more limited web access since the library seems booked alot but i SHOULD have some here and there. |
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sat i got a tram from simon's to cnest. at 1st i expected it to not be much fun given i was tired, my foot hurt, high humidity and it was later than i normaly go but then i met a cute sexy japanese guy who loved to be rimmed.
he came with my tongue up him which is always nice.
then i met marcel. around my age, shaved head, goatee, glasses, hairy. we were really into each others bodies.
he was a HOT fun time. we were both soaking wet with sweat afterwards.
after him i hooked up with a tall dutch sexgod. an example of when the dutch cliche body type works out perfectly. TALL, lean, cock like a third leg, big balls, lean but nice ass, some slight body hair, nice face. he was VERY fun. LOVED having his cock sucked and his ass eaten.
lastly i met a stocky middle aged arab, i believe, of some type.
nice guy and nice cock. tho it basicly just ended up a lite fisting scene.
marc was also there so i said hi and i met david, 33, a chinese american stew out of dc.
no sex just gf chitchat.
sun i skipped cr and just rested.
later i was going to the web but the girls were out at cafe cnest so i hungout there rather awhile. it was a fun social time. then simon showed up. he had had a nice time at sm fri and with his family sat.
so we all hungout for a bit longer then the girls scattered and simon and i did cnest.
still not at it's best between the humidity and the construction.
i bopped around a bit but the vibe was not happening so i did web. i chatted with milton, ray, bram, joop and kemal among others.
joop is going to portugal for vaction this week. david and the dogs are already there.
egge is on vacation now.
ray is not doing a web boat in the parade this year. he did not do last year either.
this year there is a soccor game the same day as the parade so the city in it�s wisdom has cut back on alot of the things gays can do for fear of violence from the straights.
note that they are not afraid several hundred thousand homos will be violent but that several hundred straights will be. so they cut back on the gay stuff but not the straight.
thus the basic difference between our peoples.
ah, biology and evolution in action.
sun was one of the few times i actually liked the web�s airco given the humidity.
i found out fritz just died of a heartattack. he was the ex handyman at web.
i met david, 50+ at a guess, VERY hairy, into tit torture among other things. he has a very skilled mouth. gave both a great bj and rimming.
english but has lived here 30yrs. has a hubby of 17yrs named rob. latin or somesuch background.
david and i had a hot fun time playing and had a fun 3way with another brit.
afterwards we were hanging out and elliot came in. we chatted a bit since i've not seen her in ages. she's doing well.
sun during the day rene went to the gay bookstore. a. maupin was there with his hubby reading from his new book. rene got to shake his hand and bought the book and had him sign it to both of us.
it was sweet. rene thought it was cool to meet him. i was amused since he NEVER reads books. not once in the 4yrs we've been together. he only does photo/design books and mags. he likes books for thier covers mostly.
tho he read tales of the city when he was young and was impressed.
mon i just did errands. i got lynn and eric fancy candy, rene got me the new j. carey to read on the plane. i also got a new blue hoodie at h&m and a cool new duckie keyring. when you squeeze it�s wing it qaukes and it�s mouth is a surprisingly bright flashlight. i�m amused that i finally got around to regetting keyrings for both sets of apt keys a day or so before i leave again. i just put a ah ring i had around on simon�s.
i met bas at qh for dinner. i got there a few mns early to say hi to jeld. jeld is doing well. he had a fun family reunion.
bas and i had a drink and chatted with jeld. it started to POUR the rain so we had another. the last few days has been on/off brief periods of HEAVY rain.
bas is doing well all in all.
working alot for a white dutch guy. (45 hrs a week)
he�s single. he�s a tad over his job but he does not know what he wants to do with his life.
has dutch ennui.
we ate at eat mode which was good. we got lots of food. all veggie for him and mostly meat for me. he had saki too.
then we did coffie and ijs on n-markt.
there was the classic old school amsterdam moment when the hippie junkie came and nodded off at one of the tables over his guiter.
afterwards i walked met hem ga narr thuis.
we may do the purse musuem together when i get back.
i briefly chatted with lynn. his aunt died so he�s in id with family.
i chatted with eric. he liked the new harry potter movie.
tues i met peter at cnest at 1pm. it was the first time in 5yrs i had been basicly the 1st person in the bar. ( + peter and staff of course.)
tho i�ve almost been the last person out a time or two over the years. it was also the cleanest and freshest smelling i�ve ever seen it. tho the web is better.
peter�s doing ok.
he�s writing alot.
today he was meeting the photographer he�s working with on his new book.
of course back to the timing concept. him and hubby are redoing thier apt so will be staying in a�dam for 4weeks while i�m away.
we got the best room in the huis and left the door open.
1st a hot guy of some type of medd background watched us while stroking himself then a handsome guy joined him.
after they played awhile then drifted off the handsome guy who turned out to be an aussie joined us. he was nice tho mostly about sucking cock which was fine.
then a HOT SEXY dutch guy joined in. short, lean, huge cock and lean taunt hairy ass. another perfect if shorter example of when the dutch body type works well.
then a HOT SEXY american joined us. shaved head, funky goatee/beard, hairy, lean, LOVED hard titplay, good kisser, VERY fun.
there were also a ok looking middle aged guy and an ok-ish tho older guy with BIG balls in the background off&on. no one was pressed about them but they were nice enough and not annoying and actually the aussie was ok with the big balls thing.
after a couple of hours of that peter and i played by ourselves and came. he worked my tits well.
overall 3hrs or so of sex.
THIS i why i like living in europe and LOVE being gay.
a FAB why to spend an afternoon as only we can.
after peter went to get his trein i got a milkshake and hopped a tram to simon�s to do email and leave the keys. he's helping with his sister's garden today.
it had been spotty rain earlier but the afternoon was lovely.
i was thinking of any last mn items to get but could think of nothing. i�m mildly worried that only 1 and a 1/2 books for the plane is not enough.
i started packing last night. amusedly even tho i�m taking almost NO clothes or toiletries back i�m worried about the weight limit. i�m bringing gifts back for various folks.
tonight i think rene and i will go out for dinner.
i have to get rene up EARLY wed and pack last mn stuff. i also have to make note that the ticket machine�s at cs often have issues with bankcards in typical dutch uselessness, i mean usefullness. i�ll have to make sure rene has cash on him which will be added time.
given how little i sleep i�m going to be trashed on the flt.
wed night after i get in i have to do walgreen�s. then hopefully rest then go to a sexparty. i hope to see either friends from the uk or lynn thurs then the harry potter book party fri. there�s also my dr and other things in there.
readjusting to the downstairs guy�s rap music vibrating the walls will be interesting.
tues rene and i had dinner at eat mode then ijs on n-markt. it was all lovely.
of course i fell asleep just before the alarm went off wed morning.
we actually made good time tho between getting up, out, tram, trein, check-in.
we hungout at a cafe till i had to go through security.
it was a FULL flt and nl has finally started dealing with security. the crowd to board the plane was SOOOOOOO long we left 1/2hr late. ( tho still got in sf more or less on time oddly.)
they were actually doing much of the security checking there at boarding instead of beforehand.
there was a uk couple with 2 cute little girls i hungout with while waiting. hazel and brianna. lots of kids in general.
there were several cute gay couples. 1 HOT pair.
i lucked out. i was in a center seat which i HATE but it was in the very back tail section so there were in fact only 2 seats side by side back there so i had more room than a normal 3 seater and on the window side too.
i had one of those comparing usa vs nl moments. the guy sitting next to me was there with his 3 kids, wife, brother and cute twin nephews. the family was speard out all over the place due to crowded flt.
from the ukraine but they live in sacramento and have been here 3yrs.
he spoke english ok enough but can not read it.
on no level would he much less the family be allowed in nl.
the flt went surprisingly ok and seemed fairly quick all in all.
it was odd but nice that it was fulltime daylight the entire time.
sfo was the busyest i've seen it in ages and there was a mt of bags but i got out in good time and got bart right away.
i just went home. eric was there as he had overslept his dr app.
i did a walgreen's run, safeway, vacumed, dusted and showered then rested.
i had been going to go to a sexparty but lynn was at work late and called and came over. we had thought about going together but ended up just having sex ourselves and skipping the party.
it was really good to see him.
ok girls, i'm sending this out now unfinished. i'm useing lynn's hp laptop and it has now TWICE eaten what i wrote but in a completely new way i've never had a computer do. it did not eat ALL of the letter just the latest section. maybe it has a word limit ? |
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so, my reading glasses came apart which makes writing this a bitch. reading is also now out. it will make the flt a BITCH. it SHOULD be simple to fix them. it�s only a missing screw i THINK but this IS nl so i�m not holding my breath.
eyeglass places are closed on mon anyway.
bad timing, i could just have simon take them to where he got his glasses but this week he�s busy thurs and the other days the place will be closed by the time he�s off work.
fri i just stayed in with rene. the weather was iffy and i was tired anyway. i just rested till he came to bed.
sat the weather was very sf like. dry, sunny but with a wind. sweatshirt&sunglasses weather.
the day started out tediously. i was going to meet mike but i waited an hr and no show. he tends to be late anyway, however i was over it. so i did the best thing to get him to show up. i went home. he got to the cafe about the time i got back to the apt.
it had been the classic he got to dhcs only to find he left his wallet at home so had to go get it and missed the trein. of course this was after i talked with him and we changed the time from 2:30pm to 3:30pm in the 1st place.
so basicly we hooked up at 5pm-5:10pm.
i gave him farthing as a late b-day gift. ( which i had actually forgotton at my place so ironicly it worked out that i went back.)
we did bijenkorp then walked up warmoe-st. we checked out a gay art show at mr B then chatted with maurice awhile at ROB. after that we hungout outside at the angel awhile having drinks and people watching. i saw a few guys i knew.
mike is ok but is working alot. it�s zomer so the dutch all go on vacation and leave the expats and immigrants to work.
he�s started having treatments to fill in some face sinking he�s gotton from the hiv/meds. he does not have it badly but he has a triangled fox shaped face. which is still better than the dutch have to deal with. MANY MANY hiv+ dutch gays have it badly due to the lack of any body fat in the 1st place.
amusedly with my round fat body it only shows up on me when i�m trying to die.
there�s no effect noticable with mike�s treatments yet but it�s a slow thing and should be somewhat subtle anyway when it takes effect.
it is interesting, i have noticed the slight changes hiv/meds have done to his body since we 1st met.
he�s still hot mind you.
after the angel we ate at eat mode. it was good. then we had ijs and coffie on the n-markt.
after that we did cnest.
we hungout a bit then mike went downstairs. i never saw him again.
i know he had to have gotton the trein back to den haag at some point. he had bike riding sun so i�ve not caught up on who he did yet.
after he went down i did too and i had a FAB time with a short, stocky, dark skinned, VERY, VERY hairy indian. a tad young for me. still in his 20�s i suspect but he knew what he wanted and looking like that he got it.
he loved having his meaty, HAIRY ass eaten out and shortish but hard cock sucked. he was very nice too.
VERY VERY HOT & SEXY !
did i mention he was indian and VERY, VERY hairy ?
after that i waited around for mike awhile then basicly wrote him off and met mario.
we had noticed each other earlier. VERY VERY HANDSOME. the kind of guy who would never notice me in sf because i�m not hot enough or not butch enough. THIS is why i like gay europe.
he was wearing rather more leather than i tend to go for. full harness even.
however he was actually very fun, nice, amusing and skilled.
i�ve not done s/m in awhile. it was fun.
he�s swiss, from zurich so speaks german in that cute swiss manner and english. tho his folks are from italy. they moved to ch in the 50�s. he�s now teaching himself italian. 43, works in a bank, shaved head, dark goatee, tho hairless body which is a shame. he wishes he were hairy too.
he say�s geneva is just as boring as i recall but that lausanne is more interesting now. tho we both agree zurich is the most fun.
sadly he tells me the only bar i clearly recall in zurich is no longer there. he loved it too. it�s now a susi bar with orange decor, bright lights and hetro girls.
it clamed to be the oldest gay bar in europe. i won�t try to spell it�s name.
hetros trash everything.
we played at cnest a long time then he asked me back to his hotel. he was staying at the anco.
i love gays. when we came to his room his neighbors across the way were having sex. one with his ass spread open with his friend�s face buried up it.
we had a fab time ourselves. chair, floor, bed. you know the score.
spanking, tit torture, he even had a few fingers up me. i was used and abused.
he was cool with my rule of lite on the balls. also that i prefer being spanked by hand not with a strap.
i left covered in cum.
sun i did sos. it was boppier than i expected given that weather was actually rather nice.
LOTS of hot guys.
derk jan, paul, mario, don, hans (h/r) were there.
i chatted with them awhile.
don and i had a FAB time playing. he�s always SOOOOOO good.
nice, skilled, ok sense of humor for a dutchman and as emotionaly distant as a vulcan.
uuummm smell the compartmentalisation.
which of course is an added turn on for me.
i hooked up a bit with john ( or maybe jeff ?). very stocky, hairy, goatee with lower face stubble, almost shaved head, ginger hair. has a pa.
i could tell he was either british or american from across the room. both from his looks and the fact that while he was naked he still came across as hesitent.
i was right on both counts. he�s scottish but has lived the last 10yrs in.........sf.
i think i�ve seen him around before.
nice guy tho the pa was not working for me and the sexual heat never really ignited with us overall so we just chatted a bit in the end. he�s in nl for a seminar.
then i met tadhg. amusedly him and mario had played earlier.
i�ve seen tadhg around for ages and was always interested but he never seemed to notice. well, he finally did.
SO cute and sexy. 45, a math teacher in den haag, irish, he also use to live outside dc. almost shaved head with balding pattern, goatee with lower face stubble (it's the new trend), red hair, pale skin and freckles, really nice, fun to talk with and play with. loves titplay and rimming.
is rather insecure about his body for some reason. he�s cute and hot but does not have a perfect glossy magazine look. this bothers him. a�dam paul has the same issue.
has a tad bit of guilt since he�s irish.
maybe a slight touch of add.
we hungout till close then had a drink at cnest before he had to catch his trein.
rene vz was there so we hungout a bit. rene vz has moved from oost to near the maritime museum. he seems really happy about it. of course he still has the cats. they were less than amused by the move it seems.
after tadhg left i did the web.
derk jan, ton&michael and leo were there among others. i made out with ton some. bas was there so we sat down and talked and spent time together. it was nice.
after bas left i bopped around a bit but my tits were sore to touch and my cock&balls were as downy soft as a labia and just as unlikely to get a hard on, tho i love that sinfully sticky feeling, so i left and got a milkshake.
i could have played with ton some but he had had enough drinks to get to that stage were i find him mildly annoying. he can get into dom/sub games but he thinks HE�S the dom. he�s dutch so he�d not really understand if i simply snapped his wrist. ( i have pointed out that while we have the same name i�m NOT his husband.)
i went thuis and had dinner with rene while watching a tony bennett concert on bbc.
it was good. yes, he�s 80 and his voice is not what it was in say 1964 but he mostly does VERY good and still has moments of pure artistry.
some long or high notes showed age.
jamie cullum was in the audence.
it was in a very lovely setting at a old remodeled church.
sat the new library opened. since mike was in town i did not go. i may do so today. it�s in the center but tedious to get too. so far the general feeling seems to be that the building�s cool but yes, it�s a mildly tedious location.
of course it�s off&on rain today. (it later turned sunny)
2 best tee shirts i saw over the weekend were......fuck the pain away & i am an analoge.
of course while i�m in sf rudi will be in nl.
i ran into milton. he looks very good i have to admit. he�s changed his face/head hair and was not dressed butch. he�s planning on moving to berlin.
some friends from the uk are in sf and leave JUST after i get there so hopefully we can hookup thier last night in town.
steve from nyc with be in nl briefly while i�m gone too.
claud will be in seattle when i get to sf.
timing, timing, timing.
so, this is my 1st section from the new library.
the walkway over from cs gives you that feeling of approching a monument. most of the island is still dirt and constrution.
the oba is on ode. :)
( in dutch oba are the letters for public library amsterdam and ode stands for eastern dock island.)
it's actually rather nice for a public space. it's very big by nl standards. the largest in nl.
UBER modern. white, light, airy. much better seating than the old one all also in various uber modern styles. you know how all those 70's scifi films thought the future would look ? well it does.
tho it shows dirt easily. in fact i'd bet my last tcell they just did not bother mopping after the floor was put down.
there's a nice cafe and viewing deck on top.
it's working healthy natural foods tho the view is lovely.
lots more public computers which is nice, you can spend longer time on them and the keyboards are new so i can read them without glasses. yes, being in the library with no glasses is tedious on my eyes.
it�s open much longer hours and you need no longer check your purse in. there�s a few bits of modern art thrown about the place as is common here.
tho they do not actually have anything new in yet. it's all the same stuff from the old library. the new set up to find things is mildly tedious but one will adapt in time. there's no longer a new arrivels section so it's harder to keep track of new stuff they'll get in. one section of the cds is in a RATHER dark area which will make reading the titles even WITH glasses amusing.
of course the dutch relationship with alphabetizing has always been casual at best anyway.
lableing too. the very 1st thing i noticed here was a june christy cd labled as johnny lee hooker.
( hell, for YEARS they've had a cj cherryh book with rimrunner labled as the writer. tho rimrunner WOULD be a fab last name.)
7 floors tall. top one is service stuff, then cafe, the rest library. it's bigger than sf's library. in general about the size as i recall vancouver's.
it's not THAT bad to get to tho it does take more effort. you can't just bop over. ESPLY when it's cold or raining heavyly.
tho it could be FAR worse.
there's the saying all roads lead to rome. in the dutch mind set it's all roads lead around rome. getting TO rome is the hard part.
i'll hang out here FAR FAR less than i did but overall i do like it.
i suspect i�ll be here more if i end up back in school here and/or finally comes the day i no longer have keys to simon�s apt to use the computer.
afterwards since it�s so close i bopped by qh and said hi to jeld.
i was going to get a milkshake but the line was absurd so i just got a dvd, did ah and went thuis.
rene saw a film then came thuis and did dinner.
we watched a korean movie called the host.
seems it�s one of the big asian films at the moment.
dead children is never EVER one of my favs things but stepping back from that it�s actually a very interesting movie.
tho i HATED parts of it.
VERY good if not truely great cgi. grim yet has moments of humor. does a riff or two on other asian films and has a bit of a polictical slap too.
of the things one notes most is that while the monster is bad and dangerous the straights are mostly worse. in the end big bad was just hungry.
the gov/military/drs etc PLANNED thier actions against people.
also one should note having an archer in the family can be usefull.
today i did errands. mostly on the overtoom.
among other things i got cookies and candy at a uk food store and got my glasses fixed. the lady at the store recommanded a place. it was free even. the guy was nice enough in a dutch manner. i was working tourist. ( i�m not expected to have paperwork that way. sugar, you should hear my accent.)
they are still looser on one side so i expect it�ll just be a temp job but hopefully it�ll work till i�m in sf.
i�ll be at simon�s tonight since he�s busy thurs. he�s got a big out of town work related meeting thurs after work.
i talked to eric. he may be getting a cold.
i was going to try to see shrek3 but i just lost the energy to be pressed about it.
at simon�s we just rested, listened to music and did dinner.
we watched madonna at live earth on youtube. she was good. more real energy actually than on her tour. of course the concert was a one off instead of being the 16th or whatever city on a tour.
later we had good sex. i had a feeling we would.
his last day of work is fri then he has vacation.
it�s a shame i�ll be gone for it or we could have done field trips to other nl cities.
he�s just going to stay home and do nothing except catch up on his new age stuff etc. he�ll be with his mom and some of his siblings this weekend.
wed night after i fly out him, hans & his bf and kaj are all going to see m. peyroux in concert.
i got several insect bites last night. simon likes to leave the balcony door open.
wed it was gray all day with on/off rain. i just rested and got some sleep.
thurs i just bopped around a bit doing errands then stayed in at night. we watched ghost rider.
it�s a comic book and the reason god made dvds.
cage is too old for the role and veres between trying to make it serious and imitating elvis.
peter fonda as the devil is a nice touch.
not pressing in any way, shape or form but a fun ride if your willing to just let go.
rene�s abcess seems to be healing well. we caught it just as it hit full blown abcess.
it�s lucky i had meds from sf with me.
when i get back i�m making him take an hiv test. if we get married he�d have to anyway.
speaking of which, i�m out of meds again. i�ll be in sf in a week so it�s not THAT bad. tho i worry more about the off/on short breaks than the long ones actually.
long ones can clean out your system but short ones can just throw things off.
last night i had trouble sleeping even by my standards.
lately it�s doing that gray, overcast with lite misting rain but RATHER humid thing. any kind of covering is too much inside or out. sweatshirt, blankie or robe.
fri i did cnest. it was so nice out that bas, uk peter, sander and maurice among others were outside at the cafe tables. we all hungout awhile. bas and i are meeting for dinner mon at 7:15 at qh. it�s near his place and also both eat mode and new king and will also give me a chance to say hi to jeld too.
after they bopped to the web i went downstairs.
part of it is now closed off for a redo so the flow of traffic is off.
it was not that boppy due to fab weather but i hooked up with an old trick who really wanted to play with me again which was sweet. tall, stocky, hairy, boyish face tho in his 30�s. we hooked up after my �show� recently.
his cock and balls remind me of a really cute teapot and spout. a fun nice shape to suck.
seems a sweet guy and fun to play with. he shot on my chest without touching himself.
after him it was rather lame so i did web.
also not too boppy but ok. i chatted with bert and kemal. upstairs there was nothing pressing so i went home to have dinner.
i started water and whiskey by bear. i like it.
as useual rene did not come to bed to 5am or so.
thus sat i was 1/2 blind from tiredness. i�m hoping in sf i can get some sleep but there i have the hetro rap boy downstairs.
we finally did the purse musuem which we�ve talked about doing for AGES.
it�s SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cool !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
some truely amazing works of art. hell, even the building is a work of art. it�s in a redone old canal mansion. we were both VERY impressed.
some really BEAUTIFUL, FAB things.
eric would have LOVED it and barry would have ejaculated all over the glass cases.
one of those things that show the difference between gay and herto men on a dva level. the only other males in the place were a very handsome gay uk couple who were both in my fav age range.
the ONLY hetro men who will ever grace it�s door are the husbands and sons draged into it by thier wives and mothers.
then we did concerto but there was nothing pressing.
some SEXY, HOT, HOT, HOT guys out and about in the nice weather.
some FINE pieces of morrocian & turkish ass on the streets. hell, some FINE if lean pieces of white dutch ass out too.
we did hema and ws then he got a dvd at fame and we went home.
i�m VERY tired and my foot is hurting but i�ll try to go out tonight. simon is at mom�s so i�m doing email here. i�m tempted to stay here tonight so i can get some sleep since rene will be up with the tv till sunrise.
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wed i watched ncsi. they�re now doing the old ones with kate before she was killed off. she was actually really good but i have to admit zeva does add more zing to the show.
afterwards i faxed some papers to our lawyer, he wants to see us mon, and then did cnest.
it was boppy tho not overly so as it was later than my normal arrival time. i did a turn about the place and thought i might be bored then i saw this HOT guy.
i looked at him, he looked at me........
i knew he was not dutch within seconds of first contact. he was TOO hot, sexy and sensual yet really friendly. his dutch sounded accented too. my 1st thought was french or maybe italian. maar nee, he�s polish.
marc, 40, from krakow but has lived in nl for YEARS. has worked in an italian eatery in limberg as a cook for 14yrs. tho over the years he has done other jobs there too. i told him about the cove. he lives with his bf of 14yrs out in the country 15klm from the provencial capital. they�re not married.
shaved head, goatee with a trendy cut, VERY hairy tho he trims it which i hate but it seems the bf likes.
not so much stocky as just taunt, firm and rounded. a god�s ass which he LOVES to have eaten out. he likes titplay too as well as kissing. my tits were the 1st thing he went for which tends to be a good sign.
we played rather awhile there.
we also had a 3way with a tall, hot, sexy guy too. VERY hot&fun. after tall&sexy left marc invited me back to his hotel.
you know the man is hot if i�m walking in the rain from cnest to the corner of u-st and p-gracht.
YES, he was worth it.
we walked arm in arm even.
in his room we had sex on the toilet, in the closet, on the floor and in bed. we took a break in there somewhere and had a shower. ( between floor and bed as i recall.)
i had my tongue up his ass in every position you can think of. he came with me spreading his legs like a turkey at xmas and my face rammed up his ass.
then he worked my tits like a champion.
he had a nice little room tho he did not like it really. not big or fancy but cozy and workable.
of course when i walked thuis it was not just raining it was POURING. it was like i was in the shower. once thuis i just peeled off my clothes and dropped them on the kitchen floor and took a hot shower while rene fixed dinner.
we watched a recent adaption of macbeth.
set in sydney�s mafia world of today.
high concept ?
on some levels it works better than one might expect. actually, listening to it with aussie accents makes for snarkier comments than the setting in general. i kept wanting someone to say......day mate.
(i got the idea for a canadain production of shakesphere where 1/2 the lines end in............eh.)
also as murders go i suspect i could do better. i was pictureing the csi miami or vegas crews turned loose with this crowd. ( CLEARLY pre dna testing )
one could do an essay comparing H and gil�s styles of dealing with a shakespherein murder. ( mac in csi ny is nice but lacks the dash for it i suspect. ironic since he�s the only one who�s actually done shakesphere except in school.)
the 3 witches being tattooed goth-chick schoolgirl sluts was a nice touch and
it has several hot guys in it.
it had alot of long non dialoge parts too which actually worked REALLY well if in a non shakesphere kind of way. there�s a good idea for another art film there in itself.
i can not really recommand it overall but i can not say it was truely awful either.
it helps if you have a taste for shakesphere adaptations which i do.
thurs i just slept then met simon at vonmar. he used his kado bons and got a 4 dvd box set of willeke.
willeke voor altijd.
50yrs in showbiz.
VERY fun. lots of cool old stuff.
we watched some of that but otherwise we just rested, listened to music and had dinner.
there�s at least 12hrs of willeke so even he got burned out on it after awhile.
when we went to bed we had nice, low key, before you go to sleep bf sex even tho we�re no longer bf.
afterwards since i don�t actually sleep i read the lies of locke lamora. it�s REALLY very good in it�s way tho a tad grim and clearly a straights only in charge world. ( rather like ours really.)
i forgot to mention mon was the 20th anv of me moving to sf.
scary huh ?
lynn wrote me. he had a nice tho i suspect from what he say�s not a truely GREAT time at pride. he wore his leather and marched with the 15. it tired him out of course and he only stayed briefly at the festival. he actually is not fond of crowds.
hans wrote too. he is doing very well with the hodgekins treatments. tho they make him tired. he stays home watching soap operas.
fri i just rested at simon�s.
fri night i just stayed in with the baby.
the top of my razor popped off while i was shaving and i cut my neck. not deeply and there was very little blood. i don�t think it�ll scar.
sat the season end of dr who was FAB.
i�d guessed 2 shows ago that they�d manage to undo all that the master did to earth with the paradox machine.
capt janeway erased a VERY BAD year on voyager that way too.
so, the master chose a true death .....or DID he ?
i loved the classic red nailed lady�s hand reaching into the ashes of his body and taking his signet ring. soul supository anyone ? and who�s the lady ? lucy shot him but maybe he planned it ? one could tell lucy was coming undone but it could be a deeper play. she�s one of those minor people i can see showing up again.
so, martha will be gone awhile. i must say i was somewhat surprised they are thinking of dumping her. she�s WONDERFULL.
i wonder if her and the HOT MD will get together in this timeline ?
somewhat unbelievable ending tho even given the show we�re talking about. as far as the world knows the uk pm has gone insane, just killed the usa prez then was killed himself and his body disappears.
hello !
cnn anyone ?
it IS a shame harriet jones is still dead tho. i wish they could have undone that.
i�m amused that jack may become the face of bo.
afterwards i did cnest. it was too warm and very boppy. various guys i know were there.
i met ed, a stew from charlotte nc. turns 40 on boxing day in dec. stocky, likes titplay, kissing etc. actually very fun. a very good cocksucker and you know that rarely works for me.
then i hooked up with a sexy old dutch trick and we did a show. he�s hot and skilled and i was feeling �n� myself. the guys loved it. we had rather an audence but no one tried to grab in which was nice. when we ended it we got a nice round of applasue. it was the talk of the club the rest of the night.
( it�s good for a girl�s reputation.)
after that i hooked up with a tall, stocky, hairy, sexy guy who was watching us. fun to play with and nice too.
then i played with a stocky guy who looked very bluecollar workingclass. not bad looking tho not great either. he looked the part and i have a taste for that at times. he shaves what VERY little body hair he had and it was stubbly which i dislike and he had an outy bellybutton which i find somewhat icky but actually in honesty he was nice and much more fun than i expected.
then i met denis from belgium. a hairy, sexy, leather clone. sweet and fun. he was leaving the next day.
i had a fun playtime with a sexy indian guy. rather pretty and built.
i briefly played with a cute short indo guy with a sexy body. she really wanted poppers so i let her drift off.
then ed and i hooked up again for yet more fun sex.
i was covered in cum.
after that i went thuis and had dinner.
i talked to eric. he was going to say hi to don at the eagle.
sun i skipped cr and just did cnest. they were still talking about our show sat night.
i hooked up with a tall, hairy, very sexy leather guy who is the essence of folsum/berlin style sexy.
despite his rough hairy leather look he was actually VERY nice, sensual and HOT at sex. he came all over me.
then i hooked up with an insanely HOT, SEXY dutch guy named darren. white, fab cheekbones, mid-late 30�s at a guess, amazingly sexy body, not that much hair except his pubes, nice size rock hard cock, birthmark at left corner of groin. FAB at everything. i�m not a good enough writer to really describe his face and form but you know when the human body really gels together very well.....
he�s it.
INSANELY HOT AT SEX ! we both really clicked well together. VERY fun to chat with too, he has a fun sense of humor.
after him i figured why go on so i just did web. it was very busy. among those there was bas. i wished him a belated b-day and we chatted a bit before he left.
david from london was town. he�d written me last week. we hooked up and hung out chatting and catching up. he�s doing well. he�ll be in sf in aug and i�m going to intro him to lynn.
david�s a well known organist and into leather s/m too of course.
there was a sexy american couple in. i ended up playing with the �wife�a bit in a group scene. of course the wife�s cock was bigger than hubby�s. tho hubby was hot in his own right too mind you. i wanted the wife when i 1st saw her downstairs.
jaq is getting over his 2nd cat�s death. he say�s no more children for at least awhile. he�s given away all thier toys.
otherwise it was just a gf chitchat night.
afterwards i did something i�ve not done in ages and went to argos. i was RATHER surprised how unbusy it was. i checked out the redo downstairs more than i have before. it�s not bad actually.
i played awhile with a sexy BIG dicked guy that had also been in the groupscene at the web but it became a feeding frenzy so i dropped out. later i played with another guy and that started yet another frenzy so i left that one too.
i was tired anyway so after chatting with jas some i just went thuis.
mon i got rene out of the apt and we met our lawyer in r�plein. all our paperwork is together, in order and up to date so i could hand it in to IND this week but i MAY hold off a few weeks and try to vist sf. i SHOULD be getting a letter from sfha in july and if i hand our papers into IND now i�ll be stuck in nl and then if i get a letter from sfha i�d be fucked for sure.
of course it�s the high season so tickets are insanely $.
after we saw the lawyer we went to a show about sarah bernhardt at the jewish museum. it had some FAB things. LOVELY graphics, things from her stage shows, old films she was in and a recording of her voice edison made. she was actually very shrill tho in fairness she was RATHER old by the time both film and sound recording came along so rather past her prime. she was also a very talented sculpter too. it was a cool show.
then we bopped through a bookstore and did a travel place but it was near close so they were not very together. SO nl.
we�ll deal with it later.
i was suppose to have dinner with david but he had to cancel so rene and i FINALLY did the asian fusion place we like on zeedijk. it was ACTUALLY open. it was good then we had ijs on the n-markt and hungout there awhile.
he went thuis to watch a dvd and i dropped by qh to say hi to jeld and give him some cds i burned for him. it was busy for late mon night. alex, ton, fabresio and ritchie were there among others. fabresio was VERY drunk.
jeld did cr sun and had a fun time.
i hungout there a bit then went thuis.
rene had a 4hr doco from martin scorsase(sp?)on what influenced him as a film maker. it was actually interesting and i watched part tho not all of it.
i watched the court jester. 1955 with sammy cahn songs.
danny kay, angela lansbury and glynis johns sing, dance and joke thier way through the middle ages.
VERY technicolor.
shamelessly hollywood and gleefully cribbing from everyone.
referencing among other things robin hood, king arthur, the scarlet pimpernel, the bible, the wizard of oz, snow white and tyrone powers.
not one of the great musicals but fun, lite and nothing more than it pretends to be.
there�s an adorable baby in it too.
some cool outside sets. tho cornwall looks alot like malibu it seems.
you have to like a woman who can be hiding from the bad guys in a barn, on a rainy night in about the 12c and still look FAB.
that barn had good accustics too.
tues stefan gave me a nice full body massage. a family member is ill so he�s trying to find a cheap flt to toronto but otherwise he�s ok.
afterwards i just did email at simon�s.
i talked with lynn. he�s doing well. he has a concert to sing in sun. dalton is visting his folks so lynn is apt sitting some. he may go out with friends on the 4th.
i just stayed in tues night. simon and i chatted on the phone.
i�m somewhat mildly worried about rene. he has 2 BADLY infected places on his neck. swollen, JUST short of being abcesses. they�ve not burst open.
i called my pharm in sf and he�s now taking my pills for abcesses. ( i wanted to make sure it would work for non hiv+ guys too.)
they seem to have caught it in time to stop it bursting open. i only have a 10 day supply which ironicly is the normal dose in nl. in usa it�s a 2 week dose normaly.
given how bad it is i�m worried 10 days will not be enough to kill it completely.
he did not balk a bit about taking them which was good. normaly getting him to even take an advil is like pilling a cat and unlike a cat with him i can�t even just smack his head on the floor a couple of times to loosen him up. ( i usually just hold his nose.)
he�s not had a hiv test since 1994. he was very active that summer and a guy came in his mouth. he was neg then but he does go out from time to time. tho not much in the last year or so.
as a couple we are as sexless as a pair of middle aged lesbians who have accepted the fact that a strap on is not REALLY a dick and of course there�s no drug use and he�s had no blood transfusions but as we all know shit happens. i want him to take a test again. he does not seem unwilling. tho with rene it�s often more a matter of actually getting him to get up, out of the apt and DOING something.
the weather has been an insane cycle of short periods of HEAVY rainfall then short periods of summer then.........
peter and i chatted. we half assed thought about hooking up today but he was in town for various meetings and we�d only have had an hour. i HATE rushed sex and besides i was really tired and it was during a pouring rain phase.
we�ll meet next week hopefully.
i thought about going out wed night but i was tired and it was expected to rain. it did in fact rain VERY HEAVLY most of the night but did not start till just after bar close so i could have gone out but it was ok. i napped till rene came to bed.
david in sf sent me a nice note with a nice pic. he was unsure if i still had an apt in sf so offered me his spare bedroom while i�m in sf. sweet huh ?
thurs i replanned my meeting time with simon.
rene and i bopped around. i sold some books and used the $ to get stamps and a tramkart. then we got me a planeticket to sf. this time we got a gay clerk which was nice. ( quinten jiskoot (yes, really). he was kind of cute tho a tad too gf/r-st for my tastes really. around 30yrs old at a guess. give or take 2yrs either way.)
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| gee, zombies AGAIN ? |
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the weather is doing that odd thing of being humid but when the wind blows feeling brisk.
it�s suppose to be cooler and wetter this week. nl apts have the charming knack of being hot, stuffy and airless when it�s warm and cold and damp when it�s chill and wet outside.
tho they CAN be stuffy and humid inside when it�s wet outside too. :)
i�ve got several insect bites as is normal in summer here. i�m mildly worried one on my left arm is thinking of turning abcess but i think it�ll be ok. ( it was in fact ok.)
the insect thing here in summer is insane. before ww2 they use to have maleria in nl for god�s sake.
i was going to vist jeld at qh mon but i got SO tired between the lack of sleep and the heat i could not move. later i just watched tv with rene. we also watched 2 miss marple dvds. in one i guessed the killer right off but the other one i had a sense of what was going on but not the details. which amusedly was how miss marple was working it herself.
tues i stayed in too. we watched another miss marple dvd. i figured out the killer again.
i was VERY amused. it was dr who !
(it was played by peter davison.)
in one of those small universe moments one of the actresses from the recent 2 part family of blood dr who was also in the miss marple show. playing basicly the same role even tho it�s at least 20yrs later. i sense a whole career playing the fat, homely, frumpy, sweet but dim witted servant girl who dies.
wed i met peter at the web at 4:30pm. bram was working and rene vz was there. peter and i had a fab time. after we were both covered in cum we cleaned up
( i was amused that 2 of the 3 paper dispensers were empty. no one�s told jemal how to do them yet i�m guessing. they can be tedious to load.) and had a drink then a bite to eat.
it was sunny so we sat out at a cafe. there was a vuvu playing with her daddy�s face nearby which i found adorable.
after peter went off to meet a gallery owner i did qh. m/j were there with f/s. they tend to do group things now. we hungout there awhile then they did lime and i went home and watched cm. it was an old one with elle but i had not seen it.
thurs it POURED rain all day so i stayed in instead of doing the errands i wanted to do. later i met simon at vonmar then we just came thuis.
we watched parts of both the tony awards and the nl version on youtube. not a pressing year for either to be frank.
tho ron link got best new male actor which was nice.
doe maar got best musical. it�s basicly a dutch take on mama mia. doe maar was a BIG nl band in the 80�s. new wave/ska-ish with slight, tho clean, punk overtones. they SO wanted to be british but don�t we all.
the musical is a story that uses thier songs like mama mia uses abba�s.
it was the perfect winner given both the nationlistic vibe in nl and the fact that this generation has hit a certain age and is missing it�s youth.
as an amusing side note there is a tintin musical. it won nothing but the dog is fun to watch and tintin himself has fab cocksucking lips.
as for the tonys, spring awakening, which took most of the awards, looks like it could be somewhat interesting. gray gardens could be fun and i am rather curious about the new restaging of company i will admit.
otherwise we just listened to mostly old school dutch music, had dinner and he gave me a nice foot massage.
since it seems the next blue moon is not till dec 2009 we decided to not wait and had sex again. ( limited on the oral but we worked well with it.)
then he slept and i tossed&turned then read some. i wish i had brought more books to nl.
my hiv meds came so i�m back on them. my insides are readjusting to being upset fulltime nicely.
my foot is slowly but steadly hurting more which is going to become a major issue i suspect and i�ve got various annoying insect bites and bumps and a slight cold sore but otherwise am doing ok.
i called dan on his b-day and i�m glad i did. he had to work, is single and there�s no real social life in madison. there�s not much of a queer punk scene there anymore. ( mind you, since punks either grow up in time or die it�s a limited field. he�s 43, tho still looks years younger, and real punk was a generation ago. hell, lets be honest. madonna was almost a generation ago too. yes girls, we ARE that old.) he misses philly. he had some hetro friends in madison but they got married of course so no longer do much. he wants to either save $ for a car to use to go to chicago more often or move back to philly if he can.
this weekend rene has a japp. filmfest. he thuis came at 2am fri nite.
i thought about going out but just stayed in watching tv. they were doing a csi miami repeat i�ve not seen yet. claud called which was nice.
sat i met simon and we did a field trip to osdorp. he�s not been out there in years and i never had. it was much nicer than i expected. it has a really nice lake that reminded me of mike�s old area in groningen. there�s a fountain in it like a smaller version of the one in geneva which is a nice touch.
the library out there is uninteresting really but it was a nice trip. LOTS of small children at the mall and rather a few hot guys too. i was worshiping the babies and lusting after thier fathers.
it started raining but it was dealable if somewhat heavy at times.
in an odd bit of timing JUST as we got off the tram there was a motorcycle wreck by the stop. the driver was ok but the girl on back was badly hurt.
after osdorp we just came back and got off the tram by vonmar to get food, came thuis and rested a bit then had an early dinner listening to sinatra. i have dr who at 8:15 and he wants to do sm tonite. rene has films most of the night.
WOW !
dr who was FAB.
a very eventfull show. capt jack is back and we learn why he is immortal. tho most of us had guessed already. also how he ended up back in time&space.
i learned what happened to rose. ( i�ve not seen any of season 2 yet.)
i KNEW the master would be back. after 3 seasons of foreshadowing about there being another time lord alive who else could it be ?
i aways suspected it�d be him they brought back. ( tho i still have a fondness for romala.(sp?)
that dates me huh ?)
being able to watch ALL of season 3 dr who is one of the few good things about the lawyers fucking up the timing with the paperwork.
i ended up just staying in. i talked to eric. he�s doing ok. tish stayed over the other night which was nice for him.
sun i skipped the cr orgy. i was going to do web/cnest but rene came back from his film and i never got out of the apt.
i talked to lynn. he�s doing much better and is even gaining weight again which is good. he had drinks with friends at 440 then he ate at blue. we had a really good time chatting. i really wished i was there while talking with him.
his work is getting even more tiring. the company is going public so theres ALOT more work to do and it will up both the workload and pressure.
later he sent me a nice note too. he had a nice lunch with friends the next day and went for a walk in hayes valley. i�m glad he�s getting out of his rut somewhat. he�s also discovered youtube and is fast becoming an addict.
mon rene and i did ac markt/dirk in de pijp. of course we got caught in another sudden rainstorm. also of course after we go wet and finally got home it was dry the rest of the evening.
we watched a dvd of the remake of dawn of the dead. niether of us had seen it. what a really good remake.
tho really FAR less a remake than an entire new movie with simular theme.
we both really liked it. tho i had nitpicks about the fact the zombies did not try to eat the dog. they ONLY go after humans and ignore other lifeforms/MEAT ? i doubt it.
also they did not address the decomp issue. no signs of decay or eating each other after days/weeks ?
28 days later delt with it better.
i REALLY want to see 28 weeks later but it won�t be in nl till sept and it�ll be gone in usa by the time i�m back.
yes, i saw the zombie baby coming from the 1st second the pregnate woman was on screen so it was less destressing than it could have been.
over the weekend we had also caught on tv the legend of hell house. rene liked it tho i was unimpressed even if the writer did the screenplay too. tho i was amused dear old roddy got the quarky melodramatic parts and got to put down the evil spirit with the fact he had been a very short man when alive.
gay ?
yes, i did think of jorg at that bit.
we also saw the faculty which is still really cool and also fun for all the pre-fame bit actors.
frodo in high school !
frida in high school !
we�re meeting our lawyer fri.
both tues and wed were pure summer days. tho it rained overnight.
tues i did errands. my nl bank account is still open and working so that�s good. it seems they no longer sell nutragina (sp?) products in nl nor what i was useing as face cleaner for oil etc.
tedious but very dutch.
otherwise i just bopped around.
i talked to mike. he rather liked camaroon all in all.
he�ll go back to the uk for his b-day this weekend.
thurs simon has his fondu group so i�ll not go over. it works out since rene and i are meeting our lawyer at 2pm on r-plein fri and getting rene up, ready and out by then will be a stress so i need to be thuis that morning anyway.
on an amusing if slightly annoying note sun there�s an sos party but simon is having a recital at the same time. it�s sort of just like what would have happened with lynn if i�d been in sf june 9th.
never date singers !
of course i�ll probaly go to the recital. ( tho he IS my EX.............)
my books got here from och and i read the new charlaine harris. i like that she manages to work katrina and post 9/11 terrorisim both into a very genre novel well. tho i did find it RATHER silly and unbelievable that a woman as smart and telepathic as sookie could miss all those clues in her face as to the upcoming attack. HELLO !
david sent a nice note. him and paul had a good time in toronto and he got at least one of his grants. he say�s he still misses my titwork which is sweet.
of course sarkozy�s party swept the french leg. election by a large amount but interestingly not with the complete tidal wave as was expected. the sp even got 50 more seats i think.
here in nl verdonk and rutte,the leader of her party, are having a turf war over the leadership. he has it and she wants it.
she accussed rutte of not being a true right-winger. in fact he�s actually a liberal as are several of the big lights at the moment in the party. liberal being a relative term in nl.
verdonk has the hardline drippingly straight support of course. tho in nl culture it�s viewed as bad form to rock the boat as it were. everyone is suppose to be a �teamplayer�or at least act like it. which was never ms verdonk�s strong suit.
she actually more or less took back her comment. having to play tactfully in politics is something she�s not had to do in several years so it�s interesting to watch.
she�s pure evil but i�ll give her credit about making no pretense about it.
i got rene to throw out 2 pairs of shoes he�s not worn since the 80�s and put 2 more pair up in the attic. which only leaves 8 pairs laying about.
( 9 counting his slippers.)
i forget if i mentioned last letter that i also finally washed a small pile of socks that had not been washed in at least 5 years. i�d been threating to deal with both the shoes and socks for years so i finally just did it. now if only i could do something about the stacks of newspapers...........
wed we watched the prestige. somewhere in there is a really good movie. however the nonstop jumping back and forth and all around in time, place and pov made it all rather a jumbled mess. i know the book is written like that too but hope it works better in book form. rene had alot of trouble following it and even i had to play attention. tho there were some really good bits and the revealed secrets at the end were cool. tho all the females got cliche parts. was anyone really surprised both wives died ? also i could not really stand either of the men. by the end i was just glad the vuvu was ok.
thurs my tummy and intestines were having issues so we did none of the things we were thinking of. tho it rained all day so it was just as well.
fri we saw our lawyer. we filled out some forms. next week i have to go to the usa consulate here and get some paperwork THEN go to den haag to get it ok'd by the nl gov. rene has to go to city hall in a'dam and get some paperwork of his own. mind you the office closes at 3:30pm so that'll be interesting in itself.
after we do that we put it all together and take it to ind. they SHOULD call us in about 2 weeks and we SHOULD get an app. the following week. as i was expecting it's going to be a trainwreck with the timing between ind in nl and sfha in sf. 2 IMPORTANT app. out of 12 months and BOTH will happen at the SAME time i suspect. it's going to be dicey. i keep hoping sfha's computer files will read some paperwork i did in oct as the due date and think i need to redo stuff in fall not summer as is really the case.
at this point i'm thinking of delaying handing things into ind till after aug 6th.
if i leave nl between handing the paperwork in and the meeting time that could also get dicey. once we have the meeting if all goes well i'll have a stamp in my passport saying that they're THINKING about giving me a res. permit so i can come and go as i please. the actual meeting to say yes or no about a res permit itself will be between 3months and a year.
ah, straights. even dykes would be simpler. dicks, no, pussies, yes.
i talked to eric. he's doing ok. he's still very eric-like.
after the lawyer we saw a photo show of lartigue at foam. it was very nice. he was WAY ahead of his time with catching motion. his knack was catching moments of happiness. he only did things that pleased him. basicly he did snapshots decades before there were such things.
interestingly he managed to miss taking any downer pics during ww1. ( the show only went up till the 1920's so i'm not sure about ww2. he only got famous at age 69. he lived till 80.)
i was going to go out fri night but from about 6:30pm till 1am it poured rain so i stayed in.
sat i just did some errands on the overtoom then watched dr who. VERY hot. i�m amused they air the episode in which the evil master becomes pm of uk the same week that brown takes over. timing ?
non stop action and they kill the usa pres too ! ( NOT a bush clone tho they're clearly modeling him on certain american cliches.)
some good lines and we learn the master MAY have an excuse for being evil.
they brought out the cool old timelord robes ! ( always keep those old frocks in storage girls. you never know when they may be in again.)
also totaly channeled both kandor and thunderbirds. ( if not thunderbirds it was one of those style shows.)
next week martha helps lead the fight on earth against the master.
mike and i played phone tag for his b-day.
i did cnest which was boppy but unimpressive. both peter and hans from hiv cafe were there. i played with eric. american, around my age, tall, built and sexy. lived here 6yrs and a reg about town. we had a nice time tho oddly even tho we both find the other attractive and get on very well socialy the sex never gets really HOT. just really nice gf sex.
alastair came in and later we did web. it was boppy and had more energy. cyrus was there and i had not seen him in ages. jeld was there too ! amusedly him and eric hooked up and clearly had a FAB time much of the rest of the night. i played with a tall, handsome guy maybe slightly older than i with a shaved head and goatee. very nice and fun. mostly it was just a night of gf chitchat with various guys.
rene finally watched pan�s laby. he really liked it. i watched a scene of it. ( of course i caught the child�s death scene. i had just got out of the shower.)
i think i�d actually have watched it this time but ironicly i have no time. dvds here are 1 day only and i�m busy.
i was up very late or early depending on one�s view reading scardown. VERY good !
sun i met simon at his place and we got a tram to his recital. it was held in a ballet school. his class seemed nice. mostly women of a cetain age with a couple of gay men of course. simon did one of his songs well and one.........in a fun way.
a couple of the women had ok voices but it was mostly an afternoon of keeping my face trained and my tongue still. my face muscles were starting to ache very slightly.
nothing TOO truely awful.
tho NO white dutch person should EVER do anything from porgy&bess.
afterwards it rained of course and we did ah and came home. i�m now worried i�m going to get ill again from the weather. i�m feeling mildly coughy and sinus headachy.
we just listened to music, litely napped, had dinner then during a break in the rain i went home because i had to get up early mon morning.
i chatted with eric. for pride he had just gone up to civic center for awhile then back home. he was going over to george's later and george was working at hole that night so he might have gone there too.
mon i got up and went to the usa consulete. dealing with all the security checks is always amusing. i came in with a cute little family. dad is american and mom is dutch. they were getting a usa passport for the baby which was born here. the kids were FAB. zion is a 2 year old girl and thunder is an 18
month old baby boy.
yes, those are the kids names. it was like being back in sf.
i chatted with zion. thunder does not really talk yet except in babytalk. he was very happy. he can walk if he holds on to things so he walked around the room like that. it was cute, he'd hold onto the wall, table etc and if someone was standing in front of it he'd just hold on to them. there were some other cute kids there too. i met a sweet little vuvu named josie. she was about thunder's age but quieter. it was like a daycare center which was fun. tho the staff seemed somewhat confused about it. i was speaking dutch with zion and english with basicly anyone over the age of 2yrs old. ( yes, all the kids were VERY young.)
i had to take the papers i got to den haag to be officaly noted by the nl gov. tedious, silly and pointless busywork but VERY dutch.
the den haag office is only open 9am-12:30pm so i decided not to try to make it mon after the consulate so just tried to rest. it was on/off rain all day as has been the norm lately.
mon nite rene and i did chinese on the zeedijk. once again the place we wanted to go to was closed so we made do. we ate at nam kee. it was ok but not pressing. afterwards we had a drink and said hi to jeld at qh. it was rather boppy for a mon nite. jeld and i compared notes on eric which was amusing.
this section will be my 1st time online in den haag.
tues i got up at 8am and went to den haag. i lucked out and got a direct trein right away. it's not a bad trip at all if the treins are working well. the gov building i needed to go to was right next to dhcs basicly and since it was so early in the morning it went fast.
of course nothing but gov offices is open in nl before noon so i just walked around looking at things. i remembered most of it from being here with simon. i walked in the paleistuin which i had not done before. it�s next to the queen�s working palace.
i wish rene could get out of the huis in time to do stuff. it'd would have been fun if he was here. OF COURSE the day i'm in den haag mike is working in uk this week.
it's a classic nl summer day. gray, brisk, windy and damp. i keep having to remind myself it�s the end of june not oct or nov. ironicly at the sametime there�s a killing heatwave in italy and greece.
i'm thinking of doing a sauna for the afternoon. i'm in the ethnic southend after bopping around the upmarket northend. i could easily see living in den haag.
in the end i did fides. it was ok. it�s VERY close to paleistuin.
it�s small but nice. i actually like thier steamroom better AS a steamroom than the one near me in a�dam. mostly an older white crowd.
friendly but not that much sex happening. more a social thing in the bar part. that VERY gay naked chitchat thing only we can do so well.
i played a bit with one handsome guy with a shaved head but mostly just used the steamroom etc and rested. my foot was bothering me from all the walking.
i left at 8pm and just happened to get the timing perfect yet again with the trein.
sometime i want to do both boss and eldorado in den haag too. the boss esply sounds fun.
once back in a�dam i just got a milkshake and a dvd then thuis.
rene got home late from his film and then we did dinner.
we watched the road to bali with bing, bob and dorthy. fun and very hollywood. white folks in brown makeup, indo palaces with built in dance floors, every breath dorthy takes is a photo pose but you have to like an island girl who can wear high heels on small sailboats and in the sand.
i kind of liked the dress that covered things but still managed to SCREAM these are my BREASTS very loudly.
wed i finally got some rest till the workmen both downstairs and on the street behind our apt woke me up. tho i managed to sleep through a great deal of it i was so tired.
then i visted jeld. loek was there too before he left for his dr and maybe a sexdate later at spijker. loek is still really in a funk over his and eric�s breakup. he�s been off work the last 2 weeks but is going back thurs.
yes, if your white and dutch you can take off work if your depressed over a breakup.
it�s emotional stress.
otherwise jeld is fine. we watched some homemovies his dad made in the 50�s. mostly when the family was still in indo. jeld was ADORABLE as a vuvu !
later he was VERY blond as a 2 yr old even tho his hair�s very dark as an adult.
among other family members i saw his sister too who passed away as a baby. she had a bad birth defect.
his family is VERY high socialy so it was like watching a historical doco about colonial life. very pbs.
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| am i turning into a werewolf or is it just pms ? |
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nl is getting the scifi channel. amusedly the ads are the same ones they use in the usa. i suspect it�s cheaper than making new dutch ones.
so there are big billboards with american cop cars and aliens all over a�dam.
qusi-cute ads.
the 5 vol history of amsterdam has been finished. it�s viewed as the best ever done. it�s the kind of thing i would have if i still collected books.
it covers from it being a marsh to the year 2000.
i�m amused they decided not to do the 21c. it�s all pre 9/11 and manages to tactfully avoid the hardcore swing to the right here.
it�s pre the rise and death of sint pim, gay marriage, the reign of verdonk, the backstabbing of hersi ali, the rise to power of mp geert wilders, the killing of theo van gogh, ongoing record breaking weather and if i recall correctly even rob cohn being mayor among other amusing odds&ends.
bijenkorf�s big display window is doing the 50th anv of lego which is fun.
( they�ve changed it to one celebrating june as the month of the thriller/mystery. it�s done totaly with light and shadow. no props. somewhat weak and lame at 1st but it grows on you. an interesting idea which i suspect looks best at night. sunlight dulls out the effect.)
fri i met peter at the web. it was rather empty at 8pm. basicly just the staff.
tho rene vz and ron were bopping around. it got busier later but not pressingly.
peter and i chatted and made out downstairs then went up and had a LONG HOT playtime.
VERY fun.
he somewhat surprised me by suggesting the possiblity of us being lovers.
an interesting thought but besides the fact i�m going back to sf soon i suspect he�s confusing being friendly fb with being lovers.
i think he likes me but REALLY is somewhat in sexual thrall of me.
he REALLY likes sex with me. he is into long slow sensual play. he has a very responsive body i enjoy working. he also likes having someone take control.
he seems to really love his hubby martin but martin does not sexually satisfy him. ( i can tell from what he say�s.)
i doubt i�ll become lovers with peter. he�s nice and FAB at sex but i suspect a tad high mantenice. also while he is dutch there�s the slight taste of the german about him.
let�s say he does not get most of my humor. he�s the kind of guy you�d have to explain a joke to.
he�s been writing alot, he only does nonfiction, and has some pieces coming out soon so it was a good way to unwind.
i was amused, he thought his ex was there and saw us play which made him uncomfortable till he figured out it was not him. while of course rene vz and i said hello in passing as it were while i was actually playing with peter.
jaq was amused we were upstairs so long.
they seem to have found a replacement for me. a friend of kemal�s also from syria it seems so i�m glad.
the 2nd half of the dr who 2 parter was FAB.
i�m really happy the little boy used his vision of his own death to change it.
i think david played the emotional parts really well. i do not think the whole dark fire, heart of creation vibe works very well with him tho. chris played that wonderfully but david is too cute/dorky to work angst of the universe well.
before the show rene and i walked to het spui. he did a upmarket magazine store then we did abc.
he got me r. morgan�s black man.
and i got myself the new j. robson. then we got some ijs and walked home. the weather is truely summerlike here now.
it�s so warm i�m sleeping just under a sheet. we dug the fans out too.
later sat night i did cnest. both hasu and simon were there. i hungout alot with simon of course. he had gone to sm which was not very busy and died early but he had a VERY fun time while there. it does not have to be busy to have fun.
he also had a very fun time at cnest.
i met a tall, generic but aging well older clone named jan. at least in his 50�s and 60�s would not shock me. nice guy and REALLY into titplay. skilled too which is the point of course. we had fun, hot (in all senses) play in 2 rooms no less. i moved us for better postioning.
i also ran into the nice but VERY clingy older brit guy i met several weeks ago at cr. i left with simon and we walked together till past the dam before he rode thuis on his bike.
i took the long way home and checked where the dr�s office that actually took cash was and it�s now an art gallery.
i miscalculated and am out of sinus spray. i�m eeking out what VERY little i have left but it�ll be tedious.
luckly the weather is SO warm now.
my body is detoxing and getting use to no sleeping pills or hiv meds.
i actually do not mind the lack of sleeping pills. i know i can get addicted to them easily. one just has to get use to the lack of sleep.
the main thing i�m worried about with no hiv meds is that i�m prone to abcesses these days even WITH meds so without..........could be tedious but it�s only 3 weeks or so.
back in sf i�ll also have to readjust to the side effects when i restart them.
it had leveled off to a �normal� if constant mid level.
sun i skipped cr. i just rested then did web.
basicly as soon as i got there i was chatting with jaq and i and this tall handsome guy with cliche dutchboy blond hair were eyeing each other from across the room.
he went upstairs and i followed. hans, 41, lives near lieden, GOOD kisser, truely THICK big cock so of course is a bottom, LOVES his ass worked so i gave him a long deep rim job.
a very nice fun guy.
the rest of the night i was just social with various girls. i was there somewhat late chitchatting. dave cooper was there of all people. he�s never out anymore. him and vince are doing well all in all. some health issues of course.
rene and i watched land of the dead. not great but good scene chewing fun. oddly niether of us had seen it before.
we also caught soylent green on tv. actually VERY ahead of it�s time. most of it�s themes could have been from today.
tho i WAS amused to note they seemed to have moved the trans america pyramid to nyc by 2022. (it�s used as a backdrop model)
simon came home early mon. he had not been feeling well and had thrown up. he was starting to feel a tad better but still cancelled his singing lesson. he thinks he ate some overwarm fruit. things turn here FAST esply in this warmth.
i rented all 3 ginger snaps dvds so i could watch ALL of each movie. i missed both the start of 2 and the end of 3. i do not think i've seen 1 at all.
we watched the end of 3 which was cool. tho i was unsure if the dark haired sister opted to freeze to death knowing she�d be reincarnated or if she decided to become a werewolf and live.
it�s surprisingly good for a 3rd part.
we also watched 1.
i LOVE the werewolf curse = having your period concept.
( and we thought dykes on the rag were cranky.)
i was also amused by the guy getting it like a std.
yes class, make a note. WRAP the body before putting it in the freezer. it makes burying it later much easier.
turned out i had seen far more of 2 than i thought i had but that was ok.
i SOOO want a happier times treatment center tee. the smiling wheelchair is HOT.
i was amused by the dream scene of a girl�s class trying to learn to jerk off and her waking up with her hand turned into a hairy claw.
subtext much ?
while i did enjoy the horror in suburbia/ having periods is a creepy thing in 1, i think 2 is my fav in terms of subversion and the evil little blond pigtailed girl of course just takes it to that next level.
STILL no luck getting ahold of rene's banker. i'm starting to suspect we'll miss gaypride. ( both my sinus spray came and the bank called tues. so now we have to wait for his paperwork to be mailed.)
lynn is doing much better. he even went to a leather event at eagle and had a nice time.
tues i bopped by the hiv cafe and hungout with stefan a bit. jan&carl were there. carl is american ( tho of italian background or somesuch so slightly dark skinned, around my age at least, from conn. i forget if he's poz but given his age and that jan is i'd say odds are good.) and JUST became legal here.
it took 2 years, 2 appeals and a session with a judge to get it done.
they seem like one of those couples where BOTH partners are high matenence.
then rene and i saw pirates3. very big screen hollywood, cool effects, RATHER a high bodycount for a disney film and a surprisingly bittersweet ending.
a few silly moments but SOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH better than #2. i think they learned a lesson.
today the main library on the canal closes for the last time. it'll move to a new building on het ij. MUCH less convenent. tho still doable i'll not be able to just bop over to check email or look for cds etc while rene cooks dinner.
they are having a party. the band is playing as i write this. i'll get a balloon for the baby. they�re red with OBA written on them. he's at a depressing mexican film. he said goodby to the library yesterday. he even sent me a sweet email note as his last computer thing from here.
this is the last nl-log section i'll ever write here. i'm meeting m/j at qh afterwards.
it was very fitting that the last cd i burned from here was a cole porter. the 1953 org b-way st of can-can. it also had selections from 2 of his lesser known works from the 40�s. i thought simon and i had it already but we could only find the movie st of can-can.
it�s closing almost on the 5yr anv of me 1st coming to it. i found it the 3rd or 4th week, if not earlier, in june 2002. i do not THINK i was here in 1993. tho i MAY have walked by it.
i met m/j at qh. they were rather late of course. so i waited at my fav table. they had been down at lime, a newish trendy lounge/bar on the zeedijk, and fred and simon were with them. f/s got together after i left. both are british. they�re getting married. they figured out there were about 5 people on the wedding list that simon had not had sex with. i love gays.
m/j are fine. merrick is thinking about leaving IBM and going freelance. he still has long hair. johnny is rethinking being the father of a baby with camilla. he may give sperm for it. he�s trying an ill advised hair style. in response to merrick�s hair i suspect.
anita and jan are doing well. tho 1 of jan�s sons is NOT dealing with the stepmom thing gracefully. mind you, he�s in his 30�s.
rene joined us too.
afterwards rene and i did new king where i had one of those VERY dutch things happen. they took our orders but the kitchen closed and they only got his order done so i had no food.
in usa that would ONLY happen because we were gay, white or i was non native depending on where we were but here it REALLY had nothing to do with any of that. it was just the kitchen closed. period.
VERY NL.
so while he ate i did cnest.
it was past it�s peak tho so i just bopped around but nothing happened. i did run into hasu coming in late when i left.
thurs rene and i bopped around. we did the magazine store on het spui, abc, ws, had some ijs, did a dutch bookstore then fame.
there were SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MANY HOT guys out !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wanted to rim at least 50 men.
there was nothing pressing at any of the stores.
one of the ex sugababes has a solo cd out i want but it�s not in nl yet.
there�s a new willeka dvd box set out that i told simon about. he wants it.
i�ll get the new jane monhiet cd at some point. i listened to it at fame.
after bopping about rene and i had a drink at prik. it was my 1st time there. who knew i�d actually go there with my bf ?!
it�s trendy but nice. it has a nice built in fish tank, pretty colours and funky chairs.
trendy lounges are �in� now in a�dam.
yes, a few years behind most big cities but hey, they�re dutch.
prik, arc, lime, etc all REALLY want to be in weho, soho or chelsia.
mind you, they all work better than jet in the castro despite it�s actually kind of cool decor.
then i got a tram to simon�s.
it was just a night of nl musical theater with some peggy lee thrown in on youtube and a nice dinner. he�s thinking about going out more, meeting guys and maybe trying to date again. he gets a tad nervous about hiv tho sometimes.
it�s so warm here neither of us could sleep.
tho he got a little.
i started farthing by jo walton. it�s grim but very good. (claud i think you�d like it.)
between no sleeping pills and the heat i�m sleeping very little which will be bad for my skin.
jamai loman and ronald link are dating it seems or at least sleeping together. both are very out and upfront about it. it�s the kind of thing that makes others think the dutch are cool. until one notes both are in fact dutch and white.
jamai�s last bf had to leave nl because he was from brazil.
nl is VERY libral IF your dutch and white.
that said, i still think it�s sweet.
fri i just rested at simon�s. i�m going back to my 3-4hrs of sleep a day thing i do when not on drugs. the heat here makes it feel like seista time anyway.
fri night peter and i missed each other. he was in a�dam WITHOUT his mobile !!!!!!
BITCH !!!!!!
we�ll hook up wed.
fri night was DUUULLLL out too.
NOTHING !
mind you a dull boring night out in a�dam is still better than sf most nights of the year.
tho fri the letter from rene�s bank came so i sent stuff to the lawyer. kinko no longer does faxing here but a place nearby does. in a good bit of timing i needed to use a computer to get some info and richard came thuis just as i was leaving since he was in town for the weekend so i used his. i love having a gay neighbor.
sat dr who was FAB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was an amazingly well done show and it seems people in uk thought so too.
ESPLY impressive since niether the dr or martha were actually IN it very much.
all tv should be so well written. i think the actress who played sally should have her own show.
sat nite out was also DULL. the trash party was happening so it was very much a weekenders crowd vibe at the bars with most of the regs gone. i did run into mark at cnest so that was nice and peter from hiv cafe and hasu were there. then i did web which was also a BORE till i ran into marc. we�d not played in AGES but we did again and it was really fun. we always click really well sexually which is amusing as i suspect i�d have NO patence for him in real life at all.
sun i met mike at angel. he had called thurs of course since i was out. he tends to call thurs when i�m out and vist a�dam sun when i have an orgy.
MEN !
we hungout out there awhile. he�s over his cold and shot reactions. he�s spending the week in camaroon. i worry about him but it seems it�s still working post colonial french there so less stressfull than most of afrika.
we did lunch, at new king amusedly enough, then bopped through bijenkorp, hit an atm on the dam and had a drink at prik.
afterwards he walked me to sos and went back to den haag to pack and rest for his flt mon morning.
sos was not very busy due to the weather but i expected that. the ones there were active tho. the 1st part i just watched then i hooked up with a tall handsome older clone. you know the look. a fun nice time. then don and i hooked up for a long intense invovled playtime. he�s small and lite enough i can wrap him around me and lift him. he�s big on kissing and titplay.
after that i rested a bit then briefly had fun with another handsome clone-ish guy. then don and i hooked up again for more hot intense activity.
we both came all over the place. we REALLY click in sex. i�d ask him out but he does the classic dutch thing of carparmentalizing his life i can tell. remember, i CAN sense an emotionaly distant male across a bar.
he�s a rational emotive therapist, yes really, and shrinks are always twisted anyway.
we closed sos out then i had a milkshake and did the web. it was boppy. loek was there as well as various other girls. loek broke up with eric that morning. we chatted about that among other things and i hungout with him much of the night.
i met my replacement. jemal. he�s WAY hot tho not as SEXY as kemal. he�s in his early 30�s i suspect and a dj at the arab gay bar.
i did play with 2 hot HOT guys. one i think we�ve played together before. very handsome with a great cock. his cock seemed familer and he was very friendly. we were playing and this TALL, BUILT, HOT guy i had seen earlier joined us. so we did a 3way awhile then it was just me and TALL&HOT. he came all over my face.
i hungout later than i planned and got really tired. one�s social life here can be a full time job and tiring.
of course on the way thuis i got caught in a DOWNPOUR.
2nd time this weekend. it�s very warm, humid and muggy but we�ve been having on/off thunderstorms too. as long as i do not get ill i�m ok with it. it was actually the 1st time i�ve been out in a real thunder-lightning storm in years.
i talked to lynn. his concert went well. he was drained afterwards but he�s getting over his surgery nicely.
he mostly sleeps besides working and chorus stuff. it seems i never date active men.
welcome home is closing after 30yrs. it was lynn�s fav place.
it�s funny, i�ve only been gone 3 months and dave is no longer manager at my apt building and there�s a total new set up there ( chris is gone too and i had gotton use to and oddly fond of him.), both welcome home and the camera shop closed on castro, harvey�s closed-remodeled-reopend, there�s a new fancy chocolate store and mecca is closed due to fire among other things.
the times they are a changing.
i talked to eric too and he�s doing ok.
i read selling out by j. robson. it was ok. like a tv episode of a show one likes well enough.
my left foot is bothering me. i think the bones are seperating or some such again. it�s the same thing that started happening years ago and why i wear custom made medical incerts in my shoes. i think they are realining again due to use, age, hiv, whatever. that could be a serious problem to deal with even back in sf.
the elections in belgium were interesting. not so much due to a swing to the right, tho there was that but due to the fact it looks like more of a lean to the concept of having 2 countries, flanders and wollona, instead of just belgium. in many real terms it�s rather that way now but remember brussles is one of the 2 seats of the eu. it could be amusing in a few years. tho the eu in general will be ongoing amusement i suspect.
in france sarkozy�s party looks set to sweep the legislature. the union fights are going to be a joy. i can smell the strikes from here. everyone should vist parijs before everything grinds to a halt. |
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ed gave me lynn's new room phone # and i talked to him.
there were complucations after his surgery so he's in hospital for FAR longer than he expected. they have him on major drugs. lq morphine among other things.
he sounded weak and tired but it seems he's starting to do better now. it seems sat was a VERY ugly day for him.
i found the season final of torchwood somewhat anticlimatic for something they´ve been building up to all season.
the godzilla meets heavy metal satan stomping cardiff WAS very cute but RATHER quicky killed off for major evil.
OF COURSE jack came back from the dead AGAIN. not only is him being immortal one of the shows big points but in fact it's HIS show. he HAS to be in it.
everyone´s actions/reactions are becoming more and more unrealistic.
i AM very glad reese is alive again. sure he's a bit lame but he does sweet dorky but still hetro male so nicely. ( and people say i'm not a pet person.)
make a note, when the dead keep showing up saying you should open a timerift it most likely means you should in fact keep it CLOSED.
tho in fairness it DID bring reese back from the dead, of course it DID kill him in the first place, and return all the lost folks back in time, except diane i´ll bet $, so evil has it's points.
rene is still bad off with his cold. it just keeps hanging on and hanging on HARD.
i´m starting to worry some. if it goes on into next week i´m doing to try to get him to a dr despite both his and the system´s rather medevial attatudes.
i´m much better. except i´m using some dutch sinus meds i had to help my usa meds last longer and the dutch meds are not as effective. i used them for a long time here so one gets use to it but it takes adjustment. my sinuses always feel swollen and on the verge of a sinus headache. dealable but tedious and effects my moods and sex/social drive.
the prefect, the new a. reynold´s novel is really good. it´s my fav of his actually. it´s a scifi mystery set in the machine universe but before we find them. ( or they find us.)
about 80-100 years before chasm city was destroyed.
it does a really good job of mysteries within mysteries, wheels within wheels.
for all the props it´s center is classic detective.
while some very downbeat things happen and the body count gets high it has a rather upbeat ending. ESPLY by reynold´s standards.
( claud, do you want to read it ?)
i talked to lynn again. it seems he´ll get out of hospital a day sooner than he thought. so he was in 1 week.
they have him on pill painkillers now not iv and he´s eating. tho only a soft/lq diet at the moment.
he got my get well card and really liked it.
we basicly just chatted. he was weak and tired.
the weather is summertime nice again.
i stayed in tues but may try to go out tonite.
i just can´t get the motovation to go out anymore.
wed i stayed in later than planned since all the repeats of tv shows i like i had not seen yet. i think they´re finally catching up here in nl to when i left sf.
after tv i talked to simon to make plans for thurs then did cnest.
it was boppier than i expected given the hour and nice weather.
still for the first part there was just no vibe. lots of milling about and that gay thing of guys i liked were not into me and guys into me i was not into.
tho it was fun watching one of the aspects i really like about gays.
our varied types and tastes.
there was a handsome american leather daddy in who was eyeing an ok looking clone with a mildly whitetrashy vibe. ( he´s dutch and a REG but seems like an ok guy.) ( we´ve never done one on one but he MAY have joined in a 3way before.)
most would think they´d be no question that the clone would be into hot daddy MAAR NEE...... both the clone and i myself REALLY wanted the slightly shorter, VERY stocky middle aged ethnic guy.
i really could not tell if he was of arab or indian stock.
he of course was not into me at all. he gave the clone some thought but passed in the end.
he just ignored the hot daddy.
in the same vein there was a guy i had been eyeing but i did not think he was into me.
not a reg, shorter than i, 30´s, short hair, mildly stocky, glasses, a slight fey air. not fem just maybe a touch fey.
he looks like someone´s gay ´wife´ really.
well i noticed he was eyeing me a bit too after awhile and seemed very shy so i made my interest plainly but tastefully clear.
turns out once he´s actually clicked and into play he likes public shows and having his cock worshiped.
it was both hot and sweet.
sweet kisser, lite titplay, rather small but ROCKHARD cock.
SMOOTH body. what very little body hair he may have he´s shaved it ALL off.
he REALLY liked that i was ok with and even found his smallish cock HOT and had no issues working it.
we got naked and he had a shaved headed, hairy, tattoed, cockslave ( he was into my look.)doing a show.
it was VERY fun. my knees were black afterwards. we finished about 2mns before clublights came on for close.
he was very nice and thought i was very skilled.
i´m not sure where he´s from. he spoke in english by his choice but rather badly. which is interesting because he seemed smart and not lower class. ( non pc i know but nl/eu IS a class structured place.)
i thought about doing argoes afterwards but just thuis went. it was a very nice night with a lovely halfmoon. i was just in a tee at 1am and it was fine.
i watched the mask of fu manchu with rene. camp !? racist !?
i talked to lynn. he´s back at home. he sounded weak and tired.
still having pain and on pills but it should get better.
rex from the cove drove him home and gave him some soep.
seems the cove is going to start staying open till 2am on weekends to get the bar crowd. that should be interesting.
1st they start closing earlier and now they´re staying open much later. i´m guessing busness is not going well.
i´m amused i´m still sort of dating a cove-nite.
one can never escape the cove destiny.
thurs rene and i rested. he is still coughing alot.
later i met simon at the bridge and we did vonmar then came home.
it was VERY lovely weather.
we hungout on the balcony then listened to music and spent the evening watching youtube. mostly carol burnette stuff and various french things.
i did not eat much at dinner.
partly i´m getting really sick of nl food, partly simon is not really that good of cook sometimes and partly i just seem to be eating less generaly. which is amusing given my weight going up.
he gave me a FAB massage for the 1st time in ages.
we actually went to bed at an ok hour. simon often gets hooked on youtube till about 4am when i´m over because i can appreceate alot of it too.
which is still better than rene´s current thing of staying up to 5am or later.
he´s been doing it awhile now and it´s draining.
mike called, while i was at simon´s of course, he has a cold too and is spending the holiday weekend at the house in ireland.
fri i did cnest.
it was boppy but boring for the LONGEST time.
i did meet a hot guy from mexico city. he was a tad tipsy for real sex but we play around a bit. short, bearded, very sexy body and very nice and friendly. he stayed friendly with me the whole night.
then i met patrick. i had noticed him because he looks AMAZINGLY like my molecular biologist fb david in sf.
even more amusing i could tell titplay was big on his list, like david, without even asking.
OH MY ! we had a FAB time. it was one of those nights which remind me why i moved to europe.
he´s french , 57, a scorpio ( b-day 5 days after mine.), is living here for about 3yrs overall for a job ( has been here 2yrs already.), he´s a french teacher in general but at the moment is the cordernator at the french institute here in a´dam. has been with his hubby 15yrs. the hubby is staying at the apt in parijs but vists often.
we played for a long time but it got SO hot in the room we took a break.
the downside of a climite with humidity in a space with a hundred men having sex.
it was just like a sauna. we were SOAKING, SOPPING wet.
we got another room with slightly better set up. we could sit down.
we got totally naked and went at it again.
sweaty, dripping, salty, ball slammingly HOT sex.
SERIOUS titplay. SCREAMING orgasims.
he got me a drink afterwards and we stayed till close.
he was bummed about sarkozy winning too but unsurprised. it seems he has had contact with royal from before and really likes her. it seems she´s just as nice and polite as she seems but he thinks she does not have a strong enough personality to be prez. that was my vibe too.
while for better or worse sarkozy does in fact DRIP force of will.
we did info and he lives not too far from me so HOPEFULLY we can hook up again.
sat rene and i did concerto. he got a cd he wanted. i thought about one but passed. we got some ijs afterwards.
that night it rained so i just did tv with rene.
the weather has gone classic nl again. there were major rainstorms in france. that storm only really hit the far zuidoost corner of nl but we still got rain over the rest of the country.
dr who was FAB. a 2 parter so i´m REALLY waiting for the 2nd part. much social commentary on uk culture. oddly the 1st show with no gay ref. other than being set at an upper class boys school ala maurice. i rather suspect the actor playing banes takes it up the ass but it´s not a part of his posscessed by aliens role. yet.
i am worried about the little boy with visions who forsaw his own death in ww1 among other things
we watched ginger snaps 3: ginger snaps back. ( admit it, you love the title too. tho i don´t think that´s the offical title but a dutch comment.)
it was far better than it had ANY right to be. ESPLY for part 3, a prequel of course, of something.
goth chicks in the old west !
handsome native american men.
evil straight white men. ( well, duuh.)
once again we´re ALMOST rooting for the werewolves.
i liked the detail that werewolves are a europian illness brought to the new world like smallpox etc.
tho we missed the very end because a show rene REALLY wanted to see came on before it ended. he´s been following cannes all week. it´s one of his film high holy holidays.
i´ll have to rent it. i can guess the ending in general but am curious about the details.
i talked to eric. he´s having tummy issues since they switched one of his meds for another one. he also has an earache which i worry may become an infection but he´ll go to the dr if it gets worse.
i talked to lynn also.
he was feeling better. he got a massage which made him feel better then him and dalton got thier nails done so he felt all gay.
he still has pain at times and of course alot of GI issues still.
he´s upset about HOW skinny he´s become. he´s one of those guys that hiv and age makes thin anyway then with the surgery etc..........
he wants to gain weight again. he had been going to the gym, just lite stuff ,no weights, before the last bout of illness and had been liking the results.
sun sos was busy. ACTIVE too.
one of those days were men were having SEX from the start.
just after i got there i hooked up with a very tall, big dutch guy. shaved head with a modified mohawk.
i could tell him and his bf were dutch but in from out of town for the holiday even before we played. he was very fun. good kisser and titplay. friendly too tho i never got around to getting his name. we played off&on during the party.
him and bf went to the amstel bars afterwards.
at one point him, i and the guy from mexico city, who was there too, did a 3way.
i also just watched various scenes a great deal. it was a very sex happening day which i prefer over the just milling about days.
guus was there so we said hi.
i played with a skinny, pale, hairless dutch skin. then don joined us so we had a fun 3way. then another skinny, pale, dutch skin joined us for a 4way.
after a awhile don and i slightly seperated and just played by ourselves while the skins were joined by others and became an allout show.
don and i had a VERY fun time and i came all over myself.
luckly sos has started sometimes not ending EXACTLY at 7pm.
it takes me time to cum. i had thought i´d be too tired and sore by that point but no, it seems i was not.
also we got to cuddle awhile afterwards.
afterwards i did the web. it was fun and VERY social.
various guys i know were there so i hungout till the smoke really started bothering my eyes.
since i had already cum and was not up for more sex i went to get some ijs.
most things were closed of course but 1 ah near the apt was in fact open.
dinner was going to be somewhat late so i got some lite takeout to tide me over and boywatched on l-plein for awhile.
i´ve been watching cheesy horror films alot with rene lately.
somewhat addictive. tho they can be tedious at times.
mostly stuff from the 30´s and the 70´s.
lagosi and karloff, cushing and lee.
amusedly there´s also a big sexparty june 9th here in a´dam. there´s one in sf i wanted to go to and lynn also has a concert that night. what´s up with june 9th ?
ironicly i´ll skip the one here in a´dam.
$ and fetish gear so i can not be bothered.
been there, done that, got the job.
i´ll just do normal bar scene that night if i go out.
mon was both rainy and a holiday so most things were closed. i just stayed in being tired, bored and brooding.
today is gray and it may rain. rene and i might do a movie tonite.
my new usa paperwork came so rene just has to get a letter from the bank and then HOPEFULLY we'll see our lawyer next week. mind you he COULD have done this by now.
the stress of having to deal with people/paperwork is making rene ill.
he's the kind of guy who finds making a phone call a stress.
peter wrote me and we have a sexdate fri.
tues nite rene and i saw spiderman3.
it was ok if very hollywood.
too long and too many plotlines.
enough for at least 2 movies. maybe even for 3.
tho some fun bits of cgi.
wed tho i was not really in the mood, it's taking time getting ahold of rene's banker, but rene and i saw angel the new ozon film at an art house theater in de pijp.
i really liked it. period drama done as a 50's soap opera.
beautifly shot.
the lead actress has really lovely eyes.
some good lines.
yes, it's a predictable plot but that's one of the givens given the form.
the main charictor is naive, course and perhaps a tad vulgar at times but with a selfblinded will of iron.
i'd have no patence for her in my life but one would have to give her her due.
i thought about going out but watched tv and shaved my pubes instead.
i knew kate jackson was going to play emily´s mom on cm but had not seen it yet and that was on. also watched brother&sisters among other things. i may have issues with the upper middle class white american hetro-ness ( despite the gay brother.)of b&s but the cast is amazing. in lesser hands i´d not bother with it.
rene actually went to bed at 3am wed night !
he was tired and had a headache so i managed to get him to leave the tv.
the weather has been annoyingly warm/brisk&wet. it changes so much and so fast i worry i'll get another cold and rene has been coughing nonstop for weeks.
mike had a bad cold in ireland but is starting to feel somewhat better.
now that he's splitting his work between uk/nl he's starting to have trouble with the nl system.
the european thing works ok. it's the UNION part they have trouble with.
things actually WORK in uk. unlike nl.
it seems rene´s banker will not actually be in the bank till next week. the letter we need has to be from the special bank offical who deals with high end people.
i´m out of hiv meds and sleeping pills so this has to come together by next week or i´m leaving anyway.
thurs i met simon at vonmar and we just listened to music and watched various things on youtube before dinner.
he actually did a good job with the hammer on the cabinet.
he got a really lovely new pink flowered plant for the dining table. a new hanging basket for the balcony too.
he had a FAB night of sex at sm sat.
it seems EFT is going to be the next big new age movement. he´s getting way into it.
since it really was a blue moon we actaully had sex last night. i had a feeling it was going to go that way. we still work well together. he´s FAB with my tits and i know how to work his cock. we´ve trained each other well to our bodies. ( gee, how new age is that ?)
he gave me a nice massage afterwards too.
david sent a sweet note from sf. he still misses my titplay. him and paul are doing a long weekend in toronto.
mike is being sent to africa for work for a brief stay. interesting to go but one does worry.
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fri i did cnest.
it was boppy.
i played with the stocky hairy middle aged turk who should be in my german-turkish porn mags again. this time he got naked for me. it´s interesting the postions you can get into on just a plain stool. he´s very flexable for a man of his age and build.
then i played with a middle aged dutch guy. good looking enough and nice body for his age. he was nice and ok.
THEN i hooked up with this HOT, tall, hairy, VERY well built german in a really nice leather jacket. around my age with a goatee/close cropped beard and dark hair. the leather and ´butch´crowd in sf would worship him. i had seen him earlier but thought he was too hot etc.
turns out he was really into me too.
FAB sex. he makes a point of playing safe which is ok with me and not common here. he lives in a´dam. he was both fun and nice. esply for a german.
he´s a top and i got naked and let him fuck me a bit even tho he´s got a big penis.
lastly i met joep, a stunningly sexy dutch guy. in his 30´s. cropped hair almost to the point of shaved. no face hair, slightly shorter than i, body of a GOD. an AMAZING ass ! a good sized rock hard cock. HOT SEX and a fun nice guy too.
it was another night of the reason i moved to europe. i was covered in cum and had 4 fun guys. 2 of whom would be untouchable in sf.
i watched another miss marple dvd. 4:50 from paddington. ok but the weakest so far. i guessed who the killer was VERY early on and the side bits were not all that interesting.
sat i went over and visted paul. we hungout at his place chatting and he got a new dining table set he wanted me to see. it was nice. we had dinner at a suraname place then we each went thuis to brush our teeth and he picked me up at my place. we had ijs and took a slow walk boywatching to sm. it was never THAT boppy and even when guys were there it was low key. one of those nights that makes me not go back again for awhile. it was eurovision final night so i think many stayed home to watch.
i played VERY briefly with an indian i play with from time to time and then a guy with glasses who was trying to be trendy i think but the real geek shined through.
he was ok if not pressing to do again. cute enough tho no skill and he seemed to be using lube as a full body lotion.
of course the tall beauty most guys in the place wanted turned out to be french. truely lovely face and body, think vulcan pornstar ( high narrow cheekbones, darkish skin, tall, lean, black hair done in that ceaser do and eyebrows to truely die for.), but i was not actually that pressed about him on a sexual level. i was not his thing either, he likes tall and butch, but he was actually nice given his looks.
as tends to be the case with me the guy i REALLY wanted turned out to be english from manchester but not interested.
pale skin, cropped hair, boyish intellectual face with glasses.
a beefy uk couple came in and they got the ball rolling for awhile. paul played with them. they were good looking but already a tad tipsy for my tastes.
i mostly watched and listened to the music. even on a slow night the music tends to be good. i missed the old bartender, also named paul, who i knew to chat with.
afterwards we did eagle. paul had fun and got home at 5:30am. the eagle is FAB compared to anthing in sf but i´m out of the habit of doing that scene at that hour so went home.
serbia won !
they were SOOOOOOOO bad it´s rather like a bad joke.
they were one of the WORST ones. tho one COULD in fairness say a few were in fact even worse but we´re getting into hairsplitting by that point.
the ONLY cool thing is that the lead singer looks like a full on bull dyke. tho she IS serbian so who knows ?
sadly however butch she may be she can not sing a note.
many folks are openingly wondering if this is not an early warning sign of the end of eurovison. esply now with all the new eastern block countries who tend to both gang together and have bad acts. mind you, the show is older than i am so it won´t die anytime soon.
in an amusing bit of timing the hard core right wing speaker of the house in serbia resigned 2 days later and there will be a new set up under the left and middle groups.
speaking of right wing, as i´m sure you know sarkozy won in france. not a suprise tho we were hoping royal would pull off a last minute victory. i really think she´d be ok even given how cynical i´ve gotton about women in power after living in nl.
she´d have been polite, weak, slow to act and somewhat ineffectual at least.
( yes, those are the reasons she LOST.) unlike sarkozy who is going to make france an interesting if ugly place i suspect for the next few years. i´m rather glad i´m not living there now. ( of course a part of me would find it interesting and i´m sure chris will be very politcaly active.)
sat night i stayed up late. rene had bought 2 big cd cases but of course had never used them so i put all the cds i´ve burned for him in them. just the burned cds. the store bought ones are staying in thier cases with the paperwork they come with. if i had a stable life i´d have left mine in them too in sf.
it came to over 240 cds. there were 2 big garbage bags full of empty cases when i got done.
he´s keeping the really thin empty cases. so of course those are now sitting stacked on the floor. ( where thay sat in the middle of the floor for 3-4 days before he accidentaly kicked them. i simply paused the dvd i was watching, got up and got a big plastic shopping bag, loaded them up, put them with the other stacks of shit in the library and resumed watching tv.)
sun sos was busy. it was almost too busy for me at moments but with a very nice gay atmosphere. lots of tourists in. many americans and brits.
i watched alot of nice scenes. the funnist was basicly a gay conga line. it was just like in a porn movie. 5-6 guys in a line fucking etc. i LOVE gays ! we´re just so much more fun.
paul was there so we hungout and chatted alot.
harald was there too so we also chatted alot and played. it was fun and we both came. we´ve always worked well sexually together even tho we´re both basicly bottoms.
afterwards since it was a nice evening, unlike most of the week, i took a walk. i did the zeedijk then i did oudechans which i´ve not done in ages. it´s one of the most lovely areas in a´dam and not that visted by tourists even tho it´s very close to one of the MAJOR tourist areas. you have to make it past the red light dis. and our junkie area to get there and few escape through.
i sat on a bridge for awhile then walked back through the red light dis. tho there were few whores out.
then i did the web which was not busy. i really just hungout with the girls.
i was going home when i noticed that hl was empty and hester was working so i hungout there awhile chatting. she won almost e50 on eurovison night. hl had a lotto where folks drew a contestants name out of a bowl and she got serbia. ray had to call her at thuis to tell her she won since she had left by then.
due to the return to normal nl weather i have a somewhat major cough and am choking on my own snot. it should make tues sexdate with peter at the sauna interesting. tho the steam MAY help.
i talked with eric. he´s ok tho has a cold and another abcess came on his face but it´s healing now.
( the computer ate 1/2 of this 1st part so this was the less detailed redone version. i HATE redoing things.)
lynn sent me a fun webcam vidio from his WAY camp hotel room in cupartino. the hotel robes are fax leopard. the carpet and furniture is even worse. he LOVED it.
it was like an 80´s flashback. the mother´s day show went well.
mon i started watching the torchwood dvds. i like the show tho i feel it's missing it's full potenual by rather aways.
some really nice bits and i really like the adult content but it has leaps of logic that are pushing it even for a bbc scifi tv show. also rather unrealistic that they could operate the way they do in a city the size of cardiff. mildly amused by, tho think they´re also pushing it, with the fax csi miami hummer and team walking together with coats billowing bit. ( a secret org with a monogramed car ?)
i REALLY dislike the theme music i must say.
i find everyone's dripping angst more tiresome than interesting overall.
i do not think the team in context of the show´s world gels together very well nor do the actors themselves really. tho it´s early days yet. i can see them growing into thier roles.
i know hetro females have very limited choices but why would anyone sleep with owen more than once ?
on the other hand i´d do ianto in a heartbeat even if he is too young and pretty.
i do like that they show a multi ethinic uk. unlike monoland here. also that they show ´normal´ hetro male behavor in a very realistic way. ( in the episode stories not with the team members themselves. none of them are ´normal´.
i think the faery show was VERY well done. i thought it very tacky of them to kill estelle for no reason but let´s be honest, we all thought it good when the bad faeries killed both jasmine´s stepdad and the pedophile.( and mom needed a good hard slap too.) i like a show that shows a child is in fact better off with ancient evil from the forest than her folks.
i thought the ending of the eugene death show sold out tho with it´s qusi happy ending. tho in fairness while the thought of taking the man who walked out on me and the kids back after 14yrs, and who only came back after the oldest son DIES, is INSANE. i suspect there are in fact women stupid enough to do it.
i´ve pointed out before, since it´s 1 of the 3 shows i had seen before i got the dvds, that i think everyone on the welsh cannible show needed slapped. both in context of the show´s universe and in context of whoever wrote it.
everyone raise your hand if you expected suzie to show back up despite dieing in the 1st show. i´m not sure how i feel about the fact that in the 1st show we´re suppose to think she was good but suduced by the dark side as it were only to find out that no, she was in fact always an evil genius who knew what she was doing.
it was well done but was it the easy way out ?
i find the repeated message that there´s NOTHING after death interesting.
( it´s what i suspect myself.)
tho i suspect that´s going to change after awhile. the whole ´there´s something out there moving in the dark´ bit to say nothing of the fact that if one CAN raise the dead where do they come from if there´s NOTHING ?
i like that they skipped ongoing forshadowing for a blunt
ít´s coming after you jack´ approuche.
tues i met peter at the sauna. i was able to control my coughing between meds and postioning, standing or sitting upright, and we had REALLY fun sex. even he commented we work well together. he´s very sensitive and responsive. he´s somewhat nervous about my hiv but delt with it well. both him and martin his 54yr old hubby are neg.
they been together 7yrs.
i was mildly surprised myself that peter´s 52nd b-day is next week. he looks 40-42 tops.
we cuddled afterwards and chatted about design. he´s writing a book for an upcoming show. he´s an art and design curator and writer who sometimes teaches.
i told him about rene´s love of design. peter´s fun and sweet tho he has that dorky dutch - germantic thing going on.
then we did the jucuzzi and dry sauna. i know i look uncomfortable in a jacuzzi. i actually dislike them alot but give it a go every so often.
( amusedly rene loves them.)
then he left to go back to haarlem to fix dinner for him and martin. i stayed and did the wet steamroom and bopped around. i figured both the wet&dry saunas would be good for my skin and lungs.
i also played with a tall sexy beefy guy with glasses and a big cock.
there were 2 VERY older gentelmen there which show the futility and pointlessness of human life in the end. i like that one can have a fun life when one is older in eu unlike usa but there DOES come a time even here when it´s time to stop.
they could barely walk or stand upright and one was going beyoud lesbian sagging and bulging ugly.
they may have been handsome 50yrs ago, they may having amazing stories to tell but that was then and this is now. as dr who say´s everything has it´s time.
i only stayed 5hrs overall. i´m getting older and wearing down myself. on a good night/day at chariots in london 5hrs would just be the early part.
while rene cooked dinner i did the library. i got dvd of tideland and some cds.
claud wrote and they fucked up my birth certificate so i have to get yet another one.
otherwise just stayed in. i have a tedious cold now. a cough in my lungs and mild fevers. i restarted the meds which prevent pcp just to be on the safe side.
rene got me a box of fancy candy for mother´s day so we ate it.
i´m doing a dvd set a night of torchwood. ( the show with jack´s doomed gay love is on tonight´s set. much sadness and straightness to be expected. i actually saw part of it online awhile ago by chance.)( as i send this i´ve not seen it yet. i´ve been putting it off.)
i talked to lynn the night before he went to hospital. his surgery is wed. it´s being done up on parnassus even tho davies is his normal hospital. parnassus is the best pancreas place in usa it seems and both the #1 and #2 dr´s in the dept will be doing his surgery. it SHOULD go well but it IS a major procidcher(sp?). he has a VERY odd pancreas. OF COURSE i could never date a guy with a normal panceas.
they´re cutting open his 2 small deformed valvues and making it 1 big one. they may be putting in some plumbing fixtures too. he´ll be in hospital at least overnight and is taking a week and a 1/2 off work.
he´s nervous but doing ok.
today was a very sf-like day weatherwise in nl. sunny but with a brisk enough wind that i wore my bomberjacket for the 1st time overtop a thermal and a hoodie in a month and a 1/2.
i forget if i mentioned it but i got back in touch with dan shubert a couple of weeks ago. he´s back in madison wi and doing ok all in all.
wed night rene and i just watched tv. i saw an episode of cm i had missed in sf. the female jack the ripper in new orleans one. i was amused that she used the biological fact that men have sex drives as her lure.
thurs was yet another holiday in nl where the entire country is closed so i met simon early. he just had his haircut and it looks really good.
we mostly just napped. tho i got a sinus headache so sat up and read some. carnival by e. bear is good. i hate the ending of course. tho gays in a straight universe mostly can only have one ending.
we watched a bit of youtube. mostly things from the rosemary clooney show and michael buble stuff. we saw some interesting things with buble in nl and the episode he did of days of our lives.
we used the china plates mom gave simon during dinner for the 1st time. they´re pretty. rather old school white with flowers but not overdone. i think jeannette would have liked them. very nice but not truely fancy.
he got in a bad mood for awhile because the fax laquer cabinate he has his computer equipment in is being damaged by it.
i decided not to point out that,
1 it´s a store bought piece of modern built crap not a real solid old piece of furniture.
2 that it was in fact never made to hold all that big heavy machinery.
he´s going to buy a hammer and try to fix it. luckly i won´t be around for that scene. he already tried briefly to put the nails back in using a jar of shoe polish as a hammer. no it did not work but at least it did not break.
he also left the computer stuff inside while he did it so the door won´t go straight. ( and how often do i think anything should be straight ?)
i love and/or care for all my dutch men but they are the most unobservent and basicly rather clueless men in general i´ve ever met. eric in sf has more usefull common sense than any i´ve seen in nl. jeld´s the most together dutch guy i know and even he can have his moments of obliviousness
( mind you, she´d be the 1st to laugh herself at the idea of a hammer in her hands)
we went to bed very late but i managed to get a little sleep even with my sinuses and coughing. ah, drugs. cough syrup and sleeping pills are a classic.
it´s fri so i´d like to go out tonite but i´m not sure my body´s up to it.
i stayed in fri night of course.
sat cnest was boppy but not AS boppy as one might expect on a sat night. alastair, peter from hiv cafe and hasu were all there so it was nice chatting.
it was funny, i was feeling tired and fat again but put that mentaly aside because i thought one of the hottest guys in the building was eyeing me.
why yes, he was.
shorter and more petiet than i but perfect in form. ALMOST shaved head with a slight balding pattern. a truely godlike ass. i´d almost say he was hotter than joep last weekend but that would be hairsplitting to say the least. tho if i had a soul to sell i THINK i´d go for his body over joep´s.
as tends to be the case with guys with big dicks he was more bottom than top but that was ok with me. i ended up fisting him as is so common here.
he seemed a nice guy and i THINK a native english speaker but i do not know where from if so. ( tho not common some dutch can have an amazingly american accent when speaking english. ) very friendly but not truely chatty.
after him i met tom. adverage looking dutch guy. my age at least, brown-dirty blond hair in a popular nl style, tall, smooth, skinny, COMPLETELY assless with a big cock.
actually very nice and fun despite being assless.
somewhat skilled which i always like.
after tom i just hungout some and debated doing web but i just got some lamb´s meat in pita bread sat outside on a bench, watched folks and gave directions where to find the whores.
one thing i like about a´dam is there is more public seating areas than in usa.
rene did not feel like cooking sat.
i´m somewhat over my cold. the coughing has faded but my sinuses are still a tad off.
rene on the other hand actually got a worse cold than i did. he´s had fever, MAJOR coughing etc, etc for days.
of course i think i was doing better myself for a day or so there but tried to reget it from him. i´m hoping we will not do the classic bf thing of trading colds back and forth.
i use to do that with both philly and eric.
sun i decided i could not be bothered with doing the cr orgy.
tired and no motivation. we just stayed in all day except for going to ah once.
i´m becoming more and more a stay at home kind of girl. ironic given the dutch.
i just can not be bothered to go out. i´m tired alot and bored.
i watched more torchwood.
i´m not %100 sure how i feel about yet another passe cliche take on fight club.
tho i liked the lost folks from 1953 show. so, given how snarky rifts in time can be, do we think we´ll see diane again ?
could we flog the death as ongoing undercurrent theme aspect any more ?
( i think i want a ´death is nothingness´ tee.)
i just know some uber geeky website is keeping a tally of the body count.
lynn´s best´s friend at work wrote me. they are keeping lynn MUCH longer in hospital than he expected. i had thought he was thinking it´d be a more in&out thing than it would be. ed gave me his room phone # but they moved him and i do not have his new # or know why they moved him. i´ll keep trying his cell phone but i may try to have someone call ucsf to try and track him down.
i talked to eric. he´s ok. he FINALLY got a new dr at VA it seems and he really likes him so i´m glad about that.
the dr he had was rather straight. remember VA is a military hospital. so there were issues with the gay/hiv thing.
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fri rene also put on clean clothes, trimmed his fingernails and had the dishes done by the time i got home as WELL as ´pulling on his knotted shoes´( getting his courage up) and seeing our accounts lawyer.
truth be told my impatence was showing last week.
he REALLY wants me here but it´s just that EVERYTHING is an effort for him. even really basic simple stuff. it´s partly due to dutch culture and partly his own mental stuff.
after i got home we went for a walk in de pijp and s-park. we did acmarkt and sat outside at an italian ijs salon and watched the guys and kids. then we sat in s-park awhile. it´s a lovely place. copied in the style of a park in parijs.
we saw some hotties. also some cute kids.
with the warm weather lots of gays out and we even saw some dykes.
afterwards we just did dirk and came home.
fri night work was ok but i decided i made the right choice in leaving. warm weather and chewing gum is a tedious combo to say nothing of the shit.
sat i did qh and said hi to jeld and various folks. i also checked out the angel for the 1st time. yes, small but on the corner with glass walls on 2 sides and with tables on a small channel.
location, location, location.
rene vz was there so we chatted.
i was going to go home but i remembered loek was suppose to do the door for the skin party at the web so dropped by to say hi.
( i think i skipped doing cnest. to be honest some of the weekend is bluring at this point.)
it was rather quiet. we gave a party and no one showed up. they decided to close MUCH earlier than expected. which meant i could start cleaning sooner than 7am.
i went home to change clothes and get the keys. i could have just borrowed jaq´s keys but i figured with my luck i´d trash my clothes on my last day if i wore something other than workclothes. when i got back it was actually rather boppy. there is a convention of gay deaf guys in town from all over the world and they had found us. there were some cutties. gays are so cool.
( i had been noting a noticeable amount of signing going on the last few days.)
so there were about 10 or so skins in thier corner by the dj in thier outfits and the rest of the bar was a blur of signing hands.
we still closed by 3:30am tho.
even with the party a bust it took me from 3:40am till 9:15am to clean.
i HATE dealing with those floors.
amusedly of course i only got around to having the girls reteach me how to use the music computer 2 weeks before i leave again.
speaking of music we like the guy we THINK will be our new dj.
max is still doing stuff there too and i suspect will keep doing stuff from time to time but truth be told much of the staff and customers do not really care for his music. it´s more a matter that he knows everyone and has been a part of the scene for a long time. he´s skin maurice´s ex.
( we´ve never clicked on any level. nothing bad just complete indifference. max is not a ´warm´ person despite being italian. as for his music i do not really care for it but mostly am not pressed about it. tho bram was becoming less than tactfull about it.)
after i cleaned i went home to shower and take a nap and then i did sos.
it was not that busy and somewhat low energy but ok all in all.
i played with don off&on which was nice.
i also played with a tall stocky guy with glasses. generic dopey looking but good mouth and ok hands. he left a hicky in my left underarm. he had the classic look of accountants and serial killers.
i also played with a beauty who looked like he stepped out of a mayan relief.
FAB nose and bone structure. skin JUST pale enough to suggest whiteness somewhere in the mix. like an artwork with a thin dusting of plaster. i think we played AGES ago too.
i think that was all.
after sos i did zeedijk.
it was not nearly as busy as i expected. i chatted with various guys.
leendert was working at qh as well as wilbert.
bas was at the angel with frank the short, hot guy with REALLY FAB tattoo´s he´s not ´dating´ but seeing alot.
then i did cnest which was really too boppy to be fun then i did the web which was was rather non boppy.
in fact over the weekend in general i and others have noted it was mostly RATHER less boppy everywhere than one might expect on q-day weekend.
it has been commented on for some time that the gay scene is becoming drab as this year´s skin party being a bust clearly shows. it use to be a success.
it FINALLY started getting busy about 9-10pm. everyone came in at once which is the way things happen here.
by that point i was going slightly numb with tiredness so went home. i took a round about way down rozengracht which i have not been down in ages. the streets were becoming alive. i stopped at the party at the homomon. a bit too.
then just had dinner with rene.
mon itself we got out of the apt about 3pm and met simon. i was wearing the orange tee i got at out of the closet on folsum and brought JUST for q-day. it was of course orange but it said hillbilly down one side of it and the back said southern culture on the skids. it amused me to both do the dutch thing and still have a bit of my background. the dutch HATE that. i assume it´s some type of skate shirt but it looked ok on me. better than i expected being a redhead in orange but i shaved my head freshly and trimmed my goatee very short so there was not that much red showing. amusedly niether rene nor simon wore orange. they´d clearly fail the dutch purity test.
( yes, verdonk installed one. it may or may not quietly go away now that she´s been replaced. the new woman in the office has being low key down to an artform. i can´t even remember her name at the moment. when very 1st in office she dropped a couple of verdonk´s more hardcore racist things then has been coasting since then.)
esply amusing since 1 is from a farm family and the other a baron. both as pure dutch as it gets. most of the entire country was in orange of course. i did see some cute tee´s if one reads dutch or knows local stuff.
we did the homomon. for awhile then walked over to the amstel. it was of course a zoo everywhere. tho truth be told not a killing crush. ( the offical # was 550,000 folks walking about a´dam.)
we hungout there rather awhile watching guys and enjoying the music. about 7:30pm we decided to try to eat on the zeedijk.
we bopped through the fair on n-markt on the way.
as i said it was a zoo but not insane so somewhat to my surprise we got seating at eat mode and it did not take ages to get our food either. simon liked it. it was his 1st time there. after dinner we did qh.
jeld was working. m/j were there as well as camilla. she was down from sweden for a long weekend. we had not had time to really hook up and she´ll be gone by wed. her b-day is next week but she´ll be in stockholm for it.
everyone is fine all in all. merrick is looking alot like jesus these days with his long greasy hair and goatee. i do not care for it and i know johnny does not really either but merrick wants to see how it looks for awhile so......
camilla is doing the euro thing of taking alot of time from work due to ´burnout´. it´s really more a matter of being a 30 something hetro female with no baby or hubby. ( she´s always been VERY upfront about WANTING both. tho having a baby is MOST important if it comes to it.)
it´s starting to wear her down, the clock is ticking, and so far all her close, hiv- gay friends have declined to donate sperm for a baby.
various other guys were there and it was a very fun social time so i´ll skip the names. basicly just gay socialness and chitchat. everyone´s but camilla´s shirt came off at one point.
simon left 1st.( he did cnest and had a fun time with a guy with the biggest dick he´s ever played with.)
then m/j&c left when the dj came on. rene and i stayed very briefly then left too.
we ran into bas who was well dressed but not having a good time. he did not go into details but i noted frank was not there.
i showed rene the angel.
he was surprised how small in is.
rene vz was out and about. may 1st is his b-day as well as simon´s. fred´s too.
we just walked home through the crowds. q-day stuff was shutting down and all the bars and cafes were full.
i never got around to doing the web q-day.
ray put up 2 big neon crowns inside. joop made them for q-day 6yrs ago and they´ve been in the basement since then. they´re rather fun.
( i know this is a lame and boring queensday report but between work, the warmth and being social with various folks it all blurs as to who&what&where&when. basicly it was fun but nothing truely noteworthy.
a part of me will miss being part of the web staff but i´ll not miss the filth. all the staff knows now i´ve quit and it´s ok. i´ll still be around alot while i´m in town. it´s alot like the cove use to be. jaq and kemal were not happy of course but took it well enough. jaq of course made a mild attempt to make me feel guilty which was to be expected. )
we caught the news on german tv about the fire and freeway falling in sf. i´m glad no one was hurt.
tues simon came over and we did the library and had a walk in v-park. we hungout at the round teahouse/cafe then the rose garden just chatting and boywatching.
we did ah on kinkerstraat and went home.
he wanted to have dinner at home instead of going out for his b-day. his mom and 1 of his sisters called. mom still always say´s hi to me.
he got some cards and gift bons. i gave him a card and i´ll get him the new michael buble cd when it gets to nl.
we just napped and listened to music. also a bit of youtube of course. we´re basicly in that no sex ex bf space now.
i watched cover girl.
1945, music by j. kern and i. gershwin. it got the oscar for music score. gene kelly/rita hayworth/phil silvers.
also a young eve arden. she ALWAYS had that voice and attatude.
ironicly the music is ok but not classic by any means. however the clothes are FAB.
not a GREAT musical but a true little gem none the less. the plot has an interesting if shamelessly contrived melodramatic twist on the common cliche of love vs $.
lynn sent me a series of pics and web cam vidios.
he looks VERY handsome in his b-day pics. i was even impressed and i´m sleeping with him.
simon think´s he´s sexy and has lovely eyes.
lynn is one of those rare guys who looks MUCH better with his glasses off.
his face structure and esply his nose are not made for them.
meanwhile his web cam vidios are truely dorky. which is of course the true lynn. he´s the kind of guy who if choosing between a classic lovely sweater and an ok but slightly wal-mart-ish sweater would just as likely choose the slightly wal-mart-ish one.
you can take the girl out of idaho but...............
today just rested and did email stuff. the cd burner seems to be having issues which is tedious.
i started getting another abcess near the one i got just before i left sf. lucky the anti bio´s the dr gave me in case it happened while i was here seem to have caught it before it got too far along and it seems to be healing. having a dr give me meds like that would NEVER EVER happen in nl.
i had a slight skin infection on that leg too which never became an abcess but just seemed to be eating away the top layer of flesh. it cleared up just with the anti bio gel i have. there´s a slight scar i think will fade in time.
it´s very clear i´m going to lose my left big toenail. no pain or infection but it´s only attached at the back now and seems to have stopped growing and is just turning brittle. it´s the one i had two surgeries on when i was about 19. it never has been the same since. i think age and my body dealing with hiv has just finished killing it off. it´ll probaly hurt when i does go as i suspect the exposed flesh underneath will be tender till it gets use to texture.
i suspect i´ll pull it off myself forgeting and putting my sock on too fast and pulling it out. that´ll be a bitch.
otherwise my health is mostly good. tho i tire easily. it´s one reason i do not go out more. i´m tired alot even tho my life is hardly that active. i suspect my #´s are still not all that high. esply given my tendency toward abcesses these days.
this is the 1st time i´ve not only not lost weight in eu but actually gained it. despite nl food. i suppose it´s a good sign that the meds are keeping me alive. it´d be easy enough to lose weight. i could just go on the dutch healthcare and diet plan.
wed night i stayed in. i rented marie ant. for rene to see. he really liked it.
thurs i picked up my last web $ and chatted with werner and bert. then i got a card at mr B and stopped by qh to chat with jeld and give him a cd i burned for him. it was slow just before the afterwork crowd. leendert, will and fred were there. loek came in after work as did hans of h/r. it was fun. i´d have stayed longer but i was meeting simon. i got him the new michael buble cd at fame then bopped through both abc and the apt fast and met him at vonmar.
he really likes the new cd. ( i burned copies for me, lynn and loek. the cd burner seems fine now.)
we curled up and listened to it once thuis.
otherwise it was a very french night. ( of course buble IS from french canada himself. )
aznavour´s last cd ( very good and impressive for a man in his 80´s.), comparing various productions of carmen on youtube.( simon´s next song to do is an aria from it.), also some cool piaf things including a fab post death duet vidio of aznavour and piaf. dalida ( we saw a vidio someone did of a dalida routine in the 80´s with madonna´s last hit overlaid to it. a truely AMAZING matchup.), scenes from 8 femmes.
also alain delon was a hot guy in his day. tho not truely my thing really but i can understand the reactions.
it was fun tho my french now really is as bad as i pretend it is. it never was as good as it SHOULD be since i was in a truely bad headspace in parijs. tho it use to be better than chris thought it was.
we also checked out j. holiday at the 1982 tony awards ( WOW !) and some buble stuff online.
fri visted jeld. we bopped around his buurt while he did errands then i hungout at his place. it was a brief vist because loek and eric are having problems and may be taking a break from each other so loek was depressed as hell when he came home. jeld did not know the issues at hand yet.
the short vist did work out tho since they had to be in den haag later for family stuff. may 4&5 were rememberence day and lib day. also may 4th had been jeld´s dad´s b-day so they take flowers to him and mom´s grave.
mike had written me and we met at qh later. he was suppose to fully move to den haag mon.
he likes living there and his new job. he´s found the 1 good gaybar. the boss.
we hungout at qh rather awhile. leendert was working.
then we had dinner at a chinese place i´ve not been to in ages. niether of us really liked our food nor plan on going back but it was eatible and there were some sexy guys in. it had typical SLOOOOOW nl service.
afterwards i walked him to cs to get his trein.
later at cnest it was boppy but nothing was happening. i felt fat, tired and unwanted and was thinking of going home then i noticed this HOT guy who clearly wanted me. dutch skin, my age, in fashionable sport kit. in retrospect i think he eyed me earlier but i thought he was too hot to be interested.
FAB sex ! GREAT kisser, rimmer, liked tits and underarms.
girl´s, i was buck naked on all fours sliding across the sweat slicked floor as he fucked me. i was filthy in all ways. we played rather awhile. VERY fun and a nice guy too if not chatty.
afterwards i met peter who was hot in his own way. curly dirty blond hair just dark enough it was not a turn off. way cute boyish face but a grown up. i forget his age. a freelance art critc and reviewer in haarlem. no truely great skill tho not bad by any means. with him i was CLEARLY dom and he was very responsive. not an s/m thing so much as a sensual thing.
we played a long time too. he wanted to buy me a drink afterwards but had to get the last trein thuis. we did info. ( in fact as i write this we may meet next tues.)
i figured i had beat the odds a great deal already so just went home.
sat i did stablemaster for the 1st time since i was back. it was boppy but nothing happening for the 1st hour then things finally kicked in. it´s like that there. a bar full of naked gay men but no one can be bothered to have sex then it all clicks at once.
i played a bit with a cute nice youngish guy. it was very nice but he really wanted me to be topper and i really wanted him to be older. we stayed friendly throughout the evening tho.
then i hooked up with a tall daddy who was handsome in a generic way. after awhile another handsome but short daddy joined us. it was really rather fun.
then a WAY handsome, in a coverboy way, brit and i played. i had noticed he was interested from the moment he walked in but to be honest he was TOO cliche pretty for me. i just know he´s on a calendar back in the uk. you can tell he was an A list pretty boy and now he´s older but doing it WELL.
various piercings but he was nice and took out his pa for me. it was an ok time because to be honest he was a really nice guy despite his looks. i DO like the brits for a reason.
then i met christiaan. i had noticed him when he walked in. i thought he was basicly the hottest guy in the bar.
i did not think he was interested but it turns out he´s just shy. ( it´s a´dam. shy is relative.)
1/2 austrian, 1/2 lebonese, 42, moved here in 2002 also, lived in berlin for 10yrs before. lived in my old buurt there at one point awhile. does tech support, has a 48yr old dutch bf of 3yrs named rutger. he´s - but bf is +.
we had FAB HOT sex ! turns out he´s WAY into titplay !
also kissing etc, etc and even etc.
after awhile a chinese guy i´ve seen around joined us. good looking enough and seemed nice tho a tad gf for my tastes sexualy really. however he was more fun than i expected. responcive and has lovely skin.
the staff had to tell us to leave. we were the only guys left at close and we had not even noticed the bar was empty and closed.
christiaan walked me thuis afterwards which was nice.
it was EXACTLY the kind of weekend i moved to europe for in the 1st place.
having hot sex with hot guys who think i´m hot.
sun i did cr. i already knew it was going to be CROWDED. the weather took a return to normal sun and it has in fact rained most of the week as i write this.
cr was MUCH too busy to be fun so i mostly just watched and chatted with folks.
derk jan, ton&michael were there among others.
i did very briefly play with a tall clone.
ton and i had played a few times AGES ago and we hooked up again. i had forgotton how fun he can be. he´s all about titplay so we had fun.
afterwards we all ended up at web of course. i spent most of the night making out with ton. also chatting with various folks. i got the name of the tattoo artist who did frank´s work.
bas want´s to get more serious with him but he´s holding back.
at the moment you can not get 7up, fanta, sprite and i think coke in nl for some reason and i do not care for the web´s subsitutes. ( that MAY be over now as i write this. i know the web got a letter from our supplier but i never bothered reading it since i was quiting. rene and i noticed ah had restocked thier 7up supply yesterday. i´m not sure if it was a import, tax or supplier issue. in nl it could have been something insanely left field too.)
it was one of those fun social nights but where one gets sick of drinking and i do not even do beer !
doing the social scene in a´dam can be hard work and a full time job in itself.
after i burned out on the web i checked out cnest on my way thuis. boppy but boring till i met aneal.( i´m sure that´s not even close to it´s spelling but that´s the sound of it.)
truely BEAUTIFUL. i was surprised he was into me. he was amused i guessed he was from suraname of indian background with a touch of latin before we even spoke.
he´s lived in nl 14yrs, he lives in bos en lomer. he really is verstile. does both top and bottom. he´s one of those rare guys i found both beautiful and sexy at the same time. he´s fun and nice too. i suspect early 30´s but easily passes for mid-late 20´s. i decided not to ask. i had an odd feeling he´d take it the wrong way if i asked his age.
after he left to get his nightbus i went home.
this week i have not done much. rene has another film fest so we do not do much. i´ve thought of going out but never got around to it.
mon my torchwood dvds come which was nice. tho i´ve not watched them yet.
tues rene had too much roodewijn with dinner so had a bit of a hangover the next day. ( mind you my baby´s a LITE drinker. he gets tipsy & happy then falls asleep.)
thus tues we stayed in bed basicly all day. which was actually nice. lots of cuddles.
i came over to do email later but simon´s computer was acting up so that was a bust.
he got turned down for the chorus he was going to join. i had a feeling about that to be honest but i never once even hinted at it of course. the group really focuses on the classic stuff.
the guy who is causing issues at the school called him up and acted like nothing was wrong. they have known each other for YEARS of course. simon does not want to be social with him anymore.
he visted mom sun and she gave him some new plates and he got 2 fun new plants for the dining table and bedroom bookcase.
the modern parents delima,
is my child REALLY from hell or is it just bad dna ?
rene and i watched godsend. it was on tv. i had been curious about it since it was named one of the worst films for it´s year.
yes, it was bad tho i have seen much worse. i think critics were more annoyed there were 3 oscar winners floating in the debris.
it was more a matter of being VERY VERY VERY predictable and hollywoodish.
it was beyoud the fact that i guessed both the plot twist and ending before it was 1/2 done. i basicly guessed it frame by frame.
it was like omen lite.
it could have been the story of damien´s 1st cousin.
it had a very 70´s film feel to it really. tho kind of fun in that like several 70´s films it was really scifi dressed up and sold as horror.
SHAMELESS overuse of folks popping up out of nowhere.
also in this day and age don´t we all know that if your chasing an evil child through the desolate woods alone you never go in the old unused barn after him by yourself. forget about the ax you just know he´ll have in his hand. think about all the other sharp objects scattered about every surface and the infection you could get.
only greg and the kid were really trying to go with it. everyman ernest and sincere is greg´s main acting talent. robert was basicly coasting between theater pieces and kim had that shell shocked look.
you could tell she was thinking........ MY GOD ! WHAT A PIECE OF SHIT ! maybe if i just pretend it´s all a dream it´ll go away and why DID i marry alec baldwin anyway ?
the kid was ok. he plays an 8yr old but i suspect he´s closer to 10 or 12yrs old. he was basicly hired due to his pale skin and creepy charles addams eyes. you can tell what the dir. told him to do most scenes but he still does better than most of the grownups.
i DID skip the opening scene with the good kid getting killed by the car tho.
simon came home wed while i was still here. he was rather depressed about the chorus rejection. he had delt with it well at the time but the next day it prayed on his mind. so i stayed till late. he was glad i was here. it was one of those days he was glad to have someone to come home to even tho it was unexpected. we just did music and youtube. alot of nl musical theater stuff. some of it rather cool.
i could do a whole thing about the dutch musical version of the 3 musketeers. actualy WAY cool if not great classic art.
lots of gay backup dancers in black leather, lots of black leather in general, and the villians were FAB. lady de winter was to die for.
( also in the life imatating art awards....the actors playing the youngest musketeer and the lady in waiting had an affair during the show then dumped both the people they were with and became a couple.)
my lawyer wrote. they finally got thier paperwork ready but of course it was 10 days too late for the paperwork i brought from the usa to still be good so now i have to wait yet more time to renew my usa paperwork from here.
i was going to try and fly back to sf june 5th. i have to be back in june and there´s 2 sexparties in sf that week i´d like to go to. i was going to start checking out tickets this week but now...................
i´m not sure. i expect my new paperwork to get here about the time i´d fly back to sf. ( or of course just AFTER i go back to sf as these things go.)
he say´s we pass the legal requirements but expects them to say no the 1st time due to politics.
ah, straights.
thurs rene and i saw the fashion palaces show at the historical musuem. it´s about the early big dept stores in a´dam. thier versions of macy´s, gumps and bloomies etc.
it was really interesting. rene remembers them all from his childhood. it was all very old school highclass back then. he use to go shopping with his mom the baroness. her in hat, gloves etc. the whole lady look.
some ok clothes at the show tho the dutch of course were rather behind the french and shamelessly copied them. the show is acually very upfront about it.
i talked with lynn a long time last night. it was a very nice talk. among other things we talked about his upcoming surgery next week. they found out that instead of the normal one big valve draining his pancreas he has two small ones. they cut them open some and drained it but they have to go back in to finish opening it right and they are putting in a tube to make sure it stays open. it should go ok. he´ll be off work a week.
he has two shows to do this weekend. him and dalton are staying in a fancy hotel while doing the santa clara show then a show back at mission dolores the next day. when i called it was perfect timing. he had JUST finished emailing me and had JUST taken his dick in his hand to piss.
we think we´ll be doing more things together this summer. MAYBE even a trip to san jose.
rene and i met simon at the library. i showed rene the lawyer´s letters online. one of the lawyers has basicly stopped pretending rene has a clue so just writes me. he even commented he thinks rene should pay more attention to how his estate is being run. HELLO! if ONLY !!
both emile and i have mentioned to rene a few times we think the same thing.
then simon and i did vonmar and came thuis.
mostly a low key night of music and dinner.
he praticed carmen some and he figured out how to watch the eurovision semi finals online. computer as tv.
the stage was fab but most of the acts sucked. tho they were well produced i will say.
some countries are automaticly in the finals and the rest have to compete.
of the competeing countries last night denmark was the best then belguim. of course in true eurovision style niether were chosen. the winners were the worst acts. basicly all the former eastern block countries voted for each other so the 10 winners were all from there. except turkey got in too which was cool.
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the weather has gone more sf-like. dry, sunny, blue skies, warm but then the wind blows.................................briskly.
aunt ruth is as ok as a 90 year old basicly blind woman living alone can be. niether rock creek nor lick creek rose as high as the river. only some of the roads were flooded.
in west madison some kids were kyaking down riverside drive.
it´s come to my attention that abc does not sell elizabeth bear´s books so i´ll have to wait till i´m back in sf to finish her trilogy.
they are having a sale on scifi for april so i got deadstock.
today i just hungout with rene till my patence frayed and i went to get my web $. nigal was sitting in front of cnest so i hungout with him awhile and he came to the web with me for a drink. then i came to do email.
they are working on rene's building again so tues we were both tired and got no rest. the noise started early and went on all day except for lunchbreak. it´ll be a drawn out process. they´re sanding and painting all the balcony doors but only from the outside.
rene got some dvds at 1 of his fav dvd stores.
we did fame and there´s a new dutch jazz singer who is actually rather good i´m going to recomand simon try him. ( the library got it so i burned it for myself, rene, simon, jeld and lynn. wouter hamel is 16 or 17, gay and a jazz prodogy. he´s THE hot word of mouth nl music thing right now.)
i just bopped in&out of the hiv cafe. i got there late and missed stefan.
i stayed in later that night of course since rene does dinner so late.
wed was our 4th anv.
we did the new show at the hermitage.
it's objects from persia. some very lovely jewelry, ceramics and prints from books.
then we checked out cult, the dvd he wanted was checked out, and concerto where we found a rare shelia jordan cd.
on the way home we stopped at ah and the bronx.
i said hi to rick from black body at ah. had not seen him in years. not that we have ever really cared for each other mind you.
i got a hot turkish porn dvd at bronx.
then we had a very good big indian dinner at akbar.
for gifts i got him a richard gordon dvd box set and he got me season 1 of torchwood.
later i did cnest. bram was there with friends after work. hasu and ushruf were there to so i finally got ushruf´s # for when i leave the web.
i had fun sex with ed. a goodlooking latin guy with a sexy body from palm springs of course.
tries to be rather butch and nasty during sex but he´s a stew so how butch and nasty can one really be.
actually the face looks familer so i think we´ve talked before if not in fact played before. we did info. which i also suspect we´ve done before. :)
he´s written a couple of times.
after him i met a handsome nice well dressed dutch guy named peter. he´s 72 but still very handsome with a hot white/silver beard and hair. nice chest too.
his body´s ok too all in all for a guy his age. going thin and concave not round.
very clean. he´s another guy who dresses casualy in pressed shirts. actually his shirt looked very good on him. a checked blue which went with his white beard/hair well and showed off his chest.
nice white ck underwear.
of course we did not really have sex. he basicly just stroked and fondled me. age makes lesbians of all of us in the end. oh, the gay/male desire for sex is there but the body really just wants a mineral water and to go organic.
he was nice tho. he got me a drink and we chatted a bit.
i did web at close to pick up keys. i helped jaq close and had a drink with him and joop. andrew was there. he goes back to munchen fri and won´t be back till end of zomer.
rene has another film fest so i will not really see him for the next week or so.
thurs i actually saw a film with him. paprika, a japp. aname. it was interesting. i was not WOW but i rather liked it overall.
got a couple of emails from our lawyer.
much thumbtwitleling going on.
nothing usefull is going to get done this spring and since i´ll be in sf for summer and europe goes on hold during the summer anyway....................
after movie i just came to simon´s for music and dinner.
he´s ok tho there is drama at work which is causing him stress.
he´s also thinking of starting with a new chorus singing classics. lots of german stuff. ( he´s decided to stop the yoga on tues and do the chorus.)
he asked me to have dinner with him on his b-day. as a gift i´m getting him the new michael buble cd whenever it´s released in nl.
i have a cough in my lungs from the temp changes. today my sinuses are not amused either. we´re suppose to have really warm days again next week.
i work tonite and i just am not into it.
in an amusing bit of timing i happened to be on the phone to rene from simon´s sorting out dinner plans inbetween his films when the postman brought my box of books. it took 2 months to get here. i mailed them the week before i left sf in feb.
the other day i got a letter from john in ohio. it was the 1st piece of postmail to get through since i got back. he´s doing good. he will be working in india a bit which is fun.
fri i ran into simon leaving cnest when i went into work. he had been out at a cafe with a friend beforehand. he had fun with 2 guys at cnest. work is getting more stressful. one of the co-founders, in fact the main founder really, was finally ousted after more than a year of being eased out ( not that is was really that easy mind you.) and is trying to destory the school in revenge through different legal procedures. he won ALOT of euros from them and is now going for the program software.
work at the web was only notable in that, oddly, the upstairs was not as bad as the downstairs. i was done by about 6am.
sat i just rested. dr who was rather good. tho gee, you mean the dalecks are still not ALL dead ?
also could we have any more foreshadowing that MAYBE not ALL the timelords are dead despite the dr clearly being strangely blind to it ?
i´ve noted chris did the gay ref lines alot better than david. i wonder if that means anything.
work was work-like.
i´ve decided to quit the web. too much effort for too little $. i´ve been debating it but............
even IF i find a way to stay in nl it´d never help me in any legal way.
i HATE dealing with those floors. floors that need special care in a sexclub are a bad idea.
i hate reeking of bleach and losing so much time just in cleanup and getting rest.
my bf IS a baron.
THO i WILL miss the perks of working there.
i´ve not told ray or the girls yet. i hope to wed night.
sun i just rested since there was no sos or cr since there are 5 weekends in april. i COULD have done same place but i forgot they do a 4th sun party too. not a stress tho.
i just did web and cnest.
web was impressingly slow for a sun. the weather is warm again.
cnest was boppy. i ran into bas, sander and joost at the tables out front. joost is traveling around usa again. tho only for 3 weeks this time. we chatted rather awhile.
inside i played with a sexy petiet moroccan guy. very sweet.
then i played with a leather daddy and then had a 3way public scene with him and a sexy stocky skin who looked british but could have been dutch. it was fun but not a chatty group. i was covered in cum.
then i hooked up with an old trick again. we had also played in the web rather recently. i must refresh my memory on his name. hans i THINK.
i took a break and had a milkshake while boy watching down the damrak and there´s a fair on the dam i checked out. all pretty flashing coloured lights and morrocan boys with thier girls.
it´s very pretty in it´s tacky way in front of the palace. tho 1 of the rides does have the kind of lights which trigger my headaches if i´m not careful.
back at the web martijn and his hubby were up from the zuid so i hungout with them there till late then went home.
mon i saw daywatch with rene. it´s REALLY impressive and well done. i liked it. i´m under the impression it makes even less effort to follow the book than the 1st film.
rene is at films ALOT at the moment so i only really see him late at night at home.
i thought of doing same place mon night as i always do but of course did not. i´ve started watching gray´s anatomy while here. i can see why it´s popular tho i can not see really caring enough to keep up with it.
we´re doing the near death experence story arch at the moment which is mildly interesting.
tho it was amusing to note among other things that it seems there are no water currents wherever it´s set. i could go into water dept and finding a body you did not see go down in murky harbor water but hey, it´s tv.
i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy by then so we got to chat. ton was there so we said hi too.
there were a very young cute in love couple in who were nice to watch. gays are so cool.
i hungout there rather awhile then went to web to get my $. joop gave me a drink too so i hungout there a bit. it was really dead. another ton i know was there so we chatted briefly.
drinking is SO much a part of the culture here. between qh&web i had 4 drinks given to me. imagine if i drank alcohol.
tues i´m just doing computer stuff and hoping rene will deal with some banking/legal paperwork stuff the lawyers want. he has films tonite so we´ll have to try for an early dinner.
hans of h/w has hogkins and is starting treatment.
turns out marco may not be as sick as some think. it may partly be a story for the nl form of work/welfare.
like most things i suspect the truth is somewhere inbetween.
lynn sent me some fun webcam vidios. he manages to be sexy, dorky and sweet at the same time. he has to deal with some tedious form of having cameras rammed down his throat and up his ass thurs. dalton is going with him. he just had a icky time with some scan where they could not find a vein for the iv and just keep jabbing him.
i read blood and iron by e. bear and liked it.
she´s had a lot of hype but i find her a really good, compantent(sp?) writer not a truely ground breaking one. niether cyberpunk or urban fantasy are new. in fact her stuff is almost a throwback to the 80´s which i actually like.
her scifi worlds seem better built than her fantasy ones. tho in the end it´s her people which are her true strengh i think.
i liked that she delt with many of the fantasy tropes in a rather non cliche way. tho at times her people come off as almost too compantent( sp?) to be real.
tues rene had films all nite. i thought of going out but dusted and vacumed what i could instead. did laundry too. after he got home we watched happy feet.
a tap dancing penguin. what more do you need ?
the ending was painfully contrived even for a penguin musical but hey, it was a movie with a MESSAGE.
today was insanely lovely. warm in a way sf never is with seeds from the elms misting the air and water. when the breeze blew all those seeds on the ground
gave the impression the ground was crawling.
a good day for people/men watching. i sat by a canal a bit and thought about the illusion of nl and it´s theme park feel.
i sold books i have read then did ah. i also bopped through ws and abc. the new reynolds looks like i might read it and i´m really glad to see a new sookie book out.
tonite i´ll go to web to get keys for weekend and hopefully get to tell ray i´m leaving.
as useual rene got very little usefull done.
i started reading house of reeds. gee, how many years did that take me ? (3)
simon came home while i was still here so i hungout here awhile with him.
later i bopped home briefly then did cnest. at 1st it was not that boppy but it got busier later. some cuties in but the heat seemed to be effecting them. a sense of restless energy and much pacing around but little action. i did have fun with a middle aged stocky hairy turk. black hair with flicks of silver, beard, nicely overdressed for both the location and temp. so a tad sweaty. he seemed a nice enough guy. no real skill but i was happy to work his body. he looked like he should be in the german/turkish porn mags i like.
both peter and alastair were there so we chatted. alastair just got back from chicago. it had been a tedious weekend at work. he´s a stew.
in a nice bit of timing i noticed ray was at hl alone and sobor so i dropped in and told him i´m quiting, he took it well. ( esply once i pointed out i was staying for queensday weekend and i was really only leaving about 4 weeks sooner than planned anyway.)
i gave him ushruf´s info but i do not think he´ll go for it. i always doubted he would. ushruf is part of the cnest scene and ray is not big on crosspollenating barstaff. ( i PLAY at cnest as does bram at times but we are CLEARLY alined with the web.)
ray will tell jaq etc. i know jaq will not be amused but...................
then i did the web. it was not busy for a lotto nite. everyone is saving energy/$ for this queensday weekend. upstairs was dead.
i hungout and chatted with various guys till after the lotto then got bored and went home. ( in a classic bit i FORGOT to actually pick up the keys while there so i´ll have to go in earlier fri nite to make sure i get them.)
it was a very lovely night outside. warm with a partual moon over the canals.
rene was finally back from his films so we had a rather later dinner.
we watched perfect creature which is really rather cool. it has as many ideas as a book. i can see why it failed as a film.
you kind of have to be familar with genre stuff to just go with it.
is it horror, scifi, alt hisory ?
yes, it´s all of the above.
it´s not truely GREAT. i think saffron burrows greatest skill as an actress is her cheekbones but it´s FAR better than most B flicks.
it has really good production values.
thurs i just took a walk in de pijp doing man and baby watching.
rene stayed home stressing over trying to do some simple paperwork. it´s come to my attention i suspect i´m leaving him. he´s adorable, i care for him greatly and he´s a millionare but i think my patence may be fraying. i can see a time where i stay mostly because of my age and his $. if i was hiv- i suspect i´d be looking at maps about now.
tho it MAY still work out.
i met simon at the library. oddly they had no cds of carmen. his next musical pice is from it. i did find the last cd from anita o´day before she died. (it´s as bad as i´ve heard it was.
everyone respects her for doing it in her 80´s but......................)
we did vonmar, i dropped the dvd off at the store then we came home to do music and dinner.
his work stress is calming down.
the guy sueing got 185,000 euros which is considered fair, he´s been there 22yrs. he´s 52yrs old or so and doubtfully will bother with getting another job, and they´ve changed the locks so he no longer has the key. there´s another hearing may 1st everyone hopes ends it. i decided not to point out that if one was REALLY after revenge how one could still do things. hopefully he will just take the $ and call it a day.
today i´m trying to decide if there´s a real point in trying to see if a dutch lawyer is in his office on a warm fri afternoon before a long weekend holiday.
tonite i have to make sure to get the keys. we´re open later all weekend. sat night there´s a party till 6am so i go in and clean at about 7am sun then go home, shower and hopefully have the energy to do sos. mon will be queensday. the city is going to be a ZOO the next few days.
rene impressed me this MORNING and actually got up, got out of the apt and went to see our lawyer to give him some stuff.
with rene it´s not a matter of him not wanting me here it´s the fact he´s both dutch and a mess even by thier standards. (such as they are.)
the lawyer seemed postive about things. (not that i truely trust either of our lawyers %100 but that´s another issue.)
today is yet another absurdly nice day so i´m going to go walking with rene in de pijp or v-park.
i SHOULD rest for work tonite but................that´s a big reason i´m stopping so i do not have to factor in rest vs tiredness into my weekend.
the weather has gone more sf-like. dry, sunny, blue skies, warm but then the wind blows.................................briskly.
aunt ruth is as ok as a 90 year old basicly blind woman living alone can be. niether rock creek nor lick creek rose as high as the river. only some of the roads were flooded.
in west madison some kids were kyaking down riverside drive.
it´s come to my attention that abc does not sell elizabeth bear´s books so i´ll have to wait till i´m back in sf to finish her trilogy.
they are having a sale on scifi for april so i got deadstock.
today i just hungout with rene till my patence frayed and i went to get my web $. nigal was sitting in front of cnest so i hungout with him awhile and he came to the web with me for a drink. then i came to do email.
they are working on rene's building again so tues we were both tired and got no rest. the noise started early and went on all day except for lunchbreak. it´ll be a drawn out process. they´re sanding and painting all the balcony doors but only from the outside.
rene got some dvds at 1 of his fav dvd stores.
we did fame and there´s a new dutch jazz singer who is actually rather good i´m going to recomand simon try him. ( the library got it so i burned it for myself, rene, simon, jeld and lynn. wouter hamel is 16 or 17, gay and a jazz prodogy. he´s THE hot word of mouth nl music thing right now.)
i just bopped in&out of the hiv cafe. i got there late and missed stefan.
i stayed in later that night of course since rene does dinner so late.
wed was our 4th anv.
we did the new show at the hermitage.
it's objects from persia. some very lovely jewelry, ceramics and prints from books.
then we checked out cult, the dvd he wanted was checked out, and concerto where we found a rare shelia jordan cd.
on the way home we stopped at ah and the bronx.
i said hi to rick from black body at ah. had not seen him in years. not that we have ever really cared for each other mind you.
i got a hot turkish porn dvd at bronx.
then we had a very good big indian dinner at akbar.
for gifts i got him a richard gordon dvd box set and he got me season 1 of torchwood.
later i did cnest. bram was there with friends after work. hasu and ushruf were there to so i finally got ushruf´s # for when i leave the web.
i had fun sex with ed. a goodlooking latin guy with a sexy body from palm springs of course.
tries to be rather butch and nasty during sex but he´s a stew so how butch and nasty can one really be.
actually the face looks familer so i think we´ve talked before if not in fact played before. we did info. which i also suspect we´ve done before. :)
he´s written a couple of times.
after him i met a handsome nice well dressed dutch guy named peter. he´s 72 but still very handsome with a hot white/silver beard and hair. nice chest too.
his body´s ok too all in all for a guy his age. going thin and concave not round.
very clean. he´s another guy who dresses casualy in pressed shirts. actually his shirt looked very good on him. a checked blue which went with his white beard/hair well and showed off his chest.
nice white ck underwear.
of course we did not really have sex. he basicly just stroked and fondled me. age makes lesbians of all of us in the end. oh, the gay/male desire for sex is there but the body really just wants a mineral water and to go organic.
he was nice tho. he got me a drink and we chatted a bit.
i did web at close to pick up keys. i helped jaq close and had a drink with him and joop. andrew was there. he goes back to munchen fri and won´t be back till end of zomer.
rene has another film fest so i will not really see him for the next week or so.
thurs i actually saw a film with him. paprika, a japp. aname. it was interesting. i was not WOW but i rather liked it overall.
got a couple of emails from our lawyer.
much thumbtwitleling going on.
nothing usefull is going to get done this spring and since i´ll be in sf for summer and europe goes on hold during the summer anyway....................
after movie i just came to simon´s for music and dinner.
he´s ok tho there is drama at work which is causing him stress.
he´s also thinking of starting with a new chorus singing classics. lots of german stuff. ( he´s decided to stop the yoga on tues and do the chorus.)
he asked me to have dinner with him on his b-day. as a gift i´m getting him the new michael buble cd whenever it´s released in nl.
i have a cough in my lungs from the temp changes. today my sinuses are not amused either. we´re suppose to have really warm days again next week.
i work tonite and i just am not into it.
in an amusing bit of timing i happened to be on the phone to rene from simon´s sorting out dinner plans inbetween his films when the postman brought my box of books. it took 2 months to get here. i mailed them the week before i left sf in feb.
the other day i got a letter from john in ohio. it was the 1st piece of postmail to get through since i got back. he´s doing good. he will be working in india a bit which is fun.
fri i ran into simon leaving cnest when i went into work. he had been out at a cafe with a friend beforehand. he had fun with 2 guys at cnest. work is getting more stressful. one of the co-founders, in fact the main founder really, was finally ousted after more than a year of being eased out ( not that is was really that easy mind you.) and is trying to destory the school in revenge through different legal procedures. he won ALOT of euros from them and is now going for the program software.
work at the web was only notable in that, oddly, the upstairs was not as bad as the downstairs. i was done by about 6am.
sat i just rested. dr who was rather good. tho gee, you mean the dalecks are still not ALL dead ?
also could we have any more foreshadowing that MAYBE not ALL the timelords are dead despite the dr clearly being strangely blind to it ?
i´ve noted chris did the gay ref lines alot better than david. i wonder if that means anything.
work was work-like.
i´ve decided to quit the web. too much effort for too little $. i´ve been debating it but............
even IF i find a way to stay in nl it´d never help me in any legal way.
i HATE dealing with those floors. floors that need special care in a sexclub are a bad idea.
i hate reeking of bleach and losing so much time just in cleanup and getting rest.
my bf IS a baron.
THO i WILL miss the perks of working there.
i´ve not told ray or the girls yet. i hope to wed night.
sun i just rested since there was no sos or cr since there are 5 weekends in april. i COULD have done same place but i forgot they do a 4th sun party too. not a stress tho.
i just did web and cnest.
web was impressingly slow for a sun. the weather is warm again.
cnest was boppy. i ran into bas, sander and joost at the tables out front. joost is traveling around usa again. tho only for 3 weeks this time. we chatted rather awhile.
inside i played with a sexy petiet moroccan guy. very sweet.
then i played with a leather daddy and then had a 3way public scene with him and a sexy stocky skin who looked british but could have been dutch. it was fun but not a chatty group. i was covered in cum.
then i hooked up with an old trick again. we had also played in the web rather recently. i must refresh my memory on his name. hans i THINK.
i took a break and had a milkshake while boy watching down the damrak and there´s a fair on the dam i checked out. all pretty flashing coloured lights and morrocan boys with thier girls.
it´s very pretty in it´s tacky way in front of the palace. tho 1 of the rides does have the kind of lights which trigger my headaches if i´m not careful.
back at the web martijn and his hubby were up from the zuid so i hungout with them there till late then went home.
mon i saw daywatch with rene. it´s REALLY impressive and well done. i liked it. i´m under the impression it makes even less effort to follow the book than the 1st film.
rene is at films ALOT at the moment so i only really see him late at night at home.
i thought of doing same place mon night as i always do but of course did not. i´ve started watching gray´s anatomy while here. i can see why it´s popular tho i can not see really caring enough to keep up with it.
we´re doing the near death experence story arch at the moment which is mildly interesting.
tho it was amusing to note among other things that it seems there are no water currents wherever it´s set. i could go into water dept and finding a body you did not see go down in murky harbor water but hey, it´s tv.
i visted jeld at qh. it was not that busy by then so we got to chat. ton was there so we said hi too.
there were a very young cute in love couple in who were nice to watch. gays are so cool.
i hungout there rather awhile then went to web to get my $. joop gave me a drink too so i hungout there a bit. it was really dead. another ton i know was there so we chatted briefly.
drinking is SO much a part of the culture here. between qh&web i had 4 drinks given to me. imagine if i drank alcohol.
tues i´m just doing computer stuff and hoping rene will deal with some banking/legal paperwork stuff the lawyers want. he has films tonite so we´ll have to try for an early dinner.
hans of h/w has hogkins and is starting treatment.
turns out marco may not be as sick as some think. it may partly be a story for the nl form of work/welfare.
like most things i suspect the truth is somewhere inbetween.
lynn sent me some fun webcam vidios. he manages to be sexy, dorky and sweet at the same time. he has to deal with some tedious form of having cameras rammed down his throat and up his ass thurs. dalton is going with him. he just had a icky time with some scan where they could not find a vein for the iv and just keep jabbing him.
i read blood and iron by e. bear and liked it.
she´s had a lot of hype but i find her a really good, compantent(sp?) writer not a truely ground breaking one. niether cyberpunk or urban fantasy are new. in fact her stuff is almost a throwback to the 80´s which i actually like.
her scifi worlds seem better built than her fantasy ones. tho in the end it´s her people which are her true strengh i think.
i liked that she delt with many of the fantasy tropes in a rather non cliche way. tho at times her people come off as almost too compantent( sp?) to be real.
tues rene had films all nite. i thought of going out but dusted and vacumed what i could instead. did laundry too. after he got home we watched happy feet.
a tap dancing penguin. what more do you need ?
the ending was painfully contrived even for a penguin musical but hey, it was a movie with a MESSAGE.
today was insanely lovely. warm in a way sf never is with seeds from the elms misting the air and water. when the breeze blew all those seeds on the ground
gave the impression the ground was crawling.
a good day for people/men watching. i sat by a canal a bit and thought about the illusion of nl and it´s theme park feel.
i sold books i have read then did ah. i also bopped through ws and abc. the new reynolds looks like i might read it and i´m really glad to see a new sookie book out.
tonite i´ll go to web to get keys for weekend and hopefully get to tell ray i´m leaving.
as useual rene got very little usefull done.
i started reading house of reeds. gee, how many years did that take me ? (3)
simon came home while i was still here so i hungout here awhile with him.
later i bopped home briefly then did cnest. at 1st it was not that boppy but it got busier later. some cuties in but the heat seemed to be effecting them. a sense of restless energy and much pacing around but little action. i did have fun with a middle aged stocky hairy turk. black hair with flicks of silver, beard, nicely overdressed for both the location and temp. so a tad sweaty. he seemed a nice enough guy. no real skill but i was happy to work his body. he looked like he should be in the german/turkish porn mags i like.
both peter and alastair were there so we chatted. alastair just got back from chicago. it had been a tedious weekend at work. he´s a stew.
in a nice bit of timing i noticed ray was at hl alone and sobor so i dropped in and told him i´m quiting, he took it well. ( esply once i pointed out i was staying for queensday weekend and i was really only leaving about 4 weeks sooner than planned anyway.)
i gave him ushruf´s info but i do not think he´ll go for it. i always doubted he would. ushruf is part of the cnest scene and ray is not big on crosspollenating barstaff. ( i PLAY at cnest as does bram at times but we are CLEARLY alined with the web.)
ray will tell jaq etc. i know jaq will not be amused but...................
then i did the web. it was not busy for a lotto nite. everyone is saving energy/$ for this queensday weekend. upstairs was dead.
i hungout and chatted with various guys till after the lotto then got bored and went home. ( in a classic bit i FORGOT to actually pick up the keys while there so i´ll have to go in earlier fri nite to make sure i get them.)
it was a very lovely night outside. warm with a partual moon over the canals.
rene was finally back from his films so we had a rather later dinner.
we watched perfect creature which is really rather cool. it has as many ideas as a book. i can see why it failed as a film.
you kind of have to be familar with genre stuff to just go with it.
is it horror, scifi, alt hisory ?
yes, it´s all of the above.
it´s not truely GREAT. i think saffron burrows greatest skill as an actress is her cheekbones but it´s FAR better than most B flicks.
it has really good production values.
thurs i just took a walk in de pijp doing man and baby watching.
rene stayed home stressing over trying to do some simple paperwork. it´s come to my attention i suspect i´m leaving him. he´s adorable, i care for him greatly and he´s a millionare but i think my patence may be fraying. i can see a time where i stay mostly because of my age and his $. if i was hiv- i suspect i´d be looking at maps about now.
tho it MAY still work out.
i met simon at the library. oddly they had no cds of carmen. his next musical pice is from it. i did find the last cd from anita o´day before she died. (it´s as bad as i´ve heard it was.
everyone respects her for doing it in her 80´s but......................)
we did vonmar, i dropped the dvd off at the store then we came home to do music and dinner.
his work stress is calming down.
the guy sueing got 185,000 euros which is considered fair, he´s been there 22yrs. he´s 52yrs old or so and doubtfully will bother with getting another job, and they´ve changed the locks so he no longer has the key. there´s another hearing may 1st everyone hopes ends it. i decided not to point out that if one was REALLY after revenge how one could still do things. hopefully he will just take the $ and call it a day.
today i´m trying to decide if there´s a real point in trying to see if a dutch lawyer is in his office on a warm fri afternoon before a long weekend holiday.
tonite i have to make sure to get the keys. we´re open later all weekend. sat night there´s a party till 6am so i go in and clean at about 7am sun then go home, shower and hopefully have the energy to do sos. mon will be queensday. the city is going to be a ZOO the next few days.
rene impressed me this MORNING and actually got up, got out of the apt and went to see our lawyer to give him some stuff.
with rene it´s not a matter of him not wanting me here it´s the fact he´s both dutch and a mess even by thier standards. (such as they are.)
the lawyer seemed postive about things. (not that i truely trust either of our lawyers %100 but that´s another issue.)
today is yet another absurdly nice day so i´m going to go walking with rene in de pijp or v-park.
i SHOULD rest for work tonite but................that´s a big reason i´m stopping so i do not have to factor in rest vs tiredness into my weekend. |
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wed i had thought dinner would be late since i had much of the food with me in my purse but actually when i got home rene was just finishing the dishes so it worked out. while he cooked i did cnest.
it was a classic a�dam night.
busy but dull.
i was BORED.
LOTS were shopping but few were buying. one of those nights were 100 gay men are looking for someone who�s clearly gone to another bar for the evening.
i ALMOST left but i AM an old hand at this so stayed that extra bit longer and met paul from r�dam.
i saw him and something about him caught my attention. handsome enough but not WOW by any means. maybe a tad taller than i but not too much, niether stocky or lean, i suspect he has seen age 50 come and go. a friendly, nice guy.
casualy dressed but still managed to be just a TOUCH overdressed for the place.
jeans but not levi�s and a dress shirt pressed and buttoned to the top with both sleeves done.
clearly the kind of guy who thinks ironed and casual can be used well in the same sentence. which is SO my type really.
we even lucked out and got the best room in the house.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun.
kissing, mutual titplay, sucking & rimming ( he has a skilled mouth).
full on naked sex.
by far the best sex i�ve had out since i got back.
afterwards i did lottery night at the web. a SLOW night.
andrew was in from munchen dealing with stuff at the a�dam huis so i hungout with him and joop at the bar till close then helped jaq close.
andrew did argos afterwards but i went home and ate.
after dinner we watched flushed away.
VERY cute and perfect for an anglophile.
i greatly enjoyed it and rene liked it too.
thurs the neighbors started sanding EARLY so we got little rest. i KNOW the size of thier apt is the same as ours so WHAT could be taking THIS long to sand i have no idea. it went on most of the day. i stayed in bed and drifted to sleep on&off during breaks and the normal 2hr dutch lunchtime.
i had gotton rene to come cuddle with me and we were listening to jazz, best of jane monheit, when mike called. he was driving up from den haag and wanted to know if he should take a break in a�dam.
i rearranged my thurs plans with simon and went to meet mike.
with traffic etc he was 45mns late of course but i know the score.
the cafe we were going to meet at was a ZOO so we did the one across the street which was not that busy. which is really amusing if you know how NARROW the streets are in the old center.
between him being late and the typical SLOOOOOW dutch service at the cafe we never got around going to dinner.
we just had drinks there and chatted.
shell is being itself and he suspects a friend is poz but NOT dealing with it and getting ill and his ex in norway broke up with his bf among other stuff.
after he left i got a tram to simon�s.
simon was in a make out flirty mood from the start.
we spent much of the night just listening to music and having sex. hot sex at that. we had a LATE dinner. he managed to throw something together i could eat too. ( since i was suppose to eat with mike he had not bought stuff at ah for me too.)
we were up LATE watching old music clips on youtube. june on nat�s show with mel too, judy at 1965 oscars, ethel on dinah shore show, dinah and bing too, last years tony awards, westside production of anything goes and a COOL bit from torchwood.
today i just rested.
there�s a xxxl party tonite but rene say�s he�s not going. i�ll try to get him to go since he never goes out. i do not have the wardrobe and could not be bothered anyway.
you know i�m middle aged. i mostly just hope it means the web will be less dirty when i go in to clean.
(
turned out the xxxl party was cancelled actualy. the space has been sold and the new owners do not want to do gay events.)
the web has easter decorations up. yellow bunting over the bar, an easter egg tree and hanging dragonflys and butterflys.
cocksucking and butterflys. it does not get gayer than that.
as a surprise jaq spelled out my name on the bar in chocolate easter eggs.
walking to and from work the moon has been lovely over a�dam lately and the mornings are really lovely too. it�s spring so the trees are budding and it looks like a lite green mist over the canals. much prettier than taking the #14 bus in sf.
it�s fun walking home and being on a bridge when they turn off all the streetlights in the city at the same time after dawn. it�s a neat effect.
i had a very nice chat with lynn. still many health issues of course but he�s doing ok at the moment. he got a new computer, printer/scanner and tv with his tax refund and a bonus from work. he still had some leftover to pay toward his cc bill. all the toys were paid with $.
it was sweet, he was explaining it all so i�d not get upset at him for spending money.
if nl tanks i think i�ll HAVE to date him.
in an email he came up with a cool spelling of vuvu all on his own. voo-vooh. i LIKE it.
he did not decorate for easter.
he was going to a friend�s harp recital and then easter lunch with a friend, gavin i think, at another friend�s huis on alameda. the guy with the huis is also named lynn. he say�s all the males he�s met named lynn are gay. the other lynn�s hubby is the son of the man who wrote the song....there she is, miss america.....
he goes around judging beauty contests. gay !?
if i was there i�d go to the easter lunch with him. ( i might even have delt with the harp thing too. the things i�ll do for good sex.)
i talked to eric too and he is doing ok. sleeping alot.
i saw the 2nd dr who of the new season. it was lite, ok and fun in it�s way but i was rather disappointed overall. cute but not well written overall. tho there were a couple of nice lines.
sos sun was litley attended being easter but the one�s who were there were serious about it.
i hooked up with a HOT, SEXY hairy daddy right away. VERY fun with sexy hairy cock&balls and ass.
later we played again in a 3way with a tall shaved head guy.
i also played with a cute balding geek with glasses. i THINK we may have played before. a fun time.
there was a short handsome sexy guy from leeds i liked watching but declined when he made an offer. i could tell we would not really spark at sex together. so we just watched each other playing with others.
him and paul played a bit and he was fucked alot by a short cute black young guy.
i also �met�a very tall, very handsome dutch guy but it became quickly clear it was not working so we said by. it was all very friendly and gay.
paul was there so we chatted. both jeld and wigcher were also there. it was jeld�s 1st sos and wigcher�s 1st time at sos in the eagle.
jeld and i made plans for this week.
i did web afterwards. it was oddly slow till later in the night.
i hungout there for awhile then paul came in and we did cnest. h/w were there so i chatted with them.
jos and stefen were both in and i had not seen either since i got back.
jos is still jos. he�ll be in sf and ny just before i get back. his �daddy�is taking him on a trip.
stefen was a little down. there seem to be issues in his life but he did not go into detail. still married in harlaam but no longer at v&d.
peter was there. he�s let his beard grow and MY GOD is he SEXY with it.
he�s now the 3rd guy who let thier facial hair grow and is sexier than before.
i met paul from birmingham. ( yes, paul seems to be THE name at the moment.)middle aged, stocky, goatte, fred perry shirt. you know the look. very fun. a good kisser and rimmer.
then i went back to the web then went home. ( much of easter night at web blurs and i can not remember at the moment. the problem of not having a home computer is sometimes i forget stuff before i can write it down.)
mon i dropped by the web to say hi to jeld and give him some more cds i burned for him. it was busy since most folks had off work for 2nd day of easter.
ritchie was there so we chatted awhile. german but nice enough. young, very boyish looking, very cute if one�s into that. we get on ok. we do the same places and people but do not pretend we�re close.
fabrisio (sp?) was also there and we started talking. lendeert, frank and mike from mr b were all also there among others.
i ended up staying and hanging out with fabrisio a long time.
short, petiet, VERY handsome with a surprisingly hairy body. ( we�re just girlfriends tho.)
from sardina, lived in thailand a few years ( at 16 he decided being gay in a village of 1,200 was a limited thing. it IS a straight world and they hate sharing.)then zuid nl and now a�dam for the last 5yrs.
works in financial dept of pepsi of all things and is sometimes a whore. ( tho given his tastes is not above paying someone himself.)
very nice and interesting to talk to. him and jeld have played together tho he really prefers younger and darker guys.
his opinion of the angel seems to confirm my guesses about it. i also caught up on the current state of several bars i find interesting but do not really do.
we ended up going to web and hanging out. ritchie was there too so he joined us and we did cnest. a HOT couple picked ritchie up, i wandered downstairs and i�m not sure where fabrisio ended up but it was hopefully on his knees.
it was actually doing that busy but boring thing again. i briefly played with a sexy guy i had seen at the bar. i thought at 1st he was indian but on reflection i suspect is arab of some type. tho i am not %100 sure which was interesting in itself. accent was not uk/indian really. sexy but really just wanted to be bent over and fucked zo, tot ziens.
i redid web a bit but it was not pressing and starting to slow down so i gave jaq a break at cc then went home.
rene and i watched gingersnaps which i�d never seen. i can see why it�s a minor cult film.
i liked it. i was amused tho not surprised that the little blond girl turned out to be as bad if not worse than the werewolves.
early on i told rene i did NOT trust her. I was an adaptable child myself but MY GOODNESS she went with the flow well.
( if nothing else I figured if i were made to wear a wig THAT bad there�d be a body count too. also NEVER trust anyone with a giant heart on her sweater.)
some nice lines and bits. make a note, hiding in the crematorium always ends badly.
r.o.b is moving thier main store to warmoest. i think it�ll be in the space where rene�s fav tea store was. it�s gone now.
today just did library and email at simon�s. rene was in futz mode.
i MAY do hiv cafe tonite for awhile.
i stopped by the cafe briefly to say hi to stefan. it was NOT busy. i chatted there a bit then went home. i stayed in with rene and we watched an old miss marple mystery which was fun. i guessed who the killer was and much of the side stuff but not that bess was in fact the crime boss.
wed i went over to stefan�s and he gave me a full body massage which was very nice.
some friends of his came over so i hungout the whole afternoon there. alonzo even called from alabama while i was there which was amusing.
later i did cnest. it was not dead but not overly busy either. mostly rather dull but i did have a fun time with a stocky, hairy middle aged guy. he spoke english but with an accent i suspect is from somewhere in the former ussr. i suspect the english was a later in life thing.
actually rather more fun than he might look and a nice enough guy. after him the bloom was CLEARLY off the rose there so i chatted with hasu a bit, i�ll try to get a friend of his my job at the web when i leave again, then i did the web for lottery night.
it was DEAD really. i chatted with kemal, got the keys and my $ and went home for a late dinner.
rene and i watched death of a president.
it was very well done. there were only really 2-3 places you could see the seams of the cgi. there were also maybe a scene or 2 you could sense were set up instead of newsreel. overall it was believeable. tho with straights they are predictable if nothing else.
thurs i just rested and then found a cd at the library jeld had been looking for. i also found another miss marple dvd. they have several of the early movie series but i prefer the later tv series really. the movies were more comidic and the tv show more quiet and slightly droll.
then simon had already got food so i just come over here.
we hungout on the balcony for awhile. it was a lovely day and the weekend is suppose to be nice.
we ate very early for us and then just cuddled and listened to music. we were up late watching youtube. various things then he got hooked on watching the entries for eurovision 2007.
yes, it�s that time of year again.
germany is far and away the best. ( you know how i am about germans and i say this so you know they�re good.)
they�re doing an early 60�s style swing thing. very cool.
belgium is surprisingly also very good. a group doing a 70�s style thing. the other surprising thing is it�s belgium and the lead singer is very non white. very cute too if too young and skinny for me really but a nose you could worship.
(the flemish must be gnashing thier teeth.)
russia is also very good. a edgy girl group.
those are the 3 best.
the rest range from well done but mediocure to boring to very bad. tho there are some standouts.
actually sweden is rather good and may have a chance. 70�s glam rock in rather a sissor sisters style. if the lead singer is not gay i�d be impressed.
speaking of openly gay both denmark and ukraine, yes ukraine, are drag acts.
denmarks is VERY good and old school.
ukriane is VERY bad tho VERY compelling in that car wreck kind of way.
which IS the point of course. i suppose rather old school in it�s way. think dame edna on acid. SHAMELESSLY full energy over the top and out there. it�d have been a good club act in nyc/sf in the 80�s.
it�s bad yet it�s good in it�s way. you almost want them to win for sheer guts and balls.
spain, greece, norway, poland, turkey have gone for bland young pretty pop.
uk is god awful boring. the uk tends to send bad acts which is odd but hey.
sort of a cleine dion karioke thing.
finland is doing a evernesence(sp?) clone
( finland is the host this year.)
ireland is doing an oddly traditional group. tho you still know it�s the 21c.
the singer�s a woman, not a girl, with bad plastic surgery.
yes, a cheap face lift, nose job and lip injections with kettle drum, fiddle and mandolin.
latvia is doing a bad il divo clone. amusingly ugly and can�t sing. (tho 1 of the guys is in fact very cute if young. i see porn work in his future.)
france is doing an odd off beat arty thing. well, it IS france.
israel is the only upfront political one.
(the politics tends to be behind the scences and in the voting.) ( one can also analize on various levels depending how well made and $ the offical vidio is too.)
(turkey and russia�s are both fab. turkey�s vidio is in fact better than it�s act.) ( tho he�s cute and i suspect closeted. it IS turkey. ) ( the gay factor is always amusing in eurovision acts.)
( for something so tacky and with this many gay backup dancers it�s amazing how well one can sort out the current state of eu politics in any given year on the show.)
hebrew hip hop.
no, i�m not making that up.
no, isreal is not part of the eu. i only 1/2 understand why thier in it.( some legal thing with the broadcaster.)tho i�m sure whatever the reason is suppose to be it comes down to guilt.
italy stopped doing eurovison.
malta was both bad and boring.
we skipped the rest of the former eastern block.
nl is part of the well done but mediocre pop crowd. niether jeld nor simon care for the song. it�s boppy despite the title....nooit meer zonder jou/ never more without you.
tho nl does tend to go for late 20�s instead of kids and keep more of thier clothes on. also the singer is black. she was in it before and came in about #4 which is good. both belgium and nl are trying to show they�re NOT racist damn it despite thier politics.
today i�m dropping by and saying hi to jeld. i work tonite which i�m not in the mood for. i think i�m trying to get a cold or at least a sratchy sore throat.
i had a nice time chatting with jeld. caught up on gossip etc. loek and eric came home while i was there. they had just biked 30km.
work was not so bad tho tireing and too warm.
it was amusing it was fri the 13th. i talked to eric and found out that dave the building manager is leaving. they are merging the staff of 2 buildings together so his job is redunent. that�s a shame because he was SO helpfull and i do not see many people being like that. he was esply helpfull with eric being in there and rene visting so there could be some major issues this summer with the renewing of the apt and rene visting for pride.
sat i just rested till i worked.
dr who was FAB. it totally restored my faith in it. ( tho i still prefer chris to david. however david does do the dr who spirit well.)
otherwise i just watched hot turkish porn and the other miss marple dvd. very nice. i guessed who the killer was !
there were well done old school british dykes in it too. ( there had been an old school british dyke part in dr who too amusedly enough. i like that dr who seems to make at least 1 gay ref per show. yes, we ARE a part of life. i was impressed by miss marple doing it. tho of course the fem was one of the victums.)
sat may or may not be a record but is certainly amongst the shortest times i�ve cleaned.
kemal swept the downstairs for me before he left which saved time and it had not been busy due to the weather so i was out by 5:10am. the city was still boppy when i walked home. it was an INSANELY nice weekend. it was just like americans picture europe. life is on the streets. cafes and terraces full, folks on the streets, in the parks day and night, open windows with people on the sills, steps, sitting in chairs and on blankets on the sidewalk, music playing. girls teaseing boys, looking for a bf or to make rent. boys checking out t&a or each other. fags galore !
all those things you never see in usa anymore.
sun i did cr. i almost did not go due to how nice it was but rene was at the movies all day and i like being around naked men. i had thought it might be dead but men DO have sex drives so.......it was far busier than i expected.
derk jan was there. he had fun in berlin at the snacks party etc. the whole easter weekend was a series of gaysex parties. alot of guys from a�dam went.
harald was there. i had not seen him in eons. both him and his hubby gerben have had MAJOR heath problems since i was gone. surgeries etc but both are alive and doing ok at the moment. tho thier cat died.
his art is doing well and he�s making some good connections.
we had sex. he�s always a nice time.
michael was there but ton was working in the garden. don was there. him and michael had a very fun time together.
i fisted a sexy handsome frenchman. 1st time i wore a glove in ages. he could take it DEEP and big but his ass was in FAB shape actually.
well, the french and assplay....................
i met a nice handsome older british gentelman. has lived here for years, short cock with a big head, very nice but talks too much and boring sex. not really sex at all. very touchy. one of those guys who gives really good massages but is bad at sex. if he was in sf he�d hangout with the faeries.
he may give me a massage next week. tho he is clingy and does TALK on&on.
after cr i did the web. it was not busy.
web, hl and cnest all have thier cafe tables out so that�s nice.
despite it not being busy i had a fun time with an insanely sexy dutch guy and a sexy, stocky, hairy guy from rome.
VERY fun.
it seems rome is a bore except for place called spinx. i�ve heard that before.
short beautiful david was there so we hungout and chatted awhile. he had fun in berlin too tho by snacks it was all too much for him.
he said it took him days to recover from mike&andrew�s bon voyage party.
speaking of which, andrew is in town again till fri.
i bopped over to cnest and hungout with bram, peter, nigal and maurice in front at the cafetables mostly. it was VERY gay eurotrash.
a rather older british tourist and his kept boy got trashed on spice cake and had to rest which was amusing.
once i actually went inside h/w were there. hans has shaved his head.
( wigcher�s is always shaved.)
it was busy but too busy and warm for fun so i went back to web and had sex with the italian again. then i hooked up with a sexy guy i did awhile back there.
i forget his name but he�s a bit of a pig and has cool glasses.
we had fun.
after that i just gave kemal a break then went thuis to shower and have dinner.
we watched being julia. a lite, well done period piece. there was an interesting bit of revenge done onstage opening night of a play. VERY miss bankhead.
lynn sent me a really nice email letter from his music retreat. it was a bad week heathwise but he�s having a nice time in napa.
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fri i just stayed in then went to the web at close. it only took 4hrs 45mns which i do not think is a record but is VERY good for the web.
esply post redo.
the owner of the bookstore where they lost rene�s dvds is american. tho he�s lived here at least 30yrs. whomever took the dvds never brought them back so he gave rene e40 which is what the dvds cost.
rene rebought them.
sat i rested then went into the web at 8pm. i covered cc 9-9:30pm for jaq so him and his master frank could go to the party.
of course i had the slow part of the night. people started checking stuff more just as soon as i stopped but it was ok. i made a VERY few euros. the cool thing was that guus, joost and paul were all in. it was like a old fb convention.
guus was in leather pants and with his new goatee he was HOT. he�s hotter now than when we were having sex.
completely immersing himself in the gayscene has done wonders for his style.
joost had told me of some of his changes but it was cool seeing it for the 1st time.
he cut his hair !!!!!!!!
he had LONG ponytail hair and now it�s REALLY short. not shaved but the next best thing really.
also he was in chaps and a leather jock. he�s found the joys of fisting. he was done up as a slave boy and his master roland was there in full leather. roland is very good looking, polite but not chatty.
paul and i hung out and chatted for awhile before he bopped upstairs.
nigel came in too which was fab as i�ve not seen him in eons. he uses a cane now. his numbers are ok but he has bad neurophy(sp?).
he tires easily too. he lives in an assited living building now. him and ger are still together. he looked good. he�s lost some weight. not badly, just some of that english puffiness.
i went to the party. it was busy and boppy. scottish rodney and stephen were there with an american faghag from rod�s work named charleen. nice girl. from s.sf even but lives in la. she�s mostly philipino with some hawiian.
short uk david was there with his bf too. his bf left early since he �does not do late� as david say�s. i never really knew them but david and i hungout the later part of the night and it was fun. i�ve always been interested in knowing him even tho i knew he has a serious bf. ( the bf is dutch and named either ton or thomas, both are common here, and david calls him tom. i�m unsure to be honest.)
david is SERIOUSLY BEAUTIFUL. that kind of look i find sexy as well as lovely. the essence of my anglophileness.
short but perfect body, pale skin, sweet face, shaved head with i suspect a balding pattern, 38, from notingham, lived here 13yrs, went to university here, been with bf 4 1/2 yrs, they may get married. ( he wants a big wedding party if they do.), really likes 60�s uk pop music. he�s that rare type of guy i could fall for just because of his looks. he�s not dumb but not an intellecual either to be honest.
he tends to be VERY quiet when he�s out. it�s a big reason i never got to know him ( well that and his bf, his looks and my shyness.) even tho i know most of his social scene.
it was fun watching him be boppy.
otherwise i just hungout with stephen and charleen alot. stephen and i have always had an odd flirting thing going on. we�ve never really played but we have made out. we suspect we�d either really hurt each other or go all girlfriend. he likes rough play but is fun to talk with too. he STILL has the paper i 1st gave him my info on in his wallet. he lives in munchen and rodney lives here. both are scottish. one is from glasglow and the other ednbgh.
they have been helping mike and andrew set up in munchen alot.
the staff gave andrew and mike 2 BIG boxes of mixed stuff. one was done in the nl flag with dutch stuff and the other was done in the de flag with german stuff.
needless to say with a party of mostly expat brits and a few dutch folks i was well and truely the only sober person in the building LONG before the end of the night. it was free drinks at the bar. free food too. i had meatballs for dinner.
ray threw us out at 5am. ( tho with the time change it was only 4am REALLY. nl just changed time sat nite.)
charleen picked up 1 of the FEW hetro boys at the party. she had been complaining all the guys were so cute but gay.( there are hetro women working at hl and some of thier friends came too.)she decided not to put out because he had �potentual�. which of course amused the gays as a very hetro woman thing to do. ( or not do as the case may be.)( she was here for a week or so afterwards and did in fact put out. she�s going to try to transfer here.)
stephen and i had a hot goodby kiss and then i went to clean the web.
i was truely surprised. it was of course messier than fri nite but still took the same amount of time if not in fact LESS.
i stopped at a bakery on the way home and got rene a yellow chocolate duckie. it was a lovely morning. the weather here has turned FAB. it�s odd being SO sunny in nl.
i showered then napped. i overslept a tad so got to sos later than i like but not too late. i awoke at 4:38pm and still made it just as the 5pm bells had stopped ringing which is good if i do say so.
i was not panting either.
it was busier than i expected given the weather.
derk jan was there as was bram. i chatted with derk jan some and watched bram play.
don and i played again and i did a uk skin with tatts and heavy ball rings. the kind of guy who say�s HURT ME from across the room.
so i did.
he came back for more later.
after sos i stopped to get a milkshake and ran into bram. he likes to eat after sex. we hungout on the damrak a bit then went to the web. i just hungout in what i refer to as �the court�corner with him and bert most of the night.
i did take a break and do cnest a bit.
i met a dutch skin named joris who i fisted. he�s just getting into it and wants me to train his ass so we did info. he�s a natural.
it was fun, he�s cute and nice enough but i can not say i�m truely pressed to be honest. we�ll see.
bram came over and we hungout at the bar awhile. h/w were in so we all hungout downstairs later too. i had not seen hans yet so we chatted. he�s having reoccuring health issues. he gets fevers and ill every few weeks but is mostly ok.
h/w went to argos and bram and i ended up back at the web. i noticed some cute guys going upstairs so i went up. i met jeff. a sexy brit in his late 40�s or maybe early 50�s. LONG slim cock which he likes sucked, a good kisser, VERY fun and nice too. him and his bf stephen lived here for 10yrs but moved to rural cornwall 4yrs ago. they do butch work. painting, woodwork etc.
afterwards he intro�d me to stephen. i know i�ve seen them both around. in the small world awards both of them were in town just to go to mike and andrew�s party. they were up in the part of the hl i did not go in sat night. we were amused. they were leaving monday and staying with a friend in a small place in oost or jeff and i would have tried to hookup more.
since it was closing time i helped jaq close then i went home and had dinner.
it was a fun weekend. the kind of weekend i 1st moved to nl for. it was like sf in the early 90�s in terms of socialness but with more sex than sf had even then. i get so caught up in dealing with the reality of nl i forget why the tourists like it and think it�s a cool place. it CAN be fun if you do not know what�s really going on or just let it go for a time.
mon i went card shopping and stopped by the web for my $. mike and andrew were in having a drink before dinner so we hungout. they were amused about jeff and i.
it was boppier than i thought it would be at that hour in the afternoon. not truely busy of course but some cuties in.
after they left i visted jeld at qh. i had burned some cds for him. he had a cold last week but is better now.
andre has opened a gay bar across the street called the angel of amsterdam. it�s very small but on the corner with tables along the water. i�ve not gone to it yet. there were folks there but no one i actually like that much. andre, johan and mark ( actually mark�s ok just dumb.) etc.
basicly that clique.
( tho in fairness 1 of the guys, who�s name just escapes me, was VERY good sex. it was his personality i found tiresome. he was there with his sweet but dim and alcholic canadian bf. they mostly live in toronto now.)
being andre i�m mildly curious who�s name is actually on the paperwork. i know i�m out of the loop on bitchy gossip on the zeedijk. i�m also curious about the abcence of all photos of dusty ( and johan too) at qh. i forgot to ask jeld at his place and it would be a tackless question to ask AT the bar no matter which tongue i used.
her doll boxes are gone in the gondola room too. they redid it as the �smoking area�to deal with when the law FINALLY changes here. it use to be the qh darkroom.
mind you, it�s still part of the men�s room. :)
it�s one of the more shameless working the letter of the law set ups i�ve seen so far but it�s VERY early days yet.
in theory the web will make the front part of the bar smoking and put up doors and a glasswall but we�ll see.
it�ll be $ so i�m not holding my breath. it�d be cheaper to reopen the roof patio and put up sound barriers.
i rarely go out anymore and it�s even rarer i hangout over there now. it�s ok but just not as it was. i need to sit down with wilbert someday and dish. between school, his real job and cees he still only works qh sat. which is a zoo of course.
m/j tell me marco is not doing too well healthwise. not working and staying with wil&cees it seems.
i hungout at qh till it started getting boppy with the afterwork girls and then i did bijnenkorf and also got some stamps.
later i stopped at abc and the library.
as useual i THOUGHT about doing same place mon nite but stayed in. rene had a movie to go to and i did cards and watched part of the csi vagas with rogar daltry. if i had known it was that episode i�d have come home sooner. eric missed tapeing it. it was the thanksgiving night show while i was in nl and he was at george�s.
tho i caught 1/2 of it and know the storyline.
rene awoke EARLY tues. it�s tax time here, due april 1st ( it was JUST extended till the 6th for this year. he�ll be happier.), and he of course is very late, stressed and HATES doing it so aviods dealing with it then freaks out. he is once again trying to do it himself instead of useing the accountant emile set him up with.
we were going to see 300 but will see it later.
i just did email, burned a cd of ella and oscar doing a 1953 swiss concert on the jatp tour and went to dirk.
i read blindsight by peter watts. very interesting ideas and writing. the whole crew was so emotionaly distant and intellectual i�d have probaly dated everyone with a penis. ( jude, how�s that for shelf talker ?)
i also read hammered by elizabeth bear. well done, way cool cyberpunk. i really liked the people in it and want to read the rest of the trilogy.
i read mesulene( sp?) by sarah monette. i really rather liked it. yes, the felix parts got mildly tiring at times as i had heard but he was insane so i could deal with it. ( it was actually that he whines alot. mind you, i�d have slapped most of the cast at one point or the other.) there was an interesting moment near the end where it became obvious with felix that it was a hetro woman writing as a gay man. actually BOTH male leads had all these �issues�.
not bad at all really. just noticeable and a different empisis (sp?).
i�ll read the rest of the series at some point.
deadstock looks way interesting. i may get it. i read a ss based in that world which was rather less than it could have been but i sensed potentual.
rene and i saw 300. it was a ZOO which mildly surprised me. tues at 9pm i was not expecting to be THAT busy. tho tues all day is the cheap movie day here.
overall i rather liked it for it�s artwork, hot men and scene chewing.
WAY HOT men if a tad buff for me, WAY STRIAGHT violence, FAB graphics and art design, BAD unrealistic dialoge, SHAMELESSLY over the top from the start.
LOVED the king�s nude scene. i�d SO do him.
daddy !
is it just me or did the king have an irish accent ?
despite the bad, unrealistic dialoge there were some nice lines.
�tonight we dine in hell�. i forget, is that ancient greek or klingon ?
�a beautiful death� is good too.
tho there is a special place in my heart for �you will not enjoy this�. ( i found the queen dealing with a traitor in the council as interesting as the battle.)
even the hetro dutch were commenting about xerses being beyoud HIGH camp.
no, i did not like the kids getting hurt parts but i�ve never been a big fan of straight parenting/child care at the best of times.
later while rene was cooking i went to get a dvd but his card had expired there. things like that are only good a year in nl. it�s VERY dutch.
i talked to eric. he sounds somewhat better. the abcesses are healing. except for a either a boil or an infected falicul in his nose which is BIG and painful it seems.
no distressing mail has come yet. there�s yet another building inspection thurs so he may go out to the VA.
today stefan gave me a full body massage with oil. it felt FAB and my feet feel good now.
pim dropped by. he looks good.
it was a stunningly lovely day so i walked around. i got 2 dvds at another store.
we have 3 vidio cards. ( we HAD 3. we went to renew the dead one and they wanted SO much paperwork we just tossed the card. rene thought that even by dutch standards it was silly.)
paris 2054:renaissance and angela the new luc besson film.
at concerto i got 2 old june christy lp�s on 1 cd for e5. then i hopped a tram to simon�s to burn cds and do email. i�m burning stefan a copy of the dreamgirl�s st.
it was a tedious day for burning. MANY duds.
i was going to go out to the bars but ended up just staying in and watching dvds. if i stayed in this much when i first moved here i�ve had never gotton anywhere.
angela was beautiful. paris in black and white filmed mostly in the very early morning. tho not a truely great film truth be told. luc besson doing wim wenders lite but i still liked it.
renaissance was also paris in black and white. sharp edged anima. grim but very interesting.
eric called. he went out to the VA early and they cut open the thing in his nose. seems it was FULL of pus. he say�s it feels better now. ( of course he was still numbed.)
today was lovely but very hazy with a nip in the air. i just rested, took dvds back, got 2 more used june christy cds at concerto, we now have all 6 of the truely classic christy cds since all were 2 lps on 1 cd ( both rene and simon really like her and i�m warming up to her.), and did the library before meeting simon at vonmar. i just caught him. he had mixed the time up. mind you, it�s almost always the same time/place but hey, he�s dutch.
much cd burning and curling up on the couch listening to miss christy.
we had a nice dinner and started making out to helmut lotti who is very bad but somewhat amusing in small doses, simon never bothered actually burning a cd of it but has it on computer, then he turned on internet radio which he discovered and rather likes. you can program it to play only the kind of music you like and no ads, talk or breaks.
we had sex on the couch then in bed.
today i�ll try to rest here then tonite i clean web.
i started a princess of roumania.
it�s very interesting and i like that it�s very non cliche. however i find the writing style a tad tireing to read. it seems to have a rather dreamlike quality to it. things just flow. which is not a bad thing but i suspect not really my thing. also it�s more clearly a ya in some ways and a 14yr girl�s viewpoint is interesting but...........
( even tho i know it was written by a man at least my age.)
some cool ideas. i�ll try to finish it and i�ll check out the rest of the series sometime. i can see why people like it.
fri nite i just stayed in till i went to work. it had clearly been a big fucking&fisting night. the sling room had shit and grease all over the floor. at least 1 of the stalls had alot of grease too including the jar it came in. the floor was very slippery.
sat i stayed in before work and watched the start of the 3rd season dr who. i have seen NONE of the 2nd season so it was my 1st show seeing david t. i WORSHIPED chris e. in the 1st season.
i really rather liked it and i like the new girl. tho i wonder what happened to billie piper ? i�ll have to look it up online.
i like that it started out with a bang and kept going.
tho on one hand i like that the sexual interest between them is there from the start he does come off as a bit of a interglactic time traveling letch. seducing young girls with travel, adventure and flashy toys.
sat was actually less of a mess at the web than fri.
sun i did cr orgy. i THOUGHT about not going. the price has gone higher and it can be so-so sexwise. for just a few euros more i could spend the day at the sauna.
derk jan was there so we chatted. michael and ton are working in thier garden mostly these days. derk jan is doing the weekend in berlin. alot of guys are. there�s a big easter weekend sexparty there.
i had a really fun time with a guy named richard. balding dark hair, glasses, very sexy in my kind of way. i did him right at the bar. had him bent over the stool, laying on the stools, sitting on one and fucking my face next to the mirrored wall. a very fun time.
and where is he from...............? come on girls guess. yes..........sf !
i THOUGHT there was something ever so slightly familer about his face. we�ve never played, i think. he prefers steamworks to blowbuddies.
then i played with a handsome german who was going to cs to get a trein back to de just afer we played. ( i tell you, the # of men i�ve done on thier way to cs.....)
then richard and i played again and had a fun 3way with a short built somewhat hairy guy.
afterwards i did the web. alastair&matt, scottish rodney, bas and sander were in.
it was not very boppy for a sun.
i took a break and did cnest. i had a FAB time with a sexy asian guy i think i played with a couple of years ago. short but built. not buff but toned. glasses, south east asian i think but am unsure of exact background tho he lives here. FAB kisser, not a hard player but rougher than one might expect, loves his ass eaten but likes to top too. here in nl very few white guys with my �look� will bottom to a short asian with glasses. he�s very nice as well as fun. i let him fuck me. it was the 1st time i�d been fucked in ages. it was VERY fun.
cnest was pointless after him so i did web again briefly but got bored so went and had some fries. rene had a late film so no dinner sun nite.
mon i woke up very early with gas and shitting from the fries of course. finally fell back to sleep and just stayed in the rest of the day sleeping and resting. i tend to lose mons now due to cleaning web, sun orgy and socialness afterwards.
i sleep an absurd amount these days. when i go back to sf it�ll be TEDIOUS dealing with a noisy apt again.
tues i bopped around town doing errands and came to simon�s to do computer stuff.
rene ordered some stuff online and got me stuff too.
tues i stopped by hiv cafe briefly to say hi to stefan and give him the cds i burned for him. it was LITELY attended. he�s going to give me another massage next week.
after dinner i did cnest.
i met peter who i�ve seen around. dutch, dark hair, handsome in a clean cut way. VERY fun. good kisser and loves his ass worked. nice cock which came all over me.
friendly guy. we may play again.
then i briefly played with a beefy well built guy who clearly was not a reg. sexy body but no skill.
quote of the night..........girlfriends never lick your ass. ( that�s because they�re REAL females dear.)
then after much eyeing of each other me and this HOT guy hooked up. he almost looks english but is dutch. not quite shaved head in jeans with some sports kit. quiet but intense. MUCH hotter sex than i was expecting. HOT body, fab ass, he was a kisser too which i had not expected really. VERY fun.
after him i just went home.
the weather has turned somewhat more normal for nl. still dry and sunny but with a BRISK wind. it MAY be wet easter.
lynn has been writing. he�s gaining weight and can fit his chaps again which is good. the ggmc 25th anv. event went well and he had fun. he wished i could have been his date. it was in the mission and he walked by the store.
his photos still have not come and niether have my books.
simon came home while i was still burning so we watched some cool youtube stuff with anita o�day and june christy before i left. dinner will be late with rene since i have some of the food in my bag.
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fri nite i just stayed in after dinner then went into the web at 2am. it only took 5 1/2 hrs which mildly surprised me. it's much as it ever was. it seems i have more energy to do it now that i'm not activly dieing.
sat during the day i just rested. i did not go out again till 2am at the web. if i go out i�ll be tireder and there�s that boring time between 12-12:30am and 2am where one is mostly just killing time by that point.
egge was amused that it seems like i never left nl at all. oddly even tho it was rather more a mess than fri night it took me 20mns less to clean.
i recall why i HATE the upstairs flr. EVERYTHING sticks to it so your not sweeping your scraping. jaq was impressed i seemed to remember everything. so far forgetting which set up some of the ashtrays go in is the only thing. once he mentioned it i was like oh yeah, that's right.
sun i rested then did sos.
it was litely attended but fun. it was a nice day outside.
paul was there so we chatted alot. he's going to start teaching nursing. he looks DAMN fine. he's started doing the gym. tho he say's he never really goes. he's lost some weight and looks taunter. he's not sure if it's due to meds or somesuch.
alastair was there too. he looks as good as ever. matt was having a fun weekend in hamburg.
the 1st guy i played with was a total HOT stud. they'd have ADORED him at the eagle in sf.
somewhat short, built, dark hair with stubble. VERY fun. he came all over my left tit.
then there was a dark haired with goatee, handsome in a middle of the road way, middle aged guy. he was fun and came all over my face.
i played a bit with an older slightly nerdy looking guy with dark hair, goatee and he wore glasses. later in brighter lighting i rather suspect he uses antigraying stuff on his hair.
whatever. he'd be hotter without it.
i ran into an old trick.
don, the face rang a bell but i could not REALLY remember him but it seems he remembered me, he even remembered my name, and i that have good taste. VERY short and petiet but fun. a very good kisser, likes titplay. we played rather some time.
i briefly played with a short middleaged indian i've played with before.
( i say indian but we've never talked and in my heart i suspect sri lankian for some reason.)
alastair and paul got together doing a 3way then a 4way. it was a fun show so i watched that for awhile.
afterwards i got a milkshake and went to the web to drop off the keys. since i'm only here 3 months for now i'll be picking up the keys each weekend off whomever's working cc.
bas and sander were there so we chatted. so was scottish rodney.
mike, andrew�s hubby, wears glasses full time now which amused me. he has a cool eurotrash pair.
i played a bit with a guy who looks like a professor. handsome, nice body but no skill.
i did cnest briefly but it was too crowded to be amusing.
mon i just rested. i had an aidsy morning but we just changed the sheets, i washed and we went back to bed. i only went out brifly to the library. there's NOTHING i want. no new music at all.
i stayed in with rene that night.
tues we saw the show of old movies posters at the film musuem. there were some fun things. my fav were the german ones from the 20's. tho the hungarian ones were fab too.
simon wants to get together wed which is an odd night for us. he has yoga tues and his fondu group thurs.
tues i did the hiv cafe. stephen had written me he�d be there so i went to say hi. pieter, peter, hans, jan, volker, pedro among others were there. wim cooked. i hungout with stephen and his friend ozo.
stephen looks well and is doing ok. he�s doing massage. i caught up on what the other black girls are up to. rick is just working and spending time with gerard, dex is working uber drama with the new bf ( he left his WIFE to be with dex.) and having a messy divorce from maurice. dex is cooking again. i forget where. alonzo is actually doing rather well back in alabama oddly enough it seems.
volker looked good. very like an urban elf. he�d make a good bookcover. he�s part of a new hiv awareness group they�ve formed that�s active outside in the community more than just at the hiv org building. they�re having a hiv+ gaymale speeddating event at prik stephen�s thinking of going to for amusement. i MAY go too.
later i did cnest after dinner with rene. it was not THAT boppy on a tues night after 10:30pm but it was boppier than anything in sf on a tues night. i only played with one guy but he was one of the hottest guys there. shaved head with goatee, white dutch guy in his early 30�s. friendly if not chatty. he seemed impressed by my oral skills. sexy tho smooth bodied. he liked being sucked, having his ass eaten and his tits tweaked.
who am i to say no ?
after him it was clearly just leftovers and hardcore regs so i stopped at the web to say hi to bram and get my $. the web was dead of course. tho a couple of our nice regs were in.
wed rene and i did concerto. they�ve rearanged some. they had a surprising amount of cool used cds in. the most i�ve ever seen there at 1 time. i have MOST of it of course but we did get a few cool things. the real finds were cris conner�s selftitled 1956 cd which is one of rene�s very favs and her 2 cd 1957 set of the gershwin songbook. i do not dislike her but she�s not one of my favs overall. she sounds exactly like antia o�day doing a slower tempo. i�d rather just hear anita. that said, the gershwin songbook is actually really pretty damn good. i was slightly less impressed by rene�s fav. tho it�s not bad. i also got several johnny mathis cds. they had the same paula west cd i got in berkeley with eric and rene which had the wrong cd in the case once i got home so i had rene get it for me. i also got a kay starr and tierney sutton cd each just cause they were there, cheap and i was curious about them.
we had ijs and milkshakes, yes, both, and walked down l-st on the way back. mostly the same tho a few old stores are gone with new ones in thier place. the bruna store rene liked to go to and i got my stamps at is gone and a body shop will go in it�s place.
herbert�s fun fashion store on nd is gone too. i asked jeld about it but he does not know what happened with it.
i came over to simon�s. we were both tired but managed sex after dinner. i think it�s the 1st time i�ve had orgasim listening to gene pitney. simon got a 3cd set from the library just cause it was there. simon has 5 new kids in class starting this week. arjen flaked sat nit at sm. tho simon had fun anyway. arjen wrote and said he might go to same place mon but simon did not go since he was tired.
simon talked to his mom. several of his cousins who are around his age are having bad health problems. it�s always amusing that the word cousin does not occur in dutch so it�s niece or nephew. so you can talk about his 48yr old nephew.
i found a mr B tee at the web which was cool. i�d been thinking of getting one for years but never got around to it.
i got both lynn and david 2 web tee�s each. we�re almost out. in typical nl style the printer is at least a year late.
for an insomniac i�ve been sleeping an absurd amount since i got here. i know having a social life takes energy but i�ve actually done very little since i�ve been back. i�m not sure if it�s age, the meds or what. i was noticing slight changes in sf. i�ve been unable to sleep since 1991 when i got SO ill from hep a&b. my body changed, i also became lactose intolorent then too, maybe it�s changing back.
(of course rene�s apt is alot quieter than mine most of the time.)
i just don�t have the energy to be the social girl i once was here.
thurs i just stayed at simon�s burning cds. it�s his 1/2 day so we took a nap when he came home before he left to catch a trein to his fondu group. he�s meeting a friend in haarlem and they are driving down. the group is meeting in the south.
rene had a film to see so i did cnest.
i briefly played with a handsome shaved headed black guy who's a reg at cnest and web. he's nice and has a big hard cock. he was drunker than normal and earlier too so we did not play long. ( not bad or messy mind you but just a touch past tipsy.)
then i met michael. american who divids his time between denver and portland, 30's, rather short but goes to the gym to compensate, handsome. he was fun and nice. i rarely bottom in s&m but he was good. i have NO soreness or bruising today.
we played rather awhile.
then i met arjen. ( i doubt it's simon's arjen but i'll ask him next week just to be sure. not his type really but then niether am i. arjen is not an uncommon name here.)( turns out it COULD be the same guy but we�re not sure.)TALL and built like a brick shithouse as my granny would say. hairy too. they'd be WET for him in sf. of course looks rough as hell in his bomber jacket and camies but he's really friendy, slow and sensual. good kisser, likes titplay but likes his done gentle. we played twice.
later i litely fisted a cute but uber geeky indian guy with glasses a bit then left.
i bopped by qh to see if jeld still wanted to meet fri. alex was there so we chatted. frank was there also so we chatted too then i went home because rene was fixing a very late dinner.
he taped ncsi for me. they are very behind but i had not seen it. it was the one where gibbs comes out of the coma but quits ncsi.
they are in the middle of season 2 of bsg here so we're dealing with adm.cain still.
( not that they show ANY tv show in order of episodes here.)
ALL the music vidoes are SHIT now. there's MAYBE 3-4 i sort of like. only 1 has any real imagination to it. chrstina a.�s new one is fun.
mind you, we have 3 music vidio channels here. tho they�re losing 1 at the end of april.
fri we just stayed in bed late then i visted jeld. he looks good. we talked about thier trip to argentina, my life, this&that. eric and loek came home. eric's shaved his head. it looks good but odd to me. he looks tan too because he was in the canaries while j/l and juan were in s.a.
loek looks good and his health has been doing fab.
tonight rene has another film and i clean the web.
if i was pressed i could have talked to the anco about getting andrew's job when he leaves but since i'll be gone for at least part of the zomer i skipped it. they'd most likely want someone full time. i was not truely pressed anyway since if i marry rene i'll be busy and if not i'll be in sf/usa.
Very few things at the web were not cleaned since i did them. kamel and jaq do a good job overall. tho i was rather amused that clearly no one had touched the prints hanging on the wall since i last did them before i got too ill to do it.
my fav was the one on the wall behind cc. it was dark brown. after i cleaned it it was white. :)
i have noted much more police on the streets. the eu wants all street cops to wear BRIGHT yellow jackets now.
i caught a bit of the enterprise with brent spiner as dr soong. i'd like to catch all of it sometime. it's a 2 parter too.
mike spends about 4 days a week in den haag now. he has the apt. he'll move completely in a month or 2. he still spends time at the huis too. he's in uk a good amount also.
lynn got ill again and had to go to ER from work. not as bad as the 1st time. he was able to take a cab not have to call an ambalence. it's hanging on longer this time tho. he's resting at home. he did have a nice b-day at least.
( he went back to work mon. he sent me photos of his b-day. it was the 1st leeter he ever sent to europe ! they still have no idea of what�s causing his illness. he�ll see a specialist soon. he had st. patrick�s day dinner at the cove.)
sat i just stayed in all day then cleaned the web.
wed is andrew's last night.
i'm thinking of quiting. i like being part of the web but i hate the actual job.
both the dirt and mindlessness of it are bad for me. a depressive with ocd being left completly alone for several hours doing dirty, tireing manual labour is NOT a good thing it seems.
it�s the kind of job i�d have delt with well while i was on prozac i suspect.
also i've seen the events/time set up for queen's day weekend. it'll be TEDIOUS as fuck at best and a WRECK at worse.
claud, you should write a horror ss set in a sexclub. i've been doing it for years and i still get creeped out sometimes late at night by myself. the building is old and creaks. during a rainstorm is esply amusing.
mind you, it also creeps me out a bit i can say i've been cleaning a sexclub for years.
they fucked up the rent at the apt building so we got a late rent notice and threat of eviction. stressful but i got it sorted out. it was an honest mistake.
sun even tho stressed i did cr. it was not that exciting. it was oddly not crowded early then got busy fast and late. it was more a social day for most guys i noted. both derk jan and paul were there so it was nice hanging out with them. derk jan's bf marco will not be a judge it seems. which marco is not happy about but he is still a lawyer. tho he feels stressed he's almost 40 and it's a young mans game in nl. i always forget he's that old. he's very pretty and looks way younger. derk jan is ok. work at klm is still as it ever was.
i played with a tall handsome guy twice. he likes his tits bitten hard and being fisted. i was in the mood to be somewhat dom. tho not a full on bitchmaster.
there was a stunning japp. BEAUTY i just enjoyed watching. he was more an art object than a sex object for me. tho he had a FAB hard cock i noticed.
i hungout alot with paul too and we did dinner afterwards. he took me to kfc on the damrak. i was amused. it was his 1st time. he was curious and since i'm american.............i pointed out i never eat fast food in the usa but i was up for it. it was ok tho greasy. the entire staff were non white children of course. the only adult was the manager who we both wanted. a turk at 1st guess. he had a sexy big nose and a LEKKER ass.
we hungout there rather some time and chatted. afterwards we had a drink at the web. he ended up going upstairs and playing some more. so did i.
guus was there. he looks great. has a goatee now. he finally divorced his wife now that the kids are at university. it was ok, everyone knew he was gay YEARS ago. on a down note tho, he had been seeing a guy about a year and a half, yes, about the time we stopped having sex. i can do the math. the guy broke up with him the same day the divorce became final. timing is everything. he's doing ok tho.
robbie was there too so we caught up on his life, DA drama etc.
irish rodney was there. he has a bf in london now. they met at gaypride in a'dam last year.
then i met hans. tall, shaved head with dark face stubble, way cool eurotrash glasses, sexy body, 43, works for an ad agency.
a total sexpig !
he likes being worked hard.
his ass was raw, swollen and sore.
a VERY HOT time.
he invited me back to his place near waterlooplein but i decided we were both too tired to make it worth it so we did info.
i hungout with the web girls till bar close then bram, andrew, kamel and i went to argos. peter was working.
philipe the french frontbarman is still being french.
i had fun hanging out with the girls till kamel had to go home and bram and andrew got drunk just to the point i get bored. i went home and ate a VERY late dinner.
mon i just stayed in. i've become almost completely nocturinal. tues i got food at dirk then did the hiv cafe. i had talked with stephan and he said he was going. bianca was there which was nice. i've not seen her in ages. she looked good. has had some health issues but is better now.
otherwise the useual suspects were there mostly. i've started chatting with a goodlooking german named cristophe. nice but a bit of a bore really in that somewhat germantic way.
tho NOT anywhere near as bad as that could be.
melvin has been having up&down health issues but i hear is doing good now. ronnie is back in hospital it seems. (mind you, he�s been knocking on death�s door for YEARS and still no one answers. i�m voting death�s out back in the pool and can�t hear him knocking.)
afterwards i went home and had dinner with rene.
wed rene and i did fame where he got some dvds and he finally took in a ton of small change to the bank to exchange. then we did the used english bookstore. where they managed to LOSE his bag of dvds. the clerk put them either on top of the counter or in FRONT of it. the clerk thinks he knows who took it and they�re a reg and it was a mistake. so, they MIGHT bring it back. it was only e40 worth of dvds but rene was still totally stressed. got a headache and ill to his stomach. it was SO totally dutch. busnesses here are always an adventure.
at home rene rested while i did ah. it was andrew�s last night of being web dj so i went out after dinner.
i did cnest 1st. it was VERY lame and boring but i ran into both hasu and alastair. it was good to see hasu. i had been wondering if he was dead. his health was not THAT great before i left. he use to LIVE at cnest but i had not seen him in nov or since i got back. he lives in ijburg now. he looked good tho still has a frail walk. that�s from the damage he�s had a few years now.
i went with alastair to the web and his hubby matt joined us. we hungout there till almost close. jaq wants me to cover cc awhile sat so he can go to andrew/mike�s party too.
we did argos. peter was working door. only alastair made it past the frontbar. we just hungout there till alastair wanted to go to cr. matt was going home cause he was tired as was i. andrew came but he was drunk. they had champgne at the web. i just went home.
i watched maddona�s confession tour concert in london. she�s not what she was but she can still do an ok stagshow. tho i prefer some of her earlier ones.
the 1st part is oddly dark with lots of symbols and messages. a very odd horseriding theme ( tho madonna in habit with a crop IS always mildly interesting.), then children in afrika with aids ( cool message of course tho RATHER like a unicef advert.), then a rather gay thing on the middle east.
( well, a gay middle east WOULD be more peacefull tho turid in it�s own way.)
of course what�s maddona without being on a cross ? i liked the crown of thorns with jeweled blood.
the 2nd half was a completely different tone. basicly a tribute to disco.
her dancers were fab of course. she was smart enough to only dance WITH them on the less stressful bits. just to show she can still work it. which for me tends to call attention to the fact that if she had fucked up in her nyc pre-fame days and got knocked up that baby would be old enough to be one of her dancers now.
she only did one dance number that called for much of a workout. she did it well but you could tell she had to think about it more and not be as fluid as in her youth. damn good for a 40 something who�s had 3 kids tho. ( shame it was a stupid, pointless number.)
overall her stamina was the striking point. it was a long show.
the REAL amusement is that she�s doing clothes for h&m now. yes girls, we are ALL now officaly middle aged.
thurs i stayed in bed most of the day. i talked with stephen and he may give me a massage next week.
then i met simon at vonmar.
once home we hungout on the couch while burning cds. jeld wanted some stuff and i wanted to do a few odds&ends for lynn.
we watched alot of shirley bassey clips on youtube. which was amusing as we started out looking for anthony newley clips.
somehow i doubt it�s the 1st time i had sex listening to dame shirley. tho in time we did turn it off and moved to the couch and then finished in bed. he fixed a VERY late dinner after post sex napping.
i was mildly surprised this morning. before he left for work he gave me the apt keys. he had never gotton around to it and i was not going to ask. truth be told there�s no real reason i SHOULD have them. we sometimes have sex but we�re clearly ex�s having sex not bf, i�m back to only coming over to see him about once a week and the library will not be getting any new music soon to burn.
it was sweet of him.
it means i�ll maybe write more often and it�ll be less disjointed.
except for here i mostly use the library which is free for 30mns or sometimes pay e2 for an hour at a cybercafe.
in true dutch fashion they are STILL working on the apt downstairs so i�ll get MUCH less rest today than i normaly do at simon�s.
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fri i just stayed in. i was going to go out but i got really tired so........
i just watched tv with rene.
tho i did chat with both mike and johnny.
i was amused. the library is changing the cases on thier cds. the new ones are nicer EXCEPT the machine used to do returns can no longer read thier code.
even the librarian was having issues with them.
SO dutch.
sat rene and i saw the istanbul show. it's very lovely and a big success. there were alot of cute turkish children there with thier hot daddies.
afterwards we did fame which is having a big sale but it's mostly trash. there�s only 2 cds i�m SLIGHTLY curious about. mika, a cute young fag out of the uk tho an immigrant and amy winehouse�s 2nd cd. niether were on sale of course.
the one i�m looking forward to is the release of joss stone�s new cd.
rene fixed a late-ish dinner then i went out.
it was sliding toward the late end for cnest but not at the pointless end yet.
i ran into ron, rene vz�s best friend.
i had slightly wondered if me being bigger now might affect my popularity here.
no, thank you. it seems it does not.
i was amused that i KNEW the 1st guy i played with was french before he even opened his mouth. just from his face & body and the way he moved.
jean marc. he's french but lives here.
has the kind of body americans pay alot of $ to have. ( but FEW do)
he was completely my bitch.
into ass play much ? oh my, yes.
very fun and a nice guy too.
fab kisser.
after him i played with 3 different guys seperatly who were all VERY handsome.
yes, i'm back in europe.
i also played with a cute rather stocky guy.
i made out with a cute asian who looked soft but i could tell was really hard. it was the opposite of what i'm told in the uk i am. where the guys like me because i look hard but am really soft. ( tho soft is relative. i can chat about my rubber duckie collection and take a short, sharp knife to your flesh at the same time. )
after cnest i went to argoes to see if h/w were there.
on the way i caught the eclipse. it was lovely.
h/w were not at argoes but bram was. egge had let him go from the web early.
peter was working the back bar.
tim has started working at argoes so that's even more a small world thing going on.
maurice hung out with us awhile too.
bram and i chatted and hungout with peter till after close then we went to the eagle.
he stayed but the eagle at 4am on a sat night was never my fav thing so i went home.
we had been talking for hours about some of his personal stuff. lets just say it's a cliche but you can be hot on the outside but insecure on the inside.
once home i still showered and shaved so i went to bed at 6:38am.
sun i met mike at 1:30pm at a cafe on de singel we like. it was where he 1st took me the morning after we met.
i gave him the new saylor book and we hungout there awhile chatting.
then he wanted to see the istanbul show too so we did that. it was even more crowded than sat with rene.
he was mostly focused on the writing.
after that we walked down k-st, checked out the ground flr of abc and then did cafe downtown on reg-st.
i love gays. LOTS of HOT guys and it was amusing watching all the flirting games and checking each other out going on.
we hungout there rather awhile too then walked back to cs. while waiting for his trein we did the 'nice' cafe there. ( as opposed to the others there.)
he does espresso like i do sugar.
so it was a very eurotrash day. art, culture, boywatching and cafes. yes, i skipped the c-ring orgy.
he's moving to den haag. he's suppose to get a 4th flr apt with balcony in the posh area. across from the us embassy and next to the turkish one.
2,200e a month but payed for by shell.
he's got a cool new job with them. he'll get to go to uk every few weeks and travel more. he's learning persian.
his new gig has several nice perks.
we caught up on each others lives and the people in them.
his dad is going ok all in all. his bro rob and his hubby rod just bought land in rural australia. rod is an aussie. a rich aussie.
mike was looking sexy as ever. he just had his hair cut sat.
after his trein departed i did the sun web thing.
it was less crowded than normal.
bram, egge and kemal were on. tho jaq was there too.
ray offered me a job within the 1st 3 mns i was in the bar. i'm deciding by tues.
it'd be EVERY sat/sun.
there are pros&cons.
it�s NOT worth the 42e per weekend.
i�m not %100 sure my health is up to it.
i only have 1 pair of shoes.
i�ll spend the rest of sat/sun dirty and smelling of bleach unless i take the time to shower&change.
i may be tired at my sun afternoon orgies.
i�ll have to plan ahead more if mike is down or i FORCE rene to go out of a�dam.
a few extra euros are never a bad thing.
it would give me a social context in the gay scene here being on staff again.
i�ll work extra and coatcheck sometimes too of course.
i�ll stay part of the web �family�. not, mind you, that if i said no i�d be kicked out or anything. it�d just be putting distance between my old a�dam life and what i�m doing now.
in nov and since i�ve been back now basicly no one acted like i had quit but of course in time i�d be clearly an ex web girl.
( amusedly many customers just assume i still work there. it�s only been a year which in nl time is nothing. it�s a culture where change is slow, rare and most folks can take months of vacation. if they work at all.)
i saw a fair number of familer faces and old tricks. everyone basicly looks the same. one of the major points of nl culture is in fact the lack of change.
mildly longer hair here, a mustach gone there, some guys even more worn looking but on the whole just the same as the day i left.
bas was there looking as hot as always. we hungout awhile. he's working more, still lives in the same place but thinking of moving as he has for years, not doing internet anymore ( i'd noticed.)
robbie is in from uk. he lives there but still works often here. he looked good.
he was with a way cute, way short guy he's clearly having a thing with so we did not chat long and i did not ask about chris. ( while we were chatting the cute guy was doing that shy other woman vibe since i clearly knew robbie well thus i knew chris. it was sweet.)
i thought cute shortness was eurasian at 1st but on closer look may be a latin type or a more interesting mix.
i was amused, an american in the bar thought i worked there and that i was in fact a dutchman who spoke very good english. i never corrected him.
i hungout at the bar chatting with bram and bert most of the time. i bopped upstairs briefly but i'm SO not into playing there. it was more a professional looking over the space thing. everything is the same except we now have free condom dispensers about the bar.
mon just i bopped around.
i got some more chocolate cake but i can not do much of it in the long term. it�s too rich for me almost !
it can not be legal in nl.
i visted jeld at qh in the afternoon. he looked good and tanned. they just spent 4 weeks in argentina. everyone is fine. it was too busy to really chat much. i hope to see him at his place next week.
i watched csi vagas and cm that night. they are VERY behind in episodes over here. tho the cm worked out since it was one eric messed up taping.
i THOUGHT about going to same place but of course did not.
instead i watched fight club which has been on my to watch list for ages.
i was surprised i rather liked it.
amusedly homo erotic in a very herto way.
a few interesting ideas.
some of the line readings could have used a retake but hey..............
i was also amused to note one of the henchmen with more lines than most was the actor who later played john on csi miami and the nice but crazy killer solder on cm.
niche job ?
i met ray today to tell him i'll take the job. i'm meeting him at web 8am sat. of course there's no extra key at the moment. i saw that coming. it's funny how things stay the same.
after i met him i hungout with werner, joop and bert at the web.
i had 3 sodas by 3pm. we open at 2pm. the others of course were not drinking soda. ah, europe.
afterwards i thought of doing cnest but did errands instead. it was pouring rain of course. it�s been almost nonstop rain since i got here. there were 2 days with long periods of dry, sunny with a brisk wind but mostly it�s been gray and wet.
a store has the leather coat eric lost for a good price but they only have 2 coats. both are too big for me.
i got blank cds to burn at simon�s. i ran into rene at the library and we tried to see a show of old nl movie posters at the film museum but it was closed of course.
he did errands and i made dinner plans with johnny for wed nite then went over to simon�s.
the new neighbors downstairs are redoing the whole apt so the building reeks of paint&paint thinner. they are also redoing the flr so it�s noisier during the day.
we had a very nice nite of dinner, chatting etc.
he got some new lamps. i do not like them but i lied. he also has some plans for the balcony in zomer i was tactfull about.
we sort of played around when we went to bed but were both too tired for real sex.
i�m amused, the current dutch version musical playing is.......the wiz.
i almost want to see it because it�ll be interesting on several levels.
of course the book and lyrics translations into dutch are going to be god awful tho sometimes amusing. i can do much of it in my head. it�s almost german in it�s awfulness of missing the vibe translation. mostly all very literal. tho there�s more room in dutch to play around with the taal i suspect not as deadfaced seriously play as the germans would do.
and yes, of course there is the concept of an all black cast in a place like nl.
simon say�s he does not think the whole cast is black. maybe just the leads.
hell, where would they find that many blacks ? they�re trying to ship them back to the antilles and surname.
he does not know if they use blackface on the extras. it�d be SO VERY dutch.
no, it�s not a big hit.
the next big dutch version musical coming, it has the big window at bijenkorf even, is tarzen.
i�m sure there�s an amusing essay if not in fact a phd in all this somewhere.
we meet lars the legal accountant thurs 11am. which is shockingly early for rene.
david from sf sent me some really nice notes.
lynn wrote me too with his b-day plans with dalton and friends.
wed night rene and i met merrick&johnny at qh. we hungout there and had drinks. diane joined us. bas was there with mike from mr b awhile also.
m/j, rene and i had dinner at a chinese place on warmoest. that m/j like. i�ve never been as impressed but it�s ok.
afterwards we had another drink at qh.
the boys are doing well. merrick�s hair is getting REALLY long. johnny looks the same and his recording company made a prfit for the 1st time. he has a group called mace of time that is selling well in odd places. very 21st c. it�s mostly through downloads in places they do not actually sell the cd. brazil and australia are the biggest places amusingly.
m/j went home and rene walked me to cnest then went home.
cnest was boppier than any place would be on a thurs in sf.
i chatted with peter some. he�s doing well and was going to berlin for 5 days the next day. nigal is doing well it seems and is still with his bf.
despite the # of guys it was by far more shopping than buying. there were a fair # of goodlooking guys there but it seemed they were all waiting for someone better. it�s like when muni never cums.
i got bored and went to the web. it had been a slow lottery night. jaq lent me his keys so i can go in at close fri night to clean instead of meeting ray at 8am sat.
i chatted with andrew about him and mike�s new apt in munchen. they�ve bought it and are in the process of furnshing it. it�s in the center close to the gaybars. its 2 levels with a roofdeack. they are keeping the apt in a�dam too and renting it out. they are getting rid of some stuff tho. he invited me to the goodby party. it�s a sat so i�ll do the party the clean the web most likely. i�ll bring a change of clothes i think.
i hungout with the girls a bit after close and jaq refreshed my memory on various web things, i got the lock code etc.
thurs rene and i met lars at 11am. SHOCKINGLY early for the baby.
lars has the paperwork and now we just cross our fingers ( the dutch say cross your thumbs) he can work it out in legal terms to actually be worth bothering to apply to ind.
after lars we saw 2 cool photo shows at the jewish musuem. robert capa and eva besnyo. capa�s was more powerfull of course but i almost liked besnyo�s somewhat better. of course she is more in line with what i would do.
it was busy. mostly an older crowd by far but there were 2 hot gay couples there too.
we did the waterloopleinmarkt too which is rather unimpressing these days.
then we just walked to k-st and stuck our heads in v&d then did abc a bit. i got use more cake at that bakery i like. it was an INSANELY warm and sunny day for nl. it was like having my eyes ripped out 1/2 the day.
then we went home. eric had left a message so i called him. dave wanted me to sign some paperwork so i told eric to sign them. ( speaking of crossing your thumbs)
he actually does have my power of attorney so if it becomes an issue that should help. i think it�s just dave dealing with the papers so it should be ok.
i called simon and we made plans to meet at vonmar. rene has an italian film fest this weekend.
i met simon and we got food, checked out the redone blokker store and got blank cds.
i finished burning all the cds for him i brought. i�ve burned a bunch for lynn too as well as rene and eric.
we had sex early to combat the tiredness thing. it was good. we were both aware of being exs but the sex was almost always really good with us and it still is it seems. then we had a rather late dinner. fish done in greek spices with veggies.
he may have a new fb. arjan who�s in his 30�s and he met at stablemaster. they�re hooking up sat night.
( amusedly arjan is 1 of my fav dutch names. it always sounds like they�re from rivendell not someplace like zwolle or assen.)
today is back to gray&rainy. tho sunny later in the afternoon.
i�ll have dinner with rene then may go play at cnest before i go in to clean web at 2am. the tedious thing is cnest will die out about 12:30am and i�ll have to kill time till 2am and be tired or come home for a few mns then go right back out. |
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